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Ellie's Pov
I couldnt even answer him I just got up and ran to my room slamming the door hard and I knew that as soon as the door hit the orderlies would come barging in and sure enough they did with that bitch of a nurse.
"Ellie what is wrong with you, you know better than slamming doors around here" she said shaking her head at me.
"well you can fuck off and leave me alone" I said looking up.
"Ellie we've talked about that language and..."
"I SAID LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE" I screamed grabbing my chair and throwing it at them hard and next thing I knew they lunged at me and pinned me down and lord and behold I got a sedative shot.
"GET THE FUCK OFF ME...GET OFF ME.." I Kicked out and I looked up them breathing hard as I felt the drug making me go numb.
"you bring this on yourself you know that" the nurse whispered looking down at me as they laid me in bed.
"your still a bitch" I smiled as she just shook her head and they all walked out closing my door. I laid there in the dark trying not to think about Zacky but he came straight to mind everynight. I closed my eyes falling asleep for what semed to be and eternity but I opened my quickly when I heard my door open and close. I tried to sit but I couldnt.
"whos there" I whispered.
"its me Frank"I heard him whispere back as he crawled towards my bed and he sat next to it looking up at me
"What are you doing here"
"I came to see you, you didnt sound so good I just wanted to make sure you were okay" he said reaching up and grabbing my hand. I smiled down at him and I realized this was the first time I had smiled sense everything went down.
"so how do you know Zacky"
"I met back a couple of months ago thru one of my friends and he let us play some shows at his house"
"oh well then you must be very aware of what goes on in that house huh" I asked and he just nodded.
"ya I do and um..I also know what he did to you that night" he whispered letting go of my hand and reaching up running his had across the scar on my forehead. I jerked away from and I stared up at the ceiling breathing hard as all the flashbacks from that night going thru my head.
"how do you know what he did"
"I was going thru house looking for you cause I saw what happened while were playing and I was about to give up when I heard you screaming I was trying to make my way to you when the cops busted in and everything went crazy. I made my way thru everyone until I saw Zacky running out of the bathroom and out the back and I went in and I found you on the floor fading out"
"so that was you holding me that night" I said feeling the tears running my cheeks.
"ya"
"why didnt you run"
"because I love you much" he said and I looked down at him and he got on his knees hugging me tight and I just lost it crying even more.
"how you can you love me you dont even know me" I said pulling back wiping my face.
"I dont care I loved you sense I saw you and I all ever wanted was to be able to be that guy who would give you anything and everything you desereved." he whispered wiping the rest of my tears.
"I dont deserve anything good, if you knew what kind of person I was and what I've done you wouldnt look me with love you'd look at with disgust you should just forget about me, I'm just a lost cause I will always be worthless" I pulled away slowly and I got opening the door quitely.
"you better go before they find out your gone" I whispered. He nodded getting up and he hugged me again.
"Im gonna fight for you until you see we deserve eachother" I just looked away from him and he snuck back out. I closed the door and I climbed into bed curling into a little ball. I cried myself to sleep that night and for the next couple of weeks Frank would not leave me alone he kept to his word he fought for me everyday. He started leaving flowers on my lunch trays and he would leave little notes for telling me he hoped I had a great day and that I looked beautiful to all the time. One night he snuck into my room and he gave me his lucky hoodie when I got sick and he brought me soup everynight until I got better.
It was weird at first for me but then I started to like that fact that he was doing all these little things no one had ever done and the best thing was he cared and he made me care again.
"how you feeling" Frank said kneeling in front of me smiling.
"good I'm feeling good today" I looked down at him and smiled back.
"thats great I'm glad so I thought maybe I could make it better and show you your surprise"
"surprise for me" I questioned and he nodded grabbing my hand.
"come on lets go" I looked around at the nurses and they were just going about there daily day ignoring us like they always did so I nodded at Frank and we went outside to the garden and I gasped when I saw he had a very nice picnic set up.
"how did you manage to do this without getting in trouble" I questioned waiting for security to come and bust us.
"I have my ways and dont worry we wont get in trouble my buddy Mikey works here and he gets me whatever I want and he keeps the bitchy nurses busy" he smiled taking my hand and we sat down on the blanket. I looked around at everything and he had rose petals and fruit slices and juice. It all looked so cute.
"so we can actually do this then cause Frank I love it so much and I dont want them to take it away" I looked around still waiting for nurse to ruin it.
"hey" he said turning me to face him. "no one is gonna take it away from you I promise" I nodded looking into his eyes and he reached out caressing my cheek softly.
"I know I wrote this to you alot but I want you to hear it outloud" he scooted closer to me and grabbed my hand.
