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Frank's POV
I could not keep the smile from my face feeling Melody's smooth, warm hand in my own as I drove back toward the hotel. She is more than I could have ever asked for and in just a few short months she will bring us both more joy than either of us could have ever dreamed of. I know, without a doubt in my mind, our daughter will be the most beautiful and most loved child to enter this world. As long as I have breath in my lungs she will have anything and everything I have to offer her, just as her mother will.
Guilt clawed mercilessly at my insides, tearing the happy images from my mind as my thoughts, once again, strayed to our lost child. Was it a mistake to keep such secrets from Melody? Of course it was a mistake. I should have been honest with her. I should have never kept this secret from her.
In my naivety, I thought it would be better if she never knew. We could live our lives together with our one remaining child and no one but the doctors and our friends would ever have to know.
My only fear now is if I tell her she will hate me. It's not really a matter of if she will hate me because I know she will. I know that everything we have worked so hard to gain in this one weekend will shatter before my eyes. I will lose her and possibly my daughter forever. And that is something I will never let happen.
I felt a single, salty tear slip from my left eye at the thought of losing Melody or my daughter as well as for the loss of a child neither of us will ever know. I quickly wiped it away along with my depressing thoughts in fear Melody would notice and inquire about my sudden change in mood.
"Frankie?"
"Yeah?"
"Are you okay?"
I could hear the concern lacing her voice and feared I had been caught. I plastered a smile to my face and turned my eyes to her. The worry twisting her face made my stomach churn in disgust with myself. I took her hands in mine and kissed each knuckle gently before meeting her sad gaze once again.
"I'm fine, baby. I'm just a little tired from this weekend." She bit her lip, obviously suspicious of my truthfulness.
"Are you sure?" She questioned. I sighed in slight irritation.
"I'm fine, Mel. Why wouldn't I be?" She shrugged, averting her eyes from my irritated gaze.
"I don't know. It's just..."
"What?" I snapped, cringing as my own voice reached my ears and I realized how harsh it truly sounded.
"W-We've been sitting here for the past t-ten minutes." She choked out, sniffling back the tears I knew were threatening to fall. "I'm s-sorry. I didn't mean to upset you, Fr-Frankie."
My eyes gazed out the windshield to see we were, in fact, sat in the parking lot of the hotel. How had I not even noticed? Had we really been sat here for ten minutes? I sighed to myself, pinching the bridge of my nose between my fingers as I berated my stupidity in my own mind. Melody's pitiful sniffles and choked sobs made my gut twist and my insides burn with guilt.
"Mel, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you. I'm just stressed out right now but it has nothing to do with you. I'm so sorry, baby. Come here."
I leaned over the center console and pulled her as close to me as I could manage. Her fingers clutched desperately at the front of my hoodie as her salty tears began to soak the soft material. My heart clenched painfully in my chest as each heartbreaking sob shook her small frame.
"Shh, baby. Please don't cry. I'm sorry." I stroked my fingers through her hair and along her cheeks in an attempt to comfort her. "Melody, please calm down. I swear I didn't mean to snap at you."
"Y-You're a-angry with m-me."
My chest tightened, restricting the breath from my lungs. Of course I wasn't mad at her. I was mad at myself for what I had caused; for what I had done to her without her knowledge.
"Baby, no. I'm not angry at you. I'm not angry at all."
"Bu-But you-"
"I'm just tired, baby. It's been an amazing but long weekend and I still have to patch things up with Gerard when we get back. It's just stressing me out a little. I'm sorry I took it out on you."
She pulled away and wiped furiously at the tears streaking her face. I pushed her hands away and used the sleeve of my hoodie to dab at the trails of salty liquid staining her cheeks. A wet laugh tumbled from her lips.
"I'm such an idiot. I'm sorry, Frankie."
"Hey, no. You have no reason to apologize. It's me that should be apologizing."
"No. I totally over-reacted and I'm sorry." She sighed. "I think it's these damn hormones again."
"Let's just forget about it and head up to the room. We still need to gather our belongings and check out. We can talk more when we get back home, okay?" She nodded, earning a grateful sigh from me.
I rushed from the driver's seat and around the car to take her hand in mine, hoping to reassure her that everything would be okay and that I wasn't angry with her. To my relief she smiled, squeezing my hand in hers, silently telling me she was okay now.
We rode the elevator to our floor and then made our way into our room. We packed as quickly as we could, being sure not to leave anything behind. Tension laced the air between us as I couldn't help but let my mind wander back to my earlier thoughts.
