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You would think it being a Wednesday and all that no one would be in a partying mood. Well I thought that at least and shit was I wrong. Frankie must’ve fucking invited the entire Rutgers campus. And I’d be damned if half of them knew what the fuck they were celebrating. The mix of decorations only added to the confusion, but honestly no one really seemed to give a fuck.

I was glad that I had stayed. I still hadn’t eaten yet, but I didn’t really feel like it anymore. I was drunk. I mean I’ll admit it. Not fall down and piss yourself drunk, but drunk nonetheless. I scanned the room looking for some kinda familiar face… I mean there were just so many people here, and I hardly recognized any of them. This was totally not what Donna gave them permission for. But whatever, it was Mikey’s skinny little ass on the line, not mine.

“Elle!” A voice called out and it didn’t take me long to pinpoint the source of it. It was Danni, Ray’s girlfriend. She was sorta hard to miss standing against the doorway like that, 6 foot 3 with multicolored hair, but Ray’s always had a thing for tall chicks and they were a good match… She practically lived with Ray and Bob. It was only gonna be a matter of time before she moved in for good. Which would be great for her and Ray but I was just worried about where that would leave my Bobby…

“Aw hey Danni.” I tell her and I widened my eyes at her drink. “What the hell is that?” I asked her quizzically. I mean it looked like white and mush and slime and I don't really know what else…But it was kinda scary.

“This.” She declares proudly. “This is Frankie’s famous jack-off slammer.” She giggled and I made a face as she held it out to me. “You want some?” She says and I shook my head no.

“Some of Frankie’s jack-off? I think I’ll pass.” I tell her and she shrugged like it was my loss as she downed it. Normally I’d never pass on a drink, but I just wasn’t feeling well all of a sudden. Things just seemed to be happening so fast and I didn’t like it… “Hey you better slow down there Danni.” I took the now empty cup from her. “You remember last time don't you?” I reminded her.

“Ugh, how could I forget!” She laughed. “Rays got the picture framed on his wall.” She tells me and I laughed too. “I tell you Elle, that’s the first thing that’s coming down when I move in.” She says and I paused at her words.

“Wait, you're moving in?” I asked her and she nodded. I mean at first I thought I just didn’t hear her right since I was a little drunk, then I thought maybe she was just confused. I mean she was drunk too, but she kept nodding. “Ray asked you to move in?” I asked her a little louder and she kinda looked hurt.

“Yeah.” She says and I realized how I must’ve sounded. I mean I was glad she was moving in with Ray, They were a good couple and I didn’t mean it like that, it was just… “You don't approve?” She says snapping me from my thoughts.

“Oh no, I do! I mean that’s great Danni!” I said quickly trying undo whatever damage I may have unintentionally just caused. “It’s real great, it’s just that nobody told me that’s all.” I shook my head a little, and by nobody I meant Bob. “So you’re moving in soon?” I asked her and she nodded.

“Yeah this weekend.” She smiled and I smiled back.

“Oh, well then congratulations I guess.” I tell her and she smiled as she pulled out her cigarettes. She held the box out towards me and I shook my head no at it.

“You okay Elle?” She says scrunching her face at me and I knew why. I mean first I refuse a drink and now a cigarette?

“I'm fine Danni.” I try to tell her but she wasn’t stupid. “I just didn’t eat dinner you know?” I shrugged and she nodded as she waved Ray over.

“Ray will get you something to eat, sit down.” She declares and I shook my head quickly. I suddenly felt like she was smothering me. Her and Ray, like they were gonna sit me down and force me to eat. I didn’t need them taking care of me. I just needed some air, my head was spinning.

