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Staring down at the boy snuggling next to him, Grimmjow's mind fought with something else in him though his mind was much too tired to fight. He carefully wrapped his arms around him to pull him closer, resting his head above the others. The boy was warm and smelt of vanilla with a hint of Jasmine and when he kissed the oranget's forehead, the gentle taste of his flesh lingered on his lips. He wanted more. He carefully tilted the teen's head up; he still had enough sense not to wake him up. He softly hovered his lips over the others, loving the feel of the others breath on his skin. He whispered something that was directed at the sleeping boy in his arms though he wasn't even sure of what he was saying. Suddenly snapping out of his daze and gaining his right mind, Grimmjow once again shoved him away, yelling at the boy who was startled though didn't fall off the bed this time.
"What the fuck Grimm?" Ichigo shouted, rubbing his head.
"What were you doing sleeping on me like that?"
"You were the one that came back to the bed and put your arm over me!" Grimmjow froze. That couldn't have been true, he went to sleep on the couch... did he really walk back to the bed? Seeing the look on his lover's face, the oranget calmed down, figuring that he just didn't remember doing it. "I asked what you were doing and you complained that you were cold so I got close to you to warm you up. You didn't do anything about it so I figured it was okay..." Grimmjow looked around with worried eyes. He did nearly kiss him... so maybe his story was true... he slipped off the mattress, not bothering to look for his jacket that had mysteriously disappeared during the night before walking out of the room to wonder the walls, ignoring Ichigo's calls.
'Was I really that tired last night?'
"Hey Grimm, have ya seen the new kid around?" a voice asked, knocking him out of thought. He looked up to see Nnoitra walking up to him. Knowing the sick fuck would try to hurt his berry, he continued to walk passed him.
"No I haven't, I've actually been looking for him too." the panther growled, passing him. No one other than the two lovers and Aizen knew that Ichigo was staying with the blunet or that he was pregnant and they wanted to keep it that way. Though Grimmjow was stupid enough to tell Ulquiorra that the boy was pregnant but he didn't tell him where he was staying but the raven was smart, most likely he figured out who he was staying with.
"Well Ulquiorra's been looking for you so ya better go find him." Grimmjow stopped in his tracks, remembering his reaction to the news. He was pissed though the blunet didn't know why.
"Tsk, fine I'll find him now piss off." he shrugged it off, starting to walk again.
"By the way Grimm, ya should start walking around half naked more often." all the sixth did for an answer was flip him off without looking back.
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Ichigo quickly dressed himself in the cloths he had shed off due to the heat Grimmjow gave him during the night to follow him. But when he got outside, his panther was nowhere to be seen. Still, he ran down the halls, searching for him. He wanted to know what was wrong with him. He looked so worried and not a trace of anger could be found in his eyes. Something was definitely wrong.
"Grimmjow!" he called out as if he had lost his cat... well technically, he did. "Grimm-"
"Why are you shouting?" Ulquiorra's voice asked. Ichigo sighed, turning around to see the pale Espada.
"I can't find Grimmjow. He ran out of the room a minute ago and he kinda just disappeared after that." he explained but the other just stared blankly at him like usual. At least the glare was gone. They stood in silence that was only awkward for the teen due to the others stare that shot through him. "Think you can... help me find him?" he asked hopefully. Ulquiorra nodded once before walking on, Ichigo trailing behind him like a lost puppy.
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No one seemed to shut up in the main hall where all the arrancar gathered to eat though the Espada usually eat at their own places. He went there, hoping that everyone else's voices would block out his own thoughts but they were only giving him a headache.
'Damn that kid... how the fuck did he get inside my mind? What tricks are he using?' Grimmjow growled before slamming his head against the large table only the Espada are allowed to sit at.
"What's the matter with you?" Starrk asked as he sat across from him.
"Nothing." he quickly snapped back, folding his arms over the table to bury his face in them.
"Course there's something wrong with him. It's written all over his face." the fifth laughed, joining the table along with Szayel. Grimmjow silently cursed them all. Why was everyone suddenly here anyway? Most likely wanting more information on Ichigo. "What's the matter Grimmy? Upset cause ya can't kill the brat anymore?" Nnoitra chuckled, standing over the other.
