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ELLY'S POV

i had recentley found out that gerard and frank had checked themselves into a treatment facilities, i found it hard to believe but they had done it, secretly i was so proud of them i but i needed time before i could face eaither one, Im sure mikey was proud i knew he would get them back, mikey was always the reasonable one of the 3.

i was checking my emails when i saw one from a muscial i had auditioned for, I opened it and read it quickly "oh my god" i screamed really loud, Trace came running downstairs looking around "what happened you okay" i nodded smiling, i jumped into his arms kissing him,"whoa babe calm down whats going on" i let go of him and read the email out loud to him

Dear Miss way
you have been selected to play the lead in the scene for 21 guns for the american idiot musical. Rehearsals start in 3 weeks please contact us to confirm you have recieved the email.


"oh my god babe i told you, i knew you would get it im so proud of you cherrie bomb" he leaned down kissing my lips, "babe lets have a party we can invite everyone"
"ya that sounds like fun how about this weekend"
"ya we can get everything together and get the guys to help out"
"wait get mason to help out you know him he'll say ya get here grab a beer and sit down and watch everyone work" i laughed, "true" he laughed " babe i have to go the studio for a while mason is picking me up I'll tell him about the party"
"sounds good" we heard someone knock on the door and trace went downstairs to get it "babe its mikey" he yelled, i logged off my email and i ran downstairs, "hey mikes" i smiled giving him a hug we walked out to the balcony and sat down

"so whats new guys what are you two up up today"
"not much today but elly just got some great news tell him babe" trace smile, " well remember i told you i had auditioned for for the American Idiot Tour"
"ya last month right"
"ya well I...I got the part" I got up screaming "ya fuck come her sis" Mikey got up giving me a hug, "congrats I'm so proud of you, damn elles I knew you were gonna get it"
"thanks mikey" i smiled, "so when do you start rehearsals"
"well i start in three weeks, and i have to email them back to get all the information"
well thats good, you better not be working during my engaement party"
"dont worry i wont mikes, god i cant believe your finally getting married"
"finally what do you mean finally" he laughed "well i mean you guys have been together fover, mikes when i met alicia i knew she was the one for you"
"thanks elles, you know I've been trying to propse to this girl for like a year now" he smiled
"well im happy for you two" We heard the a car honking downstairs and trace got up to check and came back in " babe it's mason I'll be back in a while"
"okay love you" he leaned down kissing my lips "love you two"
"later trace" mikey got up giving him a hug
"late man"



MIKEY'S POV

"so hows this kid treating you seems like true love" she sighed leaning back into her chair smiling "amazing, he's like the guy i had to go thru bad times to find you know, i feel with him that he's loved me forever, I feel so safe and secure with him, mikes i dont know i just i'm head over heels for him, and i know he would never do anything to hurt me, i dont know i sensed that about him when i first met him at the time i thought he would be like a friend slash protector for me" she smiled.

she had no idea that gerard and frank were coming of treatment in two weeks, and hearing her express those sincere words about trace,made me think twice about giving her frank's letter, i saw how happy she was now, Trace did make her happy, i was debating weather or not to give her the letter, i had told frank i would i took a deep breath and pulled the letter out "elles um i went to visit gerard and frank today and there doing so good now, and the bascially are at the end of there individual treatments they'll be out in two weeks"

"oh well thats good, i mean honestly i thought gerard and frank were gonna become just lost cases you know, I feel bad for not going to see gerard but i just i couldnt do it mikes i feel betrayed you know and with frank i just i cant do it" she shook her head looking away "well im not saying what frank did is right and im not apologizing for his actions because he chose to do what he did i just couldnt see somebody who was once like a brother to me go down the way he was like you elles im still trying to forgive him and trust him and believe me hes trying so hard and him just doing this treatment proves he's trying to get that forgivenss from me and from you"
" i dont mikes, i just.i cant" I nodded," he asked me for one favor and i agreed to do this favor for him, i told him i would try and that was i could do for him the rest was up to you"
"what do mean mikes" i grabbed the letter and put it in her hands she looked down at it "no mikes i cant i'm sorry" she put the letter back in my hand

ELLY'S POV

when he gave the letter, i felt nothing but anger,"no mikes i can't im sorry" i gave him back the letter and i looked away as i felt the tears fall " elles hes trying to apologize you dont have to take it okay"
I grabbed the envelope again and took a deep breath opening it, i pulled the open and i could feel my hands shaking as i held onto the paper

"Elly,

i dont ever expect you to be with me again i know your happy now and i would never want to ruin that for you, what i did to you is unforgivable i know, having you with me after what i had done and hiding the fact that i was using made me feel like i had to let you go but i couldnt, i was selfish in not telling you what i had done, i wanted to keep you and keep my habit, god i feel like shit all the time, i never wanted you to find out the way you did, i never wanted us to go in that direction, what happened that last night i cant change i just need you to forgive me i need you as a friend i know we cant just pick up were we left off and i know it wont be the same but i really hope that we can start off new as friends, thats all im asking i dont want to lose you completely elly please give me that i know its gonna take time i will wait and i will do anything to just have you be in my life again,

frank


i crumpled up the letter, and got up crying hysterically "why now mikes why is he doing this now, i cant, i wont do it, he was the one person that i loved and i trusted with everything, and he used me why didnt he love me enough to choose me, obviously i was never gonna be able to make him happy he was always gonna have that void, he could of told me mikes he could have given me that and let me go the right way but he didnt, and i just cant forgive right now and i dont know if i ever will, i have to let him go mikes thats whats best for us we werent meant to be."