“No, I don't want to eat, I just… fuck…have you seen my husband?” I asked gritting my teeth slightly as Ray came over to see what Danni needed. I was gonna kick Bobby’s ass when I found him… I mean how could he not tell me this, that Danni was moving in… Unless he didn’t know… but no, Ray wouldn’t have asked Danni to move in like that without checking with him first… And he should've checked with me! Not that I had a say in it. It was his and Ray’s apartment. I just didn’t like to be left out that’s all…

“Uh yeah he's over there.” Danni says pointing across the room to where Mikey and Gerard were standing. They were kinda laughing at something I don't even know what. But Gerard had his one arm around Mikey and he was waving the other one around like he was telling some kinda crazy story. He saw me looking at him and his eyes locked on mine. He was still talking to Mikey and he was still waving his hands around but he was smiling at me… His smile was for me. And it just filled my heart and made me forget everything for a second.

“I meant Bob.” I said absentmindedly smiling back at Gerard and Danni laughed.

“I thought you guys got divorced.” She nudged me and I nearly fell over. I mean she pushed me hard! She may be 6’3 but I'm only 5’1…

“Careful Danni- don't knock the little people down.” Ray laughed as he steadied me back on my feet. “You okay there munchkin?” He says patting me on the head and I swatted his hand away.

“Fuck you Ray.” I smiled at him and pulled Danni against him, wrapping his arms around her from behind and leaning his head on her shoulder.

“What's up?” He asked her and she pulled his arms around her tighter.

“Oh um, where’s Bob.” She asks him and he sorta glanced around the room.

“Uh, over there.” He pointed towards the couch and I thanked them before walking off.

Bob was sitting on the couch with a half empty beer bottle in his hand and he seemed to be alone, which was weird for him. I mean usually he’d have a skank or two hanging around.

“Mmm Bobby I’ve been looking for you.” I cooed at him as I sat down. He shifted a little and I snuggled up next to him. I was gonna ask him about Danni moving in but he started talking first.

“Yeah, I've been looking for you too honey.” He says wrapping his arm around me lightly and I felt my heart flutter as he pulled me closer to him. I guess so he could hear better since it was so damn loud all of a sudden. “So tell me about Nicky, you went to see him right?” he says and I felt my face light up a little.

“Oh Bobby it was great.” I started gushing on about Nicky, totally forgetting about asking him why he didn’t tell me Danni was moving in... I closed my eyes slightly as I ran through all the details of the day... I was sorta reliving them in my mind, and when I opened them back up Bob was kinda staring at me. Looking over my face a little and smiling. I felt myself blush. I mean I was being silly, going on, gushing about Nicky like he was something to be proud of… “Sorry.” I sorta mumbled but he smiled.

“No, it sounds really great honey, I'm glad.” He says and I smiled back as I squeezed his leg a little, shifting even closer to him now.

“Oh and then after, we went to the registrars office.” I exclaimed and he nodded.

“Yeah I know.” He told me and then he took a quick sip from his beer. “Gerard told me already.” He adds wiping his mouth a little and I nodded.

“Yeah I don't have a copy for you.” I tell him as I stupidly looked down at my pockets. Like I was gonna have one on me. “But Gerard can get you one.” I tell him and he chuckled.

“Gerard already gave me a copy.” He grinned. “Six copies actually.” He added and I laughed.

“Well six is my lucky number.” I nudged him and he smiled back at me but it quickly faded.

“Tomorrows the day hmm?” He says shifting his eyes around the room slightly and I tried to see what it was he was looking at that was bringing him down but I couldn’t find anything. Everyone seemed to be having a good time…

“Yeah – hey, I bet you thought it was never gonna happen huh?” I teased him trying to lift his spirits back up and he sorta looked at me like he didn’t know what I was saying.

“What?” he replied and I nodded a little drunkenly.

“The divorce! You know -you're a free man now Mr. Bryar, no longer are you tied down to me.” I teased him and he laughed.

“Oh so now I'm ‘Mr. Bryar’ to you?” He teased me back and I giggled. “I’m not your Bobby anymore?” He says pretending to be hurt and I climbed up on to his lap straddling him slightly. I know I was drunk and he was too, I could smell it on him as I pulled his face towards mine and looked deep into his eyes.

