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I sat in the bath with the curtain pulled sitting so my arms were wrapped around my legs and my head was in my knees.

"Frankie, Open the door please"
".. Go away"
"Frankie, Its Gerard"
"Is-is Jaxon gone?" I asked with tears streaming down my face.
"Yes Hun, hes gone"

Hun? why would he call me that.

I got out of the bath unlocking the door.
The door handle turned and Gerard appeared from behind there

"I'm so so so sorry, I had no idea it was them" Gerard said putting his arms around me.
"Its ok Gerard.. I think I should just go back home.. Thats-"
"don't be silly, they wont hurt you anymore.. I told them. Ok Frankie, You can't go.. its cool having you here"
"Your just saying that" I said sitting down on the bath edge.

"No Frankie.. Your fun to be round"
"really?"
"Yeah.. Really"
"You. you dont care Im... Gay" I said scared.
"Well...are you?" he asked hesiantly.

"wo-would-"
"Frankie, It dosnt matter nothing to me, You'll still be Frankie"
"I might be a little bit" I said looking down.
"Its ok Frankie.. It dosnt matter to me"
"Really?"
"yeah"

"Your not gonna hit me and call me names?"
"Not at all. Frankie" he said sitting next to me.

He took my hand In his.

"I promised I wouldnt hurt you"

I found the courage to look him in the eyes.

"But I do wish you told me this last night"
"Why?"
"im-Im not sure" he answered.

"oh, well ok then"

"Frankie?"
"..Yeah Gerard?"
"Do you wanna make a chocolate cake with me?"
"..Yeah,Ok"

he stood up with my hand still in his.

"oh, you dont mind me holding your hand do you?" He asked me.
"no.. Not at all... I kinda like it" I said smiling.
"me too" he said back.

What does this mean for us?
Were we something.
No I think we're nothing.

I wouldnt mind us being something.
I think I like him.

He tried to pull away from me.

"Frankie, Are you gonna let go? we cant bake like this"
"sorry..." I said letting go.

"Ok so we need, Golden syrip, Eggs, coco, butter, sugar, Baking powder and soda, flour and milk" he said.
"Ok"

We made a one egg chocolate cake.
It was in the oven so me and Gerard we're just cleaning up.

"Well, I think that went as good as it could"
"yeah, I think so too Gerard"

"Well, we're finished cleaning"
"Yeah. we are" I answered him.
"what do you wanna do?"
"Uhh, Im not sure, maybe watch t.v?"
"ok Frankie"

I followed him to the sofa where he flicked Tom and Jerry on.
He sat at one end, I sat at the other.

"So you like this program?"
"I love Tom and Jerry, I would always sneek downstairs and watch it"
"Well you don't need to do any sneeking around here"
"I know Gerard.. I know"
"good"

the ads came on.

"So Frankie tell me more about yourself"
I began thinking.

"well my Names Frankie Iero, Im 16, my birthday is on October 31st-"
"HALLOWEEN!!!" he yelled.
"Thats my favorite holiday" He said calmly.

"I call it IERO-ween" I said sounding like a freak.
"Ohh, thats so cute Frankie"
"Not really, I kind of lived in my head at home, Wondering what life was all about outside my house.
I wrote alot of songs, played alot of guitar"

"So your a muso whos a vege, Your gay, your birthday is on the best day ever. and your an introverted boy?" he asked.
"Yeah" I knew he was gonna turn me away now.

"Thats so cool, anything else I should know?"
"...Not that I can think of"
"Ok Frankie"

"now, I wanna know more about you" I said turning my body around to look at him.

"Well on my 20th birthday my Mom and Dad told me I was old enough to look after myself, They gave me and Mikey alot of money, Brought us a house
A car each, Brought us a whole lot of clothes then said they were moving to New Zealand-"
"Wow thats a long way a way" I inturupted.

"Yeah. Uhh My Grandma passed away a little while ago she was my best friend-"
"What was her name?"
"Elena Lee Rush" he said. I could see pain on his face.
"I'm very sorry Gerard. She was lucky to have such a beautiful loving caring grandson like you... not like Mikey!".. I just realized what I said
"I-I-I mean.. Fuck!"

"Don't worry Frankie, Its ok"
"But.. I didnt mean to say that"
"oh.." I heard disappointment in his voice.

"I mean, you are caring and loving I'm sure.. No I'm positive"

The oven bell rang.

"saved by the bell" Gerard smiled at me.

We walked to the oven taking the cake out and putting it on the stove top.