I hadn't completely lied to Melody in the car. I do need to mend the relationship between Gerard and myself and now that it's been brought to the forefront of my mind I cannot stop thinking of him. What he did hurt me, it practically broke my heart into but I know he never meant to hurt me. If he would have known about my true feelings for Melody he never would have slept with her. In the end, I only have myself to blame for this situation and now it's up to me to make amends.
"Frankie?" Melody called, breaking me from my thoughts.
"Yeah?"
"Um, are you ready?"
"Yeah. I think so. Are you?" She nodded.
"Yeah. I got everything." She bit her lip, dropping her eyes to the floor and away from me. "Are you sure you're okay?"
A sigh fell from my lips as I joined her on the bed and wrapped an arm around her shoulders.
"I'm sorry I seem so distant, Mel. I promise it's not you. I truly am worried about this whole situation with Gerard. I think it's starting to get to me."
"It's okay, Frankie. I'm sorry for everything. You know I never meant to hurt you, don't you?"
"Yeah, I know, baby. It's all going to be okay."
She gazed up at me with a frown and eyes swimming with so much sadness it nearly brought me to my knees. The heart in my chest felt as if it had turned to lead and began a slow descent into my twisting stomach. My throat clenched around a dry lump as I did my best to gulp it back down.
"M-Mel, please don't...please don't look at me like that. I can't...I can't take it."
"I'm sorry, Frankie, but I can't help it. How do you know we will really be okay? Don't get me wrong, I want us to make it through this more than anything but how can you really promise me everything will be okay? Just look at the past six months, Frankie. It's been one obstacle after another and I can't help but wonder what obstacles we'll have to face when we go back."
"I-I...I know this isn't going to be easy but I don't care. I want this more than I have ever wanted anything in my entire life, Melody, and I don't plan on giving up that easily. Our friends will support us and once I make things right with Gee he will support us, too. Whatever obstacles we face after that we will work through as they come." I paused as I took her face in my hands and pressed our foreheads together, doing my best to reassure her I would never leave her or forsake her.
"Frankie, I'm terrified. Now that I have you I never want to let you go."
"You don't have to. I'm not going anywhere. At least not without you by my side." I kissed her lips gently, stroking the pads of my thumbs gently along her cheeks. I pulled away just enough that my lips brushed hers as I spoke. "Never again, baby. It's me, you, and her." I smiled as I splayed my hand across her swollen abdomen.
"Just...just promise me you won't run when things get hard. I don't think I will be able to handle it if you do."
"Never, baby, never. I love you too much to let you go."
I kissed her lips hard, conveying my love for her in the best way I knew how. A small moan passed through her lips into my mouth as I licked at her bottom lip, tasting the bitter salt from her tears. Her lips parted, allowing me entrance as our tongues met, tangling and exploring familiar terrain.
Melody began to relax beneath my soothing touches, getting lost in the warmth of our bodies pressing against one another and the feeling of our mouths working in a lazy rhythm. She sighed, smiling against my lips as we broke apart, letting the much needed oxygen fill our lungs.
"Thanks, Frankie."
"For what?"
"Making me feel better. You always know just how to calm me down." I chuckled.
"Anything for you, Melody." I smiled warmly, wrapping her in a tight hug before pulling away so our eyes met. "I mean that. You name it and it's yours." She smiled, taking my hand in her own and playing with my fingers.
"As long as I have you and we have her," She paused, pressing our hands over her stomach. "I have everything I could ever need or want." I smiled, giving her tummy a small rub and getting a kick in return.
"I love you, Melody."
"I love you, too, Frankie." I pecked her lips one last time before helping her to her feet and grabbing our suitcase.
"Did we get everything?" I questioned. She glanced around the room, checking for any stray belongings before nodding. "Let's go say our goodbyes to the guys and then head home. I'm ready to get things settled with Gee."
"Okay."
We left the room and rode the elevator down one floor to where the guys' room was located. I knocked and just seconds later the door swung open to reveal Andy. He smiled and ushered us into the room where Pete and Joe where sprawled across the floor playing video games and Patrick was sat in a corner reading a book. Andy dropped to the floor, stealing Pete's controller from his hands.
"Hey, asshole! I was winning!" Pete shouted, causing me to snort and Melody to giggle. "Oh, hey guys. I didn't see you there." Pete grinned, bounding over to us and slinging an arm around Melody.
"Hey Pete, we just came to say goodbye. We need to get back home."
"Do you really gotta go so soon?" Pete pouted. I chuckled.
