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You would think it being a Wednesday and all that no one would be in a partying mood. Well I thought that at least and shit was I wrong. Frankie must’ve fucking invited the entire Rutgers campus. And I’d be damned if half of them knew what the fuck they were celebrating. The mix of decorations only added to the confusion, but honestly no one really seemed to give a fuck.

I was glad that I had stayed. I still hadn’t eaten yet, but I didn’t really feel like it anymore. I was drunk. I mean I’ll admit it. Not fall down and piss yourself drunk, but drunk nonetheless. I scanned the room looking for some kinda familiar face… I mean there were just so many people here, and I hardly recognized any of them. This was totally not what Donna gave them permission for. But whatever, it was Mikey’s skinny little ass on the line, not mine.

“Elle!” A voice called out and it didn’t take me long to pinpoint the source of it. It was Danni, Ray’s girlfriend. She was sorta hard to miss standing against the doorway like that, 6 foot 3 with multicolored hair, but Ray’s always had a thing for tall chicks and they were a good match… She practically lived with Ray and Bob. It was only gonna be a matter of time before she moved in for good. Which would be great for her and Ray but I was just worried about where that would leave my Bobby…

“Aw hey Danni.” I tell her and I widened my eyes at her drink. “What the hell is that?” I asked her quizzically. I mean it looked like white and mush and slime and I don't really know what else…But it was kinda scary.

“This.” She declares proudly. “This is Frankie’s famous jack-off slammer.” She giggled and I made a face as she held it out to me. “You want some?” She says and I shook my head no.

“Some of Frankie’s jack-off? I think I’ll pass.” I tell her and she shrugged like it was my loss as she downed it. Normally I’d never pass on a drink, but I just wasn’t feeling well all of a sudden. Things just seemed to be happening so fast and I didn’t like it… “Hey you better slow down there Danni.” I took the now empty cup from her. “You remember last time don't you?” I reminded her.

“Ugh, how could I forget!” She laughed. “Rays got the picture framed on his wall.” She tells me and I laughed too. “I tell you Elle, that’s the first thing that’s coming down when I move in.” She says and I paused at her words.

“Wait, you're moving in?” I asked her and she nodded. I mean at first I thought I just didn’t hear her right since I was a little drunk, then I thought maybe she was just confused. I mean she was drunk too, but she kept nodding. “Ray asked you to move in?” I asked her a little louder and she kinda looked hurt.

“Yeah.” She says and I realized how I must’ve sounded. I mean I was glad she was moving in with Ray, They were a good couple and I didn’t mean it like that, it was just… “You don't approve?” She says snapping me from my thoughts.

“Oh no, I do! I mean that’s great Danni!” I said quickly trying undo whatever damage I may have unintentionally just caused. “It’s real great, it’s just that nobody told me that’s all.” I shook my head a little, and by nobody I meant Bob. “So you’re moving in soon?” I asked her and she nodded.

“Yeah this weekend.” She smiled and I smiled back.

“Oh, well then congratulations I guess.” I tell her and she smiled as she pulled out her cigarettes. She held the box out towards me and I shook my head no at it.

“You okay Elle?” She says scrunching her face at me and I knew why. I mean first I refuse a drink and now a cigarette?

“I'm fine Danni.” I try to tell her but she wasn’t stupid. “I just didn’t eat dinner you know?” I shrugged and she nodded as she waved Ray over.

“Ray will get you something to eat, sit down.” She declares and I shook my head quickly. I suddenly felt like she was smothering me. Her and Ray, like they were gonna sit me down and force me to eat. I didn’t need them taking care of me. I just needed some air, my head was spinning.

“No, I don't want to eat, I just… fuck…have you seen my husband?” I asked gritting my teeth slightly as Ray came over to see what Danni needed. I was gonna kick Bobby’s ass when I found him… I mean how could he not tell me this, that Danni was moving in… Unless he didn’t know… but no, Ray wouldn’t have asked Danni to move in like that without checking with him first… And he should've checked with me! Not that I had a say in it. It was his and Ray’s apartment. I just didn’t like to be left out that’s all…

“Uh yeah he's over there.” Danni says pointing across the room to where Mikey and Gerard were standing. They were kinda laughing at something I don't even know what. But Gerard had his one arm around Mikey and he was waving the other one around like he was telling some kinda crazy story. He saw me looking at him and his eyes locked on mine. He was still talking to Mikey and he was still waving his hands around but he was smiling at me… His smile was for me. And it just filled my heart and made me forget everything for a second.

“I meant Bob.” I said absentmindedly smiling back at Gerard and Danni laughed.

“I thought you guys got divorced.” She nudged me and I nearly fell over. I mean she pushed me hard! She may be 6’3 but I'm only 5’1…

“Careful Danni- don't knock the little people down.” Ray laughed as he steadied me back on my feet. “You okay there munchkin?” He says patting me on the head and I swatted his hand away.

“Fuck you Ray.” I smiled at him and pulled Danni against him, wrapping his arms around her from behind and leaning his head on her shoulder.

“What's up?” He asked her and she pulled his arms around her tighter.

