FicWad

Ok so this is the first chapter.I've never actually written a Frerard before so it'll be a challenge.Ok here we go..

chapter 1
Gee...Whats going on?Where am I?
You're in hospital.
Why?
You're ill.
Ill?
Yes.Very ill.
Am I going to heaven like Mommy?
Yes.
I don't wanna go.I wanna stay with you,Gee.
I wanna stay with you too,Helena.
I love you,Gee.
I love you too,Helena.Never let them take the light behind your eyes ok?
Ok,Gee.
You can sleep now.
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That woke me up.Every fucking night it wakes me up.
I get off the couch and head towards the refridgerator.
All that's in there's a bottle of beer.
I grab it out of the fridge and unscrew the bottle top.
I throw back my head and take a big chug.
That stuff is heavy.
I lunge forward,choking on it.
I then head to the bathroom for a shower.
I step into the hot water for a few minutes,then out again.
I look at my pale lifeless face in the dirty mirror,then open the cabinet.
Scaning it's contents,I grab my blade.
I then position the blade upon my wrist,just by my vein.
I quickly slice along and rich,red liquid comes pouring out.
My blood.
I then look back at myself in the mirror
Are you happy now,you useless fuck?
Is this what you want,what you crave for?
Pain?
Do you wanna end up like your father and mother?
After what happened they ended up dead..
What about your brother,his wife?
They are expecting their first baby,and you wanna just throw your life away?
Fuck you,asshole
Shut the fuck upI say to myself as I head towards my room and get dressed.

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So...
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