"Yes, Pete. You know we would love to stay but we're both tired and ready to get back to our own bed."
"That's too bad. I'm going to miss you guys."
"Awe, we'll miss you, too, Pete." Melody grinned, ruffling his already messy hair.
"Yeah, yeah." Pete scoffed, trying in vain to fix his messy locks. "You better take care of my little niece while I'm gone and don't have her until I get back, you hear?" Melody cocked an eyebrow at him.
"And just how am I supposed to keep her inside when she decides she's ready to come out?" Pete shrugged.
"I don't know. Squeeze your legs together real tight and tell her she's gotta wait for Uncle Petey to show up?" Melody snorted.
"Sure thing, Pete. Besides, she's not due for a few more months. I think we'll be okay."
"April, right?"
"Yep. You better be there." Melody teased.
"You bet your ass I will." Pete smirked. "Alright, I guess I'll let you go this time." Pete teased as he dropped to his knees and cupped Melody's stomach. "You be a good little girl and don't give your mom too much trouble, little one." Pete gasped as he received a series of swift kicks in return for his attention. "You are gonna be a ninja, ain't you?"
"Damn straight she is." I smirked. Pete sighed as he stood and wrapped Melody in a hug.
"I'm gonna miss you guys but I promise I will be there for the birth. I wouldn't miss it for the world."
"We'll miss you, too, you crazy fucker." I grinned, pulling him into a tight embrace. "Don't give Patrick too much trouble. God knows you're gonna be the death of him one day." Patrick snorted from his seat in the corner.
"Like you won't be the death of Gerard one day." Patrick teased, flashing us a playful smile. I rolled my eyes but shrugged anyway.
"Maybe."
Melody and I each said our goodbyes to the rest of the band with promises to see each other soon before we left them behind and made our way to the lobby. I checked us out quickly and lead Melody out to my car where we climbed in and started our short journey back home.
Just over a half hour later I pulled into the parking lot of our apartment building and parked. I glanced over to see Melody was curled up in the passenger's seat fast asleep. I didn't have the heart to wake her so I left our suitcase behind and lifted her into my arms, carrying her up to our apartment.
I entered the apartment to find Mikey and Alicia curled up on the couch watching a movie. They smiled as they acknowledged our arrival but stayed quiet upon seeing Melody asleep in my arms. I carried her into our bedroom and tucked her in beneath the comforter before planting a gentle kiss to her forehead and returning to the living room.
"Hey, how was the trip?" Mikey questioned. A smile spread across my face as I thought of the events of the past few days.
"It was great. We had a lot of time to make some much needed decisions and I think everything is going to be okay now."
"Does this mean you two are finally an official couple?" Alicia inquired excitedly. I could not help but laugh and nod.
"Yeah." I stated simply. Alicia squealed happily as she threw her arms around me in a squeeze of death. "Fuck Leesh, you're choking me." I teased.
"Sorry." She smiled sheepishly. "I got excited." I rolled my eyes playfully.
"I couldn't tell." She grinned poking me in the side.
"Well, I am happy to hear you two are finally acknowledging your feelings for one another." Mikey grinned, nudging me in the ribs. "But..." He trailed off as both his voice and face turned to one of seriousness. "You better not hurt her, Frankie." I opened my mouth to object but he raised a hand, cutting me off. "I know you have changed and I am glad. All I am saying is don't let your past bite you in the ass." I nodded slowly, chewing his words over in my mind.
"Mikey, you have nothing to worry about. I love her and I never want to hurt her again. As long as I am breathing she will have anything and everything she could ever want or need whether it be love or otherwise." Mikey nodded as a smile graced his face.
"That's good to know, Frankie."
"Do you want to join us? We're watching The Texas Chainsaw Massacre." I frowned.
"No, Leesh. I have something to take care. Will you guys let Melody know I will be back soon if she wakes up?" Alicia nodded.
"Sure."
"Thanks. I shouldn't be gone too long. Call my cell if you need anything." They both nodded their agreement.
I didn't bother calling Gerard. I knew he wouldn't answer if I did. Instead, I hopped in my car and drove the short distance between my apartment and his house. I let out a thankful breath as I pulled into the drive and saw his car. I put my car in park and shut the engine off before taking a deep, shuddering breath and closing my eyes, letting the oxygen invade my lungs and calm me.
As I exhaled I stepped from the car and trudged up to the front door. A feeling of dread settled deep in my gut as I remembered the last time I had set foot in this very house. Now I could only hope Gerard would forgive me for what I had done in my state of shock and anger.
