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**Author's note*
Sorry that I took so long to update :/ I guess my "soon" is like an MCR soon,could be within 10 days-5 months :p,at least I didn't take five months right? This chapter is just what you all knew happened,it's just Mikey's suicide note..I feel strange saying 'ENJOY!' because how can one enjoy a suicide note? Well erm,Enjoy?


Gerard's POV.

I held the note in my hands as I walked to Mikey's room with shaky legs.
It couldn't be.
Not MY baby brother.
Not Mikey.
the same thoughts kept spinning around in my mind,
I hope this is all a terrible joke.
I couldn't lose him.
Cause then I'd loose it all...
Not him.
Not Mikes....
I stood in front of his door,
to afraid to open it and confirm my nightmare.
I just sunk to the floor,sobbed and read the note.

" Dear
Mom,Dad,Gerard and whoever else this may concern
I'm sorry.
Don't you ever think I did this because of you,
don't you ever think this was your fault.

Mamma, please don't cry, even though I'm gone I'll always love you,

Dad, I'm sorry I wasn't the normal boy you wanted,
I'm sorry I wasn't a straight A kid.

Gerard, I'm sorry I had to leave you,big brother.
you're the one I always looked up to.
you will always be the coolest person I knew.
you didn't care what anyone thought, I wish I could've been more like you.
don't you even think any of this was your fault.
you couldn't have stopped me if you tried.
I didn't do this because of you,I wish I could've stayed,
I'll miss you,
just know I love you,
big brother,
I love you.

I tried so hard to be normal,
to be happy,
but that kid,
he just ain't me.
I was never that boy and I was never gonna be.
Though there was some very rare times out the year I'd be happy.
This day wasn't one of them apparently.
but at least I won't be sad now,
at least I can be free.
I know the people at church will say that I'm going to hell.
you don't have to lie to them,
tell them I wasn't happy
even if I had to leave you
All I gotta say is :

I'm sorry,
mamma please don't cry for me.
I'm very sorry,
papa please don't lie for me,
I'm oh so sorry,
big brother don't die for me.

Love, Michael James Way."


By the time I finished reading the note,
they had taken his body away so I didn't have to see it,
Mom and dad were outside talking to a policemen.
There was a crowd of nosey ass people outside murmuring rumors.
I just stayed in my spot,
thinking.
Thinking of the last line in that morbid poem.
"big brother don't die for me."

I just might.
How could he do this to me?
It wouldn't be the same without Mikey,
I couldn't imagine life without my little bro.
Didn't he know he could come to me for help?


Mikey,where ever you are, I'm coming to.




**second Author's note : I know,this kinda sucks ass. I'll probably edit it later, so don't fret my pets. This chapter was very sad to write. I admit,I cried a little. So what do you,my lovely Reviewers think? Well, Rate and review (come on rate,last time I only had one rating,if you give me more ratings I'll give you skittles. Yeah? Come on....
xoxo- Milkyway**