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“Elle I'm saying I wouldn’t have paid for it if I knew you-“ Bob starts to say and I became completely enraged.

“I SAID I’d pay you back.” I snap at him slamming the dish down onto the counter. Bob froze for a second. I looked over at the table. Billy and Bobby were sitting there totally oblivious to us, thank goodness… “Sorry.” I mumble directing my attention back to dish in front of me.

“I didn’t mean it like that.” I hear Bob say and I shrug with out looking up. Bobby didn’t like seeds on his bagels… Billy did… I was just about done buttering the first seeded bagel now.

“Whatever.” I say forcing the now finished dish into his hand as I spun around. “Bring this to Billy.” I tell him and he nods obediently. I buttered the other seeded bagel quickly. “Here this ones yours.” I say pushing it on a dish across the counter towards him once he came back. I didn’t like seeds either.

“You made me one?” He says a little surprised.

“Well of course.” I say picking Bobby’s plain bagel dish up off the counter.

“I wanna carry it myself.” Bobby whines tugging on my leg a little.

“Okay but you gotta hold it with two hands okay?” I say positioning his tiny hands on the dish. “Nice and tight okay.” I tell him and he nods and starts walking to the table slowly.

“See that’s what I'm talking about Elle.” Bob says to me as he leant against the counter and looked down at the dish I made for him.

“What?” I say a little confused.

“This.” He says pointing to the dish. “You're too nice for your own good sometimes.” He says and I smile.

“You want me to take it back?” I say teasing him as I buttered the last plain bagel for myself.

“Oops.” Bobby cries out from halfway across the room and we look over and he's holding a now empty dish.

“What happened?” I ask stupidly.

“It… it fell.” He tells me and I try not to frown. He looked like he was gonna cry. Billy started to laugh at his little brothers misfortune.

“You can share with your brother.” Bob tells them and both boys instantly frown.

“Bobby doesn’t like the ones with seeds.” I tell Bob and Bob shrugs like whatever and Bobby starts sniffling like he's gonna cry.

“Its all right Bobby.” I say quickly, trying to keep him calm before he burst into a fit of tears. “You can have share some of mine okay.” I say as Mindy came over and started eating the bagel off the floor. “Mine doesn’t have any seeds on it okay?” I say and he nods weakly. “Now umm go sit down Bobby okay.” I tell him as I turn back to the counter to get my dish…

As I do this I give Bob a look like – see I told you someone was gonna drop something- Bob smirked as I went to bring my dish over to Bobby… I mean I wasn’t really that hungry anyway and I didn’t really mind sharing with him.

Well, as I'm giving Bob this look over my shoulder and not looking at where I'm going I hear him call out. “Watch the dog Elle!” And as he says it I catch a glimpse of Mindy right under my feet. I mean the dog was licking the butter off the floor now. And I don’t know how I didn’t see before… I didn’t see her until she was right under my feet and I stumbled backwards dropping my dish too.

“Fu—“ I start to say and I cover my mouth quickly.

“Oops.” Bobby says and I smile. Bob laughed as Mindy devoured my bagel, which was on the floor too now.

“Damn it!” I mutter to myself. Now I had nothing to eat either…

“Here.” Bob says bringing his dish over to the table and placing it down in front of Bobby. “You guys can share this one.” He says and I frown. “You can pick the seeds off.” He says and I make a face at it.

“You really cant.” I say frowning. “Its just not the same.” I say pushing the plate back to him and Bob smiles.

“Sure it is.” He says and I can see him shaking some of the seeds off out of the corner of my eye… I was watching Mindy lick the floor again… Damn dog ate my bagel… Bobby’s too…Fuck… I hate dogs… I mean I like coming over and playing with her…shit, I mean I use to like coming over and playing with her, she was like a real live teddy bear. But I hate all the other parts… The feeding and the cleaning and crap… “Go head eat it Elle. It’s seed-free now.” Bob laughs as he nudges me, pushing the dish towards me again.