'No... well... yeah that too...' Grimmjow thought, biting his tongue so he wouldn't say anything stupid.
"Step down Nnoitra." someone ordered the tall man. He turned to see the third Espada, Tier Harribel. He growled at her before walking to the other side of the table, dragging his favorite pink haired male with him. "Would you like to talk about it?" the girl asked as she sat next to Grimmjow. He slightly lifted his head to see her and Starrk who looked genuinely concerned. Damn it... why was he even considering this? Was it because he was confused to the point he wanted someone else to tell him the answer? He looked around to make sure no one was in hearing range which included the bastard Nnoitra. Finally he turned back to rest his chin on his arms.
"I just don't know what to do about the kid..." the entire hall had gone silent though Grimmjow didn't notice. “I thought I could just ignore him but he's always there and he's fucking with my mind... I just want him to-"
"Grimmjow!" said man was surprised and a bit irritated to hear that voice but he turned around anyway to watch as Ichigo he jumped up to their level. He noticed Ulquiorra slowly climbing the stairs to meet them. Damn it, the bastard must've brought him here.
"What the Hell do you want?" Grimmjow shot sourly.
"I was just wondering what was wrong with you. It kinda worried me when you rushed off like that..." Grimmjow didn't like seeing the concern and worry in his eyes when it was directed at him so he turned away, folding his arms over his chest as he sat up right.
"I'll do what I want, when I want and if you have hard feeling about that, you can go fuck yourself cause I ain't living to yer standards." Ichigo looked shocked.
"We live together now Grimmjow! At least try to be a little more compassionate!" the blunet stood, slamming his hand down on the table angrily.
"Why do I have to show you any compassion? You live with Ulquiorra now, you live with Starrk, and you live with Tier!" he shouted, gesturing to each as he said their names. "Why don't you ask them for compassion?" the other didn't speak, not knowing where this was suddenly coming from or how to react to it. But he had a very valid point. "Let me make this clear for you. You live with Hollows now. The very beings you set out to destroy. No one here is going to show you compassion." the berry had no words. It was true. Why did he expect so much in coming here? Why did he expect to be treated like an important guest when he was really still the enemy? "Now get yer ass home." without an objection, the boy turned and left. The blunet sat back down, already feeling guilty. He knew his berry would start crying if he hadn't started already. 'Damn it...'
"Grimmjow." said man turned to the speaker. Of course it was Ulquiorra, who else would it be? "May I speak to you for a moment?" looking around, Grimmjow noticed that everyone below was still staring as if more of the show would start playing. Damn the little vermin. He wanted to blast a cero at them, kill as many of them as possible but his mind was locked on his berry. He didn't want to act anymore. He needed help.
... ... ...
"So I'm taking it that you're gonna tell me I was too harsh on him?" Grimmjow asked, rubbing the back of his neck as the two walked down the halls aimlessly.
"Where did you get that idea? I couldn't care less about that trash." he spoke with a hint of anger in his voice. "I just wanted to inform you that if he tries anything, Lord Aizen will hold you responsible. Keep an eye on him."
"Yeah... sure..." the blunet said awkwardly. Why was he even hoping that the fourth would have wanted to help? Of course he wouldn't have cared. Why did he even think he would?
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"I can't believe..." Ichigo sniffled, wiping his watery eyes with his sleeve as he walked down the halls of Los Noches, searching for either the exit to go back to his and Grimmjow's place or Aizen to demand that he send him back to the World of the Living. Whichever he found first... he still didn't know what he wanted to do. "Can't believe he said that to me... after everything... I mean... he was so nice until that day..." he trailed off, stopping in his tracks as he remembered Grimmjow suddenly pulling away from him. The look on his face was fearful and worried but he said that he was bored... and then he left. What changed in that second? Yeah he felt the first pulse of reiatsu and that must have freaked him out but what about now? He knows that the boy is supposedly carrying his child. Or at least that's what he seems to believe though Ichigo didn't buy it. There was just no way. Sure there were times that he seemed to care but regardless of those times, he just pushes Ichigo away without a second thought but... there's still that morning's incident. Did he really not remember climbing back into bed? The boy didn't believe that it was an act but that didn't explain why he just took off like that. Was he running away from something? "No... just stop thinking about it... it doesn't matter..." he trailed off, still thinking about it. It wasn't one of those things that he could just shrug off. It confused him and that confused him more just as much as it pissed him off. He didn't want to deal with his problems anymore... at least not right now.
