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As the boys do all their sound check things, Jennie, Bella and I sit and just hang out backstage in a little room they have. "Mommy I'm hungry" "Oh I guess you eaten for a while, have you?" She shakes he head no. I look around the room until I spot a mini fridge. I stand up and walk to it. I open it and see a sandwich in a case. I pull the case out and there is a note on top of it: "Benji's. STAY OUT!" He won't mind if his daughter eats it. I think to myself. I open the case and smell the sandwich "Hmmm smells good" I pull the sandwich out. I hand it to Bella. "Here you go baby" "Thanks mommy" I throw the case away and go sit next to Bella and Jennie. "How long do we have to sit here?" Jennie asks/whines. I look at my watch. "About ten more minutes" "Ok good" Ten minutes later the guys walk in. "Ok they're going to open the doors soon so if you want a front row spot you better go out there now." "Ok" All three of us stand up and are about to walk out the door when Benji yells, "Hey who ate my sandwich?!" "Your daughter did." "Oh ok" "Is that ok daddy?" Bella asks kinda scared. "Yes baby. It's fine" Benji picks Bella up and all of us walk out of the room. Right after the three of us get to the front they open the doors and in floods thousands of kids. I almost got squashed by all of them. It was a good thing that I had Bella in front of me though, because she WOULD have been squashed by all of them. The boys come out on stage and play Little Things. They play more songs (Waldorfworldwide, Festival Song, Complicated, I Don't Wanna Stop, I Heard You, The Click) and were just major dorks on stage. They announce that they are going to play one more song but everyone has to be quiet first because Benji has an announcement. "So as all of you don't know, considering I didn't know until today, I have a daughter." Everyone in the audience gasps. Bella looks up at me and says, "He's talking about me mommy!" "Yes baby he is" "Yes that's right kids, Benj is a daddy!" Joel yells. Now the kids cheer. "Well her and her mom are here today and I would like to bring them both up here" A security guard comes up to us and holds his hand up. I hand him Bella then climb over the fence thing myself. We climb up some steps they have and walk across the stage to Benji. "Everyone this is my daughter Isabella-" He picks Bella up, "-and her wonderful mom and my girlfriend Amy" Again the audience cheers. "A fact that you guys don't know and I don't think Benj is going to tell you is that Bella is three years old. Which means Benji was only seventeen when he had a kid." "Yes kids I had sex with this lovely lady-" He gestures towards me "-when I was only seventeen but I love her to death and I'm glad I did" The audience awww's. I just look at Benji and grin. He gives me a quick kiss and the audience goes wild. "Ok time to continue the show" Joel says. I grab Bella from Benji and walk backstage. "Ok the last song we are going to play is Change and I would like to dedicate it to Amy" Benji says. I watch Good Charlotte play and my eyes well up. He is so perfect for me and it has to be fate that brought us back together. I know that everything will be good between us. The guys finish that song and walk off stage. As soon as Benji gets off stage I give him a kiss. "Very nice baby" "Thank you" "No problem" Benji grabs Bella from me mainly because she is holding out her hands and she says, "That was awesome daddy. I'm really glad I got to see you guys play." "I'm glad you liked it baby. You will see many many more." "Awesome!" Bella yells. Everyone gets all dried up (They sweat a lot) and we walk back to the backstage room. We just sit and chill for a while so the guys can unwind. After about twenty minutes the guys decide to go and hang out with their fans. Bella, Jennie, and I just go back to the tour bus. "That was soo cool mommy!" Bella yells as she dances around the bus. I sit down on one of the couches next to Jennie. "Well like daddy said, you will see a lot more shows" "That's so cool. I should get a shirt that says, 'I'm the daughter of a Rock Star' so I can match your shirt" "Ok I will make that one for you and the other one for me. Ok?" "Yay!!!" Suddenly the door of the bus opens and Benji comes up the steps. "Amy Bella all our fans want to meet you. So hurry come on. You can too Jennie" I pick Bella up and follow Benji out the door with Jennie following me. Bella clutches onto me more when she sees all the people. She doesn't like large crowds. "Everyone, everyone" Benji quiets everyone down. "Meet my girlfriend and my daughter" Bella reaches her hand for Benji so I pass her over. I go through the crowd shaking hands, talking a little and even once I signed an autograph. I felt so awesome. After nearly and hour of just hanging out with fans we go back to the tour bus. "Guys I have to go back to my house and get stuff for