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~My Dear Helena,
I know I have been putting off the reasons of my painful addiction. I wasn't ready to tell you, but I know I would never be. Don't cry for me, Helena, I know you tried to prevent this exact thing from happening. I reached a point where I craved the feeling of pain every day, until I couldn't stop.
My life had always been horrible; I just tried to cover up the truth for the longest time. My parents were never around, they were always working for all the expenses Mikey and I have. I never wanted any of it. Pretty soon Mikey wasn't even around the house anymore; it was just me and all the sharp objects, alone. I felt like I wasn't myself anymore, like someone came and took over my soul. Sometimes I would rather walk through life unnoticed, being nothing but a shadow or forgotten memory in one's mind. I was depressed all the time, and no one noticed but you.
You were there on the first day I started cutting, and you were the only one ever know. Don't blame yourself for my fate, I am happier this way. I no longer feel pain, desire, worry, fear and regret.
Please don't cry, Helena. Every time you touch the necklace I gave you, promise me that you will think of me. I will always be waiting for you, no matter how long it takes.
With all my love,
~Gerard Arthur Way~
I know I have been putting off the reasons of my painful addiction. I wasn't ready to tell you, but I know I would never be. Don't cry for me, Helena, I know you tried to prevent this exact thing from happening. I reached a point where I craved the feeling of pain every day, until I couldn't stop.
My life had always been horrible; I just tried to cover up the truth for the longest time. My parents were never around, they were always working for all the expenses Mikey and I have. I never wanted any of it. Pretty soon Mikey wasn't even around the house anymore; it was just me and all the sharp objects, alone. I felt like I wasn't myself anymore, like someone came and took over my soul. Sometimes I would rather walk through life unnoticed, being nothing but a shadow or forgotten memory in one's mind. I was depressed all the time, and no one noticed but you.
You were there on the first day I started cutting, and you were the only one ever know. Don't blame yourself for my fate, I am happier this way. I no longer feel pain, desire, worry, fear and regret.
Please don't cry, Helena. Every time you touch the necklace I gave you, promise me that you will think of me. I will always be waiting for you, no matter how long it takes.
With all my love,
~Gerard Arthur Way~
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