With another deep breath I mustered enough courage to face Gerard as I rapt my knuckles against the hard wood. Just moments later the door swung open and Gerard stared back at me with wide eyes that quickly narrowed to suspicious slits.
"What are you doing here, Frank?" He spat. I raised my arms, palms up, in a gesture of peace.
"I just want to talk, Gee." He snorted.
"You just wanted to talk last time, too but look how that turned out." I hung my head in defeat, burrowing my hands deep into the pockets of my hoodie.
"Look, Gee, I'm sorry. I should have never let things go that far. It was stupid and I lost my temper. Please just let me come in and talk." He sighed as I raised my head to see his face soften.
"Okay, Frankie but only talking, okay?" I nodded as he gestured me inside and closed the door behind us.
"Thanks, Gee."
"Do you want anything to drink? I just made a pot of coffee and I think there's some soda in the fridge." I shook my head.
"No. I just want to talk." He nodded as he dropped down beside me on the couch. "Gerard, I'm sorry for what I did. I'm not going to make excuses for my actions. All I can tell you is I let my anger and jealousy get the best of me. I should have never let that happen and I'm sorry. I just hope you can forgive me." Gerard sighed heavily.
"No, Frank, I'm sorry. I should have never slept with Melody in the first place. I knew it was wrong and I did it anyway but you do know I would have never done it if I had known, right?" I nodded.
"Yeah, I know, Gee. This whole situation is my fault." I groaned, dropping my head into my hands.
"No it's not. We all played a part in this fucked up situation, Frankie. I only wish I could go back in time and take it all back. I never would have hurt you this way had I known."
"Yeah, I know. I should have said something. I should have told her how I felt."
"Why didn't you, Frankie?" I shrugged, turning my eyes to meet his gaze.
"I was scared, Gee. She's...she's just a kid and I waltzed into her life and stole her innocence from her. I took away part of her childhood and I can't give it back. There are days I wish I could go back and fix everything but then there are days when I secretly rejoice having her in my life. Fuck!" I groaned. "I am so fucking selfish, Gee. Is it horrible that deep down in my heart I am glad for the way things turned out?" Gerard shook his head.
"No. I think this is what was meant to happen, Frankie. Just look out how you have changed since she came into your life. You look better, you drink less, you stopped doing drugs, and you even smell better." He grinned, nudging my shoulder. I couldn't help the chuckle that spilled from my lips.
"Yeah. She's great, Gee. Really, she is. I honestly don't know where I would be right now without her." I sighed again, thinking of the young girl asleep in the bed we shared. "Do you think it's wrong for me to want her, Gee?"
"No."
"She's just a kid, though."
"No she's not, Frankie. Sure, she's only seventeen but she's never truly been a child. Think about it. From the moment we met her we had no idea she was just a kid. She's seen too much to be oblivious to the ugly truths of the world."
"It still doesn't change the fact that I am breaking the law by being with her, Gee."
"Do you love her, Frank?" I nodded, not even having to think about it seeing as I already knew the answer to that question.
"Yes."
"Then it doesn't matter. Don't worry about the stigma society as placed on the age difference. Besides, she'll be eighteen in six months and as far as anyone else is concerned she is already eighteen. No one has to know."
"But I know, Gee." He sighed.
"Frank, you love her and she loves you, right?"
"Yes."
"Then nothing else matters. Forget about what everyone else thinks and let yourself be happy for once." I bit my lip, contemplating his words in my mind.
"Do you really think it's that simple?" He nodded.
"Yes, Frankie, I do. You love her and she loves you. Don't let anyone come in between what the two of you share. Take care of her and the child you two will soon have. Do not let anyone stand in your way." I nodded, finally letting a smile creep across my face.
"Thanks, Gee."
"It's no problem." He grinned before letting his smile drop into a frown. "Just...next time you feel the need to choke someone don't come here." I laughed, bumping his shoulder with my own.
"Why? You afraid of little ol' Frankie?" I smirked. He snorted.
"We both know 'little ol' Frankie' is stronger than he looks."
"Yeah, I know. I really am sorry about that."
"Hey now, don't get sad on me now. You know and I know that no matter how many fights we have in our lifetime we will always be brothers at the end of the day." I smiled.
"Always."
"And forever, fucker." He winked.
I laughed and pulled him into a strong hug. He hugged me back just as tight as we both let the stress of our misunderstanding fall away.
"Thanks, Gee."
