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me and my twin have been on this bus four about 2 hours and we have torn the kitchen up to find the dam bloody pop tarts only to be told that they didn’t have any so we continued our rampage of a search for apples and oranges just to not find any of that ether and with that we just settled with a hug cup of coffee for both of us to share putting sugar and milk in it because they didn’t have creamer so we settled with the next best thing milk!

“why do you guys don’t have oranges or apples?”
“yeah whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy don’t you have pop tarts ether?” I whined out looking at mikey with really cute puppy eyes while my sister did looking at frank groaning just slightly as our coffee was finished and I got up putting it into the sink rinsing it out and walking into the back were my sisters favorite drum set was taking a set and pulsing out a bet onto it getting a mad idea as I grabbed a note pad getting some lyrics in my head at the bet and writing them down and soon I had everything with that done and I recorded the music one instrument at a time mashing them together to make the accompany or back ground music for a singer and I started to sing seeing how everything went and how the melody was with my voice when warning came in smiling
“what?”
“you just made a number one hit didn’t you?”
“why do you think im getting the music just right now come on over here and help me sing”
“fine by me” she said walking over and sitting by me grabbing an extra sheet and looking at it singing some with me

………”some times I get that feeling that’s eating away at me its hard even take a breath when its failing to let me see I’ve suffered all these memories that’s never going away its always on mind and one day ill let you see……

So take my hand ill let you feel everything that’s running in my mind today ill let you take my breath away like you used to do when we were okay…..for trusting you so honestly I never thought that it would fall and let me live my life in fear cause baby its all I have that’s holding on me so dearly ……

But never seeing what’s its worth its always the burning in my throat that brings you forth the memories that hold you dear that run around like kids in fear so hold me tight and never leave honey you will never feel that pain and how its so real…..

So take my hand ill let you feel everything that’s running in my mind today ill let you take my breath away like you used to do when we were okay…..for trusting you so honestly I never thought that it would fall and let me live my life in fear cause baby its all I have that’s holding on me so dearly ……”

We finished only half before I ran over to the trash can and threw up my guts hurting at everything violent hurl that rippled my body making it hurt and spasm as a new wave hit me I hurled yelling out a muffled yell as all of my stomach contents emptied out into the trash can making me slump down to the ground as warning held up my hair away from my face so nothing could get into it and it took me a few to atuly get my pale small body up but I did walking out of the room and over to mikey tugging on his shirt to get his attention

“yes ummm? Warning?”
“no I’ Halloween”
“okay what’s wrong you look sick Hun.”
“I threw up and I don’t feel so good mikey” I say hearing a my voice crake I never get any help when I’ sick and I’ actually asking some one to help some one shot me but I do have a crush of shut up Halloween! He’s never going to like you
“okay come here Hun.” he said patting his lap for me to sit which I did laying my head down on his chest shivering slightly but falling to sleep instantly dreaming about what had happened 3 years ago to me and warning it wasn’t really a dream you wanted to have when there is a guy with a butcher knife chasing after you and your twin and you make shore you save your twin but not yourself and it was more of a flash back of what had happened because if I didn’t push warning into that closet she would most likely be the very hurt and mentally scarred one but I did and I’m glad that I saved her more then once from that creep………….

But when I woke up I almost went into a panic attack because I was in some dark little room in a bed in some ones arms but just when my heart beat picked up a concerned voice filled this room
“Halloween its okay its just me all of the other guys went out so I thought you wouldn’t mind if I layed here in my bunk with you for a few”
“o-o-okay “ I choked out slightly coming down from my dream “where’s warning? Wares warning mikey!!!”
“she’s with frank and ray and gee she’s going to be aright Hun she’s going to be alright” mikey said as he kissed my forhead and I closed my eyes listening to his heart beat