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"What does he do to you?" He asked lifting one of his eyebrows in a questioning look. "Nothing." I gave a fake smile. "He wouldn't hurt me." Gerard nodded and looked at his coffee. It was quiet. "Do you want to go out sometime with me and my friends?" He asked. I sat, rather shocked, no one had ever asked me that before. What do I say? What would Andrew say? What would he do? "I don't know, I Haven't really gone out with people in a long time." I admitted. "How come?" "I don't want to talk about it okay?" I said rather bitterly. He nodded his head put his cup on the floor and stood up. "I'd best be off then." I watched him leave.

I staid in one place for ages. Delilah by The Dresden Dolls playing on my CD player. This song was perfect for me. Why have I been trapped? It's like a spider web. He's changed so much. I just want the old Andrew back.

I had fallen asleep without realizing. I only noticed when Andrew walked through the door. "Hey babe." I smiled. He gave a half smile and went into the bathroom. I turned off my CD player and walked into the bedroom. I wanted tonight to be special. Looking through my clothes box I found my black suspenders, fishnet leggings and matching bra. I quickly got changed and waited for Andrew to finish.

He walked into the room and I was stood in front of the mattress, with a house robe covering me. I dropped the robe to my feet and waited for him to make the first move.

His lips were rough as always. Hands dry against my skin. He was quick to undo my bra as always. I moaned as his tongue stroked me between the crevice of my breasts. My hips started to grind a little as he got deeper and deeper.

Everything seemed to go black after that. Sex was boring with Andrew now, it was the same thing over, and over. I hate to admit it, but there was no spark. Why was I just realizing this now?

*

The moment was over in an instant. Andrew laid asleep beside me, but I was wide awake, staring at the ceiling. I decided I needed fresh air. Jumping out of bed I put on my hot pants and house robe. No one will be up this time of night will they? I left Andrew asleep and walked out.

I stood round the corner, outside in the freezing cold. Lighting up a cigarette I hear laughing and one familiar voice. I peeped around the corner and saw Gerard with the same guy from the fish and chip shop. He saw me and waved.

My eyes widened. I didn't want him to see me. Why is it everyone else ignores me, but he doesn't. "Could I borrow your lighter?" He asked, perching a cigarette between his lips. I nodded it and handed it to him. His friend staid quiet, his hands in his pockets. "What you doing out here dressed like that?" He laughed. I shrugged my shoulders. "Just needed some peace I guess." He nodded in understandment. "Oh, sorry I snapped at you earlier, I was very emotional." I laughed at myself. "Heh, don't worry about it. Oh, by the way, this is Frank." He pointed towards his friend and I shook his hand.

We had been stood outside, talking about nonsense for quite sometime. I was actually laughing. "So you want to come tomorrow night?" Gerard asked again. My face turned back to a blank expression, and shrugged. "Come on, it will be good, I promise." I thought long and hard. Maybe it was time for me to get a social life. "Fine, you win." He laughed along with Frank. I can't believe I said yes. "Well, I better get back to my bloke." I smiled.

Gerard and Frank both walked me up the first flights of stairs. We said our goodbyes outside Gerard's apartment door and I carried on. Quietly I opened the door and walked in, Andrew still sound asleep on the mattress in our bedroom. I dropped the robe and climbed back in, drifting into a dreamless sleep.