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On his way there, Gerard began to think, think about what he was going to say. What he wanted to say more like. Did he want to tell her his true feelings for her, or maybe ask her how she really feels about him, or both. yeah both, that was better. He planned on saying 'Jackie, im sorry, i have no excuse for what i said and i didnt mean it, but i really need to tell you something. if you'll let me.' he then planned on her saying yes or no, if she said yes he would continue with ' i have more feeling for you than you would think, and was wondering if you would give me a second chance, but to be more that your friend, I hope you understand what im saying' he then hoped she would say yes, but if she didnt she was prepared to get slapped.
Then he reached the park and had no problems on finding me considering he knew about the 'secret bench'. he made his way over and stroked my hair. I awoke with such fierceness, i scared him a little.
"what the fuck are you doing here?" I asked lookning away
"i came to tell you something"
"youve got some nerve"
"well..." he just froze, he didn't know about what. it wasnt about telling her, he was actually quite excited. he didnt know what was keeping the words in his throat
"go on" i waited, sounding like a bitch again, DAMNIT. finally i caved and felt i had a good idea of what he was trying to tell me, so i beat him to it "can i tell you something first" Gerard just nodded "wellireallyreallylikeyoubutiwasntsureaboutthatacoupleminutesagoontillyoucamethenirealizedthatyoudocareaboutme, but i am expecting an appology."
"can you repete that please?"
"after an apology"
"look im really really tuly sorry, and i know if you'll never understand how much i mean that"Gerard said looking away, afraid I'd see him blush, though it was dark
"okay, i do beleive you, and please look at me when i say this to you... you really hurt me Gerard, and i dont laugh at me for saying this, but it hurt me so much because..."i couldn't say it, i was too embarassed
"come on Jackie please tell me" he said beggingly
"because i...love you" Gerard just had a grin on his face
"you probly wo..." he was cut off
"but i saw that you were with that whore and thought that if those are the kind of girls you like then whats the chance for me?"
"Jackie, you dont..." he was cut off once more
"Gerard please, i know i shouldnt have told you, Mikey said i should just wait for things to die down between the two of you..." she was interupted (man do people have any manners?)
"JACKIE" he yelled in frustration
"Gerard please let me finish"
"okay" he said giving up
"as i was saying, i saw you with her and was just set in a bad mood. thats why ive been being a bitch lately, i mean, you were the only reasson i could jump that one day. and to find out youve been sleeping with a whore..." this was too much for Gerard he had to butt in
"woah woah woah, okay, i understand the first part, but i have not been sleeping with her. I do have some pride, yah know."
"oh...well then that lightens things a little, anyways...i think im finished, you had something to say?"
"as a matter of fact i do, i wanted to tell you..." he was cought again, the words were screaming inside of him 'I LOVE YOU' but nothing would come out "...uhh...i wanted to tell you that...my mom has the guest room ready for you... if youll come and stay with us"