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I looked up at him a bit skeptical. "Of course these are from you..." I said as I continued to pick out the flowers in the broken glass, gathering them in my arms. He shook his head no insistently. "Well then who-" I spotted a white envelope under some broken glass and cautiously reached for it.

"Careful Elle." He warned me.

"I got it." I said pulling it out and shaking it off a little. I opened it up and slid out the small card that was inside and read it out loud. "Sorry I didn't get to see you dance last night angel" That's all it said. I flipped it over there was nothing on the back

Gerard snickered a little. "Who's that from Jay?"

"It doesn't say." I say holding out the card. He takes it and looks it over and frowns. I was still holding the wet flowers in my arms. They were dripping all over my dress. "Can you get the door?" I asked and he pulled my keys from my bag and unlocked the door, holding it open for me.

I went directly into the kitchen and tossed the flowers into the trash.

"Elle!" he cries out a little shocked by what I just did.

"If they're from Jay I don't want them." I say walking back towards him. "If they're from anyone but you I don't want them." I say and he smiles a little as I wrap my arms around him. I reach up on my tiptoes and kiss his neck lightly. He leans his head to the side a little so I kiss him some more. I slid my hands up the back of his shirt and clawed at his back a little. Fuck I wanted him so badly.

"You're wet." He says laughing softly.

"mmm how can you tell?" I say biting down on his neck a little, pressing myself against him.
He laughed and pushed me back a little running his hand down the front of my dress. "I can feel you." He says and I smile.

"mmm no you cant." I tease him, taking his hand and sliding it between my legs, pressing it against my lace panties.

"Now you can." I giggle.

"Aw Elle, you're so bad." He says exhaling a little.

"I am not!" I object stepping away from him, letting his hand fall. I grabbed the card he tossed on the table and went to throw it out and he came up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist. He slid his hands up along the bottom of my breast and pressed his face into my neck as I crumpled the card up.

"Well I'll tell you one thing- you're no angel." He says referring to the card as I tossed it in the trash. Some thing just wasn't right about this whole thing. I mean Jay? Sent ME flowers? That wasn't like him. I mean he doesn't even get out of the car to ring the bell when he picks me up. I've known him for a long time and he's never done anything like this...

Gerard noticed my expression change. "What's the matter?" He asks as I pull out the dustpan from under the sink.

"I don't know. Its just weird." I say and he looks at me raising his eyebrows a little. "I mean Jay has never has sent me flowers not ever." I say as we walk outside. Gerard watches me start to sweep up the glass.
"Yeah it is kind of weird. The card said sorry I didn't get to see you dance. why would Jay say that he was there." He says a little annoyed.

"Jay wasn't there!" I laugh.

"Bob saw him Elle." He says harshly. "You know- shoving a dollar in to your underwear" He says grinding his teeth a little.

"That wasn't Jay!" I laugh a little and Gerard kind of gave me a nasty look so I made a serious face as quick as I could. "Jay fucking got drunk and passed out in his car after we got there." I say and he just looked at me like he didn't believe me. "Gerard seriously he wasn't there when I..." I paused a second. "I didn't even do anything...I swear!" I insist. " I didn't strip he was just slipping me dollar as a joke... Bob has bad timing

I guess..." I said weakly looking down.

"If it wasn't Jay then who the hell was it?!" He says loudly.

"Brian." I say calmly. I don't want to get in a fight again. Not over this...

"Brian?" He repeats like it's in another language. I nod. "Brian Riley." He says and I nod again.

"You know him?" I say a little surprised.

"Crystals cousin?... Yeah I know him." He sighs a little.

"And?" I say biting my lip a little.

"And nothing." He says. I continue to stare at him. "He's good a guy what do you want from me?" He says and I shrug.

"Can you get the door again?" I say and he opens it.

"That just proves that they are from Jay." He says following me back into the kitchen.

"How do you figure?" I say empting the dustpan and putting it away.

"Cause he wasn't there." He says like its obvious.

"Im just gonna call him." I say reaching for the phone.

"And tell him what- Thank you?" He smirks.

"No Im gonna tell him to fuck off." I say and Gerard smiled a little. He reached in the drawer and pulled out a cigarette and lit it watching me dial. No one answered Jays phone. So I hung up and called Lia at Crystals. I figured he left with them last night so...

