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Recommened songs : This is the best day ever (acctually any song from bullets)
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Authors note :Thank you for some of the feedback, Im sorry if adding a title confuses some of you :( I just felt like i need to
Frank’s POV
“And If they get me and the sun goes down into the ground, and if they get me take this… Uh,” I tried my hardest, Gerard , Mikey, and I sat around the kitchen table .
Drinking our coffee’s and trying to write, “Spike to my heart and if they get me and the sun goes down , and if they get me take this spike to my heart and ,” Gerard hesitated,” you put the spike in my heart.”
Mikey was writing down every word,”Oh No, Mikey I was just repeating myself from,” Mikey cut him off, that was a first, it was usually the other way around,” Yes , I know, at first I didn’t notice but … read it!”
He was right, Gerard and I peered at the college ruled sheet of paper. “Gerard, what happened to the other music you showed me the other day,” I looked into Gerard’s eyes, He blushed a little .
Your hiding music from me Gerard!?” Mikey exclaimed. Gerard got up from his black chair. “No I wasn’t in your band at the time Mikey, My lyrics, My Keep, besides ,” He said slyly , “ I’m the one who started the band.”
I was thrown off guard, “Wait What?!” I looked at Mikey then at Gerard. Gerard sighed, “Frank, I witnessed a great tragedy and I started writing lyrics down, It was just Mikey and I, Mikey because he had amazing band names,” He dropped in his seat, “But I dropped it, I thought I had no chance, I thought I was worthless.”
Mikey stood there awkward , He was never really included in these conversation anyways. He stared down at his cell phone ,” Uh I’m going to go meet up with Jeanine, Ray, and Robyn at Starbucks , Please finish atleast one song.” Mikey walked out the door , without needing anything.
“Mikey is so damn lazy, We better get some fucking Starbucks coffee for doing all the work.” He mumbled , I put my hand on his back. He relaxed a little bit.
“I’ll be right back,” He started up the stairs, he stopped for a second, he stood there , not looking back ,”Frank I love you, I just wanted you to know that.” I raised my eyebrow and smirked, “I love you too.”
Gerard’s POV
I swallowed the pills and sipped the alcohol. I wrote down in my notebook, I was Frank’s inspiration, the drugs and pills were mine.
“Every Hour ,On The Hour ,They Drew Blood,” I wrote , I thought of the hospital bed, I thought of how Alex died around the same hour as I did, but I survived. I wrote , “You left my heart, and opened wound , and I love you for this day, someday.” I closed the notebook, I put away my stash.
I wasn’t drunk enough for anyone to notice. I held my notebook out to him, “You want to edit?” Frank closed his phone, “Erm my mom will be home soon, I should get home, clean up, can I take it with me?” his lips perfectly collapsed together.
I nodded and handed him my notebook, ”Are you going to be okay?”
He nodded ,”If anything happens I’ll call you.”
**
I’m guessing nothing happened. He never called, I wish he did call though just so I can hear his voice, One more pill and I’m out. Fuck, I took the last Xanax pill.
I could’ve snorted it like a stupid celebrity but I wasted the others on that.
I drink way too much, I’m surprised Frank hasn’t came to any conclusions on the drugs. I sighed , Well I thought I heard you say to me well go so far, far as we can, and I just can’t stay , one day we’ll run away.
I pleased myself with these lyrics. I wrote, This Is The Best Day Ever at the top of the single sheet of paper, I laid on my bed and slowly fell asleep.
Mikey’s POV
“So I’m not a lonely guitarist anymore?” This seemed to brighten Ray’s mood.
I nodded, “And we don’t have crappy music anymore!” They laughed ,”Well I thought Romance was good.” Ray murmured. I put my hand on his shoulder ,”It was good, but now we have a singer to help us through it all.” He smirked.
Robyn and Jeanine were fighting over something childish, but thats why they were with us, In hard times, we need those people to make us feel safe, I smirked.
I looked over at Ray, I sipped my coffee, and smiled ,"I think we all are a great match, I think the band will change lives, I think we will make it."
Frank’s POV
I erased unneeded lyrics, the songs made very little sense but had such potential behind it all, my room was dark, the only light was my desk light , pointing at Gerard’s a original vibe notebook that held stories of such a weak beautiful heart.
I finished editing some of the lyrics, I closed the notebook, and slipped into my boxers.