“And what about you?” I say as Bobby eagerly grabs a piece off the dish… Fuck. He was starving. Seeds or no seeds, he didn’t care he was that hungry… Fuck. I knew Paul didn’t feed them…

“I'm okay honey.” Bob says nodding towards the dish for me to eat too.

“Bob.” I sigh.

“Go head.” He says and I reluctantly help Bobby eat Bobs breakfast. “Told you, you should’ve got two extra.” Bob chuckles as he watches us.

“Bob!” I cry out and he smiles. “Here!” I say trying to give him the last piece but he shook his head no insistently.

“No Elle, I'm okay.” He says and I can’t help but think he's lying.

“Next time I'm gonna listen to you.” I say and he grins but doesn’t say anything…


After we ate Bob tried to play with the kids. And he really did ‘try’. I mean he doesn’t like kids in general and he was really putting a lot of effort into trying to entertain them. It was cute…

I was kinda hoping that Bob and Bobby would get along. I mean Bobby doesn’t like anyone. And I mean anyone! But I was kinda hoping since they had the same name that maybe they’d have something else in common too…But the more I thought about it, the stupider that idea sounded.

And Billy… Well once Billy realized that Bob couldn’t draw ‘superheroes’ and uh, wasn’t about to fake his own suicide with a jar of jelly. Well Billy lost interest in him and went upstairs to watch cartoons…

It was a quarter to twelve when Ray and Gerard pulled up. In Rays car too… I guess Gerard was able to help him fix it… Bob went to open the door for them and I freaked! I mean what would Jen think she comes home and finds them all here!

After bickering back and forth a few times it was decided that Bob and Ray were gonna go get something to eat and bring it back to my house. That was mostly Bobs doing since he didn’t have any breakfast, and Gerard and I were gonna go to Wills house in Rays car. That was mostly my doing…

Ray and Bob left like seconds before Jen pulled in. She was surprised to see me. I mean I did tell her I was leaving last night… I had to lie to her yet again and tell her I suddenly felt better and all this bullshit… I don’t know how much she believed but it didn’t even matter…

It seemed real unlikely that she’d be calling me to baby-sit again and I was glad in a way but… I don’t know. I was kinda bummed about not seeing Bobby… I love that little kid… I found my mind wandering as we drove over to Wills house… Gerard didn’t know where he lived so I had to give him directions.

“Good thing I came right?” I tease him as we pulled up in front of Wills house.

“What?” He says sounding a little distracted.

“For directions.” I say and Gerard faintly smiled.

“You sure you wanna do this?” He asks me grabbing my arm and stopping me from getting out.

“Yes Gerard I'm sure.” I say firmly and he swallowed a little and didn’t say anything. “I'm sure.” I repeat again nodding slightly. “Are you?” I ask when he still doesn’t say anything.

“Elle I'm just worried okay.” He says and I try not to frown.

“Look Gerard I don’t think he's gonna try to hurt us with his parents-“ I start to say and Gerard shakes his head no.

“No Elle I mean I'm worried about you.” He says lowering his voice down.

“Gerard.” I sigh a little. “I’ll be okay.” I tell him. “I know you’ll never let anything happen to me.” I say and he half smiles as he reached over and stroked my cheek.

“You got that right.” He says and I pull his hand to my mouth and kiss it lightly. Fuck I loved him so much… “But that’s not what I'm worried about sugar.” He says and I look at him a little puzzled.

“Then what?” I ask.

“What if you don’t get any answers from this Elle?” He says and I frown.

“No I will.” I say confidently. “Whatever’s in that box is gonna bring me some answers.” I say insistently.

“Answers to what?” He says and I shrug. “How can you get answers when you don’t even know what the questions are?” Gerard says and I scrunch my face in protest.

“Insignificant details Gerard.” I tell him and he laughs. I smiled at his laugh… I loved to see him happy.

“Aw Elle baby.” He says shaking his head a little as we got out of the car and headed to Wills doorway. “Don’t you know?… the devil’s in the details…”