"your so beautiful" he started to lean in towards me and I closed my eyes feeling his lips against mine and it felt right as he deepened the kiss all I ever felt in my whole life didnt compare to what this kiss made me feel.
We pulled away slowly and I smiled as I felt cheeks getting warm.
"your blushing"
he smiled putting his forehead against mine.
"I guess cause I havent felt anybody love me the way I love with all my heart"
"well I do love you with every breath inside my body I will never hurt you or lie to you" he whispered giving my lips a quick peck. I stared into his eyes and I took a deep breath how could someone like me end up with someone so good and so kind hearted was it finally my time to be with someone special was I finally getting my chance to be happy. I kept starring at him as he scooted a little back and grabbed a piece of fruit feeding it to me.
"so how did you end up in here you seem to sane to be here" I lauged covering my mouth as I chewed.
"well according to society I'm not that sane I done a few things in my time that doesnt exactly make me a saint eaither that night at the party I was on was a pretty heavy coke binge and it wasnt the first time. I got caught with a good amount of it and I was taking in and I spent 3 days in that jail cell by the third night I was having really bad withdrawls that I couldnt take it so I slit my wrists and when when I was found the judge deemed me a crazy addict so here I am" I looked at him as he got really sad and just looked down taking a deep breath.
"I'm sorry I know how it is to feel addicted and get desperate for a way out, I pretty much tried everything and it wasnt so much that I was addicted to the drugs Im addicted to Zacky"
"but he treats you like shit and you know it"
"I know but I took it because I didnt want to lose him I always felt like if I could just keep him pleased and happy and just did everything he told me to he would see how much I was dedicated to him and it would one day just be me and him." I sighed.
"what do you mean you and him" he questioned looking at me really weird.
"I was not only his but I became Matt's as well, the first time me and Zacky made love he forced me to have a threesome with him and Matt and it never stopped they did things to me whenever they wanted." I could feel my hands shaking and I felt the anxiety begin and I took a few breaths until I felt it fade.
"I'm gonna kill them I swear to god I am" he said slamming his fist into the ground hard. I saw something in Frank in that moment that I knew he would protect me at any cost.
"Frank I appreciate everything your doing for me and I do like you alot but its gonna take time for me to fall for you and right I..."
"I know right now you cant" he said kinda disappointed.
"No I was gonna say right now I'm halfway there" I smiled as he grabbed me pulling me into his arms and kissing my lips.
I couldnt even answer him I just got up and ran to my room slamming the door hard and I knew that as soon as the door hit the orderlies would come barging in and sure enough they did with that bitch of a nurse.
"Ellie what is wrong with you, you know better than slamming doors around here" she said shaking her head at me.
"well you can fuck off and leave me alone" I said looking up.
"Ellie we've talked about that language and..."
"I SAID LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE" I screamed grabbing my chair and throwing it at them hard and next thing I knew they lunged at me and pinned me down and lord and behold I got a sedative shot.
"GET THE FUCK OFF ME...GET OFF ME.." I Kicked out and I looked up them breathing hard as I felt the drug making me go numb.
"you bring this on yourself you know that" the nurse whispered looking down at me as they laid me in bed.
"your still a bitch" I smiled as she just shook her head and they all walked out closing my door. I laid there in the dark trying not to think about Zacky but he came straight to mind everynight. I closed my eyes falling asleep for what semed to be and eternity but I opened my quickly when I heard my door open and close. I tried to sit but I couldnt.
"whos there" I whispered.
"its me Frank"I heard him whispere back as he crawled towards my bed and he sat next to it looking up at me
"What are you doing here"
"I came to see you, you didnt sound so good I just wanted to make sure you were okay" he said reaching up and grabbing my hand. I smiled down at him and I realized this was the first time I had smiled sense everything went down.
"so how do you know Zacky"
"I met back a couple of months ago thru one of my friends and he let us play some shows at his house"
"oh well then you must be very aware of what goes on in that house huh" I asked and he just nodded.
"ya I do and um..I also know what he did to you that night" he whispered letting go of my hand and reaching up running his had across the scar on my forehead. I jerked away from and I stared up at the ceiling breathing hard as all the flashbacks from that night going thru my head.
"how do you know what he did"
"I was going thru house looking for you cause I saw what happened while were playing and I was about to give up when I heard you screaming I was trying to make my way to you when the cops busted in and everything went crazy. I made my way thru everyone until I saw Zacky running out of the bathroom and out the back and I went in and I found you on the floor fading out"
"so that was you holding me that night" I said feeling the tears running my cheeks.
"ya"
"why didnt you run"
"because I love you much" he said and I looked down at him and he got on his knees hugging me tight and I just lost it crying even more.
"how you can you love me you dont even know me" I said pulling back wiping my face.
