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when there no screw driver sharpen a pencil!?
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El didnt want to but she pulled away from stefans soft pink lips.
"whats up?"he asked as he watched the tear roll from her eye and dance along the floor
"nothing im going to get ready"she then walked out of stefs room and back to the spare room
she looked through her suit case and grabbed her ripped skinny jeans (ripped because her mother grabbed her right leg so she couldnt run luckily she did manage to get away so she ripped the other leg to match)she always wore her blue vest top seen as it went well with her skinny jeans she quickly put them on
there was a knock at the door,
"can i come in el?"stefan asked his voice warm and calming,
"um yeah"
stefan pushed the door open then sat on the bed
"why do you have a suitcase with you and two big bags?"he asked
he never ment it like 'your not staying here that long god who do you think you are'
he just wanted to know why she did have all of it!
"ha,its a long story!"
"ive got all day"he replied with a smile added on the end
el sighed she didnt want to tell him but she new she had to she got up and sat on the bed el just stared at the quilt cover for about five seconds before staring at stefan
"well i went home as you know i ran to my room so she didnt have time to hit me when i got to my room there was this case and well them bags laid out on my bed,i heard a door slam i span round to see my mother at the door she asked where i had been she didnt really seem to bothered about what i was about to say"el stopped took a deep breath in then continued
"she asked where i had been again i said in the hospital she just laughed then she told me it was a shame that nothing happened to me and that i didnt die then she kicked me out im im im homeless stef"
she tried to fight it but it was to late the tears were hitting the floor
stefan pulled her close into a hug a warm hug the type of hug you only give to someone you loved who you cared about! he wiped the remaining tears away,
"stay here i dont mind you know we have the room"he whispered
el nodded
she didnt realize until she felt someone playing with her hair her head was burried into stefans chest it felt like a dream a dream she wanted to stay in a dream were she could correct the wrongs and live off the rights
*
It was the day after yesterday shauna dru ash and rosie had gone out stef and el
were in stefans room writing music, stef was in a band with ashley and dru they were called the midnight beast el was sat staring at stef then the paper then the pencil back to stefan then back to the paper and then again she looked at the pencil she tried to resist temptation but it was to hard she tried to avoid eye contact with it but she couldnt it was sat staring at her el gave in and looked at the pencil sharpener she forgot about the plastic and made eye contact just with the blade,she sort of missed the pain it was like there was something telling her to cut her self telling her she wanted the pain telling her she was going to love hurting her self! she noticed stefan had stopped drawing the music notes elle looked up to see him smiling at her he lent his head forward and kissed her
"i have to go to shops we need some milk"el nodded he walked out of his room and down the stairs she heard the door slam el walked out of stefans room she was about to walk down the stairs
"shit left my phone"she said to her self
she walked back into stefs room once again she was faced with the sharp silver blade
'maybe just once?'she thought
el sharpened the pencil just like she did in her 'emo' days she still remembered how to do it slowly after the had sharpened it she pulled it out one fatal move and the pencil could snap.
"here we go"again she said this to her self
it pierced her skin she gasped a little it hurt a tad but it felt like nothing it was weird she pulled it down she took it out pushed it back in the dragged it across she did it again only this time going up it formed the letter 'H' she did it again creating and 'A' next to the H then she did it again and again forming the letters 'T' and 'E' it made the word 'HATE' in which was true she did hate her self el rushed to the bathroom she clenched her hand into a fist over the sink she watched the blood drop into the sink,the front door opened el pulled her sleeve over her arm then rushed back to stefans room,there was a spot of blood el wiped it away just before stefan got back to the room he smiled at el then sat down next to her he picked up the pencil and began to write again.
"el be a dear and go get me a drink?"he asked then kissed her
she kissed him back then nodded he watched her leave before she got out the door he saw something red trickle down her arm he knew exactly what it was it was blood he made a plan to catch her red handed he was going to wait for ashley to come home so he could be part of his plan.she came back and placed the drink on the coaster she sat down and watched how he trailed the pencil across the paper and how elegantly he wrote the notes.