“You know, you will always be my Bobby.” I told him and he nodded a little but didn’t say anything back. “-and you know how much I love you.” I added leaning forward and kissing his cheek lightly. All of a sudden I saw a figure out of the corner of my eye sit down next to Bob. In the spot I just was seconds before.

“And you’ll always be my Bobby too!” I hear Gerard say mocking me slightly and then he leant over and kissed Bob on the cheek too, just like I did…

“Agh.” Bob sorta tried to swat him away and I don't know what happened but suddenly I was yanked off of Bobs lap and in to Gerard's. He had his hands on my waist and I don't know that he was trying to tickle me or not but I started giggling and squirming to get away.

“Gerard!” I cried out and he just wrapped his arms around me tighter.

”Tell me how much you love me Elle.” He says and I stopped my squirming. His voice was so strong and I don't know why but it made me freeze up.

“More then life itself Gerard.” I replied and he smiled as he brushed the hair from my face. Bob mumbled something like excuse me as he got up, I don't know cause Gerard leant forward and kissed me. Not like a light kiss either, it was more like a deep tongue soul stealing kinda kiss.

“Hey you kids cut that out!” I heard Mikey laugh and Gerard pulled from me back slightly. “Save some for the honeymoon.” He teased us and I laughed. . I mean I know Mikey was drunk, shit everyone was drunk, but drunk or not - he knew that nowhere in my cheap wedding budget was there a honeymoon. Not that we needed one. I mean I didn’t understand the point of traveling to some exotic destination if all you were gonna do is spend it bed anyway…

“We’re not going on a honeymoon Mikey.” I reminded him and he sorta scrunched his face at me.

“Sure you are.” He replied and now I was the one making a face. “Gerard already bought the tickets, it’s a surprise.” He declares and I widened my eyes in shock.

“A honeymoon…really?” I gasped covering my mouth slightly looking up at Gerard. And I guess Mikey suddenly realized what he just did.

“Oh shit.” He covered his mouth too and took a step back as Gerard gently slid me off his lap, grinning a little.

“I'm gonna fuck you up for that one Mikey.” He smirked as he hoped up off the couch, and before I could even blink he was off chasing after poor Mikey. Suddenly there was a loud crash and a high-pitched squeal coming from the kitchen… I just shrugged it off as I snuggled into the empty spot that Gerard left, I mean some things never change….

I spent like the next hour or so just sitting on the couch watching the people go by. Its not that I wasn’t having a good time. I was… I was just uneasy. I don't know why. I was never good with change… I hated it in fact. Things never seemed to change for the better. At least not in my life.

And I've been with Gerard so long… I've been waiting for this for so long and now that its here I can’t deal with it… I was so worried that something was going to go wrong. And the more times people tried to tell me nothing was going to go wrong the more it convinced me that it was… It was too much pressure building and I was doing it to myself, I knew it, I just couldn’t stop it… Gerard knew it, fuck everyone knew it…

I was scared. Scared that I wasn’t gonna be able to do it, that I wasn’t going to be the wife that he deserved. My mind kept going back to the last conversation Bobby and I had about this. He said that faith is hard to find, but that he believed in me, and that meant a lot, it gave me the courage to try… Bob was my best friend and I don't know what I would do without him sometimes, I just loved him so much, and I know he loved me back…

I rubbed my eyes a little groggily as I snuggled into the couch, I was just about to pull the blanket down off the back of it and snuggle up under it to nap when Danni came barging in to living room right towards me.

“Elle! You have to see this!” She shrieked and before I could protest she had grabbed me right up off the couch and was shoving me towards the basement door. “The guys wanted to get Gerard a stripper, but I had a better idea.” She whispered in my ear, but she wasn’t really whispering. She was drunk so she was kinda yelling, and giggling and it took me a second to focus on what she just said.

“Wait, Danni if you think I'm gonna-“ I cried out shaking my head no. I mean the last time I stripped didn’t go so well…

“No, no, silly.” She forced me down the steps and I nearly died at the scene that was playing out down there.