"it looks and smells amazing"
"Yes, yes it does Frankie. Do you wanna cut around it so it comes out of the tin?"
"..I don't know how to-"
"I'll help you"
"ok Gerard"

"So first you take a bread and butter knife and a dish towel"

I got excatly what he wanted me to.

"Now what?"
"Now with your left hand hold the tin still... with the dish towel in your hands"
I did that

"And cut around the cake"
"How?"

He stood directly behind me so my back was touching his chest.
His left hand sat on mine and his right hand wrapped around mine.

He help me go around the edges of the cake.

"do you think it will turn out ok?" he wispered in my ear.

I swalloed.

"I think so.." I wispered back.

He let my hands go, But I didn't feel him step back.

"Gerard?"
"Yeah Frankie?"
"I was just checking to see you were still there"
"I'm still here"

I felt his hands go down my arms
his head was right next to mine.

"Gerard?" I asked scardly.
"Yeah?" he wispered directly in my ear.

"Gerard.. I- I like you"

I felt his hands drop off mine.

"Turn around" he wispered yet again.

I tensed up.. Knowing I was going to get a beating.
I shut my eyes tightly.
And began turning around.

I was pretty sure I was directly infront of him
Why hadn't he hit me yet?

I felt his finger at the top of my hair line. He ran his finger along my face untill he got by my lips.
His other hand came up to my neck and then something was on my lips.

Was Gerard kissing me?
I let him kiss me, It wasnt a little peck eather.

His lips opening mine.
I noticed my lips moving in time with Gerards.

I found myself putting my hand on the side of his chest.
I pushed my tounge into his mouth.
My right hand took the side of his face.

Gerard pushed me against the bench.
For some reason, I liked this.. I really really liked this.

"GERARD... WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!!!" I heard a fimiliar voice scream.
I took my lips of Gerards and turned to find Mikey standing there.

I froze in horror.. I could never go back to school again..

"Mikey.. Its-"
"Its what? Its not what it looks like?"
"no, its excatly what it looks like.. Mikey please you have to understand"
"understand what... I knew he was a homo" he said giving me the evils.

"For fuck sakes Mikey.. We're both gay!.. I think"

I took his hand in mine..
"No, we are both gay Mikey.. Deal with it"

He gave us a smirk.

"I cant believe this.. How could you Gerard?!"
"I'm sorry, I can't help the way I feel about Frankie... Its something you have to understand Mikey"
"oh, I understand.. I understand real good.. Your Gay."
"Yes Mikey.. I am"
"Well untill you get rid of that barbie, Your dead to me!" he said turning to walk out.

"Mikey?" I asked quietly.
"WHAT!"
"Please dont hate Gerard.. I asked for it, You can torture me all you like I don't care.. Please don't hate your brother"
"I'm going to torture you anyway"
"well, that I guess I'm use to.. But it takes guts to admit your sexuality to other people.
And its not like your the best person it the world.. you actualy suck at football. And you have all your fucking little bum boys do your dirty work for you!"

"Frankie?" Gerard said
"Just wait please Gerard.. I'm over people telling me how to live.. I've discovered I do have freedom. Just like anyone eles and Gerard, if I want to be gay.
And you want to be gay then nobodys fucking opinion means anything to me!"
"Ok Frankie"

I turned around to see Mikey giving me the most disgusted look.

"What you wanna hit me?"

He came right up in my face.

"MIKEY DONT FUCKING TOUCH HIM!" Gerard yelled.
"Or what?"

He walked over by his brother.. Gerard was just a tad taller than Mikey.

"Its Ok Gerard" i said. i was use to getting beatings it didn't frighten me that much

"Go on Mikey, I know it makes you feel like your a big man.. like your better than everyone eles.. That your the strongest person in the world.. But one day
Your going to meet your maker Mikey.. Someones going to be bigger, and stronger than you and they are going to hurt you.. worse than you've hurt me.. You
know what thats called?... Its called Karma.. and Revenge.. Mikey. your gonna get it one day so hit me now.. Come on!" I yelled in his face

He let go of my shirt coller and pushed me backwards.
Thankfully Gerard was there to catch me.

"Gerard, you caught me.. I was falling" I said through a smile
"Frankie, you dont need to take that kind of shit not by my little brother"
"Its ok Gerard.. It doesn't bother me.. I'm only gonna get beaten up anyway"
"Not if I can help it Frankie"

"So you said you were gay?"
"...Yeah.. You took my hand... and yeah"