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The sixth Espada growled in annoyance as he ran a hand through his bright hair.
"Come on Kurosaki, we're already late. Could you move any slower?"
"If you're in such a rush and I'm moving too slow for you, why don't you just carry me?" Ichigo growled back, running to catch up to the panther. Grimmjow slightly glared at the younger male but picked him up and continued on. "Hey wait, I was kidding!" the teen shouted, struggling against the other. "I was kidding!
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As Grimmjow walked into the meeting room with a pouting Ichigo still in his arms, odd shots were given to them. He had given up on fighting shortly after being lifted off the ground and was currently folding his arms over his chest, glaring at the wall as he tried to ignore everyone's gaze, his face lighting crimson.
"You can put me down now." Ichigo snapped, blushing harder. The blunet set him back on his feet and they walked over to the table to take their seats, Ichigo's being at his seme's side.
"Glad you could join us." Aizen stated before starting the meeting. As it continued, the berry started rubbing his stomach so Grimmjow leaned toward him.
"Does it hurt?" he whispered and the boy shook his head. "Are you hungry?" Ichigo blushed again and looked away, slowly nodding. Grimmjow stood and all eyes turned to him. "I'll be right back." he stated, his eyes focused on Aizen, seeking permission to step out for a moment. The "god" nodded so he left. Ichigo glared at the table, a dark blush resting on his cheeks once again. The entire time the blunet was gone; Nnoitra was staring at him which made him extremely uncomfortable. It wasn't long until the blue haired arrancar returned with some food which he placed on the table in front of his uke. He noticed the fifth's stare and flipped him off, glaring as he did so. He gazed at Ichigo to see that he was just staring at the food. He told him to eat and the boy looked around at all the eyes watching him before slowly taking up the bowl of rice. He felt rather awkward seeing that he was the only one with food and everyone in the silent room was watching him. Ichigo shot Aizen a sad look, his eyes begging for him to say something to get everyone's eyes off of him. Taking the hint, Aizen started back up from where he had left before Grimmjow took off.
"So far the shinigami haven't made a move to attack nor have they shown any interest in doing so." Ichigo knew this was Kisuke's doing and was glad. It would only make everything harder if they came for him. But he knew that they would eventually get restless and come regardless of what the exiled shinigami captain said. He was lucky enough that they were listening to him for the time being and not demanding to leave right away. Well... knowing his friends, they most likely were doing that anyway.
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Orihime sat uncomfortably as everyone watched her, waiting for her answer.
"What happened?" Rukia asked gently.
"You had to have seen Ichigo, what did he tell you?" Renji pitched in.
"Uh-um... well..."
"I was worried!"
'Ichigo was worried... about Grimmjow. I know he wouldn't want me to tell but... I can't lie to them...' the red head thought, looking over her friend's. 'What should I do?' just then, Rukia's hollow detector went off, warning them of an attack. She was saved. Rukia and Renji left to take care of it while Chad and Uryuu stayed with her.
"Orihime." Uryuu called, drawing her attention. "Something serious happened with Ichigo, am I right?" she looked away. He took that as a yes. "Did someone order you not to tell?" her eyes saddened. Grimmjow had ordered her not to tell but it's not like he could stop her now but even so... she knew she shouldn't tell them... for Ichigo's sake. "Do you think Ichigo will be alright or should we be concerned?" she flinched at the question. She didn't know. He seemed to care for and trust Grimmjow but the other male still seemed to hate and abuse him.
"He... he should be alright." she concluded. Ichigo was strong, he could handle himself... she hoped.
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With the meeting finally over, Grimmjow and Ichigo made their way to the cafeteria. They decided it would be easier to just go there instead of going home and making a full meal since the blunet was the only one eating. Ichigo claimed that he wasn't hungry anymore when he really was, his previous meal wasn't filling, but he didn't want to eat too much because part of him was still denying the fact of... his situation. The two tried to pretend that they didn't know that Nnoitra was following them. He never took his eyes off of the berry during the meeting and it pissed Grimmjow off. He looked at him as if the boy would look back and smiled at him like he knew him. It infuriated the sixth! His smirk was obviously causing his berry discomfort, causing him to get protective over him. He had pulled Ichigo's chair back and angled his in front of him so that the fifth's eyes couldn't reach him. The guy was a fucking creep.
