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I found myself sitting at my desk at 2:30 in the afternoon on Christmas Eve. I was almost done and was getting ready to go home. I had the next week off. I had asked for the time months ago, long before Jason and I split up. I had decided to go ahead and take the time. If I didn’t use it I would have lost it.
“You leaving soon?” I asked Maranda as I closed down my workstation.
“Yeah, I should be out of here in the next hour. Are you leaving?” My friend answered.
“Yep. Merry Christmas Maranda. I’ll see ya in the new year.” I said as I got up and gathered up my things.
“Merry Christmas Lizzy. Are you sure you won’t come over for dinner tomorrow?” She asked me.
“Thanks for the invention, but I’m just going to stay home. I’ll be fine. I’ll call you in a few days. Bye.” I said as I walked out of our cubicle.
I stopped and said goodbye and Merry Christmas to a few other people before I left the building. The snow that had been predicted for later in the evening had started to fall. I brushed off my car and headed home. The roads were a little slippery, so I went slowly. By the time I got home the snow was starting to come down heavily. It was getting colder too.
I got in and turned the heat up. I went upstairs to change into comfy clothes. I pulled on a pair of yoga pants and a tank top. I went to the closet and looked for a sweater or hoodie. I didn’t really think about what I was doing and pulled out my favorite Clandestine hoodie.
It had been six weeks since I had left Pete. I hadn’t heard from him at all. No calls, no emails, no texts, nothing. I was still heartbroken. I loved him and it scared me, so I walked away from it. But I still loved him and now... Well, I wasn’t going to contact him. I decided to put the hoodie on. That night I felt the need to be close to something he had given me, since I couldn’t be close to him.
I went downstairs and made some hot cocoa and settled on the couch to watch A Christmas Story over and over on TNT. Even Ralphie being told he would shoot his eye out couldn’t take my pain and heartache away. I could hear my neighbors coming and going for a night of visiting with family and friends. I felt even more alone than ever. I missed having someone in the house.
I was brought out of my deep and depressing thoughts by the door bell ringing. I got up to answer it. The snow was falling hard and fast, the wind was blowing everything around. I didn’t have a clue who could be at my door. I opened my front door to find Pete and Hemmy standing there in that miserable weather.
“Pete?” I asked in a whisper. I couldn’t believe he was here. I felt my heart race and my breath quicken. The white snow had caught in his black hair and the light from the moon made it look like he had been dipped in silver.
“Hey Lizzy.” He said. He looked nervous and a bit afraid.
“What are you…? Come in. It’s cold out there.” I said as I opened the door all the way and stood to the side.
Pete and Hemmy came in. I helped Pete with his suitcase and got everything inside. Pete looked terrible. His complexion was pasty and pale, he had dark circles under his eyes. I doubt he had slept much since I last saw him. He looked sad, heartbroken, and miserable.
He opened his mouth to say something, but before he could get the words out I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him, burying my face in his neck. He wrapped his arms around me too and hugged back.
“I’ve missed you. I’ve missed you so fucking much. And I’m so sorry.” I said into his neck. I felt a small sob escape my lips. “I’m so, so fucking sorry, Pete.”
Pete pulled away from me and looked at me. “I still don’t know what I did, but I’m sorry. Lizzy I need you. I don’t want to live my life without you in it. I promise I won’t tell you I love you anymore. I’ll wait for you. I just need you in my life...”
I think he would have kept going, but I stopped him with a kiss. I put both hands to his face and kissed him. As soon as my lips touched his I felt my heart lift.
“It wasn’t you.” I told him. “It never was. I got scared and I panicked. I’m the one who should be sorry. And I am. I lied to you. I lied to you, Pete. I do love you. I love you so much it scared me. Please forgive me.”
“You love me?” He asked, a smile spreading across his face for the first time since he got here. His eyes that had been dull started to sparkle.
“Yes I do. I love you.” I told him. His smile was contagious and I smiled back at him.
“Say it again.” He said.
I looked him in the eye and told him what I should have before. “I love you Pete.”
“I love you too Lizzy.” Pete told me before kissing me again. “Merry Christmas.”
“Merry Christmas. You were the only thing I asked Santa for.”
