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I forgive you for the days
When you worked late and
Couldn't see me.
I forgive you for the times
You didn't come home at all.
I forgive you for not loving my brother,
As he wasn't your child,
But not for rejecting me.
I forgive you for telling me miserable things
About my beloved mother.
But I cannot forgive the times you hit her,
Your wife.
I find it difficult to forgive
How you brainwashed me for years.
Maybe you shouldn't be forgiven for that.
But most of all, my father,
I cannot forgive how you
Tried to drown your daughter,
Your baby.
I can't forgive how you attempted to freeze me to death
After you failed the first time around.
I can't forgive that you beat the shit out of me for not forgiving my step mother
For throwing a vase at me.
I can't forgive you for buying me off every time you hurt me.
I can't forgive you for kidnapping me more than three different times
And telling me we were playing hide-and-seek with the cops.
I can't forgive you
For trying to destroy me.