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Frank and Gerard watched Zacky and Brian enter their bedroom.
"What do you thinks up with him." Gerard asked Frank with his big pretty hazel eyes. Frank really needed to stop thinking like that.

"I dunno, probably stubbed his toe, the fucking pussy." Frank muttered bitterly

"Frank I think something might seriously be wrong." Gerard responded, concern littering his voice. Frank loved Gerard's naturally kind temperament. Gerard could be sassy at times but deep down he was a very caring and loving person. Frank smiled a little.

"Gerard I'm sure he's fine, well ask him later, but don't you think we should get out of the apartment for a while?" Frank asked Gerard

Gerard looked at Frank confused. "Sure but why?"

"So we can give Brian and Zacky a little alone time."

"What? Ohhh I see what you mean." Gerard grinned at Frank. "You think we should give Brian and Zacky alone time so they can figure out their feelings for each other."

"Exactly." Frank said smiling in spite of himself. "So where do you wanna go?"

"How bout Starbucks?" Gerard smiled sheepishly

"How did I know you were going to suggest that?" Frank smirked at Gerard. Gerard just laughed as they left the apartment to walk to Starbucks.

Frank had the urge to hold Gerard's hand on their walk but he managed to refrain from doing so. When they got to the Starbucks Gerard ordered his usual a plain black coffee. Frank loved this about Gerard, how he could be so fussy about his makeup, his clothes, and his artwork but when it came to coffee he just liked it plain and simple. Now that he came to think about it, it seemed like he loved almost everything about Gerard these days.

"So what do you think Zacky and Brian are up to?" Gerard asked sipping his hot steamy coffee

"Probably having sex." Frank chuckled. Gerard raised his eyebrows.

"Haha no Gerard, Zacky's probably comforting Brian or their discussing their feelings for each other."

"I think Brian might be upset over something Ronnie did." Gerard reasoned

"Most likely, Ronnie is a jack ass but what makes you say that?"

"I remember seeing Ronnie with some blond chick early today, but I didn't think anything of it……Maybe Ronnie was cheating on Brian with her." Gerard said taking another sip of his coffee

"I wouldn't put it past him." Frank said bitterly. Gerard and Frank drank their coffee discussing anything and everything.

"Do you wanna go see a movie?" Frank asked Gerard, hoping for some more time with him.

"Alright." Gerard smiled. "What movie should we see?"

"Uh….. The Avengers?" Frank said the first movie to come to mind.

"Fuck yeah!" Gerard exclaimed. "Robert Downey Jr. is sooo sexy."

Frank rolled his eyes at Gerard but couldn’t deny that Robert was attractive, just not as attractive as Gerard he thought to himself.

"So is this like a date?" Gerard asked Frank teasingly. Frank nearly sputtered out his coffee in surprise.

"Uh, no Gerard haha" Frank laughed nervously. "Just two friends going to see a movie." Frank tried to ignore the hurt look that washed up on Gerard's face as he said it.
They drank their coffee in silence for a few minutes when a tall guy with striking blue eyes came up to Gerard.

"Hey." The mystery guy said to Gerard

"Um… Hi I don’t think we've met." Gerard said awkwardly.

"I'm Jared, Jared Leto what's your name?" The guy asked winking at Gerard

"Uh.. Gerard Way."

"Hm, what a gorgeous name for a gorgeous guy." Gerard blushed and looked down at the floor. Frank attempted to remain composed by clenching his fist under the table

"Would a beautiful guy like you happen to be single?" Jared asked flirtatiously, brushing a strand of Gerard's long ebony hair behind his ear.

"Uh yeah but sorry you're not really my type." Gerard glanced over to Frank and looked back down.

"Really? So you're into short punk looking dudes like that guy." Jared pointed to Frank. Gerard blushed a deeper shade of pink and nervously twiddled his thumbs. Frank shot Jared a nasty look.

"How do you even know I'm gay?" Gerard asked pointedly

"It's kind of obvious, don't you think?" Jared smirked. "Well babe, if waiting your whole life for this punk to sweep you off your feet doesn't work out than call me." Jared gave Gerard a slip of paper containing his number and walked off.

"Are you gonna call him?" Frank raised an eye brow.

"What do you think?" Gerard snapped at him.

"I hope not… he seemed like an asshole."

"And you're not?" Gerard muttered bitterly.

"Hey now how am I an asshole?" Gerard didn't answer.

"Do not call me an asshole! People like that guy who tried to rape you last night are assholes! Not me!" Frank yelled making Gerard flinch and downcast his eyes. Frank instantly lowered his voice.

"Come on lets go see the movie." Frank said pulling on Gerard's arm.