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Grimmjow sighed as he made his way home, not really looking forward to being greeted by the sad expression of his upset oranget. As he walked through the door, he heard crying and sighed, really not wanting to face this right now.
"Kurosaki?" the panther called, following his cries but the other didn't answer. He pushed the door to the bathroom open to see his berry sitting in front of the toilet, gasping for air, and crying as he held his stomach. As if just noticing the blunet, he threw a towel at him.
"Get out, you can't see me like this!" he yelled but his voice cracked. Grimmjow caught the towel and placed it on the sink before sitting on the floor next to him.
"What's wrong?"
"It's nothing. I'm just getting sick. I'll be fine." he answered, blushing when he noticed that the Espada was staring at his stomach which he held tighter. "It just hurts..." he mumbled, causing Grimmjow to look him in the eye.
"Are you sure it's not-"
"I'm not pregnant!" Ichigo cut him off. "Aizen's just lying to make me stay here! There's no way that a man can get pregnant!"
"But on the off chance that you are?" Grimmjow asked, both of them forgetting all about what had happened earlier.
"I'm not pregnant and that's that." the teen said strictly before wiping his mouth as he stood and exited the room.
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"We have to do something about this!" Renji yelled.
"You can't just run back in there and take him; you were overpowered last time and without Ichigo what do you think will happen?" Kisuke reasoned.
"Are you calling us weak?" Ishida asked as he pushed his glasses up on his nose, feeling insulted.
"Think about it." the shopkeeper said strictly. "Ichigo is strong. He wouldn't have turned himself in if he didn't already have a plan in mind so going there now might interfere." everyone looked down, the room falling silent.
"Have faith in him and give him some time." Yoruichi said, standing up to exit the room.
"It's the only thing we can do right now..." Rukia mumbled more to herself though everyone agreed.
'Ichigo... please be safe.' Orihime thought, staring at her hands that rested in her lap. 'Please don't harm him.'
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Grimmjow sat on the edge of the bed, placing his hand on his berry's shoulder as the boy slept. Moving the blanket away from his bare torso, the blunet could see that his stomach had gotten just a touch bigger. It wasn't noticeable but he was looking for growth in it so he could see it clearly. The way that the boy was talking and the look in his eyes, Grimmjow knew that he too had noticed it and was denying the fact that he didn't want to face. He was pregnant.
"Compassion, huh?" he mumbled, turning away to run his hands through his hair as he sighed. "I'm not capable of 'love' and 'compassion.'" sighing again, he stood and walked into the kitchen, fixing something quick to eat before lying on the couch. He lay awake most of the night, occasionally sitting up to peer over the couch as if checking on the orange haired teen on the bed. The panther growled at himself as he laid back down, folding his arms behind his head as he stared up at the ceiling. "I'm not worried... I'm just..." he trailed off to look over at Ichigo again when he moaned in his sleep. "Fuck it-I'm worried." he growled low, throwing himself back down. 'If he's carrying my child then I've got to make sure that he's safe... but what if...' his eyes widened as he sat up to look at the other again. 'But what if the kid kills him? I don't think I would be able to live with it...' he looked straight ahead, not wanting to look at his lover when the next thought popped into his mind. 'What if I kill it?' he looked back at Ichigo. 'No you're just over thinking it, he'll be fine. Nothing will happen to him.' he laid back down, turning over on his side, facing the door. 'I'll make sure of it.'
Ichigo's lips curled up as his lover finally settled. He said that he was worried... he knew the man cared about him. He waited for the blunet's breath to level out before quietly getting out of bed to walk up behind the couch, leaning over the back to kiss the Espada's cheek before going back to bed. As he lay there, his hands found their way to his stomach, feeling the small bump that it had become. There's no way... a man can't get pregnant. It's impossible. The pulses have calmed down drastically but often there was still intense pain as demonstrated earlier. He's just getting sick. The food here wasn't exactly what he was used to... it wasn't bad, he was just trying to adjust to the change. He moved his hands away from his stomach, ordering himself to stop thinking about it. He was sick from the food but what about him getting bigger? He hadn't been eating much... maybe the food was more fattening than the food in the World of the Living and that's why it's making him sick. Yeah that must be it.