“Oh um, where’s Bob.” She asks him and he sorta glanced around the room.

“Uh, over there.” He pointed towards the couch and I thanked them before walking off.

Bob was sitting on the couch with a half empty beer bottle in his hand and he seemed to be alone, which was weird for him. I mean usually he’d have a skank or two hanging around.

“Mmm Bobby I’ve been looking for you.” I cooed at him as I sat down. He shifted a little and I snuggled up next to him. I was gonna ask him about Danni moving in but he started talking first.

“Yeah, I've been looking for you too honey.” He says wrapping his arm around me lightly and I felt my heart flutter as he pulled me closer to him. I guess so he could hear better since it was so damn loud all of a sudden. “So tell me about Nicky, you went to see him right?” he says and I felt my face light up a little.

“Oh Bobby it was great.” I started gushing on about Nicky, totally forgetting about asking him why he didn’t tell me Danni was moving in... I closed my eyes slightly as I ran through all the details of the day... I was sorta reliving them in my mind, and when I opened them back up Bob was kinda staring at me. Looking over my face a little and smiling. I felt myself blush. I mean I was being silly, going on, gushing about Nicky like he was something to be proud of… “Sorry.” I sorta mumbled but he smiled.

“No, it sounds really great honey, I'm glad.” He says and I smiled back as I squeezed his leg a little, shifting even closer to him now.

“Oh and then after, we went to the registrars office.” I exclaimed and he nodded.

“Yeah I know.” He told me and then he took a quick sip from his beer. “Gerard told me already.” He adds wiping his mouth a little and I nodded.

“Yeah I don't have a copy for you.” I tell him as I stupidly looked down at my pockets. Like I was gonna have one on me. “But Gerard can get you one.” I tell him and he chuckled.

“Gerard already gave me a copy.” He grinned. “Six copies actually.” He added and I laughed.

“Well six is my lucky number.” I nudged him and he smiled back at me but it quickly faded.

“Tomorrows the day hmm?” He says shifting his eyes around the room slightly and I tried to see what it was he was looking at that was bringing him down but I couldn’t find anything. Everyone seemed to be having a good time…

“Yeah – hey, I bet you thought it was never gonna happen huh?” I teased him trying to lift his spirits back up and he sorta looked at me like he didn’t know what I was saying.

“What?” he replied and I nodded a little drunkenly.

“The divorce! You know -you're a free man now Mr. Bryar, no longer are you tied down to me.” I teased him and he laughed.

“Oh so now I'm ‘Mr. Bryar’ to you?” He teased me back and I giggled. “I’m not your Bobby anymore?” He says pretending to be hurt and I climbed up on to his lap straddling him slightly. I know I was drunk and he was too, I could smell it on him as I pulled his face towards mine and looked deep into his eyes.

“You know, you will always be my Bobby.” I told him and he nodded a little but didn’t say anything back. “-and you know how much I love you.” I added leaning forward and kissing his cheek lightly. All of a sudden I saw a figure out of the corner of my eye sit down next to Bob. In the spot I just was seconds before.

“And you’ll always be my Bobby too!” I hear Gerard say mocking me slightly and then he leant over and kissed Bob on the cheek too, just like I did…

“Agh.” Bob sorta tried to swat him away and I don't know what happened but suddenly I was yanked off of Bobs lap and in to Gerard's. He had his hands on my waist and I don't know that he was trying to tickle me or not but I started giggling and squirming to get away.

“Gerard!” I cried out and he just wrapped his arms around me tighter.

”Tell me how much you love me Elle.” He says and I stopped my squirming. His voice was so strong and I don't know why but it made me freeze up.

“More then life itself Gerard.” I replied and he smiled as he brushed the hair from my face. Bob mumbled something like excuse me as he got up, I don't know cause Gerard leant forward and kissed me. Not like a light kiss either, it was more like a deep tongue soul stealing kinda kiss.

“Hey you kids cut that out!” I heard Mikey laugh and Gerard pulled from me back slightly. “Save some for the honeymoon.” He teased us and I laughed. . I mean I know Mikey was drunk, shit everyone was drunk, but drunk or not - he knew that nowhere in my cheap wedding budget was there a honeymoon. Not that we needed one. I mean I didn’t understand the point of traveling to some exotic destination if all you were gonna do is spend it bed anyway…

“We’re not going on a honeymoon Mikey.” I reminded him and he sorta scrunched his face at me.

“Sure you are.” He replied and now I was the one making a face. “Gerard already bought the tickets, it’s a surprise.” He declares and I widened my eyes in shock.

“A honeymoon…really?” I gasped covering my mouth slightly looking up at Gerard. And I guess Mikey suddenly realized what he just did.

“Oh shit.” He covered his mouth too and took a step back as Gerard gently slid me off his lap, grinning a little.

“I'm gonna fuck you up for that one Mikey.” He smirked as he hoped up off the couch, and before I could even blink he was off chasing after poor Mikey. Suddenly there was a loud crash and a high-pitched squeal coming from the kitchen… I just shrugged it off as I snuggled into the empty spot that Gerard left, I mean some things never change….