"Anytime, Frankie."
xo britt
I could not keep the smile from my face feeling Melody's smooth, warm hand in my own as I drove back toward the hotel. She is more than I could have ever asked for and in just a few short months she will bring us both more joy than either of us could have ever dreamed of. I know, without a doubt in my mind, our daughter will be the most beautiful and most loved child to enter this world. As long as I have breath in my lungs she will have anything and everything I have to offer her, just as her mother will.
Guilt clawed mercilessly at my insides, tearing the happy images from my mind as my thoughts, once again, strayed to our lost child. Was it a mistake to keep such secrets from Melody? Of course it was a mistake. I should have been honest with her. I should have never kept this secret from her.
In my naivety, I thought it would be better if she never knew. We could live our lives together with our one remaining child and no one but the doctors and our friends would ever have to know.
My only fear now is if I tell her she will hate me. It's not really a matter of if she will hate me because I know she will. I know that everything we have worked so hard to gain in this one weekend will shatter before my eyes. I will lose her and possibly my daughter forever. And that is something I will never let happen.
I felt a single, salty tear slip from my left eye at the thought of losing Melody or my daughter as well as for the loss of a child neither of us will ever know. I quickly wiped it away along with my depressing thoughts in fear Melody would notice and inquire about my sudden change in mood.
"Frankie?"
"Yeah?"
"Are you okay?"
I could hear the concern lacing her voice and feared I had been caught. I plastered a smile to my face and turned my eyes to her. The worry twisting her face made my stomach churn in disgust with myself. I took her hands in mine and kissed each knuckle gently before meeting her sad gaze once again.
"I'm fine, baby. I'm just a little tired from this weekend." She bit her lip, obviously suspicious of my truthfulness.
"Are you sure?" She questioned. I sighed in slight irritation.
"I'm fine, Mel. Why wouldn't I be?" She shrugged, averting her eyes from my irritated gaze.
"I don't know. It's just..."
"What?" I snapped, cringing as my own voice reached my ears and I realized how harsh it truly sounded.
"W-We've been sitting here for the past t-ten minutes." She choked out, sniffling back the tears I knew were threatening to fall. "I'm s-sorry. I didn't mean to upset you, Fr-Frankie."
My eyes gazed out the windshield to see we were, in fact, sat in the parking lot of the hotel. How had I not even noticed? Had we really been sat here for ten minutes? I sighed to myself, pinching the bridge of my nose between my fingers as I berated my stupidity in my own mind. Melody's pitiful sniffles and choked sobs made my gut twist and my insides burn with guilt.
"Mel, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you. I'm just stressed out right now but it has nothing to do with you. I'm so sorry, baby. Come here."
I leaned over the center console and pulled her as close to me as I could manage. Her fingers clutched desperately at the front of my hoodie as her salty tears began to soak the soft material. My heart clenched painfully in my chest as each heartbreaking sob shook her small frame.
"Shh, baby. Please don't cry. I'm sorry." I stroked my fingers through her hair and along her cheeks in an attempt to comfort her. "Melody, please calm down. I swear I didn't mean to snap at you."
"Y-You're a-angry with m-me."
My chest tightened, restricting the breath from my lungs. Of course I wasn't mad at her. I was mad at myself for what I had caused; for what I had done to her without her knowledge.
"Baby, no. I'm not angry at you. I'm not angry at all."
"Bu-But you-"
"I'm just tired, baby. It's been an amazing but long weekend and I still have to patch things up with Gerard when we get back. It's just stressing me out a little. I'm sorry I took it out on you."
She pulled away and wiped furiously at the tears streaking her face. I pushed her hands away and used the sleeve of my hoodie to dab at the trails of salty liquid staining her cheeks. A wet laugh tumbled from her lips.
"I'm such an idiot. I'm sorry, Frankie."
"Hey, no. You have no reason to apologize. It's me that should be apologizing."
"No. I totally over-reacted and I'm sorry." She sighed. "I think it's these damn hormones again."
"Let's just forget about it and head up to the room. We still need to gather our belongings and check out. We can talk more when we get back home, okay?" She nodded, earning a grateful sigh from me.
I rushed from the driver's seat and around the car to take her hand in mine, hoping to reassure her that everything would be okay and that I wasn't angry with her. To my relief she smiled, squeezing my hand in hers, silently telling me she was okay now.
We rode the elevator to our floor and then made our way into our room. We packed as quickly as we could, being sure not to leave anything behind. Tension laced the air between us as I couldn't help but let my mind wander back to my earlier thoughts.
