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FRANKS POV

When Elly left I fell into a deep depression, I played shows and went back to the bus, and just stayed in the only reason i went out was to just use and drink when i didnt want to feel the emptiness i felt when i realized Elly wasnt with me anymore I had fucked everything up and i let other people make me into a person i wasnt, I replayed the event of the last night over and over inside my mind and just wished i hadn't reacted the way i did, if i would just had stayed by her side that nite instead of following gerard and bert and using i would stil have her and maybe i could have told her everthing in better way, I always wonder if i would have taken a different route in telling would she have forgiven me.
we were on our way home and the closer we got the more it hit me that elly wouldn't be in our home anymore.

"hey man were here" gerard replied opening my bunk curtain. I sighed getting out and walking out to the front of the bus. i looked out the window and saw the apartment comlpex i lived in alone now. The bus pulled to the side, and i got off looking up at the window to our bedroom, "shes gone" Mikey replied walking by, he hadnt really talked to me unless it involved the band that was it, Gerard didnt really care, I took all my stuff off the bus and the guys took off, i made my way up to the door and i took out my keys, my hands shook like crazy as i unlocked the door and walked inside, it felt empty and cold not the same anymore, I walked upstairs to our room and all her things were gone she left behind all the things I ever gave her on the bed and a few of her own things, and there on drawer was the her key, I sat on the bed and picked up a hoodie i had given her for her birthday and hugged it, god it still smelled like her. i sighed walking back downstairs and taking my laptop out, checking everything, she had blocked me from everything i couldnt contact her in anyway. the only way was her phone i sent one last text just letting her know she had left some stuff but she never responded not that i thought she would. I asked Mikey about her but he wouldnt tell me anything not where she lived or what she was up to, but i kinda figured it out when i saw her in a couple of videos.



Over the next few months all i did was go out with gerard to bars and drink and use, Bert had came down to visit gerard so ya he was there alot gerard decided to have a party and all the guys came over and a few people mikey had invited.

"so you invite that fine ass sister of yours man" bert looked over at gerard and gerard just shook his head, "nah and shut the fuck up about her man" he whispred
"whoa hey i'm just trying to see if maybe she's availabe" he looked over at me smirking "you know what i dont think she is" he laughed getting up grabbing a magazine he tossed at me and i saw a picture of Elly and Trace hugging outside of a store and another of them kissing i looked down at the article and my world shattered

"MUSICAL SIBLINGS TO MILEY CYRUS AND MCR MEMBERS GERARD WAY AND MIKEY WAY IN LOVE AND ON THERE WAY TO THE TOP TRACE CYRUS AND ELLY CHERIE WAY NOW OFFICIALLY THE DREAM COUPLE, TRACE CYRUS MEMBER TO METRO STATION TAKIING OFF ON THE CHARTS WITH TWO HITS OFF THERE DEBUT CD AND ELLY CHERIE WAY THE POPULAR LEAD IN MUSIC VIDEOS ON THE CHARTS IS ON THE WAY UP TO WITH THE LEAD IN THE AMERICAN IDIOT MUSICAL. WAY WHO WAS INVOLVED WITH MCR GUITARIST FRANK IERO A YEAR AGO HAS NOW CONFIRMED SHE AND CYRUS ARE A COUPLE, AND HAS ALSO ANNOUNCED SHE WILL BE ONE OF THE LEADS IN METRO STATIONS NEXT SINGLE FOR SHAKE IT"


