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It took me a second to realize he was pointing up at to my name on the seating chart and I laughed. And once I started laughing I couldn’t stop. I mean this whole thing was so ridiculous. Maybe I was losing my mind which was so not funny that it was funny.

“You okay?” Mikey asks me and I just shook my head a little. I didn’t know what to say but I didn’t have to the teacher was already starting class. She was giving us a practice test. a practice test?! On the first day of school! What the fuck!

I stared at the paper trying to remember how to do algebra. Was a damn shame too cause I use to be good it at. All of a sudden the time was up and she instructed us to exchange papers with our neighbors. I handed my paper to Mikey who frowned as he checked it over.

"You got every single one wrong." he tells me as he handed it back to me and I wasn’t surprised.

“Um yeah I havent done algebra in four years.” I tell him and he smiled.

“Um the summers only 4 months.” He corrects me and I smiled too.

“Well maybe you could help me.” I blurt out, an idea suddenly popping into my mind. I mean Mikey didn’t seem to know me, neither did Frankie, not in the way they use to. “I mean you can come over and tutor me after school!” I cried out a little more enthusiastically then I meant to. I was just so desperate to get things back to way the use to be. The way I remembered them.

Mikey kinda cocked his head to the side like he was considering it but then shook it no quickly. Took me a second to put together why. Gerard liked me. I don’t think he would take to kindly to Mikey coming over and spending evenings with me… Mikey was already heading out the door and I quickly grabbed my bag and followed him.

“Or I could come to your house.” I add quickly. “I don’t think anyone there would mind me hanging around no?” I arched my eyebrows up and once more I could see Mikey considering it. “Um you just let me know ok.” I told him before he turned down the hall to the left. I would’ve followed him but I didn’t know where I was suppose to go and my instincts told me left was the wrong way to the social studies room.

I pulled out the handbook as I walked slowly. Trying to figure out which was was up when someone came up behind me and grabbed me. I almost screamed and then I realized it was only Paul.

“What the fuck Paul.” I pulled back from him.

“What are you doing with a map?” He laughed taking it from me and I snatched it back. “You lost babe?” He smirked at me.

“Um no and don’t call me that.” I poked him in the chest. “And what are you doing here anyway I would’ve figured you got suspended for that scene earlier.” I tell him and he holds up a bathroom pass.

“I did but a guys gotta piss right?” He laughed and I shook my head in disgust. It was then that I realized I was already out side the social studies room. Well not really but it was only two doors down. Paul said something about seeing me later and I mumbled don’t count on it but I don’t think he heard me…

There wasn't that many kids in class yet and no seating chart on the board so I took a seat towards the back and waited for Ray.

Once more my hopes were extinguished when he came in and barely acknowledged me. I figured it was up to me to be proactive, like I was with Mikey if I wanted to get things right again. I pulled out my notebook tore out a sheet and crumbled it up before chucking it in Rays direction. He smiled and tossed it back at me. This went on the whole class. I got him good a few times too..

"So how’s Lia?" Ray asked as I got up. I wasn’t going to leave but class was over so I stood.

"Same as I remember I think” I replied nodding a little. I mean I had no reason to believe she wasn’t. Everyone else was. He seemed to find my answer strange cause he gave me a peculiar look. “I mean um, have you talked to her lately?” I asked him and he nodded.

“Yeah I ran into her the other day.” He starts to explain to me. Then he said something about going over to her house later and I was going to be there…

“Um yeah Im suppose to be- I think.” I scrunched my face in confusion and he smiled.

“You know youre a weird chick.” He tells me and I shrugged. “catch you later then.” he says and with that he was gone…

He was going to lunch. I was going too but he didn’t invite me to come along but it was ok cause I wasn’t really going to eat. I had to call my papa to check on him.

My thoughts wandered as I entered the cafeteria. I immediately headed to the pay phones in the back. I dialed my home number.

"Hey Bobbi-Jo, is my Grandpa still awake?" I asked.

"Sure dear, hold on.." she replied.

"Ellie?" My grandpa said slowly and I felt my eyes welling up with tears at the sound of his voice again..."is ever..everything..okay?" He says snapping me back.

"Oh yeah papa I'm just at lunch, I wanted to check on you." I told him.

"Oh, lunch? I forgot to make lunch for you...Elle" he said sounding worried "Tomorrow I'm gonna make you a sandwich..."He carried on "maybe peanut...peanut butter...with jelly."

“yeah you know I love them.” I felt myself choking up again.

“I know.” He started to say but then he began coughing. Hard. And I felt myself panic.

