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The rest of the night was just a laugh considering that James' dad kept slipping us the ocassional drink when our mums' weren't looking. The alcohol is probably the reason why I gave James my number (to the phone my dad tries ringing me on)and why I kept kissing him.

The thought of kissing him then when I pulled away Mikey was stood there watching us is what woke me up. The thought made me sit up in bed; I was breathing heavily and I could tell my hair had boffed out in my sleep - I could see it out of the corners of my eyes. As soon as my breathing went back to normal I picked up my normal phone to check my messages. I had nine voicemail messages!

The first was Scarlet going, "He's taken me to the Beastie Boys gig! Thank you so much for telling him that I'd love this. Oh my pumpkins, it's starting. I'll see you on Monday. Bye."

Then there was five off Mikey the last one saying, "Iz, it's Mikey. Please answer. I really want to talk to you, I'm missing you. Anyway I've got to go but please please please ring me when you get this. Love you." The message sounded faintly familar but I couldn't think of where from though.

The next one was off Leighton, "Morning Iz! Guess what's coming to town. Never mind. I'll tell you. A funfair! I know! It's going to be amazing. Anyway ring me later if you get a chance."

There was another one off Scarlet, "I guess you're not up then. Anyway, how was last night? You'll have to tell me later. Oh, the funfair Leighton's talking about sounds like fun; I think we should actually go. Anyway, ring me."

There was another message after that off Mikey again, "Morning, I take it you're either in the shower or just not up. Anyway I have plan for today seen as though it's nice out - we'll go for a picnic; anyway I'll pick you up at half eleven. See you then." I looked at my clock and it read half eleven and there was a knock on the door and I knew it was Mikey because he was always there on time - not a minute before and not a minute after.

I instantly jumped out of bed and into my chair in front of my dressing table; the main thing I had to do was hide the purple in my hair - which I managed to do by putting it up in bunches. Just as I finished doing my hair there was a knock on my bedroom door.

"Yeah?" I called and I watched Mikey walk in through the mirror. As I watched him I realised I hadn't put my contacts in yet; I found the box in my top drawer and it was empty so instead I had to put my glasses on.

"Morning." He greeted me happily.

"Morning." I replied, still with sleep in my voice.

"Am I early?" He asked finally looking at what I'm wearing - my Hello Kitty PJs.

"No, I'm just running late." I told him going over to my wardrobe and pulling out demin knee length shorts and my Dawn of the Dead t-shirt and disappeared out into the bathroom to quickly have a wash and get dressed.

When I went back into my bedroom I placed my PJs under my pillows and made my bed.

"Ready?" He asked me handing me my converse.

"Yep." I saind finishing doing up my converse and standing up.

"Let's go then." He smiled at me and lead the way out of my room.

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I had no idea where we were going until we were a block away from our destination. The old fairground. I would have loved to have seen this place in the eighties when it was open.

When I climbed out of the car Mikey walked up to me with a picnic basket on his arm; he took my hand in his and we walked to the old merry-go-round. As soon as we sat down on the horse and carriage one he instantly pulled a bottle of Ribeana out of the picnic basket and handed it to me. I smiled and started drinking it at once. Mikey know's what I'm like if I don't have a drink within an hour of waking up.

As well as pulling the Ribeana out he pulled out sandwiches, crisps, a tub of Ben and Jerry's and a little present. He handed me one of the sandwiches which turned out to be Italian roasted chicken with stuffing and mayonaise - one of my all time favourite sandwich fillers.

All the way through the picnic I kept glancing at him wondering when the right time would be; but whenever I looked at him he looked really happy and I just couldn't bring myself to bring it up. Not through eating eating the sandwiches and crisps. Not through eating the Ben and Jerry's. I don't know why though, there was something about him that I didn't want to lose.

After a couple of hours it started to get cold so we ended up sitting in his car in silence - to him a comfortable one, to me an akward one. He'd never know that though.

"Oh!" He said breaking the silence, "I got you something." He pulled the little present out again and handed it to me.

I opened it slowly and carefully taking my time on purpose, but once the wrapping paper was off there was no way to prolong opening the jewelery box inside the wrapping paper. I opened the box and sat on top of the velvet cushion was the anchor necklace he always wore and I tried stealing off him when we first got together. I was speechless and he could tell from my wide eyed expression.

"I knew you'd like it." He beamed at me.

"I... You... But... Huh?" I couldn't get any words out of my mouth.

"I know you love this necklace so I thought I'd show you how much I love you by giving it to you." He explained while taking it out of the box and fastening it round my neck, it sat prefectly at the base of my throat.

"I don't know what to say." I replied trying to blink away the tears that are threathening to run over.

"Hey, hey, don't cry." He said while pulling me in for a hug. How could I not? He gave me his favourite necklace to prove how much he loves me and I want to tell him I'm not sure if I actually lcve him.

I'm such a cold hearted cow.

"Sorry." I told him wiping my eyes. "I don't believe you gave me this. It means so much to you and you gave it to me." I just couldn't believe it. He got given this necklace by one of hs heroes and he's just turned round and given it to me.

"You mean more to me than anything and giving you this proves it; because until you came along this was the most important thing to me - I think at one point I actually said I'd die if something happened to it. Now though you're the most important thing to me and I'd die inside if I lost you." He told me, and that was it. The tears over ran and I couldn't stop them.

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We had to wait another half an hour before Mikey could take me home because of all the crying that I did over the present.

When he pulled up to mine he walked me up to the front door, kissed me, told me he loved me and that he'd see me tomorrow at school. I went inside after replying with "yeah, bye." I watched him drive away and waited another five minutes to make sure he was definitely gone I shouted, "It's just me mum, but I'm going for a walk. I'll see you when I get back." I then walked back outside.

After walking ten blocks it started to absolutely chuck it down and I was soaked to the bone in two seconds. I couldn't go home because my mum will know something is up. I couldn't go Leightons' because Frank stayed over last night. I couldn't go Gerards' because Mikey is there. The only other place I could think of was Scarlets'.

Before I conciously made my choice to go there my feet were already leading me there. I was outside her house in less than five minutes, when I knocked on I hoped to God her mum didn't answer. I was lucky for a change because Scarlet answered and all it took was one look at me and she knew I didn't know what to do.

"Hot chocolate, marshmellows, Ben and Jerry's and cookie dough." She said pulling me inside. "Also dry clothes."

I got dragged upstairs into Scarlets' room and she instantly picked out a pair of jeans and a top. I got changed while she went and put the kettle on.

When I came back downstairs and walked into the kitchen I saw a tub of Ben and Jerry's, two spoons, a bag of marshmellows, a packet of cookie dough and two hot chocolates sat on the table. I sat down opposite Scarlet and told her what had happened.

"And you still don't know if you lvoe him?" She asked me once I had finished telling her, I nodded while drinking my drink. "That's actually pretty bad Iz."

"You think I don't know that." I replied, "I want to do the right thing but I don't know now. Like I said I was going to tell him earlier but I couldn't. I didn't want to hurt him."

"I understand that, but I think You should do what you think is right by you. Follow your heart." She told me while pushing my phone towards me.

I sighed and picked up my phone. I typed out the message, thought about it for a minute and then sent it.

The message simply read...

I'm not sure now is the right time for us. I'll return your necklace tomorrow. Iz, xo.

I had a two word reply: Keep it.