I got UP throwing it at him walking away i could hear him laughing"AWW poor baby" as i went inside into the restroom and locked the door "FUCK!!" I Yelled kicking the door i looked at myself in the mirror and all i felt was disgust "you did this to yourself you fucked everything up, its your fault you lost her" i whispered looking at my reflection, i couldnt cope I punched the mirror as hard as i could and it shattered i walked out to the back and Mikey stopped me. "what the fuck happened to your hand man" i looked down at it and it was covred in blood
"nothing man" i tired to walk past him but he pulled me back and dragged me back into the house into the kitchen he washed my hand off and threw a small towel at me as he walked out of the room, i dried it and sat down looking at it, he came back and helped me bandge it up "what the fuck is wrong with you" he replied sitting on the counter
"sense when do you care, you havent said much to me sense elly left"
"ya well i do you blame you for that but come one man we've known eachother for so long do you really think i like watching one of my friends throw there life and talents away, its hard for me to watch you and gerard do that to yourselevs"
"ya well i dont have much these days to try to live a happy sober clean life now do I" he didnt say anything he just shook his head, "i mean i know you knew way before the press got a hold of the fact that elly and trace were a couple am i right"
"ya i did"
"why not tell me about it instead of have me read it in a magazine"
"hey you have no right to know anything that she doesnt want you to know, your not a part of her life anymore, shes happy and she deserves to feel it." i looked down feeling the tears on my cheeks
"god how did i get to this point" i whispred, "with this" he reached into my hoodie pulling a vile out "and by letting him run your life" he pointed out the window at bert, he was right "shit man i should have listened to you when you warned me now its to late for anything"
"no its not man, clean up for you be the person you were before bert,"
"it wont give me elly back" i whispred wiping the tears away
"no it wont not like it was but you can be a friend to her have her back in your life in that way, trust me you wont be complete with at least that piece you two had as friends"
"ya i would give anything to just have that" we heard the door click open and gerard came in and sat down "hey so ya what do we do about this" he threw the magazine on the table " we do nothing" mikey replied "you sure about this kid"
"isnt it what you wanted" i replied looking at him "all i want is the best for her, and i fucked it up for you two, im sorry man i feel like i owe you something for taking so much from you i dont know how i can ever make things right for you and elly" he whispered "gerard just kick this shit please you two need to clean up, you both let Elly down"
" i cant" he looked down "gerard shes our baby sister you fucked up dont you think she misses you she looks up to you well at least she did"
"she hates me how can take back what i did huh she will always hate she said it herself" he yelled getting up walking towards the door and i got up standing in front him stopping him 'get the fuck out of my way"
i shook my head "no man you know what were doing it were getting clean you said it you owe me and her this is how your gonna make it up to all of us and this is how im gonna make it up to her"
"I cant man im to deep into this shit" he looked away i could tell he was crying " Gerard come one man Frank is in the same boat as you but hes willing to try, thats we want, please it hurts me to see my family torn apart like this" Mikey whispred hugging him, he hugged him back nodding "fine I'll do it for you and elly i miss her, I miss my baby sister"

"what the fuck is this mushy shit" we turned and saw bert standing in the door way "get the fuck out bert" Mikey yelled " ya ill leave when im good and ready you little fuck, gerard come on lets get out of here i got a hold of some good shit" he smirked wiping his nose
gerard let go of mikey and walked to bert grabbing him by the neck"you know what you ruined my life you piece of shit i lost my sister because of you, do you realize how much i want to kill you right now huh DO YOU!" he yelled throwing him against the wall squeezing his neck "come on gerard stop okay hes not worth it" i walked up to him grabbing his arm, he looked down at me and nodded letting go bert he fell to the floor coughing " your right man" gerard whispered
" i made you two who you are today do you hear me" bert coughed getting up " you two pussies were nothing with out me, gerard your gonna regret doing this to me do you hear me, and you frankie boy i did you a favor by getting rid of that bitch all she did was bring you down and you wanna get clean for her, ya go for it its not gonna bring her back to you shes out there spreading her legs and sucking trace cyrus's dick seems like he got a piece of that fine ass to hmm makes me crave some of it tell me frankie was it good" he laughed, i ran towards him tackling him to the floor punching him in the face hard "you sick fuck" mikey pulled me off of him and gerard grabbed bert throwing him out the front door into the lawn. that was the last we heard of bert but i had a feeling it wouldnt be the last.


