FicWad

Disclaimer: Remember, this is my original work, so please if you would like something out of it please remember to contact me first.\n\nBy: Hiro\nEmail: almadamarys@hotmail.com\nSummary: This is my own sick, twisted little view of what is happening between men and women. women there are things that concern you and men you may want to read to actually get inside the mind of a female. like it or not i want coments!\n\nIt\'s funny, what is it about men that drives us to be better? What is it about love and relationships that we as children strive for? I mean, when I was a little girl my mother taught me to be courteous, loving, quiet, discreet, funny, etc. and all for what? So that when I got older and learned how to cook, clean, and take care of the house hold id be ready for marriage. To who is what I want to know?\n\nI\'m an only child so I have no idea how men are raised, all I know is that when I grew up and first noticed that \"im interested in you look\" in a male I was scared and yet fascinated. No guy (well boy at that time) had ever looked at me that way. And what do we do when we are 16 and a boy comes up to you and says: \"you wanna go steady?\" Ja ja. I personally freaked out!!!! I started laughing and rambling and crying and could in no fucking way put a single coherent thought in my brain much less my mouth. And what did he do? He laughed and said I was funny, then, he took my hand and we had a sandwich. Yep that was how my first boyfriend and I started. \n\nThe most amazing thing happened in about a week. I started changing; I was more self conscious about what I did or said than ever before (I didn\'t want to look like a ditz in front of him right?) yeah right. When I first told my mother she was stunned: \"What?! I can\'t believe you. You young lady are 16, you are too young to have a boyfriend. Does he work, study, have a house...? Who is he? Blah, blah, blah, believe me that\'s all I heard. But you know what? She had a point.\n\nAs soon as we had our first boyfriend (ladies back me up on this one) we started thinking about other things that weren\'t just holding hands and riding off into the sunset with prince charming. Yes, there was another side of \"Sleeping beauty\" that our parents rarely if ever talked about. A deeper side, a side that well known author Ann Rice described in too much detail. Sex. Not just any sex no. The type of sex we thought about, led to a much deeper, happier and ingrained fantasy. That\'s right we thought of the wedding ceremony with the white dress, the bridesmaids, the groomsmen, the presents, the cake and more important: THE GROOM. Yep that son of a bitch that told us: \"if you love me you\'ll do it\", \"I love you for ever and I will never leave you\" and the oh so ever popular \"just let put the head in\".\n\nMm hmmm. And people that\'s how we sometimes loose our virginity, now the waiting starts. And let me tell you if he was a half decent boyfriend he would do you a couple of more times before telling his friends and you ending up the whore of the picture. If he was a jackass (and let\'s face it they mostly are) he would tell on you faster than your little brother would tell your mama you broke the lamp. \n\nNow after we establish heart break we move on... WRONG!! We dwell on the pain and sadly try to find out what happened: \"Oh Billy please forgive me. Tell me, was it me?\" And bitch, yeah, it was you. Why? Well lets go back to the last 5 to 10 minutes of your virginity; what were the words spoken between you two? Was it: \"I love you and I\'m never leaving you. Marry me and I will make sure that all your needs are covered and that when the time comes I will value you for who you are and we will get an apartment and have two cars, in fact don\'t worry I will do the dishes while you get to read your book (mind you this is supposed to be him talking and also you cooked dinner) or was it something along the lines of this: \"Oh baby, you\'re so hot. Oh baby come on lets do it. Ah ah oh god that feels so good... What? Naa my mom isn\'t coming home till 6:00pm\". If you identify with example \"a\" please by all means go for it and if you don\'t let him fuck your ass you are an idiot, men like that don\'t happen very often so go for it. If for whatever reason you find yourself in example \"b\" then clearly we have made a mistake. But worry not; this can be fixed (hopefully).\n\nFirst we must evaluate our criteria for men. We must understand that both examples are bullshit men feed us to get us to sleep with them so: What do we do look at? Their character. How do they act with us in front of every one? Are they repressed; this is the male that will not engage in any type of physical contact with you in public. Are they too eager or all over you? This is the man that acts like a puppy, and pisses himself just for a lick (pathetic). After we categorize our man we have to know what do we expect of him. Reflect on this knowing that there are no perfect men but, there is always the next best thing. By this im not saying that you should go and get yourself a lawyer, no those shit heads are the worst; they know how to fuck you then fuck you up. You need a man that respects you, and lets face it ladies, at 16, all they want to do is see how far up they can go. I sometimes wonder, what is it about Cosmo, Vogue, and other magazines that want to get into the mind of a man when its pretty much simple, what they say is what they think. Yes ladies there is no secret, no hidden agenda, or double meaning to what they say, if he says: \"I wanna have sex\" believe me ladies he doesn\'t want a relationship with you, he was clear from the beginning. So now it\'s up to you whether to indulge him in casual sex or keep on stepping.\n\nI chose the same thing that almost every woman chooses: \"Ok ill have the sex since its good and im no longer a virgin but, I will do it so good he will never want to leave\". Oh this works ladies don\'t get me wrong, the problem is that it doesn\'t work for you as you intended. As long as he gets his dick sucked just the way he likes it and you don\'t want to cuddle (because you feel like you are pushing it) he will be there. The moment you decide to call him because you got a flat tire and YOU can\'t fix it or call him just to talk they run. That\'s just how it is no ifs or buts about it. As I said HE was clear with you from the beginning HE said he only wanted sex, YOU assumed that because of your incredible ability to pass as a gymnast or circus contortionist in bed he would fall in love with you.\n\nAnd that leads me to the entire root of the problem. We believe that sex is the key to romance and intimacy when infact it\'s the opposite. We as women need to learn how to keep our legs closed and our minds open. Also know that if we are going to spread our thighs we might as well do it for the same reasons as them.\n\nAh... The pleasures of meaningless casual sex.\n\nSome might call you a whore but really, what do they know? Yep, now, we have sworn off love and all we want is sex. SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX. Yeah! And some bitch over at England called it \"girl power\" then finished with the ever so wise advice of \"zigazigah\"*. But then we realize we also made a mistake because for some of us that is not the way to go so what do we do? Go looking for that, which makes us happy, something to complete us. Forgive me, lo siento, gomenansai, perdone mua, (pardon my French) however it is said I apologize for going macho right now but ladies its hormonal, no matter what we do, or how many self help books we read our genetic make up is never, ever satisfied. We ourselves choose this, we are always looking for ways to better ourselves and the people around us yet we never seem to get there and this is how the cycle of the \"not good enough\" starts.\n\nAs long as we keep comparing ourselves to others and never being able to catch up to ourselves we will continue this shit. Men are there, they know what they want right now its sex but after enough sex is done some might want a family and when that time comes they will choose not the smartest, prettiest, fattest or even the top Victoria secret model, no, they will choose the one that was there at the right moment at the right time. That sadly is what leads me to believe that it will never be our choice or our time but their readiness.\n\nI will finish with one last statement: Keep on fucking, it doesn\'t make you a whore, keep on not fucking, it doesn\'t make you a prude, keep looking for that \"special\" someone, it doesn\'t make you desperate. But whatever you do, it doesn\'t matter, at the end of the day it was never ladies choice but a bad case of availability, his or your own.\n\n*spice girls\n