My poor Gerard was trapped in a corner, I mean Mikey was holding him down so he wouldn’t miss the show, and what a show it was. I couldn’t only imagine Danni was responsible this… Frankie was putting on the most outrageous strip show I ever did see. He was dressed like a chick. Make-up, earrings, heels, he even had two balloons shoved down the front of his dress. I think it was one of Donnas dresses too! My poor sweet Gerard was gonna be scarred from this, that was for sure.

“Oh my god!” I gasped covering my mouth and Danni started hooting and hollering at Frankie to ‘take it off’ even though I nudged her to stop. Just then I guess Gerard looked over, and saw me standing there smiling with her and he widened his eyes at me… At me! Like he thought I was responsible for this!

“Elle!” He cried out accusingly and I knew he wasn’t gonna give me a chance to explain it wasn’t my idea. I tried to push my way back around Danni and now Ray who was next to her. I needed to get up the stairs… and quick.

“Gee’s calling you.” Ray kinda laughed as he pushed me back… back towards Gerard.

“Hey what happened to protecting the little people!” I cried out at him as Gerard grabbed me from behind. “You suck Toro!” I yelled at him as Gerard squeezed me against him.

“Gotcha.” He taunted me in my ear nipping it slightly and I squealed as he carried me up the stairs. I tried telling him I didn’t have anything to do with it, but he didn’t want to hear it. He laid me back down in the same spot where I just was on the couch. I felt myself shiver and he kinda made a face. “You alright?” He says and I nodded at him. I mean honestly I was so sick of everyone asking me that. He kinda paused and studied my eyes, like he was looking for something in them. Like something I wasn’t telling him.

“I'm just tired Gerard.” I tell him and he licked his lips a little as he pulled the blanket down off the back of the couch and covered me with it slightly.

“I’ll get everybody out from downstairs.” He tells me and I shook my head no.

“No, don't, I'm fine here.” I tell him and I was. I mean I was tired, but everyone was having a good time. I didn’t want to ruin it.

“I’ll be back.” He says leaning over and kissing my forehead before walking off. I knew he was just gonna ignore me. I mean I told him not to clear out the people from downstairs but I knew he was gonna do it anyway. He always did what he thought was best for me, whether I liked it or not…

I pulled the blanket up around me and shut my eyes a little… I was so tired and regardless of what he thought was gonna happen - I had no intentions of moving from my spot on the couch. And honestly, its’ not like I had anywhere to go. I was too drunk to drive home at this point and I was gonna have to spend the night. It was almost midnight now and there was a little voice inside my head screaming that once it turned 12:01 it was technically the sixth, but I told it to shut up, so it did… I mean every one knows the day doesn’t start until morning, and morning doesn’t start until its light out, I reasoned to myself. I mean that’s why they call it ‘morning light’… As long as I'm out of here before the morning light I won’t be jinxed I tried to convince myself…

I think I was starting to fall asleep cause I felt this movement like somebody was sitting down on the couch and it sorta woke me. I opened my eyes up and looked around a little. Yeah, I had definitely fallen asleep. I don't know what time it was now but nearly everybody was gone. Everybody except Bob… and his whore….

I call her a whore because she was. I mean she was the one who disturbed my sleep. She had sat on the couch, like right next to me and Bob was on the floor in front of her. Kinda clawing at her as he kissed her, pushing his face in her chest. It was just disgusting if you asked me. The whole fucking room was almost empty and they gotta be like 2 inches from me?

“Gah, isn’t there an open bed somewhere?” I moaned at him as I shifted in my spot, pulling my knees up against my chest. I mean a bed, a closet, the backseat of his car! The chick didn’t look too picky… She was pretty for a whore but a whore nonetheless… I think Bob took my find a bed suggestion, as I wanted him to find me a bed, cause he pulled back from her and looked over at me a little concerned.

“You want me to carry you down to bed honey?” He says and now the whore is making a face.

“Honey?” She says and he shook his head a little.

