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Frank's pov.
I watched as Elly and Trace got on the bus, I sighed looking down.

"he bothers you doesnt he" Mason asked. I looked up at him and nodded.
"look I'm sorry I know hes your friend but.."
"no its okay, like you and elly I'm trying to give him a chance again, but I still feel a little uneasy around him to"
"ya, you know im pissed about what he did to elly, but I did it to, but he hurt you in the process, and honestly the main reason why I'm uneasy with him is because I'm scared that he will get her back, thats my biggest fear" I nodded taking a ciggerate out and lighting it taking a drag. i opened up the box and offered mason one.

"thanks man" he replied taking it.
"you know you shouldnt worry about elly going back to him, i see how she looks at you and trust me man she loves you and she would never do anything to mess that up" he replied taking a drag.
"i know she wouldnt its him i dont trust, but your right elly is with me and I know she loves me, and I just want to make her happy" I smiled.
'hey man you will you..." mason stopped suddenly when we saw Elly run past us.
"what the hell" I got up and I ran after her.
"Elly" I yelled out but she just kept going, i kept up with her until she finally stopped collapsing onto the grass crying.

"love what happened" I kneeled beside her taking her into my arms as she cried.
"Gerard hates me" She said hugging me tighter.
"wait what,"
"i walked in and heard him saying how disappointed he was in me for trusting trace again and for..." she shook her head covering her face with her hands.
"for what else love tell me"she looked up at me and i reached down wiping her tears.
"for being engaged to you" I stayed quiet I didnt even know what to say to her, here i was thinking gerard was my friend, he was the one who encourged me to not give up on elly.
"wow um i..." i just sighed letting go of her and sitting back.
"i dont know why he feels that way frankie" she whispered still crying.
"i dont think hes ever gonna be happy if you stay with me or with trace, he hates us for what we did to you" I replied looking up at the sky.
"i dont care if hes not happy, he had part in what happened to us, to me and you frankie, this has nothing to do with trace he made his own bed that day."
"I know but gerard doesnt trust me, he never will i dont know what else i have to do to prove to him im good enough for you"
"you dont have to prove anything to him, you did to me all that matters is the trust between me and you not him or anybody else" i felt her grab my hand and i linked my fingers thru hers sqeezing tight.
"but love it does matter, were getting married im becoming a part of your family and your becoming apart of mine, how can we be husband and wife and have your family hate me and not really be happy that your with me" i looked down at her and I could see the hurt in her eyes.
"so what are you saying then you dont want to marry me because of gerard"
"love i dont know maybe we..." she pulled her hand out of mine and got up.
"no its fine i understand so i guess you want this back" she said taking off her ring and putting it in my hand.
"no love its not..."
"no its okay, I guess gerard wins again huh" she said walking away.
I watched her walking away and i just there letting her go again. I was never gonna be good enough for her, I sighed getting up and made my way back to the bus. I got back to the side of the bus and I saw Mikey and gerard argueing. They turned to look at me and i just shook my head sitting down by the fire.
"hey man look im sorry about gerard" Mikey replied sitting next to me.
"dont be sorry for him, mikes i dont know what else to do to get him to trust me"
"look i dont know what is up about gerard but you two need to be together, shes breaking apart in there, i know you want to get his trust but he needs to get over it, im happy for you guys my mom is happy and i know your family is happy, dont let her go"
I looked over at gerard and he just turned the other way, and I sighed"i dont know what to do i cant break your family apart im sorry Mikey but I cant" I said getting up and i decided to go and take a walk to clear my mind.

ELLY'S POV

I listened to frankie as I felt my heart break.

"but love it does matter, were getting married im becoming a part of your family and your becoming apart of mine, how can we be husband and wife and have your family hate me and not really be happy that your with me" he said as he looked into my eyes and I could feel my heart hurting.I took a deep breath and hoped what i asked him next wasnt what he wanted.

"so what are you saying then you dont want to marry me because of gerard"
"love i dont know maybe we..." i quickly pulled my hand out of his and got up, feeling the tears flow.
"no its fine i understand so i guess you want this back" I said feeling my hands shake as I took off my ring and put it in his hands.
"no love its not..." i just shook my head and cut him off completely.
"no its okay, I guess gerard wins again huh" i replied and walked away and went back to the bus.