“You okay?” I ask desperately and Bobbi-Jo took the phone back. She assured me he was fine. That she was going to set him up for his nap and Id see them later after his dialysis appointment. That shed leave me dinner too.

Maybe it was thinking of Bobbi-Jos food or the fact that I hadn’t eaten in days but I was suddenly very hungry.

Well youre in the right place Elle, I laughed to myself as I went up and grabbed myself a tray. The food was worse then I remembered though. The only thing that looked somewhat edible was the salads so I took one. But after I paid I realized I had no where to sit.

I mean I saw Jeff and the rest of the fuckers Paul use to sit with. Paul wasn’t with them obviously cause he was in suspension and I wasn’t about to sit there even if he was. I saw Ray sitting with a few somewhat familiar faces but no Gerard. He must’ve been in suspension too… I wanted to sit with Ray but it didn’t quite seem appropriate…
Then I saw them. The Larrys. And I smiled as I sat down next to good old Larry number 2.
“Hey.” I tell him and he just looked at me curiously. He wasn’t about to ask me to get up. I mean it wasn’t like girls just came and sat with them everyday. But yeah, I guess it was weird.

Suddenly I felt myself being slid to the left. Jeff had come over and sat down. Just slid me to the left and sat.

“What are you doing with these losers.” He snickered and I sighed.

“Go away Jeff.” I wouldn’t even look up at him.

“Seriously come on.” He went to grab my tray and I reached and held it firmly in place.

“I broke up with Paul ok.” I tell him and he smirked.

“He dumped you?” He said like he didn’t believe it and I couldn’t help but smile.

“No I dumped him.” I correct him and now he was smiling too. He let go of my tray but made no movement to get up. Instead he dropped his hand down and rested it on my thigh.

“Ah so how bout you and I-” He hinted and I laughed in my head at him.

“Really Jeff?” I said as seriously as I could. “Youre gonna do this now, when I have a knife in my hand?” I waved the plastic utensil at him and he smiled. I know its weird to eat salad with a fork and knife and I never use to. It was just a weird habit I picked up over the last 4 years…

“Its plastic.” he smiled, still not moving his hand.

“Yeah but I bet it will still hurt like hell.” I grinned. “You wanna find out?” I offer and I guess he could tell I wasn’t kidding cause he took his hand off my leg. He muttered something I couldn’t make out before walking away and leaving me alone with the Larrys again.

We ate in silence. I couldn’t blame them. I mean I just threatened the last guy who spoke to me with a plastic utensil. But the silence was killing me. If I hadn’t already gone off the deep end a few more moments of quiet would definitely do it…

“So let me ask you guys-” I turned to them. “I mean youre into sci fi crap and what not right?” I gestured with my hands and they all seemed to look at me blankly. It was then I realized what I was doing. Stereotyping them. Yeah they were geeky looking but so what. I hated when people stereotyped me. Assumed cause I was petite and large breasted that I was some kind of an air head and now here I am assuming cause they look geeky theyre into sci fi. “Im sorry.” I apologize quickly. “That was wrong of me.” I excuse myself and finally Larry 3 speaks.

“What do you mean by sci- fi?” he shifted a little and I breathed a sigh of relief. Finally someone to talk to!

“Well not sci-fi exactly but like time travel or um like alternate universes and stuff” I try to explain and now Larry number 2 is nodding.

“Oh you mean space time continuum?” He declares and the other Larrys nod.

“Um I dunno.” I scratched my head a little. “I mean like what if you woke up and you were in the past.”

“definitely a ripple in space time continuum.” Larry 2 nods. Fuck I should be writing this down. I grab my notebook and start scribbling, ripple, space continuum.

“Time.” Larry number one points at my paper. “time continuum.” He corrects me and its at this point I remember I know Larry ones name. I just couldn’t think of it… So I ask him. Steve he tells me and I scribble it down on my paper too.

Turns out Steve is a great guy. Very smart. Kinda funny too. Maybe in another universe- I found myself thinking and then I laughed. Like 2 wasn’t enough! But the general consensus from Steve and the Larrys was that the best thing one could do when finding themselves in such a situation is nothing. Sort of like in back to the future when Micheal J Fox fucks things up and finds himself disappearing.

And disappearing was not something I was ready to do. I wanted things as they were, I wanted Gerard to love me. To fall in love with me like he did. I didn’t want to fuck that up. I figured my best bet would be to write down everything I could remember and to just lay low. Let things play out like they did.

I was actually kind of lucky in a way. I was going to experience falling in love with Gerard all over again. What could be better then that?