“Oh uh Leigh, this is Elle.” He introduces me and I nodded politely even though I really didn’t care. “Leigh’s friends with Tracie.” He tells me and I nodded slightly. Tracie was that chick Frankie’s been dating lately, but whatever. Friends with Tracie or not, it wasn’t like I was ever gonna see this girl again.

“Oh uh, nice to meet you.” I forced a smile at her.

“And Elle is-“ She says waiting for him to explain how it is he knows me.

“She's his ex-wife.” I hear Gerard say loudly. Emphasizing the ex part and I smiled a little as he came over. Bob pulled back from Leigh and sat on the coffee table in front of her now. He took a drink from his beer on it and didn’t say anything to Gerard…

“Oh.” Leigh replied like someone just punched her in the gut and she didn’t know what to say to that.

‘It was a joke.” I say quickly and she sorta looked confused.

“You're not his ex-wife?” She asked and I tried not to roll my eyes at her. Damn this girl was stupid.

“No I am but we weren’t married for real.” I tell her and she still looked lost. “It was a dare, a joke, it wasn’t you know.” I try to explain. “But we’re divorced now, as of this morning.” I insisted and Gerard kinda smirked.

“Yeah show her the divorce decree Bob.” Gerard teased him and I giggled. I mean its not like Bob was gonna be carrying it around in his wallet, although he did carry around our marriage license for a long time… Bob was weird sometimes…

“Gerard stop.” I nudged him to leave Bobby alone and he reached to lift me off the couch and I resisted. “No I'm staying here.” I insisted. I mean I was comfortable and I was here first… Bob and his teenaged tramp could just find somewhere else to go fuck cause I wasn’t moving…

“Oh so you were married and divorced, Tracie didn’t say...” Leigh says like she was deciding what to do with that information. And all of a sudden I felt bad… I mean what if this chick wasn’t just some random whore Bob picked up. What if she was the one for him and I was ruining it on him! I had to something to help him and quick.

“Yeah three years.” I blurt out stupidly. “We were married for three years and he is such a great guy, I’ll tell ya.” I tell her and Bob shook his head a little like for me to stop. Like I was somehow making it worse.

“Three years?” She widened her eyes at me and I nodded. “Wow, that’s some kinda joke.” She says shifting over on the couch slightly and Gerard sat down next to me.

“Yeah and that’s all it was.” He says locking his eyes on to Bob. “A joke.” He says and it was silent for a moment. Bob stiffened up a little and then he stood up and downed the rest of the beer in his bottle swiftly.

“So uh, if you guys are staying up here.” He says and he nodded towards the basement door. Like if he could use Gerard’s old room or something.

“Be my guest.” Gerard replied and Bob reached and took Leigh’s hand and lifted her up off the couch.

“Come on cupcake, I wanna show you something,” He winks at her and she giggled as he pulled her out of the room. I found myself glaring at her as they left but I didn’t know why…

“Elle.” Gerard says scoldingly and I frowned at him. No, I did know why I was glaring at her. Cause I was wrong. She wasn’t the one for my Bobby. She was just a little tramp and he deserved better.

“Gerard.” I argued back and he shook his head at me.

“Leave him be Elle.” He sighed like he knew exactly what I was thinking. I pouted my lip out at him and he ran his thumb along it slightly and faintly smiled at me as he spoke… “What a face on you.” He says, but he said it like he was admiring it and not criticizing it.

“Gerard.” I tried to whine but I couldn’t. I couldn’t do anything but smile back at him as he kissed me. He lifted me up out of my spot and pulled me back down so I was laying on top of him now. I loved lying like that with him, but he hardly ever let me. He liked for me to lay next him, like kinda snuggled up to him, but there wasn’t enough room on the couch for that…

“Is that good?” I heard say him faintly as I pressed my head against his chest and listened to his heart beating.

“Yeah.” I sighed as I began to drift off to sleep again…

“Till tomorrow baby.” He sighed squeezing me against him and I knew what he meant. Tomorrow was gonna be the day our lives would change… I just knew it…