"Oi." the spoon like man called, catching up to them to sling an arm around Ichigo's shoulders. The panther instantly wrapped an arm around the boy's waist, pulled him away from the other, and punched Nnoitra.
"Keep yer fucking hands off him!" he yelled before lightly pushing the other to make him walk. Now everyone in the large room was watching. "If I catch you staring at him again, I'll gouge your eyes out and if you ever touch him again, I'll tear your arms off!" he growled in warning before turning back to his berry. "Are you okay?" Ichigo nodded, slightly looking back to see Nnoitra smirk and chuckle before turning to leave. He had his answer. "Do you just wanna go home?"
"I don't really care..." he trailed off in thought, he knew that if they went home right now, Grimmjow wouldn't eat, end of story. And that wasn't good but on the other hand, he really didn't want to stay here. Everyone was starring and although the blunet didn't seem to care, quite frankly, it was beginning to creep him out. "A little..." he stated in a hushed tone.
"Then we're going-"
"Spending more time together I see." someone said before Grimmjow could finish his sentence. The two lovers spun around to face Gin Ichimaru.
"Shut up ya fuckin creep!" the sixth yelled as he pulled the younger male behind him, frightened that the snake-like man would try to steal his berry. Gin and Nnoitra were on equal ground on the creeper level. The silver haired man cocked his head to the side, his lips holding a gentle and innocent smile.
"Now, now, Grimmjow there's no need for name calling. I'm only here to inform you that at some point in the day, Lord Aizen would like to see you." Grimmjow growled at that, obviously unhappy at the request.
"Tsk fine." he spat, holding tighter onto the berry's arm. "Let's go and get it over with." Ichigo looked up at his seme in worry, all his muscles were tensed and he could tell that he was on high alert and the "god's" summon for them only made it worse. Grimmjow must really not like Aizen. He wanted to ask what the brunet wanted but he knew that he wouldn't get answered.
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The two friends sat staring at each other in silence.
"Do you think he'll be alright?" Isshin asked and Kisuke looked down, remaining silent. "So even you've lost faith in him?"
"No, it's not that at all. It's just that you know as well as I do that Ichigo can't get out on his own. Ichigo is very strong and can handle himself but taking on Aizen, all ten Espada, and everything else that's sure to get in his way... Yamamoto wouldn't even be able to do it." Isshin nodded.
"So what you're trying to say is that we should leave him there? Right?" the man asked with a slight glare in his eyes.
"I'm sure you felt it too." the shopkeeper suddenly changed the subject, looking up just enough that his hat created a dark shadow over his serious eyes. Isshin's glare hardened but he nodded. "That reiatsu that went often to your house... was the reiatsu of an Espada. About a week before I let them leave, Ichigo started giving off that same reiatsu. It didn't just mix with his; it seemed to be fighting him like it was trying to engulf him." Isshin nodded again.
"I noticed."
"Add onto that, the love marks that appeared scattered around his body."
"Are you trying to tell me that my son was having sex with the enemy, an Espada at that?" Isshin shouted.
"That's exactly what I'm telling you." Kisuke said calmly. "But I'm afraid it goes further than just that... I believe that the odd behavior your son displayed in his time of depression was the result of a harsh rejection. I believe he wasn't just sleeping with the enemy... but he's in love with them too." Ichigo's father was silent, taking all the information in. He had all the pieces before but he just never wanted to put them together out of fear of what he would discover but it made perfect sense. He just hoped no one else knew about this.
"Do you know which Espada it is?" he sighed and the other smirked.
"Indeed I do."
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"Hey you in here?" Grimmjow called as he walked into the house. His call was responded with a soft grunt, coming from the bedroom so he followed his berry's voice. The two had gotten in another fight in front of Aizen. The "god" had suggested that they stop hiding from everyone and come out with the truth. Ichigo agreed but it pissed the Espada off. No one else had to know-he didn't want them too. He said some things that he knew he shouldn't have and that he regretted. Things that he now needed to apologize for. The teen was sitting up in bed, leaning back against the headboard, knowing that he wanted to talk because he did too. It needed to be done. The blunet sighed, leaning against the wall on the other side of the room, still wanting to keep his distance. He knew he needed to apologize for what he had said but he just couldn't bring himself to. It was just too foreign to him.