Lia answered rather quickly.

"Do you know where Jay is?" I ask her and she yawns.

"Yeah why?" She replies.

"Why?" I laugh. "I'm taking a fucking survey."

"Aw well then put me down for yes." She says yawning again. "Mmm is that it?" She says like she's gonna hang up.

"No!" I laugh. Fuck she sounds high. Cant say I'm surprised..."I wanted to talk to him, where is he?" I ask and I can hear her groan.

"What the fuck do you want to talk to him for Elle?" She says roughly.

"About yesterday." I say reluctantly. "And I don't know why I have to justify myself to you." I say a little annoyed.

"He's a fucking loser Elle. You deserve better." She yawns again. "He fucking got up this morning got wasted and passed out again on our couch." She says a little outraged.

"Wait what?" I say biting my lip a little.

"He's been fucking on the couch all day. Hasn't moved since this morning, motherfucker..." She says getting a little worked up.

"Ah, If he's on the couch then I guess you have no where to nap then!" I laugh.

"Tell me about it." She sighs.

"So he didn't send me any flowers then." I say and she laughs so loud I had to move the phone away from my ear. Gerard made a face. I shrugged.

"Elle are you fucking high!" She screeches at me.

"Well some one left flowers by my door and they weren't from Gerard." I say pulling the phone back to my ear.

"You sure?" She says.

"Yeah he's right here." I say smiling looking over at him.

"No I mean that there were flowers by your door." She says plainly.

"What?" I say wrinkling my eyebrows a little. Gerard got up and came over. I leant the phone a little so he could hear her.

"What kind of flowers were they?" She says.

"I don't know they're gone. It doesn't matter!" I say frowning a little.

"Well if they're gone then how do you know they were ever really there..." She says and I can hear her spacing out. "How do you know any of us are really here...what if this is all some kind of dream..." Her voice trails off.

I roll my eyes and look over at Gerard. 'She's your friend.' He whispers.

"Lia!" I yell into the phone.

"hmm?" She replies sniffling a little.

"You know what forget it. I just thought you knew who sent them." I say getting a little frustrated.

"If I had to guess, Id say Bob." She says plainly.

"Bob!" I cry out "Why would Bob-"I start to yell and Gerard grabs the phone from me and steps back a little with it.

"What the fuck Lia!" He says and I sigh. They were getting along so well too... I tuned him out a little and went and got my own cigarette from the box in the drawer. "Lia if you sent them to just fucking make trouble again-" He started to say and stopped mid sentence. He was listening intently to her and looking at me. I got a strange feeling too that whatever she was saying couldn't be good. "Yeah I get it." He says and he hangs up.

"What?" I say stepping towards him.

"Nothing." He shrugs.

"Well what did she say?" I ask and he shrugs again.

"I don't think she sent them." He says frowning a little. "And Brian didn't and Jay didn't and Bob better not have." He grumbles.

I laughed. "Bob wouldn't have done that" I say taking the last drag from my cigarette before mashing it out.

"And even if he did send them to make me feel better he sure as hell wouldn't have put a card like that!" I laugh again. "Bob was pretty pissed yesterday." I tell him. "Theres no way he'd be kidding around about this...That's more like Paulie's thing...Hey do you think Frankie might have?" I ask.
Gerard shrugs. "It doesn't even matter Elle." He says to me. He was right. All that mattered to me was him... I had him back now. Thats all that mattered...

"So ummm you want to help me do my laundry?" I say tugging on the bottom of my dress. I suddenly had a flashback of Mr S touching my dress... That was too weird... I was gonna ask Gerard about that too but he came over and lifted the dress off over my head.

"Uh yeah let me help you with that." He said and I forgot all about Mr S as he ran his hands along my body sending shivers up my spine.

"No Im serious." I say watching him toss my dress on the floor. "I really have to start some laundry and clean up around here." I laugh.

"Why is the cleaning service coming?" He teases and I nod. They were. They were coming tommorow. "Aw Elle.. you're not kidding." He says pouting a little.

"Come on Gerard just help me out here." I say whining a little. "You take out the garbage and I'll toss the clothes in the wash, it'll only take a minute." I say and he grins a little.

