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Frank's POV

The last couple of months flew past us. The twins' fifth birthday is only a few days away. They are so big now. I can't believe they are turning five. In just a few short months they will start school. It seems like just yesterday that I was rocking them to sleep and changing their diapers.

Secret is approaching the fourth month of her pregnancy and she is beginning to show. The small curvature of a forming baby bump can be seen through her shirts now. It makes me smile to see that small rounding of her stomach.

The fear of these babies not being mine is always at the back of my mind but I am doing the best I can not to let Secret see. I know in the end I will love these babies either way. I know it will hurt if they are Pete's but at least I know he will love them unconditionally as I do Lyric and Rayne.

I haven't heard from Zacky since February but I know his phone call is inevitable. I know the stripper will eventually want something from one or both of us. I hope everyday with everything I have that this woman's kid is not mine. I can not even begin to fathom the hurt Secret will feel if that kid is mine. I regret what I did every fucking day. I wish more than anything I could take it back but life does not work that way. We make mistakes and we must live with the consequences no matter how dire they are.

I lay in bed watching Secret sleep as these thoughts bounced around my head. A smile spread across my face at how angelic she looked curled onto her side with her hands tucked beneath her chin. Her dark hair splayed messily across her face and her pink lips were parted slightly as light snores tumbled out. My cell rang pulling me from my staring contest with Secret's sleeping form. I didn't even check the caller id before answering.

"Hello?"

"Hey Frankie, we gotta talk."

I sighed down the phone. "About what, Zacky?"

"Come on Frank, I think you know."

"What does she want?"

"She says she just wants to talk. Face to face. All three of us."

"I don't think Secret is going to agree to that."

"Bring her with you then."

I snorted. "Why, so Secret can rip her face off?"

"Come on Frank, we've got to cooperate as much as possible. She could expose us, dude."

"Okay fine. I will talk to Secret and call you back."

"Fine. Just do it soon."

"Yeah, yeah. Bye Zacky."

"Later Frank."

I sighed as I closed my phone and replaced it on the nightstand. I rolled back over to see Secret was no longer sleeping.

"What did Zacky want?"

"You probably don't want to know."

"Is it something to do with the stripper?"

I frowned. "Yeah."

"What does she want?"

"She wants to sit down and talk to me and Zacky about the situation."

"I think you should do it."

I gaped at her as if she had two heads. "What?"

"I think you should but I want to be there, too."

"Secret, I don't-"

"Look Frank, we are the ones that got ourselves into this fucked up situation so now we have to make do with what we have. Call Zacky back and tell him to set it up."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes."

I plucked my phone from the nightstand and dialed Zacky's number.

Ring. Ring. Ring.

"Yo?"

"Hey man, set this thing up."

"When?"

"As soon as possible. I just want to get it over with."

"Okay. I'll call you back later with the details."

"Okay. Later Zacky."

"Bye Frank."

I sighed as I once again replaced my cell on the nightstand then rolled back over to face Secret.

"Secret?"

"Hmm?"

"I love you."

"I love you more."

"Nah-uh. I love you mostest."

"Forever and always."

"Always and forever."

I smiled and kissed the tip of her nose. She curled into my side and buried her head into my bare chest. I buried my face in her hair and kissed the top of her head.

"Frankie?"

"Yeah?"

"Why do we always hurt the ones we love the most?"

"I don't know, baby. I don't know."

"Frankie, I'm scared."

I lifted her face to mine and looked deep into her eyes.

"Of what, baby?"

"Of everything. What if these babies are not yours? What if the stripper's baby is?"

I squeezed her small frame tightly against my chest.

"It doesn't matter anymore if these babies are biologically mine or not. I thought we already discussed this. I will love them regardless. It will hurt but we will get through it like we do every other obstacle in our lives. I promise. As for the other baby, I don't know. I will be there for the child if it is mine but I really hope it's not. If it is, I just hope you can forgive me."

"I am not going anywhere, baby. I will be with you until the very end of everything."

I smiled down at her before kissing her lips gently. I truly love this girl with everything in me and I will until the day I die.

Later that day Zacky called back and set up the meeting. The only free day Zacky had just happened to be Saturday which was the day of the twins' birthday party. Neither Secret or I was thrilled with this fact but we knew this meeting was necessary.


I am so sorry this took so long to get out. I have been dealing with a lot of crap the last couple of weeks and I just haven't had the time to update. Again, I am so sorry. I am also sorry this is a filler but since things have calmed down some I will hopefully be able to update more regularly again.

xo britt