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Frank and Gerard were seated towards the back of the movie theater and were deeply engaged in the move….at least Gerard was. Frank kept glancing at Gerard out of the corner of his eyes. Every time Gerard would jump during an action part Frank wanted to hug him. Ever time Gerard would laugh Frank wanted to kiss those thin pink lips of his. Gerard caught Frank staring at him.

"What?" Gerard asked innocently. "Is there something on my fa-" Gerard was cut off by Frank's lips on his. Frank continued kissing Gerard, hands tangled in his ebony locks until Gerard realized what was happening and kissed Frank back wrapping his arms around Frank's neck. Frank sensually licked across Gerard's bottom lip begging for entrance. Gerard opened up his mouth and let Frank's tongue inside, exploring the unfamiliar territory. Gerard couldn't believe what was happening and never wanted this moment to end. He felt his heart doing summersaults in his chest and butterflies fluttering inside his stomach. Frank moaned quietly in Gerard's mouth and they only broke away when Frank's ringtone went off blaring in the quiet movie theater. Frank quickly turned his phone down and saw that Kim was calling him. He quickly ignored the call.

"Shit." Frank muttered realizing what he'd done…..he cheated on his girlfriend and kissed his best friend. Gerard tried to engage in the kiss again but Frank lightly pushed him away.

"No, Gee I'm sorry that was a mistake." Frank felt his heart catch in his chest when he saw the hurt pass through Gerard's beautiful features.

"You- you mean that you didn't feel anything in that?" Gerard whimpered, tears threatening to spill over in his beautiful hazel orbs.

"Gerard, I really like you, you're beautiful, kind, funny, and the best friend I could ever ask for but… I'm sorry I'm not going to break up with Kim for you." Frank lamely attempted to console Gerard stroking his face. Gerard smacked his hand away.

"Don't Frank, don't, I am sick and tired of you leading me on." Gerard yelled Frank causes all the people in the theatre to star at the pair. Frank looked at Gerard to see tears streaked down his porcelain face.

"Gee…" Frank grabbed Gerard's arm consolingly and Gerard yanked it away and got out of the seat.

"No, I can't take anymore of this." Gerard stormed out of the theater. Frank followed closely on his trail.

"Where are you going?" Frank asked rushing after Gerard

"I don't know, away from you." Gerard said pathetically. Frank ran after him catching up to him and turning him around by his shoulders.

"Please come home with me Gee." Frank pleaded looking into Gerard's teary eyes.

"No Frank." Gerard said slipping out of Frank's grasp.

"Don’t do anything stupid Gerard!" Frank called as Gerard walked away. Gerard laughed
bitterly and turned around.

"You're not my boyfriend Frank you don't have any say in what I do." Gerard stalked off down the street. Frank felt a lump form in his throat. Oh how he wished he was Gerard's boyfriend.

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Gerard walked down the streets of New Jersey with nothing but the clothes on his back and a broken heart. He didn’t have anywhere to go but he sure as hell didn't want to go back to his apartment if Frank was there. Just thinking of the name made Gerard's head hurt like hell. Gerard continued walking until he came up on a familiar apartment. He recognized it at a place he used to stop by for pot in high school. Gerard nervously knocked on the door and came face to face with a man taller than him with grungy looking long black wavy hair and piercing blue eyes.

"Gerard!" The man explained throwing his arms around Gerard. "Long time no see buddy come on in!"

The man invited Gerard into the small dingy apartment. Gerard remembered this man as his old drug dealer and friend Bert McCracken. The pair used to spend their time in high school getting high and wasted. Gerard with the help of Frank and his brother Mikey managed to pull himself out of that drug infested pit and make something of his life by getting into art school. Gerard smiled at Bert, he could really use some of those drugs now.

"Hey Bert, sorry I haven't been her in a while I managed to kick my drug addiction but I kinda wish I hadn't right now." Gerard said darkly

"Well sweet cheeks if you want to do anything right now I just got in some coke it’s the best stuff." Bert said gesturing to the bag of white powder sitting on the kitchen counter.

"Um I really shouldn't besides I don’t have the money with me."

"Aw sugar I'm sure we can work something out." Bert looked at Gerard with hungry bedroom eyes. Gerard knew he shouldn’t but he would do anything to forget right now.

"Um sure what do you want me to do?" Gerard asked curiously.

Bert smirked and unbuttoned his jeans. "Suck me off." Bert pulled his hard cock out of his jeans. Gerard sighed and got down on his knees in front of Bert. Bert smirked, "Well we don't have all day." Gerard took the tip of Bert's cock and flicked his tongue around his slit. Bert moaned and grasped his hands in Gerard's ebony hair, pulling on it roughly Gerard relaxed his throat and began to take Bert's cock further in. Gerard bobbed his head up and down Bert's cock until Bert gripped his hair tighter and came in his mouth. Gerard pulled off Bert and spit out his cum in the sink, he didn’t want to contract any diseases.

