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If anyone reads this, I'm sorry about the wait, it's been over a year. Long story. But this will be finished.

27.

They were all standing in the school yard behind the gym. Kids surrounded them from all sides. Gerard stood in the middle with his hand around Liam's throat. The kids chanted "FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!" I knew it wouldn't be too long now until a teacher would hear and arrive at the scene. Liam's friends stood behind him and made no move to intervene. I had hoped when Gerard found Liam, that Mikey, Ray and Bob would be there to deal with it. But so far there was no sign of any of them. Gerard hadn't spoken to me about what had happened when he woke up this morning, but I could tell when we were on the way to school by his determined walk and the constant clenching of his jaw that he had not forgotten. I pushed my way through the crowd and slowly approached Gerard. He had one of his hands at Liam's throat and the other was punching him in the stomach in between whispered words.

I could barely recognise the Gerard in front of me anymore. His angelic features were distorted by the hatred that was painted all over his face as he stared at Liam. I couldn't put this boy in the same category as the one who had taken me, loved me all that time ago. I didn't want this Gerard, I wanted my old one back.

"Gerard?" I called, my voice wavered but sounded strong enough. He shifted his eyes over to glance at me but did not release Liam from his grip. "Gerard, come on. Stop it, no more. Let's just go." I said. I wanted to reach out and stroke his arm, anything that would break him out of his rage. "Go where Frankie?" He asked. I looked around, all eyes were on me. "Um, anywhere. Away from here before someone comes." My voice had changed to one of pleading. Gerard snickered and as he spoke to me continued looking at Liam. "Who cares if someone comes? I don't care what they do to me. But pricks like this don't get the punishment they deserve. They think they can take advantage of anyone and do what they want." "Gerard tha-" "No Frankie." He cut me off. "If I had been completely fucked last night and Mikey hadn't of been there he would have beaten the shit out of you, and your pretty little face would have been covered in bruises."

I looked at Liam who had his eyes on Gerard, he looked terrified. "I don't care Gerard. Can we please just go?" This time I did touch him. I pulled on his arm and he retracted away from my touch like it had burnt him. He pushed Liam away and turned to me. "Do you care about anything? What would make you actually stand up and fight? Are you really that pathetic?" He walked closer to me as he spoke. "Are you really that weak?"

Out of the corner of my eye I looked at the kids surrounding us, they were still chanting but it was now directed towards us. I stared at Gerard, open mouthed and panting. I didn't reply and I could see he was about to turn his attention back to Liam. I took one step towards him, grabbed him by the back of the neck and before he could pull away, I kissed him. In front of everyone I smashed my lips onto his. Gerard froze for a second at the shock of it, but he soon wrapped an arm around me to keep me glued to his chest. The kids around us were no longer chanting together, they were yelling different things together that I did not bother to decipher. Gerard used one of his hands to push my fringe out of my eyes and angle my face up towards him further so he could deepen the kiss. I could feel him melt beneath my lips, I could feel the tension leave his body and his muscles relax. I could feel my criminal returning to me. I eventually pulled away and rested my forehead against his. "Please Gerard, can we go?" I whispered.

He grabbed my hand in his and began to pull me out of the crowd and towards the school gates. Everyone was silent as we walked away and I couldn't bear to glance back at their faces, afraid of what I might or might not see. I just let Gerard's gentle hands and firm grasp lead me away. Mikey appeared at the gates just as we were leaving as if he had been purposefully missing the fight and had timed his appearance perfectly. "I kissed Gerard in front of everyone." I said with a blank expression on my face, I wasn't quite sure whether I regretted it or not. He nodded in response. "Yep, it's gonna be a long day."

Gerard and I walked silently hand in hand down the street towards my house. "You kissed me." He said. "Yes I did." Those were the only words we exchanged for the entire walk. Upon reaching my house however, he turned towards me and just as he was about to open his mouth, the door to my house opened and my mother and father appeared at the steps. I quickly let go of Gerard's hands and turned to face them, my brain already working to find an excuse as to why I had left school early. "Don't touch him." My mother barked at Gerard. "Wha-" Before I could get a word out my father cut in. "Tell us it isn't true Frank." I looked at Gerard who was staring down my parents with his hands in his pockets. "What isn't true?" I asked confused. My mother put her hand over her mouth, composing herself before answering me. "Your principal called, you were in a fight? You.." She trailed off and took a deep breath before continuing. "You kissed Gerard. You kissed a.. a boy?"

I felt the heat spreading to my cheeks. "What? No. That.. What? I did not.. It was.. No." I was stammering, unable to form a complete sentence of any kind. "Yes that's true, what the principal said is true." I froze and slowly turned to look at Gerard who had decided to speak up. "We dated, it ended, and then today, not even half an hour ago, he kissed me." Gerard was looking directly at my parents and I knew that no matter what I said would make them forget the clear sincerity in his voice. "What?" My mother looked at me and then focused back on Gerard. "Frank. Is. Gay." He said, spelling out for my parents what I had never wanted to even admit to myself. I was sure now, I regretted the kiss. I regretted Gerard. And so I did what I do best, I ran away.