me and Bella." "We'll get the limo and Joel and I will go with you and Bella" "And me" Jennie pipes in. "I guess I should start my two long lonely weeks" "Oh stop being such a drama queen Jennie" "I was just kidding" The five of us walk off the bus and the limo is right there waiting for us. We get in and drive to my house. I run inside and rummage through my closet. I garb enough clothes to last me two weeks and then some. I stuff everything into one huge suitcase and pull it out into the living room. I don't know way but I feel like I'm in a hurry. I run to the hall closet and pull out another suitcase. I run into Bella's room and start shoving her clothes into that suitcase. I grab her enough clothes to last her a month. Hey kids are messy. You never know when you'll need an extra set of clothes. I'm just glad I bought two huge suitcases. I pull Bella's suitcase out to the living room too. I run back into her room and grab a little suitcase/book bag thing. I rummage through her toy box pulling out all her favorite toys including her Good Charlotte dolls. I throw that suitcases across my back and walk out to the living room. "God Amy why are you in such a hurry?" Benji asks. "Honestly... I don't know but I'm ready now" "And it only took fifteen minutes. I think that's a record" Joel jokes. "I bet it is," I agree. The guys drag the two big suitcases out the door. I make it so the smaller suitcase is securely on my back then pick Bella up and walk out the door. I get down to the limo and realize I have no beauty products (i.e. ponytails, brush, blow dryer, straightener, make up) I run back up the stairs and open the door almost running into Jennie. She's holding up a duffle bag. "I figured you would forget all the important items from the bathroom so I decide to pack them for you" I hug her "Thank you so much" "You're welcome" I pull away from her and grab the bag. "See ya in two weeks" I yell as I run out the door and down the steps. "Yup see ya"
We don't go back to the tour bus. We turn a different way. "Where are we going daddy?" Bella asks. "We're just going to go to the hotel" "Oh otay" We drive for about fifteen minutes and end up at this HUGE Hilton hotel. "Holy shit" I say amazed. "Mommy! Slap your mouth." I tap my mouth still gazing at the hotel. We all get out of the limo and I still stare at the hotel. "Amy it's not that cool." "It's WAY cool!" Benji just laughs. He grabs my hand and pulls me through the doors of the hotel. We get to the front lobby and Joel tells them whom he is and that he has two rooms. They give him his two keys and Benji the two other keys. Benji and Joel give Bella's and my bags to a bellhop and we get in the elevator to go up to our rooms. We're on the twelfth floor. We reach the twelfth floor and step out of the elevator. Bella is on Benji's back playing with his hair... It's cute. We reach rooms 1227 and 1229. Benji gets out one of the keys and opens the door. He pulls Bella off of his back and puts her on the floor. "Look mommy. Our stuff is already here!" "Yup. Cool huh?" "Its way cool" I grab Bella's suitcase and start putting her clothes in the drawers. After I get all her clothes in the drawers I work on getting my clothes put away. As I'm stuffing clothes into drawers someone knocks on the door. Benji gets up and gets it. "Hey Joel, what's up?" "Nothing. I just wanted to know if you guys wanted to go out to eat" "I do!" Bella yells. "Ummm I don't know. Amy?" I stand up and walk over to Benji. "Uhh I think we should just stay in tonight but will you take Bella out with you?" "Uhh... Ohh! Ohh! Ok. Yea I will" "Thank you Joel" "No problem, just don't be too loud." "We'll try" Benji and I way in unison. "Alright. Come on Bella." She gives both Benji and me a hug and a kiss then they are out the door. "I'm gonna go take a shower" I say. "Wanna join me?" I smirk. "Hell yea I do!!" Both of us run off to the bathroom. About an hour and a half and two orgasms later we get out of the shower. This hotel room is really cool. It has a living room type thing (where the dresser is. I don't get it) a bedroom, a bathroom and a balcony. I go into the living room pull out some pajamas. I walk into the bedroom and put my clothes on. I grab the duffle bag and walk to the bathroom. I pull out the brush and blow dryer. I brush through my hair then blow-dry it straight. Benji walks in as I'm washing my face. He wraps his arms around my waist. He slips his hands under the waistband of my pants and caresses my legs. He moves over to the middle of legs and parts me. He rubs his finger up and down my clit. He slowly pushes his finger inside me. He takes his finger out so only the tip is inside. Then he pushes his finger back inside. He pulls his finger all the way and spins me around. He picks me up and sets me on the bathroom counter. He pulls down my pants and kneels down in front of me. He pushes my legs apart and opens me with his