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"ELLY'S POV"

i could hear frankies voice more clearer now "come back to me" i opened my eyes and everything looked so blurry, i blinked a few times until my eyes starting adjusting and i saw frankies beautiful face and i slowly reached out caressing his cheek. he opened my eyes slowly and his eyes met mine "oh my god love" he whispered. i blinked a few times looking around the room and then i gazed back at him "frankie"he nodded smiling, i just wanted to sit up and have him hold me so i tried to grab onto his arm trying sit up and i felt a sharp pain and i grabbed onto my chest inhaling deeply as the pain got stronger "where am i" i looked around panicking.

"you dont remember" i shook my head looking down and then everything started coming back to me.

"you ready baby because i have sense i saw you" his voice echoed in my head as i saw him clearly as he raped me and i couldnt do anything.

"bert please dont please"
'awww begging i love it" he just lauhged as he plunged the knife into my chest forcing back out and i saw all the blood.

i felt my chest tighten up and i looked back up at frankie.

"oh my god bert he...he.."i stuttered trying to get the words out as i looked down at my chest "i thought i was dead, i felt the knife go thru me," i looked back up at him as the tears fell all i saw was bert doing all the things he did to me over and over again in my head "i wanna be dead frankie i wanna be dead' i yelled crying, i felt my chest tighten up even more and i couldnt get air.

"love whats wrong"
"i cant....bre..ath...'i gasped i looked up and he was running out of the room, i leaned back and i closed my eyes trying to catch my breath just how mikey had taught me so when i didnt have my inhaler.
i opened my eyes taking a small breath and i saw frankie come back in.

"love you have to calm down ok" he leaned down hugging pulling me into his arms, i buried my face against his chest and just cried as hugged me tighter.

the doctor came in the room and frankie let go of me kissing the top of my head softly. the doctor walked up to me and he looked over at the machines they had hooked up.

" elly can you breath" i nodded looking up at the doctor, he checked my oxygen and he checked all my vitals.

"does the wound hurt" he replied checking the bandages.

"just a little" i whispered, looking over at frankie and i reached out for his hand, he smiled walking towards me and he took my hand in his.

"where gonna give you something for pain okay"
"ok" i whispered as the nurse came in and i closed my eyes tight as i felt the needle. i opened my eyes and i took a breath looking up at the ceiling as frankie talked to the doctor.

"is she gonna be okay" he asked
"shes in shock, most of our coma patients experience the shock of waking up suddenly and remembering the tramatic moment that put them in this state, just try to talk to her about something other than what happened to her, she needs to relax and be calm right now"
"ok" he said.
'well be back in a while to check on her" the doctor smiled and walked out. i looked back over at him and i was so glad he was the one here with me.

"frankie"
"i love it when you call me frankie, you havent called me that in so long" he whispered sitting down next to me.
"i know but i want to start again, im so happy you were the one i saw when i woke up" i smiled

"i had a dream about you elles" he said looking at me as his eyes lit up.
"i had one about you to its weird because i can remember it i know just woke up but i can remember it"

"you know gerard to me that i was the one you needed during this, i mean i know you have trace but i liked pretending that i was the one" he said sighing looking down, all i could think of was how he was with me in my subconcious taking care of me like he always did.


"you are the one"i whispered feeling my heart beat faster.
"elles i..." i nodded but he stopped when his cell started ringing, he sighed taking it out and answering it

"hey mikes" i smiled when i heard it was mikey.

"well actually theres some one i want you talk to" he smiled handing me the cell i could feel my hands shaking as put the phone up to my ear.

"hey mikes"
"oh my god elles"
"hey when are you coming"
"today were going back today, are you okay are you hurting"
"just a little" i whispered
"god i missed you we thought we lost you" i could tell that he was crying and it made me start crying to.

"im here mikes dont worry"
"thankgod, elles let me get gerard ok"
"ok mikes" i felt the tears fall even more and frankie reached out and he wiped my cheeks as i heard gerards voice.
"hello"
"gee"
"elles your awake oh my god"
"i missed you guys"
"we missed you two" i laughed a little when i heard them both on the phone.
"i missed hearing my own laugh" gerard said as he laughed to.
"i dont have your laugh"
"ya you do sis"
"you do elles" i heard mikey and i was trying not to laugh but i couldnt keep in and i finally laughed outloud
"see there it is" gerard replied, i looked over at frank and he was just smiling.
"elles were gonna catch a flight tonight okay and dont worry were gonna call trace and were all gonna be there as soon as we can"
"okay mikes, i love you guys"
"love you two elles" i hung up the phone and i gave it back to frankie.
"there coming now huh" i nodded.
"frankie can you help me up so i can go to the restroom"
"ya" he took down the rails and i slid my legs off the bed and he grabbed my hands helping me stand, i felt my legs shaking and i sat back down. "you okay"
"ya i just got a little shaky let me try again" he nodded and he took my hands again helping me up i balanced for a second and i took a few steps he slipped his hand around my waist and we walked into the bathroom i let go him and i grabbed onto the sink looking in the mirror and i gasped when i saw all the bruises, i ran my fingertips along my neck and i looked down at the wound i pulled down my gown exposing it, i looked at my reflection and i looked dead and worthless. frankie slipped his arms around my waist resting his head on my shoulder. i looked at his reflection next to mine and then i looked back at myself. "please dont look at me frankie, im worthless" i whispered watching the tears slide my cheeks.
"dont you ever say that about yourself elle's you are not worthless"
"i am i feel like i could have stopped this, i could have left that bus that day" i turned slowly and i wrapped my arms around him. "i don't deserve anyone, nobody should love me or want me after this i am worthless"i cried grabbing onto him stronger.

"elles i want you and i love you, this doesn't change how i feel about you, what happened to you it doesnt make you a bad or tainted person" he said as he picked up and carried me back to my bed laying me down "you still want even though i look like this" i looked up at him and he nodded laying next to me pulling me into his arms. i cuddled into him laying my head on his chest feeling my eyes water up again "i feel like he stole all the confidence i had in me to feel alive all i feel is emptiness and ugliness inside of me"
"elles look at me" he said as he caressed my cheek softly, i sighed and i moved my gaze back up to him as he put his forehead against mine.

"your beautiful elles you have and will always be beautiful to me love" he whispered. i reached up running my fingertips across his lips and he smiled, i closed my eyes and i felt his soft lips on mine as he slowly deepened the kiss.