I hadn't completely lied to Melody in the car. I do need to mend the relationship between Gerard and myself and now that it's been brought to the forefront of my mind I cannot stop thinking of him. What he did hurt me, it practically broke my heart into but I know he never meant to hurt me. If he would have known about my true feelings for Melody he never would have slept with her. In the end, I only have myself to blame for this situation and now it's up to me to make amends.
"Frankie?" Melody called, breaking me from my thoughts.
"Yeah?"
"Um, are you ready?"
"Yeah. I think so. Are you?" She nodded.
"Yeah. I got everything." She bit her lip, dropping her eyes to the floor and away from me. "Are you sure you're okay?"
A sigh fell from my lips as I joined her on the bed and wrapped an arm around her shoulders.
"I'm sorry I seem so distant, Mel. I promise it's not you. I truly am worried about this whole situation with Gerard. I think it's starting to get to me."
"It's okay, Frankie. I'm sorry for everything. You know I never meant to hurt you, don't you?"
"Yeah, I know, baby. It's all going to be okay."
She gazed up at me with a frown and eyes swimming with so much sadness it nearly brought me to my knees. The heart in my chest felt as if it had turned to lead and began a slow descent into my twisting stomach. My throat clenched around a dry lump as I did my best to gulp it back down.
"M-Mel, please don't...please don't look at me like that. I can't...I can't take it."
"I'm sorry, Frankie, but I can't help it. How do you know we will really be okay? Don't get me wrong, I want us to make it through this more than anything but how can you really promise me everything will be okay? Just look at the past six months, Frankie. It's been one obstacle after another and I can't help but wonder what obstacles we'll have to face when we go back."
"I-I...I know this isn't going to be easy but I don't care. I want this more than I have ever wanted anything in my entire life, Melody, and I don't plan on giving up that easily. Our friends will support us and once I make things right with Gee he will support us, too. Whatever obstacles we face after that we will work through as they come." I paused as I took her face in my hands and pressed our foreheads together, doing my best to reassure her I would never leave her or forsake her.
"Frankie, I'm terrified. Now that I have you I never want to let you go."
"You don't have to. I'm not going anywhere. At least not without you by my side." I kissed her lips gently, stroking the pads of my thumbs gently along her cheeks. I pulled away just enough that my lips brushed hers as I spoke. "Never again, baby. It's me, you, and her." I smiled as I splayed my hand across her swollen abdomen.
"Just...just promise me you won't run when things get hard. I don't think I will be able to handle it if you do."
"Never, baby, never. I love you too much to let you go."
I kissed her lips hard, conveying my love for her in the best way I knew how. A small moan passed through her lips into my mouth as I licked at her bottom lip, tasting the bitter salt from her tears. Her lips parted, allowing me entrance as our tongues met, tangling and exploring familiar terrain.
Melody began to relax beneath my soothing touches, getting lost in the warmth of our bodies pressing against one another and the feeling of our mouths working in a lazy rhythm. She sighed, smiling against my lips as we broke apart, letting the much needed oxygen fill our lungs.
"Thanks, Frankie."
"For what?"
"Making me feel better. You always know just how to calm me down." I chuckled.
"Anything for you, Melody." I smiled warmly, wrapping her in a tight hug before pulling away so our eyes met. "I mean that. You name it and it's yours." She smiled, taking my hand in her own and playing with my fingers.
"As long as I have you and we have her," She paused, pressing our hands over her stomach. "I have everything I could ever need or want." I smiled, giving her tummy a small rub and getting a kick in return.
"I love you, Melody."
"I love you, too, Frankie." I pecked her lips one last time before helping her to her feet and grabbing our suitcase.
"Did we get everything?" I questioned. She glanced around the room, checking for any stray belongings before nodding. "Let's go say our goodbyes to the guys and then head home. I'm ready to get things settled with Gee."
"Okay."
We left the room and rode the elevator down one floor to where the guys' room was located. I knocked and just seconds later the door swung open to reveal Andy. He smiled and ushered us into the room where Pete and Joe where sprawled across the floor playing video games and Patrick was sat in a corner reading a book. Andy dropped to the floor, stealing Pete's controller from his hands.
"Hey, asshole! I was winning!" Pete shouted, causing me to snort and Melody to giggle. "Oh, hey guys. I didn't see you there." Pete grinned, bounding over to us and slinging an arm around Melody.
"Hey Pete, we just came to say goodbye. We need to get back home."
"Do you really gotta go so soon?" Pete pouted. I chuckled.