"No need to stress yourself, I understand." Ichigo told him and he let out a sigh of relief. The two sat in silence for a while, neither knowing what to say. "I just… I just thought that by staying here, I could get closer to you and hopefully get you to see me instead of see through me." the panther sighed deeply as he ran a hand through his hair, walking over to sit on the edge of the bed with his elbows rested on his knees so he could stare at his hands.
"I don't want to see you. I want you to continue being invisible." Grimmjow said in a low voice.
"Why?" Ichigo asked but he didn't answer. "Grimm…" the oranget softly turned the others head so they were staring at each other. “Why?"
"Cause you stick out and make me see you and no matter how many times I look away, you always seem to pop into my line of vision." Ichigo smiled, cupping his lovers face in his hands as he pressed their foreheads together.
"And I'll always be in your way…" the teen chuckled and the corners of the blunet's lips twitched up for a split second. “Because I don't want to be invisible to you."
"I know…" the other replied before they sat in a comfortable silence, enjoying this moment as they shared air, the warmth of the others breath on their lips. The berry's head would lean in a bit more before moving back to where it was, knowing the other didn't want to kiss for a reason he didn't know but still, he couldn't help it. He leaned in just a bit but forced himself to stop when the other pulled back slightly to avoid his lips but as he retreated this time, a hand slid up his arm to rest happily on his neck.
"Grimm-"
"Hold still." the panther ordered his prey softly who obeyed by freezing, only moving to let out a few shaky breaths as Grimmjow's face all too slowly got closer to his. Too slow! He really wanted to close the space between them but knew he had to obey his seme. Finally, the berry felt hesitant lips gently brush against his, slowly connecting, and pressing harder. Ichigo moaned at the kiss alone. It was amazing. He felt drugged by his breath; it was more addicting than anything else in the world.
"I love you Grimmjow!"
The blunet turned his body toward the other to get a better angle as he became slightly rougher.
"Please don't leave me again, I love you, I want to be with you!"
He would never leave.
His tongue gained entrance into Ichigo's mouth without even needing to ask for permission.
"Even if you hate me… I'll still love you."
He could never hate him.
Ichigo's arms wrapped around the blunet's neck as the others arms wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer. They melted into each other like they always did though they seemed to be closer now.
"I don't want you."
How could he have said that?
When his berry moaned into his mouth, he felt his length growing in size. God that was an amazing sound. He felt as if he were hearing it for the first time though he's heard it many times before.
"Grimm?" "Yeah?" "I love you." "You're marked as mine."
He never really responded to that right.
Grimmjow bit the younger male's lip, causing him to whimper. He knew his place.
"Why do you hate humans so much?"
Suddenly remembering the question he never answered, he pushed himself away from the others lips though he still hungered for them. Something in the back of Ichigo's mind warned him about what was about to happen but he chose to ignore it.
"What's wrong Grimm?"
"Get out."
"What?" he asked shocked and confused.
"I said 'get out.'" the blunet growled, standing up and walking away but was followed.
"Grimm…" Ichigo spoke softly, placing a hand on his shoulder but was suddenly punched. He stumbled back a bit before falling on his ass, holding his face as he looked up at his angry lover in shock. He hadn't hit him in a while… what was wrong with him?
