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I just giggled and pulled Gerard to sit down next to me. Nicky was teasing him! With that whole be scared of me bit! I mean Gerard would disagree but I knew Nicky and he was kidding… He was a big soft teddy bear deep down inside. Gerard would always say that I never saw Nicky for Nicky. That I would look at him through these ‘rose-colored glasses’ since he was my dad and I loved him so.

I wasn’t exactly sure what he meant by it at first so I asked Bob. He sorta just laughed when I told him what Gerard said, but I begged him to explain so he asked me like exactly why my father was in prison, and I told him exactly what Nicky had told me. It was just a misunderstanding- a combination of an overly ambitious prosecutor and a corrupt judge. Then he asked why he hasn’t been paroled yet… like why does his sentence keep getting extended. So I told him how it was yet again another misunderstanding.

That the first time he got in trouble was cause some inmate accused him of shanking him, and how they never found a knife, or a witness or anything! I mean Nicky says he wasn’t even there when it happened! That they found a guy that he happened to have a problem with bleeding on the floor and blamed him! I mean that was just outrageous if you ask me… The next time he got in trouble was just as ridiculous. Some one set him up once again… And the fucking prison guards are all prejudiced against him for reasons I don’t even begin to understand. All I know is every time poor Nicky and a guard run into each other he ends up with more months tacked on.

When Bob started going on about those infamous Sing Sing riots that happened in the 80’s and questioning Nicky’s involvement in such, I freaked and told him to just shut the fuck up and get out of my house. I was just teasing him though. I mean Bobby and I were just as close as ever…

If I wasn’t with Gerard, I was with Bob. He was technically living with Ray but he had just as much shit of his at my house as Gerard did…And when Gerard would work late Bobby would stay with me. I was still afraid of the dark and of being alone. But between the two of them I was never really alone…

I mean Bob and I had a bunch of classes together, so I’d spend most of the day with him and then at night I would snuggle up with Gerard. We had bought a new bed and sorta moved into my grandfather’s old room since it was a little bigger. My old room was still there and when Bob would stay over he would stay in there, but it was rare. Usually when Gerard would come home Bob would leave to go back to his and Rays, but I don't think he really liked it there cause Ray had a serious girlfriend, Mikey did too but my poor Bobby was still slutting around. And the quality of his girls seemed to be declining; I mean just the worst bunch of whores I ever did see. He hardly ever brought them around my house thankfully.

I continued to babble on to Nicky about I don't even know what, something about our wedding tomorrow probably. I mean the excitement was just killing me. And it wasn’t even going to be like a big wedding or even a church wedding. It was gonna be at city hall. I mean I had no family really, Gerard did… but I don't know… When we first started planning I had sorta a breakdown cause I realized that like I didn’t have anyone to come on my side except Bobby. And how fucked up is that? The only family I have is my soon to be ex-husband?

He said that we didn’t need a big wedding, and that he actually preferred it wasn’t cause if I wanted a big wedding then he’d need to save up more money for it. Which was so not gonna happen. I mean I waited three years for this! So everything I picked was simple and cheap. It was just going to be me and him and Bobby and Mikey as witnesses. And then after we were gonna have a reception style dinner thing, just very small with his family and shit.

I was telling Nicky all of this too when a buzzer thing rang overhead. The one guard said something like ten minute warning and I frowned. I mean I wasn’t ready to go yet. I felt like I just got there… Nicky reached over and squeezed my hand on top of the table.

“Mish.” He says and I frowned at my name. I mean I told him a thousand times to call me Elle, but he refused. He said my name was Michelle, and the best he would do is call me Mish… “Give us a minute alone darling.” He says nodding towards Gerard and I bit my lip a little confused. He wanted me to leave so they could talk? I looked over at Gerard and he nodded like it was okay so I hesitantly stood up.

I hated to leave but it seemed to be what they both wanted…I said goodbye to him and made my way back through the security checkpoints. I mean they had just as much security to get out as they did to get in! I finally got to the end and sat on the bench to wait for Gerard. He came out a few minutes later and sorta smiled at me as I rushed over to him.

“No!” he says and I scrunched my face a little.

“No what?” I nudged him. “You don't even know what I'm gonna ask you.” I weakly pouted at him.