"whats up?"he asked as he watched the tear roll from her eye and dance along the floor
"nothing im going to get ready"she then walked out of stefs room and back to the spare room
she looked through her suit case and grabbed her ripped skinny jeans (ripped because her mother grabbed her right leg so she couldnt run luckily she did manage to get away so she ripped the other leg to match)she always wore her blue vest top seen as it went well with her skinny jeans she quickly put them on
there was a knock at the door,
"can i come in el?"stefan asked his voice warm and calming,
"um yeah"
stefan pushed the door open then sat on the bed
"why do you have a suitcase with you and two big bags?"he asked
he never ment it like 'your not staying here that long god who do you think you are'
he just wanted to know why she did have all of it!
"ha,its a long story!"
"ive got all day"he replied with a smile added on the end
el sighed she didnt want to tell him but she new she had to she got up and sat on the bed el just stared at the quilt cover for about five seconds before staring at stefan
"well i went home as you know i ran to my room so she didnt have time to hit me when i got to my room there was this case and well them bags laid out on my bed,i heard a door slam i span round to see my mother at the door she asked where i had been she didnt really seem to bothered about what i was about to say"el stopped took a deep breath in then continued
"she asked where i had been again i said in the hospital she just laughed then she told me it was a shame that nothing happened to me and that i didnt die then she kicked me out im im im homeless stef"
she tried to fight it but it was to late the tears were hitting the floor
stefan pulled her close into a hug a warm hug the type of hug you only give to someone you loved who you cared about! he wiped the remaining tears away,
"stay here i dont mind you know we have the room"he whispered
el nodded
she didnt realize until she felt someone playing with her hair her head was burried into stefans chest it felt like a dream a dream she wanted to stay in a dream were she could correct the wrongs and live off the rights
*
It was the day after yesterday shauna dru ash and rosie had gone out stef and el
were in stefans room writing music, stef was in a band with ashley and dru they were called the midnight beast el was sat staring at stef then the paper then the pencil back to stefan then back to the paper and then again she looked at the pencil she tried to resist temptation but it was to hard she tried to avoid eye contact with it but she couldnt it was sat staring at her el gave in and looked at the pencil sharpener she forgot about the plastic and made eye contact just with the blade,she sort of missed the pain it was like there was something telling her to cut her self telling her she wanted the pain telling her she was going to love hurting her self! she noticed stefan had stopped drawing the music notes elle looked up to see him smiling at her he lent his head forward and kissed her
"i have to go to shops we need some milk"el nodded he walked out of his room and down the stairs she heard the door slam el walked out of stefans room she was about to walk down the stairs
"shit left my phone"she said to her self
she walked back into stefs room once again she was faced with the sharp silver blade
'maybe just once?'she thought
el sharpened the pencil just like she did in her 'emo' days she still remembered how to do it slowly after the had sharpened it she pulled it out one fatal move and the pencil could snap.
"here we go"again she said this to her self
it pierced her skin she gasped a little it hurt a tad but it felt like nothing it was weird she pulled it down she took it out pushed it back in the dragged it across she did it again only this time going up it formed the letter 'H' she did it again creating and 'A' next to the H then she did it again and again forming the letters 'T' and 'E' it made the word 'HATE' in which was true she did hate her self el rushed to the bathroom she clenched her hand into a fist over the sink she watched the blood drop into the sink,the front door opened el pulled her sleeve over her arm then rushed back to stefans room,there was a spot of blood el wiped it away just before stefan got back to the room he smiled at el then sat down next to her he picked up the pencil and began to write again.
"el be a dear and go get me a drink?"he asked then kissed her
she kissed him back then nodded he watched her leave before she got out the door he saw something red trickle down her arm he knew exactly what it was it was blood he made a plan to catch her red handed he was going to wait for ashley to come home so he could be part of his plan.she came back and placed the drink on the coaster she sat down and watched how he trailed the pencil across the paper and how elegantly he wrote the notes.
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