we both got into two different facilities and mikey came by every other week to visit and fill us in on what was going on he managed to keep our treatments out the press, going thru detox was the worst
for me it was hard, all that kept me sane was picturing elly, after completeing the 5 days i moved into a residential treatment center. i sat in my room just trying to figure out something to do, god i just needed one hit just one, i heard the door click open and the nurse came in with a tray of food

"i told you guys i didnt want any food"
"well you have to eat Mr. Iero"the nurse smiled setting the tray down i got picking it up and throwing it out the door "well i dont want it" i yelled as she walked out, i slammed the door and layed down, I tried to sleep but i couldnt sleep,i tried laying in every position but nothing helped i sighed getting up and walking out to the front to watch tv. I was channel surfing when i saw Trace's face on tv, i moved closer to the tv and turned it up as he was interviewed

"so this is metro stations 4th single off the debut album and your girlfriend is in the video right"
"ya she is, shes the best thing to happen to me love you cherrie bomb" he smiled blowing a kiss at her, the whole studio was cheering and then i saw her when they showed her back stage blowing a kiss back.

"so rumor has it you have a tattoo in honor or your beautiful girl"
"ya i do"
"you wanna show it to us" the whole audience went crazy when he took his shirt off and showed off the tattoo,
"well lucky girl, and mr. musso"
"yes sir" he laughed "you have your significant other here to dont you"
"yes i do my beautiful beth" they showed her two sitting next to elly " we are two luck bastards" mason laughed hugging trace

"well lucky in love and lucky in song here is your debut video of shake it by metro station."


i watched the video and saw elly dancing, it took me back to when i first saw her dance, she looked beautiful, it broke my heart when i saw her dancing for trace and how they touched in this video, i got up picking up the chair and throwing it across the room

"is there a problem Mr.Iero" one of the male nursed came out
"fuck off" i yelled going back to my room i layed down closing my eyes i took deep breaths trying to calm down, i got up and pulling out some paper and i decided i needed to write elly an apology letter before i could face her. when i finished i kissed it. Mikey was coming today and i wanted him to give her the letter. i waited about an hour and they came and got me and i went out to the garden area and sat down.

"hey man how you feeling"
"not to bad, cravings are going away, doing my best to distract myself hows gerard doing"
"good about the same the detox kicked his ass but hes holding on, taking art classes in there keeping himself busy" he replied taking something out of his messenger bag" here man thought you might like this" he handed me a picture of me,him gerard and elly, we took when the band had first started off in jersey. "thanks man i really appreciate this" i smiled looking down at elly, god we looked so young so so excited in this picture. "no problem dude i gave gerard a copy of the same one"
" i reached into my pocket and took out the letter taking a deep breath "Mikey i need you to do me a huge favor"
"ya man what is it"
"um i need you to give this to elly, i need you to make sure she reads it" i handed him the letter and he put it down in front of him and shook his head " i dont know man its kinda hard you know i dont know if she'll ltake it let alone read it"
"please man its not me asking her to be with me its just me apologizing for everything i need her to read this before i see her face to face please mikey"
"ya dude I'll try but i cant promise she'll take it"
"that all im asking thanks man"
"ya" he put it in his bag and i sighed sitting back in the chair
"hey dude i got some great new i wanna share with you"
"oh ya what"
"well i proposed to Alicia and she said yes" he smiled
"really oh man congratulations" i got up giving him a hug, "ya dude
and um i planned to have the engagement party a week after you and gerard get out"
"wow man you guys are lucky, you two have been together for ever i so happy for you and alicia"
"thanks man, i knew i wanted to be with her sense the day i met her, and now i want to be her for the rest of my life"
"and you two will you guys were meant to be man"
"thanks frank' i nodded thinking this could of been me and elly getting married now being happy. " so i will see you and gerard in two weeks on the outside" he laughed
"ya man two weeks two go i cant wait" i gave him a hug and he left.
i stayed outside for a while just thinking about being clean and starting my life over again with out elly in it.