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I just stood there looking at Gerard... Fuck... I felt like my head was gonna explode... I mean no one knew that I saw Jessica and Paul behind the bleachers...It was dark... I know they certainly didn't see me. I could easily just go home with Gerard and crawl into bed and pretend like I never saw it either...and I should. In a weird way she asked for
it...That's karma for ya...She thought it'd be funny to pretend that Paul was forcing himself on her...and ha! -now he really was...

I just didn't expect him to hit her so hard though...maybe it wasn't really that hard, maybe there was just like an echo under there or some shit... I mean I know Paul... He wouldn't really 'hurt her' hurt her. I mean he might pressure her till she gives in...Maybe feel her up against her will if she doesn't... I don't know... He might slap her around even...and fuck knows she deserves it...but he wouldn't actually bruise her up or nothing...and he certainly wouldn't rape her...

Or would he? He has such a bad temper that fuck... he was so wound up that I don't think he would stop. And Paul always gets what he wants one way or another... He doesn't like to lose and he certainly doesn't like to be fucked around with...shit...I can't... I can't take that chance... The chance that she's gonna keep resisting and he's gonna keep pushing and cause she's the one that's gonna end up getting hurt...and it'll be all my fault...

I just can't sit by and let someone else possibly get hurt like I did...even if it is Jessica... Fuck... I can't believe I'm even considering not saying something... maybe I am as cruel and fucked up as Paul is...

"Elle honey you're shaking, are you okay?" Gerard says rubbing my arms a little as he held me tightly against him. I didn't even realize I was shaking... I look over and Ray was heading back inside. Laura was kind of waving him over from the door. Bob took a few steps from us and paused to light a cigarette...

"He hit her." I say my voice trembling... All I could think of was how it felt when Brutus first hit me... Not so much how badly it hurt, but how scared I was. I wonder if Jessica was feeling the same kinda fear right now...Oh god...

"Who?" Gerard says looking at my face with deep concern. "What are you talking about?" He asks... He didn't know why I was so upset...

"Paul...hit...Jessica" I sniffle and his eyes widen.

"What?!" He yells out so loud that Bob turned back and looked at us...

"I saw them... they... they were arguing... and she said no and he fucking hit her." I sob and Gerard just looked at me as Bob started walking back towards us. I hung my head down trying to steady myself. I was too overwhelmed.

Gerard lifted my chin up and looked into my eyes. "Where were they Elle?" He says and I feel my heart shattering all over again... The look in his eyes...the anger... the pain... it was for her...and it killed me.

"Gerard go." I sniffle and he just stood there... "Please just go help her okay." I say desperately. He clenched his jaw a little and grabbed my arm tightly.

"Where Elle?" He repeats squeezing my arm even tighter. Oh yeah... it would help if I told him where...

"They're behind the bleachers." I say shutting my eyes a little.

"I want you to go back inside Elle." He says firmly, shaking me a little so I opened my eyes. "You wait for me inside, I'll be right there." He tells me as he kisses my forehead and steps back from me... He nods towards Bob and Bob kinda flicked his half smoked cigarette to the floor like he was gonna go with him...

"No!" I call out as they start to walk away and Gerard pauses and looks back at me. "I know you have to go to her Gerard, but I can't just fucking sit here and watch you save her...I can't!" I sobbed and he frowns and steps back towards me slightly. "Don't you understand...It's just not fair...no one saved me." I cried out staring down at the floor as the tears rolled down my cheeks and splashed onto the pavement.

"Elle." He sighed a little and I felt my body shudder a little as he reached over and pulled me back into his arms.

"Please just...don't ask me to do that...I can't..." I sob hysterically as he hugged me.

"Its all right Elle shhh." He soothed me.

"No Gerard please don't do this now..." I say struggling to get away from him and he just looked at me. Fuck Elle...Now wasn't the time for this... "I'm just gonna go and walk on home, you need to go stop him- please before its too late- go!" I say urgently.

"Elle you're not walking home alone." He tells me and I struggle to look at him through my tears. "I can't leave you like this baby. I wont." He tells me.

"Well that's too fucking bad." I say turning and starting to walk towards the gate. He couldn't come after both me and Jessica now could he... I expected him to just let me go... to go after her since she needed him more... but he didn't...He came up behind me and grabbed me and spun me back around towards him. Cause of my uneven heels I kinda tripped and fell backwards.

