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The Worst Betrayal
I couldn’t believe how awesome I was doing. Normally, it took a while for me to get in the zone. But at this moment in time, it definitely felt like I’ve been in the zone all day.

My breathing continued growing harsher and faster and I could easily feel each bead of sweat on my forehead. But that wasn’t important. The beautiful angel and rapid pulse of this gorgeous creature beneath me was. She was the only one I could sense in this perfect moment.

Just when I had thought her hips had locked up on me, without warning, she thrust them in a smooth, rhythmic motion toward my hips as mine pushed down toward hers.

That’s all it took for her to moan my name loudly once more, me to grunt, and both of us to come all over our already messed up bed set.

What could I say? We like animals when it came to sex. But I loved every minute of it.

As I lay collapsed on top of my girlfriend- trying to regain my breathing- she pushed my hair away from my forehead and kissed me. With a bit of my regained energy I was able to lift my head and smile widely at her.

She smiled in return and asked, “What’s that look for?”

“I love you,” I responded happily.

A faint gleam entered her eyes, but before I could focus on it too much she leaned in and hindered my response with her lips.

I didn’t need any more energy or room to speculate when she kissed me like this.

While our tongues danced to their own beat it was hard to concentrate on much else but it also made me forget everything about anything: the time, the date, and where I was- aside from who I was with.

Kaylie Michelle Graham.

All summed up, that’s who she was.

Of course, she was much more than that too.

Come to think of it, it’d be weird to say how we first met. But our bittersweet encounter several years later was something I never expected to happen. I never thought I’d see her again and I sure wasn’t planning to fall in love with her, but I did. And we’ve been dating for two years now.

The intensity to our kind of kissing never let up. We could go at it for hours without ever getting tired. And the more into it we were the more aroused I became…

“Mm,” she moaned lightly. “You ready for another round already?”

I couldn’t help the small smile that came across my lips.

Most girls I had met or been with had never been all that huge on sex. I mean I’m sure they liked it and even loved it at times but Kaylie was the first girl I had ever met to crave it and long for it just about as much as I did. So, when we were both charged up and ready to go the fireworks between us hardly ever stopped. That’s something that made me love her even more.

“Actually,” I began as I lightly shook my head and gently pulled myself up and reached across her body and over to my small nightstand, fumbling with the drawer in order to grab what I was looking for. “I need you to stand for me.”

Her cute, perfect eyebrows pulled together in a confused way.

“You want me…to stand?” she asked slowly, her tone incredulous. I nodded instantly.

“It’ll be worth it, I promise,” I responded as I leaned in to give her another kiss.

“Um, okay,” she mumbled as she gently pulled herself out from under me and placed both feet over the side of the bed before standing to face me.

Her expression was still baffled but also expectant.

“Now what, babe?”

I grinned widely and jumped out of bed, landing on my knees and by her feet which were bare against the soft, beige carpet- the carpet I was now kneeling on.

“Please try not to laugh at how dorky I probably look right now- naked and kneeling by our bed- with you standing so beautifully and radiantly in this light.”

“Gerard Arthur Way, you look anything but dorky right now,” she assured me.

“Okay.” I took a deep breath. “My whole entire life I’ve been searching- stupidly- for what I thought was what I wanted and needed, failing to really see the full picture. Turns out, what I needed and wanted was right in front of me for quite a while without me realizing it. Second time’s the charm for us, babe. I fell in love with you so absolutely when I wasn’t even expecting, planning, or anticipating it. But I’m glad I did. Because I love you more than anything. And, I can’t picture one day of the rest of my life without you.”

My sentences felt like they were jumbling together and not making any sense to me, but maybe that was because of how nervous I was. Whatever the cause I pushed all my fears and insecurities aside as I took Kaylie’s hand in mine, which was shaking just about as much as mine was.

“With all that said, I also feel I should tell you that you’re an absolutely amazing person. You’re gorgeous and beautiful in every sense of the word and you’re the best girlfriend and sex partner I could’ve ever asked for. You’re my best friend and so much more. So today I’m going to ask you if you’ll do me the very best honor in all the world by agreeing to marry me.”

I pulled my other hand from behind my back and opened the little black velvet box I’ve been trying so hard to hide.

As she gazed at it I could vividly hear and feel how fast my heart was pounding.

“Will you be my fiancé, Kaylie Michelle Graham?” I asked sweetly as I forced my eyes to gaze into hers. There were tears in hers as she smiled at me, her lips trembling.

She nodded quickly and said, “Of course I’ll marry you, Gerard.”

The second the words were out I had her in my arms and was kissing her so feverishly I forgot everything else.

She wrapped her arms around my neck and held me to her, twisting her fingers in my hair.

“The ring,” she mumbled between kisses.

I laughed at myself for forgetting to slip it on her finger. And once I did I couldn’t help the pride and joy that overcame me as I realized this beautiful, amazing creature was mine. And she always would be.