That was three months ago. Pete still hasn’t left. He and Hemmy have pretty much moved in and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
That is how a rock star ruined my marriage.
“You leaving soon?” I asked Maranda as I closed down my workstation.
“Yeah, I should be out of here in the next hour. Are you leaving?” My friend answered.
“Yep. Merry Christmas Maranda. I’ll see ya in the new year.” I said as I got up and gathered up my things.
“Merry Christmas Lizzy. Are you sure you won’t come over for dinner tomorrow?” She asked me.
“Thanks for the invention, but I’m just going to stay home. I’ll be fine. I’ll call you in a few days. Bye.” I said as I walked out of our cubicle.
I stopped and said goodbye and Merry Christmas to a few other people before I left the building. The snow that had been predicted for later in the evening had started to fall. I brushed off my car and headed home. The roads were a little slippery, so I went slowly. By the time I got home the snow was starting to come down heavily. It was getting colder too.
I got in and turned the heat up. I went upstairs to change into comfy clothes. I pulled on a pair of yoga pants and a tank top. I went to the closet and looked for a sweater or hoodie. I didn’t really think about what I was doing and pulled out my favorite Clandestine hoodie.
It had been six weeks since I had left Pete. I hadn’t heard from him at all. No calls, no emails, no texts, nothing. I was still heartbroken. I loved him and it scared me, so I walked away from it. But I still loved him and now... Well, I wasn’t going to contact him. I decided to put the hoodie on. That night I felt the need to be close to something he had given me, since I couldn’t be close to him.
I went downstairs and made some hot cocoa and settled on the couch to watch A Christmas Story over and over on TNT. Even Ralphie being told he would shoot his eye out couldn’t take my pain and heartache away. I could hear my neighbors coming and going for a night of visiting with family and friends. I felt even more alone than ever. I missed having someone in the house.
I was brought out of my deep and depressing thoughts by the door bell ringing. I got up to answer it. The snow was falling hard and fast, the wind was blowing everything around. I didn’t have a clue who could be at my door. I opened my front door to find Pete and Hemmy standing there in that miserable weather.
“Pete?” I asked in a whisper. I couldn’t believe he was here. I felt my heart race and my breath quicken. The white snow had caught in his black hair and the light from the moon made it look like he had been dipped in silver.
“Hey Lizzy.” He said. He looked nervous and a bit afraid.
“What are you…? Come in. It’s cold out there.” I said as I opened the door all the way and stood to the side.
Pete and Hemmy came in. I helped Pete with his suitcase and got everything inside. Pete looked terrible. His complexion was pasty and pale, he had dark circles under his eyes. I doubt he had slept much since I last saw him. He looked sad, heartbroken, and miserable.
He opened his mouth to say something, but before he could get the words out I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him, burying my face in his neck. He wrapped his arms around me too and hugged back.
“I’ve missed you. I’ve missed you so fucking much. And I’m so sorry.” I said into his neck. I felt a small sob escape my lips. “I’m so, so fucking sorry, Pete.”
Pete pulled away from me and looked at me. “I still don’t know what I did, but I’m sorry. Lizzy I need you. I don’t want to live my life without you in it. I promise I won’t tell you I love you anymore. I’ll wait for you. I just need you in my life...”
I think he would have kept going, but I stopped him with a kiss. I put both hands to his face and kissed him. As soon as my lips touched his I felt my heart lift.
“It wasn’t you.” I told him. “It never was. I got scared and I panicked. I’m the one who should be sorry. And I am. I lied to you. I lied to you, Pete. I do love you. I love you so much it scared me. Please forgive me.”
“You love me?” He asked, a smile spreading across his face for the first time since he got here. His eyes that had been dull started to sparkle.
“Yes I do. I love you.” I told him. His smile was contagious and I smiled back at him.
“Say it again.” He said.
I looked him in the eye and told him what I should have before. “I love you Pete.”
“I love you too Lizzy.” Pete told me before kissing me again. “Merry Christmas.”
“Merry Christmas. You were the only thing I asked Santa for.”
That was three months ago. Pete still hasn’t left. He and Hemmy have pretty much moved in and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
That is how a rock star ruined my marriage.
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