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Saira's POV.

"I g-gotta go, bye Frank! I'll see you on Monday!" I opened the door and rushed outside.

I think I ruined my chances of actually having friends already. I didn't mean to run out on Mikey like that, but once he had said that I realized I HAD no parents to care where I was at night, or who I was with.
It kinda make me think that I'd never be able to have normal relationships with anyone whether it's friendly or maybe a bit more then friends...
Ah, who the hell am I kidding, nobody in their right mind would have fall in love with me, once I tell them I live in a care home and that me dad's in prison, they run off and never look back.
My life really sucks.
I reached the home and looked at my watch before entering, just gone 11, not that late. Nobody would care any way.
I walked up to my room and strip down into shorts and a Iron Maiden tee one of the older guys in the home gave to me.
Whilst combing my hair I looked down at my wrist and traced over every scare on it. It's basically my only way to escape everything, school, the home...life.
I sighed and went to bed, just thinking. I'd have to apologies to Mikey for walking out on him, I mean it was kinda rude.
Mikey...
He seemed like an alright guy, same with all the other dudes. I could really get to know them. Hopefully everything will turn out good in the end, and before I know it I've fallen asleep.

*

I woke up to the smell of pancakes and nearly puked. I absolutely loath pancakes, and people hate me for it. Oh well, it's a Sunday, what was I expecting, we always make pancakes on Sundays. I might just have to skip breakfast, not that hard as I don't often have it. Waste of time if you ask me.
I got up and decided what to do today, hang out with Frank? Like everyday? Nah, he's probably with Gerard and them lot.

I took a shower and put on some jeans and a black tank top. With a lot of wrist bands to cover up the scars. Not even Frank knows that I self harm. I got my sketch pad and pencils and decided to walk to the park and draw, maybe Kelly wanted to come too...
"Kelly, wanna come to the park with me?" I walked into her tiny room.
"Yay!" She squealed and grabbed my hand.

We started to walking and every now and again she asked for a teddy bear or lollipop, of course I bought them for her, she's just to cute to say no to. Once we had reached the park I let her run off and play, I got my stuff out and looked around for something to draw. I saw an elderly couple sitting by the pond and started to draw them. I prayed that they didn't move, and for 2 straight hours, they didn't move a muscle.

I sighed a deeply, it kind of gives me hope to look at old couples, as after seeing them I know it's possible for someone to love you forever. Obviously that doesn't apply to me. I finished drawing it and put it in my bag to paint later. The time was around 12:30am.
"Hun, we should be heading back, they might be having lunch now," I shouted over to Kelly.
"Okay, but can we have lunch at McDonald's?" She asked.
"Of course," I answered sweetly.
I don't know what happened after that but once I stood up my head come in contact with a very hard object, I looked up and saw that I'd bumped right into Mikey's chest. I blushed and put my head down.
"Oh my, I'm so sorry mis- oh hey Saira!" He said cheerfully.
He didn't seem to remember what happened last night, but I was kinda grateful for that.
"Hey Mikey, what you up to?" I got up and dusted myself off.
I looked down to Kelly and saw she was asking to be picked up.

"I was just taking a walk when I bumped into you, is this YOU'RE daughter?" He asked curiously, and pointed to the little girl in my arms.
"Oh, hell no, she's just one of the girls who lives in the- she's just a friend," I quickly shut up after that.

Phew, that was a close one, but the look on Mikey's face told me he didn't buy it.
"What ever you say, she's adorable," He ruffled her hair and made Kelly chuckle.
"I know...Wanna come with us to McDonald's? We were just heading there," I suggested.
"Okay, cool!" He answered.

While we walked we talked a lot more and got to know each other, he sometimes made a fool out of himself and ended up being harassed by little kids on the ground, all I could do was laugh and help him up every time. I don't think I've smiled so much in my life.
We got to the famous fast food restaurant and ordered our food.
"So, you doing anything today?" Mikey asked as he opened up Kelly's happy meal.
"No, might just drop her off and head back home," I lied so effortlessly.
Kelly didn't seem to realize this so I mentally cheered.
"Want me to walk home with you?"
If only you could Mikey...if only I could tell you why I'm going to say no...
"That's okay, it's quite a long walk so.."
"What is it? Your dad don't like seeing you with boys?" He joked.
"Something like that.." I lied. Again.

We finished and was about to take our separate ways.
"Can I have your number? We should hang out some time. You're fun to be around," Mikey asked me whilst blushing and scratching the back of his neck.
Aw, he looked so nervous just for asking me to give him my number!
HE'S SO FRICKIN' CUTE.
"Sure."
I gave him my number and he told me he'd call me later.
Before he left he pulled me into a very warm hug. He smelt so comforting, and it felt so right.
I inhaled once more and let go.
"Bye Mickey!" Kelly waved.
He laughed and waved back.