"Aw babe that was great." Bert smirked at Gerard making Gerard feel dirtier than he already did.

"Can I have my drugs now?" Gerard asked.

"Sure." Bert got a few lines of coke ready for Gerard and passed him a straw.

"Here you go, come on this stuff is great trust me!" Gerard bent down to the table and used the straw to snort two lines of cocaine. Gerard felt the effects almost immediately. He felt on top of the world like no one could harm him. Everything went blurry and bright lights were flashing as Gerard fell to the floor and slipped out of consciousness.

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Frank made his way back to the apartment and sat on the couch to watch TV. He couldn't stop worrying about Gerard. He knew he should have followed him but he wanted to give Gerard some time on his own. He felt so awful about making Gerard cry. Seeing his perfect angel so sad broke his heart. He honestly didn’t know what to do anymore. He kept trying to repress his feelings for Gerard over the years. He tried not to think about how he longed to feel his pink lips on his own, how he longed to hold him tight and protect him. When he thought about Kim he only really thought of her in a sexual way. He didn't feel the need to be emotionally close to her as he did with Gerard. He had never told Kim that he loved her. He had never had a need to since she never told him that. He knew he really should have called her back but he was too tired. Frank dozed off thinking of Gerard.

Time Lapse
Frank was awoken by the sound of his phone's ringtone "King For A Day" by Green Day blasting through the room.
"King for a day princess by dawn"
"King for a day in a leather thong." Frank quickly answered his phone seeing it was Gerard.

"Gerard are you alright?" He immediately asked worriedly. Frank heard quiet sobbing come from the other end.

"Gee?" Franks worry was growing by the minute.

"Frankie." Gerard sobbed into the phone his voice cracked and wrecked.

"Babe what's wrong?" Frank mentally smacked himself for calling him babe.

"Fran-kie can you please pick me up?" Gerard's voice stuttered.

"Of course, where are you?" Frank's heart beat was hammering. Gerard gave Frank the address.

"Okay, Gee I'll be right there." Frank hung up and hurried to his car. Frank drove to the address thinking of all the worse scenarios. What if someone had hurt Gerard? When Frank got to the address he saw a figure hunched over in the door step of a building. The figure had long ebony hair and when the figure looked up Frank recognized him as Gerard. Frank got out of his car quickly and rushed to Gerard's shaking figure. He wrapped his arms around Gerard's quivering body.

"Gee what happened?" Frank stroked Gerard hair out of his face. When Gerard looked at him he has strung out blood shot eyes and his eye liner had smudged around his eyes making him look like a raccoon. He was still beautiful to Frank though.

"Gerard have you been doing drugs?" Frank asked Gerard sternly taking his blood shot eyes in to account. Gerard looked up at Frank with fear in his eyes.

"Frank-ie I'm so sorry, I just wanted to forget and I saw Bert and he offered me cocaine." Gerard shamefully looked at the ground breaking into another fit of sobs. Frank's heart stopped. Gerard hadn't done drugs in so long and Frank was the cause of Gerard's relapse. He felt so guilty.

"Shhhh Gee I'm so sorry I caused you to do this, you have no idea how bad I feel." Frank wrapped his arms around Gerard's frail body.

"No Frank it's my fault I should have stopped loving you when you told me you were straight."

Frank looked at Gerard with shock in his eyes. Gerard loved him?

"Wait Gerard you, you love me?" Frank looked into Gerard's glassy hazel orbs.

"Yeah Frank, I've loved you since the moment I met you, but none of that matters now." Gerard's eyes started filling up with tears again. Frank wiped the tears away with the pads of his thumbs. Frank figured Gerard wouldn't remember any of this in the morning so he acted on impulse. Frank brought his lips down to Gerard's and caught him in a passionate loving kiss. Gerard gasped and pushed him away.

"I don't want your pity Frank." He said looking down.

"It's not pity Gerard… I….. I think I love you Gerard." Frank said looking into Gerard's watery orbs. Gerard smiled a little bit before he slumped down on Frank's chest totally exhausted from the mix of drugs and alcohol. Frank looked down at the sleeping figure on his chest. At least he won't remember me saying that in the morning he thought to himself. Frank picked up the sleeping Gerard bridal style and carried him to his car. Gerard was light and Frank was strong so it wasn't very difficult for him. He set him in the passenger seat and buckled his seat belt. Frank got in the driver's seat and drove them back to the apartment. Frank carried him all the way to the room that they shared together and tucked him into his bed. Frank got into his own bed and drifted off into a deep sleeping praying that Gerard wouldn't remember what he said in the morning.