Several hours later, when we really were exhausted from our crazy animal love making, I noticed the corners of Kaylie’s mouth were turned down.

She was looking away from me as I held her. And it was clear that she was frowning.

“Are you okay, sweetie?” I asked curiously, concerned as I lightly caressed her waist.

She sighed before turning around to face me. There was pain in her expression.

“What is it?” I asked even more worried than before.

After a moments’ hesitation Kaylie said, “It may ruin the moment” with indecision evident on her face.

I placed both my hands on either side of her face.

“Nothing can ruin this moment,” I stated as I kissed her. “We love each other.”

She nodded and touched her forehead to mine before letting out another sigh.

Kaylie took a deep breath and said, “You still haven’t told your family about me, have you?”

Shock pulsed through my veins. Oh.

Kaylie gauged my reaction and her eyebrows pulled together.

“What about your brother?” she questioned more seriously.

“Uh…” I shut my eyes and ran a hand down my face. “My family knows I’m seeing someone and that I’m happy with her. They know we’re together…”

“But do they know I’m me?” she pressed more firmly.

I sighed long and hard- a sign of guilt and she knew it.

“Don’t you at least think your brother deserves to know?”

My gaze bore into hers and I tried to be strong, too, but I couldn’t- not knowing that she was right. Mikey did deserve to know about us.

“I was his girlfriend first, remember? Back in high school and middle school. I was his first everything, Gee…and he was mine.”

“I know, I know. Just, please, let me think.”

I shot out of bed and started pacing.

“Okay,” she mumbled quietly.

Michael James Way was my younger brother by three years. We grew up together and always looked out for each other. He was the more shy, withdrawn one, but he was also one of the kindest people I knew and not only because he’s my only brother. My guess it’s in his nature to be.

Mikey met Kaylie first- back in middle school- when life was easier, in the sense that at one point they saw junior high school as the most complicated time in their life. When in actuality that time in their life didn’t come until the end of high school.

Looking back I can remember how it all started- Mikey and Kaylie’s relationship.

At first, as he would tell me was that he met the girl of his dreams, the most amazing girl ever. And since my brother had always been the type of guy to look within a person and judge them by personality instead of looks, I figured the girl he liked was nerdy, brainy, and shy just like Mikey.

She was anything but.

Kaylie had looks and she was super smart which was why my brother liked her so much. She wasn’t even all that shy, at least not with my brother. She was also a year younger- she had skipped first grade- but was in the same grade as Mikey. From what my brother would tell me, they got along pretty quickly. She likes him as much as he liked her.

After the first year of them going out I finally got to meet her. She was twelve at the time and my brother was thirteen and kept using the phrase “madly in love” like there even was such a thing at his age. I, on the other hand, was sixteen at the time- a sophomore in high school who was able to drive and had already had a few girlfriends to speak of, giving me a bit of experience to what Mikey claimed was his “one and only.”

So though right now I’m currently with Kaylie, at the time I met her and the entire time she was with my brother, I didn’t really see her the way I do now. Back then I didn’t notice anything striking about her other than she was a cute kid and she and my brother looked good together. I figured long ago that this was probably because I was in high school and Kaylie and my brother were still in grade school, still children to me when I felt grown up.

Anyway, jumping forward to the last year of high school for Mikey and Kaylie- Mikey was 18 and Kaylie was 17; I still couldn’t believe they had lasted that long for a bunch of kids who had never even dated another person but each other- they started going through some problems. A rumor had spread that Kaylie wanted to date other guys which wasn’t the case- as I had found out years later- but that she’d be going away for college and wanted to make it easier on Mikey by separating sooner, before graduation, since Mikey would be staying close to home.

Mikey didn’t take it so well, but he wanted to make it work. He loved her so much. So Kaylie caved and they stayed together till the end of their senior year and then all the way till graduation.

And when it time for Kaylie to go off to college in California- all the way on the other side of the country compared to New Jersey- Mikey had no choice but to let her go, to give her what she wanted and knew was coming because she had already prepared him for it. Only, she broke it off for good- making it impossible for any kind of contact between herself and Mikey including phone calls, email, internet messaging of any kind, even traditional letters. I was beyond sad. My brother was heartbroken.

The day Kaylie left I watched as my brother went through each step of the painful grieving process. There were days we wouldn’t eat and nights he wouldn’t sleep. And there was plenty of crying. For a while my family and I thought he’d never get better.

But he did. Eventually.

What they say is true: Time heals all wounds.

That didn’t make it any easier.

Though my brother had been on several dates since his recovery I could tell none of them were serious. Some part of him was still broken over Kaylie. But now, more than anything, I was trying to convince myself that that was a misconception on my part.

Maybe Mikey had been perfectly fine and I was just worrying over him incessantly. Maybe this wouldn’t be a big deal to him. Maybe he was happy now and could be happy for us and accept it. And maybe I was just the worst brother on the planet.