I picked Kelly up and crossed the road.
"You like Mickey, don't you?" Kelly whispered into my ear.
I looked at her with my mouth wide open. Am I really that obvious that even a 3 year old can tell I like him?
I shook my head and kissed her cheek.
"You're a cheeky monkey, you know that right?" I told her.
She giggled and hugged me tight.

*

I got back and flopped onto my bed. I was nearly asleep when my phone started to ring loudly, hoping it was Mikey, I ran to it and picked up quickly.

"Hello?"
"Saira, you busy?"
Grr. Why did Frank have to call now?
"Um, nope, why?"
"Meet me at the book store in 5, wanna tell you something, bye!"
He seemed pretty excited about it, whatever it was. I put my shoes back on and went to the store.
I saw Frank ran up to me and he hugged me tight.
"What's up?" I asked him.
"Did I ever tell you that Gerard and them lot were in a band?" He was basically jumping up and down.
"No, you didn't."
"Well now you know, they needed another guitarist and I'm in it now! WHOOP!" I started to shout and jump about on the street.
"That's all great but what happened to Pencey Prep?"
"Oh, that's over now, but come with me to Gerard's! We're going to have our first practice today!" He grabbed my hand and pulled me onto his back.

"Frankie! You know I'm heavy right?" I yelled in his ear.
"Fuck no! You're TOO light! Gain some weight girl!"

I laughed and my grip around his neck got tighter. I loved these moments with Frank, we were just like this when we were younger.
I was still on his back when I rang the doorbell. Ray opened the door and greeted us with a pat on MY back, as he couldn't pat Franks.
"Hey peoples! The best people you're ever gonna meet are here!" I yelled.
Everyone laughed and shook their heads at me and Frankie. Frank dropped me and ran over to Gerard.
"Saira! What you doing here?" Mikey said from behind me.
I jumped and nearly fell over, but thanks to Mikey catching me, I was no where near the ground.
"Uhm..Thanks," I said awkwardly.
"It's okay."
He still had his arms around my waist and neither of us wanted him to let go, but unfortunately Gerard came over and put me into a bear hug.
"Finally! A female friend! How are you?" Gerard said with a huge grin on his face.
"Good, heard about the band today."

"Everyone! In the basement!" Bob shouted from this spot on the table.

I followed Mikey's tall, lanky figure and cursed under my breath for not bringing a jacket. I must have looked cold because I felt a hoodie being put around me in seconds.
"Thanks Mikey, again," I giggled.
"No problem."
"Are you in the band?" I asked him.
"Yeah, I play bass, and I came up with the name," He sure looked proud of himself.
"Awesome! What's the name?" I pulled him next to me on the couch.
"My Chemical Romance..." He looked worriedly up at me, maybe he didn't think I liked it?
"Whoa! That's such a cool name!" I exclaimed.
He smiled in a goofy way and his eyes lit up.
"Really? You like it?"
"Oh man! I love it!"
He excused himself and got his guitar ready.

"Alright everyone, this is our first time actually performing anything like this, in front of our first EVER audience, Saira Hilary! Clap! Clap! Clap!" Gerard said into the mic.
I got up and did a bow whilst blowing kisses out to everyone. They laughed and Gerard carried on.
"This song is called 'Bring More Knives' "
They started and wow, they were really good! Gerard's voice was amazing!
I moved my head against the beat and ended up dancing in my seat. They all played really well! Ray and Frank put so much emotion into it, Bob was just killing it on the drums, Mikey was brilliant on the bass, and Gerard's voice..damn.
When they finished I got up from my seat and started to clap really dramatically.
"GUYS. You killed it! THAT. WAS. FANTABULOS!" I almost shrieked.
"We're glad you think so, you're the first person to actually hear that song," Ray said.
They all had such big smiles on their faces.
"Aw, guise! I feel so special!" I said, faking a tear.
"You ARE special!" Frank shouted.
"N'aww, GROUP HUG!" Bob yelled.
I laughed as we huddled in together and has a spastic group hug.
"TIME FOR FOOD!" Frank yelled.
We ordered some Chinese and eat in on the floor on the basement. I was about to leave when I thought it'd be a good idea to exchange numbers with all of them. When they had finished I hugged all of them, (Mikey the longest) and left.

I got back to the home and went straight to sleep. I was to tired to change.
Today was great. I felt like things were changing for the better.