“Okay go ahead, ask.” He laughed.

“Mmm, what did Nicky say?” I whined and he shook his head no. “Aw, tell me!” I begged tugging on his arm as we walked back to the car.

“Nope.” He says determinedly and I sighed in defeat as I got in. “It’s all good baby, trust me.” He winked at me and I shrugged as I fastened my seatbelt on. It wasn’t that I didn’t believe him. I mean I wouldn’t have believed him if he said it was something bad! Things were going so well for long and I had no reason to believe that it wasn’t going to last…

“That went really well right?” I asked him as we drove to the registrar’s office and he nodded.

He wasn’t gonna tell me what was said but whatever. It didn’t really matter. I was too anxious about other shit to worry about it anyway. I mean I needed this paper filed or we weren’t gonna be able to get married tomorrow. I don't know why I waited until the last possible second either. We pulled back out to the highway and seemed to be going like really fast. Like faster then normal.

“Gerard slow the fuck down!” I yelled at him and he frowned.

“I'm not speeding baby.” He disagrees.

“You are!” I exclaimed and he glanced over at me. “I know you wanna get there but please not so fast!” I tell him and he smiled. “Don't fucking smile.” I tried my best not to smile back. I mean I was serious, he had to know that. “I swear to God if you get in an accident I will take that as a sign that we shouldn’t be doing this-“ I start to carry on and he groaned.

“Gah! Its not a sign Elle! We’re not gonna get in an accident. I'm not going any faster then any of the other cars.” He tells me and I shifted in my seat slightly. I didn’t mean to piss him off and I knew why he was getting upset. I mean we had this conversation a million times over the last few days. “Stop looking for signs. Nothing is going to go wrong.” He tells me and I nodded.

He was right. It was just my nerves. He really wasn’t speeding I guess. We got to the clerks office with plenty of time to spare and no sooner then the lady stamped my divorce application with her big red ‘it’s over you're single again’ stamp did Gerard scoop me up in his arms. He literally lifted me up of the floor and kissed me.

“Finally!” He cried out the lady just sorta laughed. I think I blushed. I mean he was causing a scene!

“You didn’t like my husband?” I tease him and he snatched the carbon copy piece from the counter.

“Ex-husband!” He declares waving it slightly and now I laughed. That was the one piece of paper we needed for tomorrow and he's waving it around like it’s the golden ticket to get into Willy Wonkas chocolate factory or something.

“Mmm you got chocolate Gerard.” I reached into his pocket as we walked out and he grabbed my arm and pulled me closer to him.

“Yeah right here.” He says kissing my lips quickly and I laughed. “What not sweet enough for you?” He teased me and I rolled my eyes at him.

“Its nothing like my Bobby’s.” I tell him and now he laughed.

“He's not your Bobby anymore Elle.” He tells me his eyes lighting up a little and I sorta smiled back but I don't know why. I guess cause he was smiling it made me smile. “Call him!” He exclaimed suddenly

“What?” I kinda chuckled and he shook his head a little eagerly.

“Naw, we’ll just go there!” He says starting up the car and I rolled my eyes again. I mean I was glad Gerard was showing some excitement, but come on! I guess its all good, like if he was showing this much excitement for my divorce then tomorrow is gonna be a day like no other… The day we get married!

“You can just tell him tonight Gerard.” I said softly looking out the window. All of a sudden everything just hit me at once. I mean I just divorced Bobby… My Bobby…It was a weird sensation. I was sorta sad and I didn’t know why…

“You alright?” Gerard asks me and I nodded weakly.

“Yeah, I don't know why I just got all funny for a second.” I tell him truthfully and he squeezed my leg a little.

“You're just nervous.” He says and I nodded.

“Everything has to be perfect Gerard.” I tell him and he swallowed a little anxiously. “If even one thing-“ I got to tell him and he cut me off.

“Nothing is going to go wrong Elle. Don't go looking for signs where there aren’t any.” He scolded me and I rubbed my eyes a little. I knew what he was saying. But he knew how superstitious I was… That was why we were getting married tomorrow cause tomorrow was the sixth… But tonight was the fifth, and tonight were we’re gonna party…