"I dont care I loved you sense I saw you and I all ever wanted was to be able to be that guy who would give you anything and everything you desereved." he whispered wiping the rest of my tears.
"I dont deserve anything good, if you knew what kind of person I was and what I've done you wouldnt look me with love you'd look at with disgust you should just forget about me, I'm just a lost cause I will always be worthless" I pulled away slowly and I got opening the door quitely.
"you better go before they find out your gone" I whispered. He nodded getting up and he hugged me again.
"Im gonna fight for you until you see we deserve eachother" I just looked away from him and he snuck back out. I closed the door and I climbed into bed curling into a little ball. I cried myself to sleep that night and for the next couple of weeks Frank would not leave me alone he kept to his word he fought for me everyday. He started leaving flowers on my lunch trays and he would leave little notes for telling me he hoped I had a great day and that I looked beautiful to all the time. One night he snuck into my room and he gave me his lucky hoodie when I got sick and he brought me soup everynight until I got better.
It was weird at first for me but then I started to like that fact that he was doing all these little things no one had ever done and the best thing was he cared and he made me care again.
"how you feeling" Frank said kneeling in front of me smiling.
"good I'm feeling good today" I looked down at him and smiled back.
"thats great I'm glad so I thought maybe I could make it better and show you your surprise"
"surprise for me" I questioned and he nodded grabbing my hand.
"come on lets go" I looked around at the nurses and they were just going about there daily day ignoring us like they always did so I nodded at Frank and we went outside to the garden and I gasped when I saw he had a very nice picnic set up.
"how did you manage to do this without getting in trouble" I questioned waiting for security to come and bust us.
"I have my ways and dont worry we wont get in trouble my buddy Mikey works here and he gets me whatever I want and he keeps the bitchy nurses busy" he smiled taking my hand and we sat down on the blanket. I looked around at everything and he had rose petals and fruit slices and juice. It all looked so cute.
"so we can actually do this then cause Frank I love it so much and I dont want them to take it away" I looked around still waiting for nurse to ruin it.
"hey" he said turning me to face him. "no one is gonna take it away from you I promise" I nodded looking into his eyes and he reached out caressing my cheek softly.
"I know I wrote this to you alot but I want you to hear it outloud" he scooted closer to me and grabbed my hand.
"your so beautiful" he started to lean in towards me and I closed my eyes feeling his lips against mine and it felt right as he deepened the kiss all I ever felt in my whole life didnt compare to what this kiss made me feel.
We pulled away slowly and I smiled as I felt cheeks getting warm.
"your blushing"
he smiled putting his forehead against mine.
"I guess cause I havent felt anybody love me the way I love with all my heart"
"well I do love you with every breath inside my body I will never hurt you or lie to you" he whispered giving my lips a quick peck. I stared into his eyes and I took a deep breath how could someone like me end up with someone so good and so kind hearted was it finally my time to be with someone special was I finally getting my chance to be happy. I kept starring at him as he scooted a little back and grabbed a piece of fruit feeding it to me.
"so how did you end up in here you seem to sane to be here" I lauged covering my mouth as I chewed.
"well according to society I'm not that sane I done a few things in my time that doesnt exactly make me a saint eaither that night at the party I was on was a pretty heavy coke binge and it wasnt the first time. I got caught with a good amount of it and I was taking in and I spent 3 days in that jail cell by the third night I was having really bad withdrawls that I couldnt take it so I slit my wrists and when when I was found the judge deemed me a crazy addict so here I am" I looked at him as he got really sad and just looked down taking a deep breath.
"I'm sorry I know how it is to feel addicted and get desperate for a way out, I pretty much tried everything and it wasnt so much that I was addicted to the drugs Im addicted to Zacky"
"but he treats you like shit and you know it"
"I know but I took it because I didnt want to lose him I always felt like if I could just keep him pleased and happy and just did everything he told me to he would see how much I was dedicated to him and it would one day just be me and him." I sighed.
"what do you mean you and him" he questioned looking at me really weird.
"I was not only his but I became Matt's as well, the first time me and Zacky made love he forced me to have a threesome with him and Matt and it never stopped they did things to me whenever they wanted." I could feel my hands shaking and I felt the anxiety begin and I took a few breaths until I felt it fade.
"I'm gonna kill them I swear to god I am" he said slamming his fist into the ground hard. I saw something in Frank in that moment that I knew he would protect me at any cost.
"Frank I appreciate everything your doing for me and I do like you alot but its gonna take time for me to fall for you and right I..."
"I know right now you cant" he said kinda disappointed.
"No I was gonna say right now I'm halfway there" I smiled as he grabbed me pulling me into his arms and kissing my lips.
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