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I Think I’d Love To Die Alone
“I just wanted you to know,” Gerard’s piercing hazel eyes, shot me, I nodded and hugged him. He turned away, “Gerard…” I handed him a letter… “You’re going to need this.” It was printed on a cream colored paper but has blood stains and a black lace outline. “Take care of Frankie for me,” He nodded and smiled, “Take care of Elena for me.”

My long black hair swept in front of my face, my wrist hurt, and my eyes were still filled with the warm tears. I turned away from him, Gerard this is my point of view, this is what you need to see…. It faded to black, a blurry memory came into view but…

That’s when I woke up….. Gerard’s POV

I sat up in my bed, my alarm was going off, 5:30, I put my hand on my head, what kind of a dream was that, and It was a different persons point of view.

Mikey was in my bathroom straightening his hair, ”Oh Good Gee you’re up!”
I got up, “Hi Mikey,” I moved my lips, they made that nom nom sound, I looked in the mirror, my veins visible, my shoulder length jet black hair knotted, and a Hair Straightening brother next to me.

I never noticed it , but Mikey and I were starting to have the same features. He had my mom’s lighter hair though. “What are you staring at?” he laughed.
“Mikey , you are going to be one fine piece of man one day , “ I laughed so hard I clutched my side, “ You are starting to look like me.”
He raised in eyebrow, “Shut up!” he bit his laugh trying not to laugh,” Does that mean boys are going to like me too? Damn I hope so, one day I want to be hit on by a guy at the mall! It would be fucking hilarious!” He fell to the floor laughing.

“God Mikey, I’m fucking glad we’re close, or this would not be sliding like that,” I started combing my should length , raven colored, hair. I put on my skinny jeans, a red shit, and my black jacket with time to spare. Time for some coffee and cigarettes.

**
Mikey and I walked, I looked down at his Misfits shoes. We passed the gates to hell, I walked in the hallway, they had a little Alters for students who passed away , I saw Alex’s.

Alex’s face, and pictures of Alex with everyone, Kate, Jeanine, Robyn, Mikey, Me, but the one that hurt the most was Alex and Frank, smiling dorky. Was it really Frank who did it or was it my drugs. I shook those thoughts away.

Familiar hands covered my eyes, “Boo!” I turned around, Frankie smiled. He looked at the alter , “These past months have been tough, Gee.” He pulled me into a hug. Mikey smirked ,”I got to get to go to my science class, Mrs. Nivilow needed me to help her with something.”

We walked the halls, Frank guided me to a certain hallway,” Gerard, this is the hallway I had to clean all my blood off the floor. It was raining outside, the sky was turning black, and I was crying. But a nice lady took me in… That day I laid my eyes on a beautiful boy, I fell in love with him.”

It was true, the day I saw Frank he was leaving my Grandma’s house, blood stained his face, his lonely tortured eyes fixed on mine. I couldn’t help but cry a little, I wiped it before any of the other kids saw.

Every kid was in their little huddled clique, but Frank and I were in the middle of them all, it was just us in my mind. But my mind went to the thought, my mom has to get my pills today. Thank god.

“Frank,” Our eyes met like how I wanted our lips to meet, “ What did you say in Italian that night we went out for pizza?” He blushed and hesitated.

Frank’s hand went into his jacket pocket, he pulled out a red wallet, he opened it and smirked. He looked up, “Okay don’t be mad,” He handed me a picture, a picture of Alex and me. I remember that day , in my old school halls, we were really high of like paint fumes of sharpies, and Mikey thought it would be hilarious to take that picture, Damn we look young, I think we were uh 15?

My mind wondered through old past thoughts, from happy thoughts of my old school friends and meeting Frank, to terrible thoughts of people jumping off 360 foot skyscrapers.

The thoughts faded, “ So what is this suppose to explain?” Frank’s long fingers flipped the page, his fading black nail polish caught my eye, was that mine? I sucked in the tears when I read what it said.

“I said Non c'è spazio in questo inferno, non c'è spazio nel prossimo, Gerard ha promesso che avrebbe vi seppellire in nero, ma voglio mantenere la parola data, perché ti amo which is Italian for ,” he cleared his throat, “There is no room in this hell, there is no room in the next, Gerard promised that he would bury you in black, but I want to keep that promise, because I love you… They just came out of my lips,”

During the funeral no one had much to say, not a lot of people knew her anyway, Frank I guess had something to say but never said it when he should have. The bell rang, I hugged him, a tear grew from my eye and stained frank’s jacket.

Frank’s POV

I didn’t pay attention in class, today I thought If I focus on my classmates I could see their auras. Yes I know I’m stupid but it’s better than fucking math.

There was a girl with four bracelets on each arm, a badass beaded skeleton one on both arms, a brown catholic saint bracelet on the right arm, and colorful beads.

Dark long brown hair, redish highlights, and her bangs swayed in front of her deep almost black brown eyes. Tan Olive skin, purple skinny jeans, black and white stripped jacket.
Her aura in my mind wasn’t a color it was a picture of Alex.

I shook my head and focused on a blonde girl, her name was uh Stacey I think. She always had that I’m-a-bitch written look on her face. Pink shirt, fucking skanky short shorts, and stripper heels. I looked away, and shivered, I didn’t even want to know what she was like.

I tried to look at one guys, “Frank Iero is a Faggot!!” I heard a voice from the back of the room yell. Someone threw a crumpled ball of paper at the back of my head.

“Calm Down class! ,” Mr.Kreger said. Atleast I want bleeding…. Yet.
**

The 5th period bell rang… lunch. I stood next to Mikey knowing Gerard would come, Mikey wrapped his arm around my waist, and hugged me. “Mikey are you drunk?” I said in shock.
He shook his head, “No!! shh Gerard coming!”

Gerard ran at the sight ,”What the Fuck Mikey?!” He pulled me over, “ I don’t get a hug from you!” Mikey and Gerard laughed and hugged.
I smirked, “What no hug for me?”
Gerard gave me something more, His lips locked on mine, his tongue waited entry, and I let it venture in my mouth. I did the same with his, people were calling us ,fags, emos, gays, and dumbasses.

Gerard tasted of alcohol, coffee, and cigarettes. I didn’t really mind it at all, I enjoyed Gerard’s taste. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his around my waist.

We both pulled away, Robyn, Jeanine, and Kate had the biggest grins on their faces. Wide eyes and jaws fell. Mikey, Ray, and Bob had a different point of view, they were confused, disturbed, but still had a I’m-happy-for-you-both look.

We sat down, I was smiling like an idiot. People stopped paying attention to us and to something more disturbing.

Someone threw a sandwich at my head, Gerard turned red with frustration, “What the Hell!?” I turned around… “Well Well, You thought you could run away from me?” A smiling Bert stared, his long greasy hair, his pretty much a uni-brow stared me down.

“I saw that love fest, I have nothing wrong with gays, it just you.” He stared at Gerard.
Gerard stayed strong, stared back, no sign of hesitation.
“How the fuck did you get out!” I spat. Bert’s ugly smirk and eyes aimed on me.
“They’re coming probably, oh Frankie I have connections, but I came here for a personal reason.”

Gerard grinned, “ Getting ass raped wasn’t enough for you to learn your lesson.”
Bert winced as if a bad memory came into mind, “Oh trust me, I will avenge my innocence and sanity.”

I shook my head, “It’s not like you had any.”
The bracelet girl with long brown hair from my math class, was looking over from afar, as if she knew something we all didn’t know.