"Yes, Pete. You know we would love to stay but we're both tired and ready to get back to our own bed."
"That's too bad. I'm going to miss you guys."
"Awe, we'll miss you, too, Pete." Melody grinned, ruffling his already messy hair.
"Yeah, yeah." Pete scoffed, trying in vain to fix his messy locks. "You better take care of my little niece while I'm gone and don't have her until I get back, you hear?" Melody cocked an eyebrow at him.
"And just how am I supposed to keep her inside when she decides she's ready to come out?" Pete shrugged.
"I don't know. Squeeze your legs together real tight and tell her she's gotta wait for Uncle Petey to show up?" Melody snorted.
"Sure thing, Pete. Besides, she's not due for a few more months. I think we'll be okay."
"April, right?"
"Yep. You better be there." Melody teased.
"You bet your ass I will." Pete smirked. "Alright, I guess I'll let you go this time." Pete teased as he dropped to his knees and cupped Melody's stomach. "You be a good little girl and don't give your mom too much trouble, little one." Pete gasped as he received a series of swift kicks in return for his attention. "You are gonna be a ninja, ain't you?"
"Damn straight she is." I smirked. Pete sighed as he stood and wrapped Melody in a hug.
"I'm gonna miss you guys but I promise I will be there for the birth. I wouldn't miss it for the world."
"We'll miss you, too, you crazy fucker." I grinned, pulling him into a tight embrace. "Don't give Patrick too much trouble. God knows you're gonna be the death of him one day." Patrick snorted from his seat in the corner.
"Like you won't be the death of Gerard one day." Patrick teased, flashing us a playful smile. I rolled my eyes but shrugged anyway.
"Maybe."
Melody and I each said our goodbyes to the rest of the band with promises to see each other soon before we left them behind and made our way to the lobby. I checked us out quickly and lead Melody out to my car where we climbed in and started our short journey back home.
Just over a half hour later I pulled into the parking lot of our apartment building and parked. I glanced over to see Melody was curled up in the passenger's seat fast asleep. I didn't have the heart to wake her so I left our suitcase behind and lifted her into my arms, carrying her up to our apartment.
I entered the apartment to find Mikey and Alicia curled up on the couch watching a movie. They smiled as they acknowledged our arrival but stayed quiet upon seeing Melody asleep in my arms. I carried her into our bedroom and tucked her in beneath the comforter before planting a gentle kiss to her forehead and returning to the living room.
"Hey, how was the trip?" Mikey questioned. A smile spread across my face as I thought of the events of the past few days.
"It was great. We had a lot of time to make some much needed decisions and I think everything is going to be okay now."
"Does this mean you two are finally an official couple?" Alicia inquired excitedly. I could not help but laugh and nod.
"Yeah." I stated simply. Alicia squealed happily as she threw her arms around me in a squeeze of death. "Fuck Leesh, you're choking me." I teased.
"Sorry." She smiled sheepishly. "I got excited." I rolled my eyes playfully.
"I couldn't tell." She grinned poking me in the side.
"Well, I am happy to hear you two are finally acknowledging your feelings for one another." Mikey grinned, nudging me in the ribs. "But..." He trailed off as both his voice and face turned to one of seriousness. "You better not hurt her, Frankie." I opened my mouth to object but he raised a hand, cutting me off. "I know you have changed and I am glad. All I am saying is don't let your past bite you in the ass." I nodded slowly, chewing his words over in my mind.
"Mikey, you have nothing to worry about. I love her and I never want to hurt her again. As long as I am breathing she will have anything and everything she could ever want or need whether it be love or otherwise." Mikey nodded as a smile graced his face.
"That's good to know, Frankie."
"Do you want to join us? We're watching The Texas Chainsaw Massacre." I frowned.
"No, Leesh. I have something to take care. Will you guys let Melody know I will be back soon if she wakes up?" Alicia nodded.
"Sure."
"Thanks. I shouldn't be gone too long. Call my cell if you need anything." They both nodded their agreement.
I didn't bother calling Gerard. I knew he wouldn't answer if I did. Instead, I hopped in my car and drove the short distance between my apartment and his house. I let out a thankful breath as I pulled into the drive and saw his car. I put my car in park and shut the engine off before taking a deep, shuddering breath and closing my eyes, letting the oxygen invade my lungs and calm me.
As I exhaled I stepped from the car and trudged up to the front door. A feeling of dread settled deep in my gut as I remembered the last time I had set foot in this very house. Now I could only hope Gerard would forgive me for what I had done in my state of shock and anger.
