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Theresa and I were talking earlier, god she's so cool. I mean, she's like practically a supermodel, TONS of guys fall head over heels for her and me, well, no one likes me more than a friend. But there is this one guy, no, it couldn't be. Archie. He's a really nice, no, not nice...fun guy. Someone that you can hate, or like. But he could...would never like a girl like me. When I'm with him, it's like we're just buddies, like I'm just one of the guys. But Theresa...wow. When she walks into a room, or smiles, wherever she does things just...I dunno...light up. Her and Jay are so obviosly meant to be together, i don't know how they can't see it. It's like they're soul mates. I don't have a soul mate, in fact, I don't even believe in soul mates. Like that there is someone out there for everyone. Someone can be alone forever you know. It IS possible, though it may not be all that great.

I was listening to this one song today at lunch on my MP3 Player. Miss Independance by Kelly Clarkson. It sort of totally explains my love life. Even if I don't really have one.

Miss Independent
Miss self-sufficient
Miss keep your distance
Miss unafraid
Miss out of my way
Miss don't let a man interfere, no
Miss on her own
Miss almost grown
Miss never let a man help her off her throne

It is true anyways, I don't let anyone in. But if they try, they'll feel my wrath.

So, by keepin' her heart protected
She'd never ever feel rejected
Little miss apprehensive
Said ooh, she fell in love

I guess that no one is really that hard on the inside too.

What is this feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open my door
Surprise...It's time
To feel what's real
What happened to miss Independent
No more the need to be defensive
Goodbye, old you
When love is true

I prove my point.

Misguided heart
Miss play it smart
Miss if you want to use that line you better not start, no
But she miscalculated
She didn't want to end up jaded

Hey, I'm not psycic.

And this miss decided not to miss out on true love
So, by changing her misconceptions
Shje went in a new direction
And found inside she felt a connection
She fell in love.

It's not that big of a mistake, is it?

What is this feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open my door
Surprise...it's time
To feel what's real
What happened to Miss Independent?
No more the need to be defensive
Goodbye (goodbye), old you (oh you)
When love, when love is true

Is love ever really true? Is there really love?

When Miss Independence walked away
No time for love that came her way
She looked in the mirror and thought today
What happened to Miss no longer afraid?

Well? Answer me!?!

It took some time for her to see
How beautiful love could really be
Nio more talk of why can't that be me
I'm so glad I finally feel...

This Miss is NOT missing.

What is this feelin' takin' over?
Thinkin' no one could open my door
Surprise...it's time
To feel what's reall
Whast happened to Miss Independent?
No longer the need to be defensive
Goodbye (goodbye), old you (oh you)
When love, when love is true...

A pretty much happy ending...

Miss Independent.

Is there really such thing as love? Is there really a soul mate out there for me? The song said that there is, but is that really true? Ugh!!! Too many questions and WAY too many perspectives. I wish that I knew more...that I knew...him and that he saw me that way. Maybe he does though, I guess that I'll just find out some day or another.



Keep on Keeping on, and Life will provide it's own Rewards.