"Get the fuck out and don't come back!" he yelled in a sudden outburst, his eyes spelling death. The boy didn't move. He wasn't going to run away from this man again. Seeing his defiance, Grimmjow forced the smaller man to his feet and pinned him to a wall, his arm over his chest to constrict his breathing while his other hand moved to unsheathe Pantera before pressing it against the others throat. Ichigo hissed in pain when it drew a few drops of blood but his terrified eyes remained locked onto those of his beloved. "If you're not out of my fucking sight in four seconds, I will kill you. I don't want you and I don't want the thing in you so get the fuck lost." instead of answering, Ichigo shoved him away, trying to glare at him through tearful eyes but just looked away before fleeing the room. Grimmjow stood, glaring at the door Ichigo had just left through for minutes on end. The blunet's shaking legs finally gave out but just in time, he stuck Pantera into the floor to use it as support, only falling down to one knee. "Damn it…" he held the left side of his face with his free hand. “Damn it…" he allowed it to be stolen… his first kiss… was gone. "Damn it…" his eyes burnt, his lips felt cold, and his chest once again ached. “Damn… damn it…" his voice shook as it got lower. "D… damn it…" rolling out from underneath his hand came a single tear. “Damn you… Kurosaki…" he couldn't be loved and he couldn't be loved. "What are you doing to me?"
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Sighing, the raven placed his book face down on his table to keep the page marked before standing to answer his door which someone had just softly tapped on. As he pulled the door open, his eyes fell upon the crying mess of Ichigo Kurosaki, the substitute soul reaper/human carrying Grimmjow's child. His eyes were red and puffy and he clutched onto the chest of his top as if just needing something to hold.
"No." Ulquiorra answered before the boy could ask as he closed the door. He turned to walk back to his book, wanting to continue it but stopped to listen to the boy's cries.
"Please Ulquiorra! I don't know who else to turn to, you're the only one who knows... please…" he broke down into sobs as it sounded like he lowered himself to the floor. "No more pretending… my strength is gone Ulquiorra… I've got nothing left." he inhaled a shaky breath before continuing. "Grimmjow doesn't want it…" the raven's eyes widened and his head snapped to the door. “He doesn't want our baby and I… I can't do this alone… I don't know what to do…" the door in front of him opened and he looked up to watch as the fourth threw a blanket around his shoulders, holding a hand out for him.
"Come inside, you seem tired." Ichigo's wide eyes weakened again as more tears poured out of them, grateful for the kindness. He took the hand before him and Ulquiorra helped him to his feet, surprised when the boy immediately collapsed into him, wrapping his arms around him tightly as he continued to cry. He looked down at him confused at first but closed his eyes in understanding before placing one hand on his back and the other on the top of his head, gently stroking his hair. "It'll be alright."
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"Why do you hate humans so much?"
The boy had asked… in truth, he didn't hate them. Not really. Humans had hearts… they could feel joy, they could feel sorrow… they could feel love. Those words meant nothing to an arrancar. What purpose could they hold? He… he envied humans. He wanted a heart. Placing a hand over his throbbing chest, Grimmjow growled at his own weakness. He couldn't love Ichigo-he just couldn't! Although the oranget had made it perfectly clear that his heart belonged to the panther he... even if he wanted to… he didn't have a heart to give him in return. It wasn't fair to Ichigo that way. It had to be one-sided! It had to be! It couldn't be anything else!
"Even if you hate me… I'll still love you."
His berry's voice rang in his head loudly. How the fuck was he able to get into his mind like this? It wasn't fair damn it!
"Grimmjow."
"Shut up…" he growled, covering his ears from the voice.
"Grimmjow." it sounded louder.
"Shut up." he shouted over it. It was odd… the voice didn't sound like Ichigo's… but it had to be him right?
"Grimmjow." a hand was placed on his shoulder and instinctively, he spun around to punch the person who dared to touch him.
"Shut up!" he screamed but was taken by surprise when his fist was caught. "T-Tier…" he gasped, shocked to see that it was the third standing behind him.
"You seem surprised." she stated, releasing his hand so he could stand straight.
"Well yeah… what are you doing here?" he asked, his mind too clouded to think clearly and kick her out.
"I was worried. With the way you've been acting ever since Ichigo has gotten here, I was worried that you may do something stupid." she explained, looking around his torn apart room. "It appears I was right to suspect this."
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He had finally calmed the boy down and gotten him to sleep. But what should he do now? Should he talk to Grimmjow about this? What would he say? It didn't really matter what he said, the stubborn man would never listen besides what would he do? Take him in and care for him? Yeah right. He wouldn't do anything. He would just say that he was a piece of shit and he didn't care about the boy. But... what was the raven supposed to do with him?