With another deep breath I mustered enough courage to face Gerard as I rapt my knuckles against the hard wood. Just moments later the door swung open and Gerard stared back at me with wide eyes that quickly narrowed to suspicious slits.
"What are you doing here, Frank?" He spat. I raised my arms, palms up, in a gesture of peace.
"I just want to talk, Gee." He snorted.
"You just wanted to talk last time, too but look how that turned out." I hung my head in defeat, burrowing my hands deep into the pockets of my hoodie.
"Look, Gee, I'm sorry. I should have never let things go that far. It was stupid and I lost my temper. Please just let me come in and talk." He sighed as I raised my head to see his face soften.
"Okay, Frankie but only talking, okay?" I nodded as he gestured me inside and closed the door behind us.
"Thanks, Gee."
"Do you want anything to drink? I just made a pot of coffee and I think there's some soda in the fridge." I shook my head.
"No. I just want to talk." He nodded as he dropped down beside me on the couch. "Gerard, I'm sorry for what I did. I'm not going to make excuses for my actions. All I can tell you is I let my anger and jealousy get the best of me. I should have never let that happen and I'm sorry. I just hope you can forgive me." Gerard sighed heavily.
"No, Frank, I'm sorry. I should have never slept with Melody in the first place. I knew it was wrong and I did it anyway but you do know I would have never done it if I had known, right?" I nodded.
"Yeah, I know, Gee. This whole situation is my fault." I groaned, dropping my head into my hands.
"No it's not. We all played a part in this fucked up situation, Frankie. I only wish I could go back in time and take it all back. I never would have hurt you this way had I known."
"Yeah, I know. I should have said something. I should have told her how I felt."
"Why didn't you, Frankie?" I shrugged, turning my eyes to meet his gaze.
"I was scared, Gee. She's...she's just a kid and I waltzed into her life and stole her innocence from her. I took away part of her childhood and I can't give it back. There are days I wish I could go back and fix everything but then there are days when I secretly rejoice having her in my life. Fuck!" I groaned. "I am so fucking selfish, Gee. Is it horrible that deep down in my heart I am glad for the way things turned out?" Gerard shook his head.
"No. I think this is what was meant to happen, Frankie. Just look out how you have changed since she came into your life. You look better, you drink less, you stopped doing drugs, and you even smell better." He grinned, nudging my shoulder. I couldn't help the chuckle that spilled from my lips.
"Yeah. She's great, Gee. Really, she is. I honestly don't know where I would be right now without her." I sighed again, thinking of the young girl asleep in the bed we shared. "Do you think it's wrong for me to want her, Gee?"
"No."
"She's just a kid, though."
"No she's not, Frankie. Sure, she's only seventeen but she's never truly been a child. Think about it. From the moment we met her we had no idea she was just a kid. She's seen too much to be oblivious to the ugly truths of the world."
"It still doesn't change the fact that I am breaking the law by being with her, Gee."
"Do you love her, Frank?" I nodded, not even having to think about it seeing as I already knew the answer to that question.
"Yes."
"Then it doesn't matter. Don't worry about the stigma society as placed on the age difference. Besides, she'll be eighteen in six months and as far as anyone else is concerned she is already eighteen. No one has to know."
"But I know, Gee." He sighed.
"Frank, you love her and she loves you, right?"
"Yes."
"Then nothing else matters. Forget about what everyone else thinks and let yourself be happy for once." I bit my lip, contemplating his words in my mind.
"Do you really think it's that simple?" He nodded.
"Yes, Frankie, I do. You love her and she loves you. Don't let anyone come in between what the two of you share. Take care of her and the child you two will soon have. Do not let anyone stand in your way." I nodded, finally letting a smile creep across my face.
"Thanks, Gee."
"It's no problem." He grinned before letting his smile drop into a frown. "Just...next time you feel the need to choke someone don't come here." I laughed, bumping his shoulder with my own.
"Why? You afraid of little ol' Frankie?" I smirked. He snorted.
"We both know 'little ol' Frankie' is stronger than he looks."
"Yeah, I know. I really am sorry about that."
"Hey now, don't get sad on me now. You know and I know that no matter how many fights we have in our lifetime we will always be brothers at the end of the day." I smiled.
"Always."
"And forever, fucker." He winked.
I laughed and pulled him into a strong hug. He hugged me back just as tight as we both let the stress of our misunderstanding fall away.
"Thanks, Gee."
"Anytime, Frankie."
xo britt
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