"hey what happened are you okay" Mason came up to me and I just shook my head hugging him tightly.
"come on lets go on the bus okay"I just nodded crying into his chest.
"hey is she okay" I heard trace's voice but i didnt look up at him.
"ya man dont worry ill catch up with you later" I heard Mason say as we walked towards the bus and walked inside
"elles im sorry" I looked up and I just stared at gerard and shook my head "i guess you get your way again huh, im not getting married so dont worry about it anymore, you can be happy, but why cant I' I said walking past him.
"goddamn it elly, dont you see how can you be happy with him dont forget what he did to you and how you could you just be friends with trace after everything, dont you see that i just want whats best for you, I dont want you to end up like mom" i turned back around and i grabbed a cup off the shelf and threw it at him.

"what the fuck" he yelled grabbing his head.
"DONT YOU EVER..EVER COMPARE TO THEM DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME, HOW DARE YOU GERARD!!!" I yelled running towards him trying to hit but Mason grabbed me taking me to my room.
"I HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU GERARD" i sceamed trying to go out there again but Mason got in front of me and slammed the door shut.I sat on my bed and i tried to catch my breath feeling the anger inside me.


'what was that about" Mason asked kneeling in front of me.
"frankie doesnt want to marry anymore, I overheard Gerard telling Mikey that he was disappointed in me for trying to be trace's friend and for being engaged to frankie"
"but why"
"he says its because of what they both did to me, but Mase I chose to forgive them, how does that make me a bad person or stupid like he put it."
"your not stupid and your not a bad person elles, you forgave them because you wanted to, I know you, and i know that you could never hate anyone because your heart wont let and thats not a bad thing, i saw how much frank worked to get you to trust him and i know trace is gonna do the same your stupid dont ever feel like your wrong or stupid elles" he said grabbing my hands.
"i just cant hate them, its not in me i just want him to understand why i chose to do it, but i know he wont and now i dont have frankie anymore, mase i cant be with out him i cant" i started crying again and he got up sitting beside me and hugging me tight.
" you didnt lose him elles"
"yes i did" i whispered.
"elles what did gerard mean he didnt want you to end up like your mom" mason asked and i just stayed quiet for a little bit.
"if you dont want to tell me its okay" i shook my head and looked up at him.

"my dad lost his job when i was 5 and he just became very depressed and angry he went out everyday to look for work but always came back with nothing new, eventually we had to move to a smaller house because we couldnt afford to to live in our old house anymore. my dad started getting really angry becasue he started noticing that most of our money was going to my asthma treatments, i was born with a really bad kidney and severe asthma so i had to go to alot of treatments and they became very expensive eventually my dad starte drinking heavly and he was always so mad and he started getting really angry all the time, and it was always directed towards me, there were times he just stop coming home and he would start getting really weird calls from different women didnt take genious to get that my dad was cheating on my mom, the first time he hit my mom he was in the kitchen figting with gerard and my mom ran in there and i made the mistake of running after her and he turned to look at me and he was just seething with anger and the one thing he said to me was "its your fault we live in this shit hole if i could have killed you in your crib to have skipped this misery i would have done it in a heart beat" he then tried to grab me and gerard hit him but my dad was so much stronger and he just started hitting him and my mom tried to stop him and i remember he just punched her and threw her against our stove and she fell passing out. after that happened gerard begged my mom to leave but she couldnt gerard was really bitter until social services was alerted and they came and they just took my dad away"
"so wait gerard is comparing you two to that, why"
"because of the night frankie and trace were fighting until that night no one in my whole life had ever put there hands on me to hurt me so when i tried to stop frankie and trace from fighting he saw frankie shove me towards the benches mase we were left so fucked up when my dad left, and seeing trace and frankie cheat on me and frankie supposely hit me it just i guess i dont know even know."
"he would never do that to you, elles you really need to talk to your brother you cant let him think that frankie would do that if you two stayed together"
"he wont listen mase" I laid back on my bed and curled into a ball as i cried"
"elles" mase whispered as i felt him pull the confitor over us and pull me against him.
"he doesnt want me mase and if he doesnt want me then i dont want him im tired of fighting and i just cant do it anymore"
"elles i dont want to see you unhappy so please dont give up" he whispered.
'i really dont want to I love him with all my heart, I want to fight for him I dont want to lose him and be unhappy" i cried until i fell asleep.