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Gerard woke up first; Amy was still fast asleep in his arms, one hand resting softly on his chest and one leg draped lazily around his own. Gerard smiled at the sight, not wanting to remove himself from the bed but knowing that if he didn't, nothing would get done.
After a three minute struggle of trying to remove himself from the bed and not disturb Amy at the same time, he eventually made it into the kitchen. He didn't spend long away from the bedroom however as the first thing he done was set a headache tablet on the table next to Amy's side of the bed with a glass of water next to that before then leaving her to rest some more.
When he got back out he saw Kirsty talking on her mobile to someone, the conversation went something like this:
"No way!"... "No way!"... "Seriously?"... "You can't be serious,"... "Really?" Gerard decided to intervene,
"I think whoever you are talking to is telling the truth" He said smirking as he walked to the kettle, ready to make a cup of coffee,
"Gerard... it's Mikki!" Kirsty said as she held the phone away from her ear,
"Oh cool, what's she phoned for? I don't know if Ray is up" Gerard said, still attending to his coffee,
"She's coming here today" Kirsty replied,
"No way!" Gerard said whipping around rather quickly, "Today? Well you have to tell Ray!" he exclaimed,
"I am going to" Kirsty said, hanging up the phone as Gerard finished his coffee and went to find a chair to sit down in, eventually setting himself down on a dining chair.

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Amy woke up not long after Gerard did. She rubbed her eyes, her head was pounding and she quickly realized that she was alone in the double bed. She groaned and look to the side of her, smiling when she saw a couple of tablets and a glass of water next to her, knowing immediately who put them there.
She took the tablets, stretched, then walked out of the room to find Gerard. Which she managed quickly considering the chair he was sat on was almost right in front of the door. He turned around when heard the door opening and smiled when she saw Amy, still dressed in yesterday's clothes as she stumbling into the adjoining room, her make-up was smudged and her hair was a mess, but she was still gorgeous. She dropped onto the chair opposite Gerard and her head immediately fell into her arms,
"Still sleepy?" Gerard teased as Amy looked up at him through her long, dark eyelashes,
"Ya think?" She said, her head hitting the table as the beeper sounded from the bedroom,
"Take your AZT" Gerard said, still watching her as she had made no move to get up from her current position. He heard a strange mumbling sound coming from where Amy's head was, "Come on Amy, don't make me force it to you" more strange mumbling, "Fine I'll go get it then" and he did, Amy looked up at sighed as she turned to look out of the window, she saw Ray and Kirsty talking and some people from other bands running around, trying to sort everything out. Everything was just as it was a couple of days ago, except for her, she felt tears gathering in her eyes again and when she heard Gerard maneuvering back into the room she quickly wiped them away,
"Okay I wasn't exactly sure what the AZT looked like, so I brought this tablet that was in a box in your coat pocket" he said holding up the AZT tablet, "Is it right?"
Amy felt a lump in her throat and simply nodded; Gerard gave her the tablet and watched her swallow it,
"Gerard I feel so stupid" Amy began, probably not the best way to start a conversation, but it was straight to the point, Gerard frowned and moved his chair closer to Amy's as he took her small, pale, trembling hand in his own,
"What brought this on?" he asked gently, lifting her head up to meet his eyes,
"It's my fault, if I wasn't so pathetic and weak he wouldn't have..." but she was cut off, by herself, a large sob escaped her body as Gerard gathered the trembling woman into his arms, she buried her face into his chest, letting all her pain out at once as she remembered that awful night,
"Now..." Gerard began once Amy's tears had subsided, "Do you want to tell me what's going on?" He asked gently, wiping away Amy's tears with his thumb. Amy sighed and decided now would be a better time than any to tell him,
"Well..."

/Flashback/
Amy sat in the hotel room she was staying in with Shaun, fearfully awaiting his return, knowing how mad he was when she wasn't in the room when he asked her to be. So she did as she was asked, hoping that one night he would come home sober.
Unfortunately that night was not tonight as the door to the room slammed open and there stood Shaun...with Ben. Amy gasped in shock, the both of them were together, which couldn't mean anything good, there was nothing good when they were separate so it would be worse obviously, Ben said one thing to Shaun,
"Tie her up" and he did, the ropes tightened against the soft flesh of her ankles and wrists and she couldn't to a thing about it as she was so petrified. When her sense did kick back in she was already tied up and struggling seemed to hurt more as they caused the rope to burn and grind against her flesh. Both Ben and Shaun grinned at each other menacingly, Amy tried yelling for help but as soon as she had a knife was placed against her throat and Shaun's voice whispered in her ear "Do that again and I will make sure that you never speak again"
Amy had tears running down her cheeks, but she stayed silent, she was afraid to die and both Ben and Shaun knew that. Shaun gave Ben the knife and sat in a chair beside the bed.
Ben moved his hand up the inside of Amy's thigh and began to touch her all over her lower self,
"She's so warm" Ben said and it disgusted Amy to no end and still she didn't say anything because she still saw the knife in Ben's hand and she closed her eyes. Suddenly she felt her skirt and top being torn off to which her eyes flew open. She gave a slight whimper which she received a long gash across her stomach,
"Didn't we tell you not to make a sound?!" Ben cried, slapping her around the face, Amy said nothing and Ben smirked.
And so it carried on. Amy couldn't think properly, she could only feel and she could only feel pain as both men penetrated her brutally. After what felt like hours they left announcing that they had "had their fun" and Amy was left alone to curl up on the bloodied mess of a bed and cry herself to sleep.
When she woke up she threw the sheets into he fire and left the hotel some money to buy replacements. She told no one about what had happened and she hadn't seen Shaun or Ben since.
/End Flashback/

"Bottom line is I know Shaun did drugs and so therefore probably picked it up from sharing needles with someone and that night he used no protection" tears were streaming down Amy's face as she finished her retelling and Gerard was seething with anger as he took the sobbing, broken woman in his arms and stroked her hair as tears seeped through his shirt,
"I'm so sorry, I am so, so sorry" he whispered into her hair, his heart breaking as he though of those monsters hurting this broken angel.