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Over the next week my life began spiralling downwards. I cried myself to sleep every night, I woke up screaming at least twice every night and I started falling behind in school. The last one shouldn't be happening seen as I'm spending every spare minute studying.

Monday was the wirst because I had to walk to school because the car battery is dead, I arrived late, then half way through Science I burst into tears randomly and had to leave class. After Science Leighton tried getting me to talk to her but I made a lame excuse. I didn't eat anything that day and I moved away from Gerard and Scarlet in Art and Mikey and Leighton in English. I ran out of Art just as Gerard was about to grab me at the end of the lesson and walked home in the rain kicking an empty can.

When I eventually arrived home I went straight to my room to study. After I completed my homework I went to bed but couldn't sleep, I cried all night instead.

By the end of the week I wasn't eating anything, I was ignoring my phone and everybody had learnt to leave me alone. So it was a surprise when I got home Friday night to find Scarlet waiting for me.

"We need to talk. Now." She insisted and I knew she wouldn't leave until she had said what she wants to say.

I didn't reply instead I let us into my house and into the living room. It wasn't until we were sat down that she started; "You need to snap out of this Iz. It's damaging your health as well as your mind. You're not eating, not sleeping, screaming in the night, crying yourself to sleep when you do sleep and you've not uttered a single word in a week." I just stared at her. "See you're doing it now! Giving me the silent treatment. I don't deserve this." She stood up. "You know what? I'm just wasting my breath; but if you carry on like this you're going to do a pretty good job on isolating yourself." Scarlet stormed out slamming the door behind her.

Later that night, after I thought about what Scarlet had said, I replied to a text message I received on Monday.

Hey, not stopped thinking about you. James.

I decided it was about time I replied to it.

Hey, been busy, but I'm glad you texted me. I could use somebody to talk to. Xo Belle.

I sent it before I could change my mind because I know I would have. I instantly found myself egar for a reply. I had to wait another ten minutes but I got one.

I'm all ears. James.

I told him the story of what had happened, leaving out the small fact that it was me who broke up with him and what the actual present was I just told him it was something important to him. I even told him about Scarlet coming round and what she said to me and how I didn't even open my mouth. I sent the God knows how many paged message to him. It took him sometime to reply.

You've probably done the worst thing by completely detacthing yourself from him. As for ditching everybody because of it! Big mistake, you need your friends. Oh and please start eating again. James.

He was right. I shouldn't be doing this, I should be depending on my friends to take my mind off it. Not being all depressed and lonely.

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The rest of the weekend was uneventful but James did make me smile with one of his messages. Everything else though was just boring; there was nothing good on TV, no good music on the radio and nothing interesting online.

When Monday morning came round I got up instantly instead of waiting until the last minute. I got ready, doing my make-up and hair and left. I got to school early and found Scarlet and Leighton waiting by Scarlets' car.

"Sacrlet?" I said walking over. It felt weird to hear my own voice after a week.

"Oh, are you talking again now?" She asked glaring at me.

"Listen, I'm sorry for blanking you for the past week. I was messed up. I'm sorry." I told her. She looked at me in silence for ten whole minutes.

"Okay." She replied and hugged me.

"Does this mean you're coming to the funfair with us on Friday?" Leighton asked me sounding cautious. I looked at Scarlet who smiled at me.

"Of course." I replied and Leighton started smiling again.

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I sat with them at lunch, they didn't notice that I didn't eat anything. I think Mikey did; if he did he didn't say anything. It felt normal, we all laughed and joked - Gerard bullied me like normal and shot glares at him for doing it.

It felt like I hadn't been gone.

At the end of lunch Mikey pulled me to one side. "Let me walk you home tonight. We haven't had a chance to talk." He asked me quickly.

"Yeah sure." I replied looking at him and he was just staring back at me.

Suddenly some idiot pushed me into Mikey and I banged my head on his chin. He pulled me away by holding my now size 8 waist (half a dress size in a week, it was actually quite worrying).

"You okay?" He asked me not moving his hands.

"Yeah, just weren't expecting it." I replied rubbing my head. "Come on anyway we have English."

"Oh yeah." He said moving his hands and going slightly red.

We walked to English in silence and it wasn't awkward.