If Gerard has been doing drugs… What else has he been lying from me, I picked up my cheap cell phone, my Background was a picture of Alex and Gerard making weird faces that made my day when I saw it.
My Phone screen changed : Incoming call from Mikey "Hello?” My voice was hesitant.
“Frank!?” He exclaimed, the thought of Mikey with blood on his arms, holding the phone crying, as Gerard was sent in an ambulance.
I shook away the bad thoughts ,”What is it Mikey?”
He hesitated, nervous, “Can you sneak out?”
I raised an eyebrow and sat up, “Umm, Ya I guess, why?”
**
I didn’t realize It wasn’t as important as I thought, until I barged in…
Everyone was in their band positions.
”Welcome to practice.” Gerard winked.
“Thank for the update, I was worried!” I looked around.
“Shit!! I forgot Pansy!” I got angry at myself, but noticed everyone had confusion written on their face except Gerard.
“ Its hi guitar.” Gerard assured everyone. “You could always just use one of mine,” Ray pointed out.
“No,” I shook my head, I started to head back,
“Wait! I’ll come with just to make sure your okay.” Gerard came up behind me.
I smirked ,”Okay it’ll be risky but we’ll survive.”
As soon as we were isolated from the rest of the band , he pulled me into a kiss. His lips this time were stained with Drugs, cigarettes, and coffee, An alcoholic best friend is what Gerard told me. Was he drinking?
I was too paralyzed and tired to think.
We walked, the silence drowned it all, the black sky filled my mind of bad thought, but the stars kept me sane.
No lights were on at my house, I climbed through my window,
Gerard looked up “if you need any help , tell me, k?”
I nodded, I quietly put Pansy in her case, it was too silent to be true, I had to get out of there.
I climbed out, the wind blew, I got goose bumps from the cold, Gerard put his hands on my hips and helped me down.
“Why couldn’t you just use the Front door?” he laughed, I smirked, and kissed his smooth lips to shut him up. Tortured eyes, pierced my soul, the love I could never have, we could be together but never wed. I love Gerard, we can get out, we don’t have to stay I can’t take another day here anyways.
We started walking back, she didn’t wake up. As long as we don’t keep falling down, we will succeed, Someday, we will make it to the end. I want to get out of this place, the grass blade hit my shoes, I could only ask for forgiveness but never get a real answer.
Frank’s POV
“And If they get me and the sun goes down into the ground, and if they get me take this… Uh,” I tried my hardest, Gerard , Mikey, and I sat around the kitchen table .
Drinking our coffee’s and trying to write, “Spike to my heart and if they get me and the sun goes down , and if they get me take this spike to my heart and ,” Gerard hesitated,” you put the spike in my heart.”
Mikey was writing down every word,”Oh No, Mikey I was just repeating myself from,” Mikey cut him off, that was a first, it was usually the other way around,” Yes , I know, at first I didn’t notice but … read it!”
He was right, Gerard and I peered at the college ruled sheet of paper. “Gerard, what happened to the other music you showed me the other day,” I looked into Gerard’s eyes, He blushed a little .
Your hiding music from me Gerard!?” Mikey exclaimed. Gerard got up from his black chair. “No I wasn’t in your band at the time Mikey, My lyrics, My Keep, besides ,” He said slyly , “ I’m the one who started the band.”
I was thrown off guard, “Wait What?!” I looked at Mikey then at Gerard. Gerard sighed, “Frank, I witnessed a great tragedy and I started writing lyrics down, It was just Mikey and I, Mikey because he had amazing band names,” He dropped in his seat, “But I dropped it, I thought I had no chance, I thought I was worthless.”
Mikey stood there awkward , He was never really included in these conversation anyways. He stared down at his cell phone ,” Uh I’m going to go meet up with Jeanine, Ray, and Robyn at Starbucks , Please finish atleast one song.” Mikey walked out the door , without needing anything.
“Mikey is so damn lazy, We better get some fucking Starbucks coffee for doing all the work.” He mumbled , I put my hand on his back. He relaxed a little bit.
“I’ll be right back,” He started up the stairs, he stopped for a second, he stood there , not looking back ,”Frank I love you, I just wanted you to know that.” I raised my eyebrow and smirked, “I love you too.”
Gerard’s POV
I swallowed the pills and sipped the alcohol. I wrote down in my notebook, I was Frank’s inspiration, the drugs and pills were mine.