"Fuck careful Elle!" Gerard yells out as he barely misses catching me in his arms. "Bob do me a favor and bring her home please, and stay with her." He says without taking his eyes from me as he steadied me back on my feet... Bob mumbled something like yeah sure or no problem or some crap. I wasn't listening... My head was throbbing...

"You'll be okay with Bob till I get back." Gerard tells me and then he leant over and kissed my lips roughly. "I love you Elle." He says as he pushes me into Bobs arms and before I could even say anything back he runs off, all alone no less, towards the football field...towards his precious Jessica...

I sighed a little as Bob wrapped his arm around my shoulder and kinda looked back towards the gym. Mikey was coming out the doors now... I guess looking to see why Gerard and I hadn't come back in yet...

"Mikey!" Bob yells out lifting his arm off me and waving it up a bit motioning for Mikey to come over. I started walking towards the gate as Mikey approached us... I couldn't hear what Bob was telling him but I did hear Mikey yell out a couple of obscenities and then he ran off towards the direction of the field too...

Since my one heel was broken and I couldn't walk with out limping from the unevenness of my shoe heights, I sat down on the curb by the gate to take them off... But I couldn't get them off... the fucking straps were stuck...well not really... I guess it was cause my left hand was kinda weak still and I couldn't grab the clasp tight enough to undo it...I was still fidgeting with the buckles when Bob came back over. I was getting frustrated to...I mean what the fuck! I can't even take off my own shoes now? I'm fucking hopeless...

"Let me help you." Bob says and I shake my head no but he reaches for my foot anyway.

"I can do it." I say biting my lip a little, tugging on the buckle... I couldn't fucking do it...

"Elle let me." Bob insists kneeling in front of me. He kinda grabbed my leg and lifted my foot towards him.

"I said NO!" I yell out like ten times louder than I meant to. I was seriously freaking out... I was such a mess... Bob dropped my foot instantaneously the second I yelled and held his hands up and looked at me cautiously. "Oh fuck I'm so sorry Bob." I say lowering my voice back down and he nods like its okay. It was silent for a moment.

"I'm sorry... I'm just-" I didn't know what to say...

"Stressed?" He offers.

"Yeah uh that's the word." I sniffle a little and wipe my nose on the back of my hand.

"Its all right honey I understand." He says sitting down on the curb next to me and it was quiet for a moment... I just look over at him... Bob was like the greatest friend I could ever ask for...

He always understood... He always took my side... He was always there when I needed him... And I know I've always teased him that I was glad he was my husband, but right now...in this moment, it just meant like so much more... I reach over and take his hand in mine and he looks at me.

"Bob, I uh, don't know if its one of your husband duties but ummm do you think you could?" I hold out my foot and he kinda smiles.

"No I don't remembering seeing that one in the husband handbook." He teases... He such a fucking clown sometimes I swear... I roll my eyes a little.

"Well can you please help me anyway?" I ask and he kinda smiles.

"As you wish my love." He teases me and I can't help but smile back.

"See that's better." He says as he slides my shoes off.

"Mmm not really cause now I gotta walk home barefoot." I say as he helps me up.

"I meant its better to see you smiling." He says and I nudge him a little. "But uhh I can carry you if you don't wanna walk." He says and I laugh. "Ahh! A laughs even better." He says as he wraps his arm around my waist. Then he leans to the side a little lifting me slightly up off the floor in his one arm like that.

"Bob stop!" I laugh a little as he swings me slightly on his hip... My toes kinda grazed along the cement.

"Stop?" He asks like he was confused. He leans back like he's gonna put me down and just as my toes touched the floor he lifted me suddenly back up only higher this time. "Stop what?" He teases.

"Lifting me!" I laugh and he smiles.

"Lift you?" He says like he doesn't know what I'm talking about as he swings me again.

"Yes!" I cry out as he places me on the floor in front of him.

"Yes lift you?" He says grinning a little as he reaches over and grabs my waist and lifts me up in the air with his arms extended out. He was holding me like a toy doll.

"Bob stop!" I cry out and he pulls me towards him as he lowers me down in front of him... I was like inches from him. As soon as my feet touched the floor he let one hand go off my waist. He reached up and brushed the hair from my face with his other hand and looked into my eyes for a second...

"Elle there's something I wanted to tell you-" He started to say and someone coughed loudly behind us. Obviously trying to get our attention... I look over my shoulder at them as I step back from Bob a little startled...

"Well now, you two seem to be having a good time together..." They say snidely.