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Chapter Ten~
I looked around and wondered where I was. There was a tree... That was basically it. Then I saw a couple, and noticed it was Gerard and Natalie.
Gerard had brown paint all over him, and he was with Natalie. She had white paint all over her. It was kinda creepy.. She was also wearing a white dress.
I heard Gerard start singing an unfamiliar tune.
"Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Well come on, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
Whenever he sang "I don't love you", he looked at me. It bugged me a lot.
Then, I saw Gerard kiss Natalie, and my heart broke into a thousand glittery pieces.
I woke up sweating and upset, and I felt tears falling from my eyes. I quickly wiped them away and looked at the clock.
Only 5:47am. It was too early to get up, but I didn't want another dream like that.
I sat up, then walked to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and thought.
Why does he want me? I'm nothing, he'd be better with Natalie.
I was still crying, but I didn't stop the tears. I went back to my bedroom and sat on my bed.
I put my face in my hands and cried. I kept thinking about why he would be with me, trying to find some reasons.
I had none, except maybe he just liked me a lot. Very low possibility.
I eventually calmed down and curled up on my bed, just staring at the wall. I had a bunch of posters up. I examined them.
Green Day, Misfits, Metalica, Slipknot. All bands I loved.
I was thinking about those bands, then my alarm went off and scared the shit out of me. 7:30am
I sighed and got dressed. Then smudged some red eyeliner on and walked downstairs.
I wasn't really hungry but I'd regret it if I didn't eat so I had some toast.
Oh yeah, Gerard usually comes and picks me up for school.
That'll be awkward.. I'm good at faking my emotions though.
I heard a knock at the door.
I got up and got it, then saw Gerard's smiling face and he pulled me into a hug.
Speak of the devil and he shall appear.
I hugged him back and he kissed my neck.
"Morning, love." he said softly.
"Morning." I said and smiled at him.
I laced up my Converse, got my bag, and left.
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:3 Hope you like this. It's sad, yes. But things'll get better, right?
I looked around and wondered where I was. There was a tree... That was basically it. Then I saw a couple, and noticed it was Gerard and Natalie.
Gerard had brown paint all over him, and he was with Natalie. She had white paint all over her. It was kinda creepy.. She was also wearing a white dress.
I heard Gerard start singing an unfamiliar tune.
"Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Well come on, come on
When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"
Whenever he sang "I don't love you", he looked at me. It bugged me a lot.
Then, I saw Gerard kiss Natalie, and my heart broke into a thousand glittery pieces.
I woke up sweating and upset, and I felt tears falling from my eyes. I quickly wiped them away and looked at the clock.
Only 5:47am. It was too early to get up, but I didn't want another dream like that.
I sat up, then walked to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and thought.
Why does he want me? I'm nothing, he'd be better with Natalie.
I was still crying, but I didn't stop the tears. I went back to my bedroom and sat on my bed.
I put my face in my hands and cried. I kept thinking about why he would be with me, trying to find some reasons.
I had none, except maybe he just liked me a lot. Very low possibility.
I eventually calmed down and curled up on my bed, just staring at the wall. I had a bunch of posters up. I examined them.
Green Day, Misfits, Metalica, Slipknot. All bands I loved.
I was thinking about those bands, then my alarm went off and scared the shit out of me. 7:30am
I sighed and got dressed. Then smudged some red eyeliner on and walked downstairs.
I wasn't really hungry but I'd regret it if I didn't eat so I had some toast.
Oh yeah, Gerard usually comes and picks me up for school.
That'll be awkward.. I'm good at faking my emotions though.
I heard a knock at the door.
I got up and got it, then saw Gerard's smiling face and he pulled me into a hug.
Speak of the devil and he shall appear.
I hugged him back and he kissed my neck.
"Morning, love." he said softly.
"Morning." I said and smiled at him.
I laced up my Converse, got my bag, and left.
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:3 Hope you like this. It's sad, yes. But things'll get better, right?
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