“Every Hour ,On The Hour ,They Drew Blood,” I wrote , I thought of the hospital bed, I thought of how Alex died around the same hour as I did, but I survived. I wrote , “You left my heart, and opened wound , and I love you for this day, someday.” I closed the notebook, I put away my stash.
I wasn’t drunk enough for anyone to notice. I held my notebook out to him, “You want to edit?” Frank closed his phone, “Erm my mom will be home soon, I should get home, clean up, can I take it with me?” his lips perfectly collapsed together.
I nodded and handed him my notebook, ”Are you going to be okay?”
He nodded ,”If anything happens I’ll call you.”
**
I’m guessing nothing happened. He never called, I wish he did call though just so I can hear his voice, One more pill and I’m out. Fuck, I took the last Xanax pill.
I could’ve snorted it like a stupid celebrity but I wasted the others on that.
I drink way too much, I’m surprised Frank hasn’t came to any conclusions on the drugs. I sighed , Well I thought I heard you say to me well go so far, far as we can, and I just can’t stay , one day we’ll run away.
I pleased myself with these lyrics. I wrote, This Is The Best Day Ever at the top of the single sheet of paper, I laid on my bed and slowly fell asleep.
Mikey’s POV
“So I’m not a lonely guitarist anymore?” This seemed to brighten Ray’s mood.
I nodded, “And we don’t have crappy music anymore!” They laughed ,”Well I thought Romance was good.” Ray murmured. I put my hand on his shoulder ,”It was good, but now we have a singer to help us through it all.” He smirked.
Robyn and Jeanine were fighting over something childish, but thats why they were with us, In hard times, we need those people to make us feel safe, I smirked.
I looked over at Ray, I sipped my coffee, and smiled ,"I think we all are a great match, I think the band will change lives, I think we will make it."
Frank’s POV
I erased unneeded lyrics, the songs made very little sense but had such potential behind it all, my room was dark, the only light was my desk light , pointing at Gerard’s a original vibe notebook that held stories of such a weak beautiful heart.
I finished editing some of the lyrics, I closed the notebook, and slipped into my boxers.
If Gerard has been doing drugs… What else has he been lying from me, I picked up my cheap cell phone, my Background was a picture of Alex and Gerard making weird faces that made my day when I saw it.
My Phone screen changed : Incoming call from Mikey "Hello?” My voice was hesitant.
“Frank!?” He exclaimed, the thought of Mikey with blood on his arms, holding the phone crying, as Gerard was sent in an ambulance.
I shook away the bad thoughts ,”What is it Mikey?”
He hesitated, nervous, “Can you sneak out?”
I raised an eyebrow and sat up, “Umm, Ya I guess, why?”
**
I didn’t realize It wasn’t as important as I thought, until I barged in…
Everyone was in their band positions.
”Welcome to practice.” Gerard winked.
“Thank for the update, I was worried!” I looked around.
“Shit!! I forgot Pansy!” I got angry at myself, but noticed everyone had confusion written on their face except Gerard.
“ Its hi guitar.” Gerard assured everyone. “You could always just use one of mine,” Ray pointed out.
“No,” I shook my head, I started to head back,
“Wait! I’ll come with just to make sure your okay.” Gerard came up behind me.
I smirked ,”Okay it’ll be risky but we’ll survive.”
As soon as we were isolated from the rest of the band , he pulled me into a kiss. His lips this time were stained with Drugs, cigarettes, and coffee, An alcoholic best friend is what Gerard told me. Was he drinking?
I was too paralyzed and tired to think.
We walked, the silence drowned it all, the black sky filled my mind of bad thought, but the stars kept me sane.
No lights were on at my house, I climbed through my window,
Gerard looked up “if you need any help , tell me, k?”
I nodded, I quietly put Pansy in her case, it was too silent to be true, I had to get out of there.
I climbed out, the wind blew, I got goose bumps from the cold, Gerard put his hands on my hips and helped me down.
“Why couldn’t you just use the Front door?” he laughed, I smirked, and kissed his smooth lips to shut him up. Tortured eyes, pierced my soul, the love I could never have, we could be together but never wed. I love Gerard, we can get out, we don’t have to stay I can’t take another day here anyways.
We started walking back, she didn’t wake up. As long as we don’t keep falling down, we will succeed, Someday, we will make it to the end. I want to get out of this place, the grass blade hit my shoes, I could only ask for forgiveness but never get a real answer.
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