'Stop thinking about it and go to bed.' he ordered himself, sighing inwardly. 'You're sick, you need your rest.' his eyes widened as pain tumbled out of his stomach, spreading throughout his body. One of his hands clamped over his mouth as he jumped out of bed and to the bathroom, seeing Grimmjow shoot up out of the corner of his eye. After throwing the toilet seat up, Ichigo uncovered his mouth, letting everything he had previously eaten come back up.
"Are you okay?" Grimmjow asked, rushing in.
"What's wrong with me?" the teen cried, staring up at the other when he was finished. Grimmjow looked shocked as if he didn't know what to say or how to answer that. The panther knelt next to him, allowing the other to fall into him and cry into his chest. They were gonna be up for a while.
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"Nnh..."
"Are you alright?" Grimmjow asked when Ichigo groaned as he woke from sleep, slightly turning in his arms. He nodded though he curled into a ball, clutching his stomach. "Does it hurt?" he nodded again, his body beginning to tremble. The blunet got out of bed, walked into the kitchen, and came back in with a glass of water, holding it out for the teen who shook his head. "Drink it." the stubborn teen refused, knowing he would just throw it back up but he didn't know that that's what Grimmjow was trying to make him do. "Ichigo just drink the damn water." when he once again refused, the panther sighed and left. He walked into the bathroom to put the cup on the counter before returning to carefully pick him up and carry him into said room. As he gently set him down in front of the toilet, he grabbed the cup and wrapped the others fingers around it. "Now drink." he commanded softly. Giving in, Ichigo accepted the drink and chugged it down before handing the cup back to the Espada who sat next to him. It only took a minute or two before it decided to come back up. Grimmjow rubbed his back as he watched the wall. The sound was enough for him; he didn't want to see it too. When Ichigo figured he was done, he sat up, rubbing his burning throat. He flushed the toilet and stared at the wall behind it. His lip began to tremble as he started to cry. "You okay?" the blunet asked, moving his hand up the kid's back to rest on the side of his neck as his thumb rubbed his cheek, wiping some of his tears away with it.
"Am I..." he turned his head to see his lover. “Am I really pregnant?" Grimmjow looked down, unsure of how to respond. He didn't know for sure but he believed it. "Are we gonna have a baby?" he asked, his fear screaming out its presence through every fiber of his being. The blunet sighed but slowly nodded.
"I think so, yeah." Ichigo's head lowered and turned away from him to hit the wall softly. With another sigh, Grimmjow got onto his knees to lean over and kiss his berry's head before taking his hand and standing up. "Come on, let's get you back to bed." the teen allowed the other to pick him up and carry him back into the other room. "Does it still hurt?"
"Not as much." Ichigo spoke against the blunet's shoulder.
"Good." Grimmjow laid the oranget back on the bed and turned to leave but Ichigo quickly grabbed his arm.
"Please don't go." he sighed, he had to go see Ulquiorra for an update on what the shinigami were doing. If they were planning an attack, Ulquiorra would be the first to know other than Aizen but he wasn't about to go to that bastard and the sixth didn't want to be caught off guard and learn of the attack by it happening. He wanted to know their every move so he could counter it and keep Ichigo safe. He inwardly sighed and nodded before crawling under the covers with the berry, covering him up to keep him warm. Ichigo instantly curled into him, sighing contently against his chest. Grimmjow closed his eyes, telling himself to relax a little. He had been up all night just in case Ichigo had any problems during the night, which he had quite a few of, so he hadn't gotten any sleep. He was stressing over this too much and he knew that if he didn't get the sleep he needed, he wouldn't be able to protect the berry anyway. He rested his head against the teens, telling himself to relax and get some sleep. After a while of listening to Ichigo's steady breathing when he finally drifted off, he felt it was safe for him to do the same. Every little sound alerted him but after about an hour, his exhaustion got the best of him and he too fell asleep.