"Okay I'll take out the garbage for you Elle... but you're gonna owe me one." He says and I smile.

"Owe you one what?" I laugh.

"Mmm I'll think of something." He says looking me over. Since he took my dress off, I was standing in the kitchen in my underwear and heels. I was wearing that black corset bra and I could see him looking at it. Trying to figure out how to unhook it.

"You know what I'll just take it out myself." I say reaching for the pail.

"You cant go outside you're not dressed!" He laughs.

"Go ahead Gerard... Dare me to take out the trash like this." I tease him and he shakes his head a little in defeat.

"Ill go." He grumbles taking the trash bag from me.

"Mmm hurry up." I call out as he walks away. He turns back and looks over at me. "I gotta put this in the wash." I tease tugging on my bra straps. "And I don't think I can unhook it by myself." I say wiggling around in it a little. His eyes lit up and a smile flashed across his face and he ran out and came back so fast it didn't even seem like he was gone...

He helped me out of my 'dirty clothes' and then after we 'dirtied' the sheets he helped me change them and then he helped me gather up the laundry in my room. I couldn't find the underwear I was wearing last night though, which was weird cause I thought I threw them by the closet. But Gerard started picking things up and I don't know. I also couldn't find the black tank top I was wearing the other day and I wanted to wash that so I could wear it tomorrow under that itchy sweater. And there was a blue top I borrowed from Lia. And it was gone too. She's gonna fucking kill me... I mean how do things disappear like that?
It was getting late. Gerard was still helping me fold the dry stuff in the living room. I still had one more load in the dryer too.

"How can this be!" I yell holding two mismatched socks up.

"Hmm?" He says. He was watching something on TV behind me. Im not sure what.

"I put in seven pairs of socks and only 5 come out." I yell waving them at him. He laughed a little. "Gerard this isn't funny." I whine.

"Aw babe they'll turn up." He chuckles.

"And Lia shirt?" I exclaim.

"Maybe its in the dryer. You'll find it okay." He says reassuringly.

"And if I don't?" I say and he shrugs.

"Tell her to go fuck herself." He says and I frown. "Elle... she's..." He wanted to say something but he stopped himself.

"What did she say to you on the phone?" I say and he flips the TV off.

"Hmm?" He says like he didn't hear me.

"What was she saying?" I repeat and he puts his coat on like he was leaving. So suddenly?

"Nothing." He says shrugging a little. I make a face. "You know her... she never makes sense...something's seriously wrong in that girls head." He says and he leans over and grabs my face in his hands kisses my forehead. "Let me take your car home Elle." He says rubbing my cheek in his hand. "That way I can pick up Frankie in the morning and you don't have to get up so early." He says and I nod and he kisses my lips softly.

"And you're gonna ask him about the flowers?" I say as he's ready to leave.

"Yeah." He says leaning back in the door and kissing me and telling me he loved me one last time before he left.

I crawled into my nice clean bed and snuggled up under the sheets. I should've left the old sheets on... They smelt like Gerard...these smell like soap...Fuck. my sheets suck.. Bobs sheets smelt good...kind of musky... Hmm no maybe that was Bob that smelt that way...I drifted off to sleep remembering.

The next morning I got up and got dressed pretty quickly, now that I had so many clean clothes to choose from it was easy. I peeked out the window and saw Gerard pulling in with my car. He had Frankie and Mikey with him. I waved to him like I'd be right out to wait there. I grabbed my bag and I was in a really good mood too until I opened the front door.

I was lighting up a cigarette and not really paying attention as I shut the door behind me. I stumbled a little on the door mat. And looked down and that's when I say them... Flowers... in a vase. But they looked a little beat up. Some of the stems were broken. These were the flowers that I threw out yesterday! I felt my heart sink...

They were back on my doorstep... Some one took them from the trash and... aw motherfucker... Frankie...
I got real angry real fast...

I grabbed the bunch from the vase and stormed down the steps clutching them.

"You guys think this is funny!" I yelled at them waving the flowers in their faces. They all looked at me blankly. Gerard raised his eyebrows a little and looked down at the flowers in my hand a little confused..."You fucking pull these from the trash and put them on my doorstep again!" I scream at them.Gerard looked a little pale... well paler than usual...


"Elle we didn't I swear..."