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Chapter 18 - Andy’s POV

I shuddered as his lips brushed against mine. So light, so soft, so gentle, so… wrong, yet so right. wait, I thought, I’m not gay? why did I enjoy that?

I pulled away from him, but did I want to? I don’t know.

“I-I-I’m sorry,” Jumpnow stammered. He ran out through the door.

I just sat there. Unable to move. My mind still trying to make sence of what had just happened. wait, what just happened? I thought about what had just happened, i felt a smile spread across my lips, they still tingled from his kiss.

No, I thought, this must be some mistake, some horrible mistake, I couldn’t have these strange feelings… not for Jumpnow! not for any guy!

Jumpnow.

Just thinking his name sent shivers down my spine. I didn’t know what was happening to me. I had never experienced such strong emotions, this conflict of my mind was tearing me apart.

Slowly, I got up and walked out the glass doors, and out into the busy city streets.

. . . . .


I realized that there was only one person that I could really talk to about this. Although I had hoped not to see her again, for she had hurt me more than you could ever imagine.

I walked down familiar streets to the house of the first and only girl I had ever truly loved, the girl who had broken my heart.

. . . . .


“Andy!?” she exclaimed, her eyes widening at the shock of seeing me again.

“Hey Ezme,” I said quietly, “I-I need your help, I don’t know what’s happening, I don’t know what to do.” I felt the first tears well up and fall down my face.

“Of course! come in!” she said as she shut the door behind me.

. . . . .


I wrapped my fingers around the warm mug that she placed in my hands and stared into the dark coffee inside as if it held all the answers to my problem.

“So, tell me what’s wrong?” she asked, her voice soft and comforting.

“I-I don’t know

“Its Jumpnow, he-I-we… kissed, and well, I think I liked it,” I stammered.

“Oh,” was all she said. Was this the wrong decision coming here? “Does he make you happy?” she asked.

I thought about him. His sweet smile, his beautiful eyes, his soft, tender, loving lips as he kissed me. My heart started to race, slamming against my ribs.

“Yeah, he does,” I answered. I felt an involuntary smile creep across my face.

“Now, picture your life without him,” she said quietly.

As hard as I tried, I could not see any way that I could possibly be happy without him, I felt that life without him would be absolutely unbearable.

She must have seen the look of complete despair on my face because she smiled and said, “well, there’s your answer, I don’t think it’s me you should be with right now, go on, go find him.”

She smiled as I ran out the door to go find Jumpnow.

. . . . .

“No! Stop!” I screamed.

“Why should I?” Jumpnow yelled, “You’re the only thing I care about, but you don’t care about me!” he looked down over the edge of the cliff.

“But I do care about you!” I yelled over the howling wind and pouring rain.

“You what?” he asked, he stepped away from the edge of the cliff, and closer to me.

“I-I… I suck at explaining, so let me show you,” I wrapped my arms around his strong, broad shoulders, our faces so close but not yet touching. My heart was slamming in my chest. Our breathing became heavier. The heavy rain soaking our warm bodies. The only scent sweeter than the rain, was the scent of his hot body close to mine.

Finally, our lips came together in a passionate embrace, our tongues exploring each others mouths.

“Was that a good enough explanation?” I mumbled in between kisses.

He Answered by kissing me again, and again and again.

I never wanted this moment to end.