tongue. He slips his tongue inside me and moves it in and out rapidly. He flicks his lip ring around my clit and I clutch onto the counter. He pushes two fingers inside me and with his other hand rubs my clit. He continues this until I reach my climax. After I release Benji stands back up and pulls my pants up. I jump off the counter and pull my pants up the rest of the way. I wrap my arms around Benji's neck and kiss him. "That was amazing. Thank you." "You're welcome. All I want to do now is please you." "Well you are certainly doing that." Benji laughs then kisses me again. We walk out into the living room area and watch TV. A few moments later someone knocks on the door. Benji gets up and gets it. Bella runs in holding a balloon animal. "Look mommy and daddy I gots a balloon aminal." "Cool baby" Joel walks in the door followed by Hilary, Billy, Paul, Crystal and Aaron. "Oh hi Hilary" "Hey" "You kinda disappeared when we got to the tour bus" "Yea my agent needed to talk to me" "Awww I see" "Yea" "So did you guys have fun?" Billy asks. "Yes we did" Benji and I smirk. "Oh you didn't?" he asks disgusted. "Yup we did," I laugh. "Ewwwwww!" Billy and Joel say. I laugh again. "So where did you guys go for dinner?" Benji asks. "The Mayan" "Oh I love that restaurant!" "I do too," Bella yells. "Well I'm kinda beat. I think I'm gonna hit the sack" Joel says. "All right night Joel" "Night Everyone" He walks out the door with Hilary in tow. "Yea I think I'm gonna go to bed too" Billy says. "Yea me too" Paul says. "Yea same here" Aaron adds. Aaron, Billy, Paul and Crystal all walk out of the room. "So did you have fun Bella?" "Yes daddy I did!" "That's good" "Well it's time to go to bed Bella." I say. "Oh do I have to?" she whines. "Yes Bella you have too." I go over to the dresser and pull out some pajamas for her. "Here Bella, put these on" I hand her the clothes and she goes into the bathroom to put them on. She comes out of the bathroom with her clothes in one hand and a brush in the other. She comes over to me and hands me the brush and her clothes. I put her clothes back in her suitcase and take her hair out of the pigtails. I brush through her hair. After I'm done I pick her up and carry her to the bedroom. I put her in the bed that we designated as hers and tuck her in. "Night baby" "Night mommy" I stand up. "Wait I need daddy to come say night to me" "Ok. Benji!" I yell. He comes into the bedroom. "What?" "I need you to say goodnight to me" "Oh ok." He kisses the top of her head. "Night Bella" "Night Daddy" "Night baby" "Night mommy" Benji and I walk back to the living room. We sit down on the couch and Benji starts flipping through channels. I lay my head down on his shoulder and close my eyes. "Amy, if you're tired just go to bed" "I don't want to go to bed without you" "Ok lets go to bed. There isn't anything on TV anyway." "Ok" We stand up and walk back into the bedroom. Benji strips down to his boxers and we climb into bed. I wake up to someone squishing my face. "Good Morning Bella" I say through squished lips. "Morning mommy" I don't even open my eyes as she distorts my face. She's done this every morning since she was about two and a half. "Is daddy awake?" She lets go of my face for a moment. "Bella what are you doing?" I hear Benji mumble. "Seeing if you are awake" "Well can you let go of my eyelids please?" I giggle and finally open my eyes. Bella is holding Benji's eyes open. "Bella why don't you leave daddy alone and go watch some cartoons." "Ok" She climbs off the bed and walks into the living room. I roll over and kiss Benji's neck. "Good Morning" Benji just grunts and throws his arm over me pulling me closer to him. I laugh slightly and just look at him. It's a good thing his eyes are closed because I love to just look at him, to clarify that I do actually have him with me again. My hands start roaming over his face. It's as if I'm a blind person and I'm trying to see what he looks like but actually I just love touching him. My fingers linger on his lips for a moment and Benji kisses them. Slowly he opens his eyes. I put my hands on either side of his face. He leans down and kisses me gingerly. "Good Morning Amy" He whispers against my lips before kissing me again. His hands slide down my sides and slip under my shirt. I gasp slightly as his cold hands touch my warm skin. That apparently pleases him and he gets a smug look on his face. He kisses my ear then slightly nibbles on it. I gasp again as he nibs my neck. He brings his face back up to mine. "Was that a good gasp or a bad gasp?" "A good gasp." "Wow someone's masochistic" I pull my hand from around Benji's back and put my fingers slightly apart. "Only a little" He smirks and kisses my nose. "You're so cute Amy" I smile. "Why thank you" He kisses me tantalizing slow. "You are absolutely welcome" His voice in that sentence just makes me melt. I lay my head on his chest and close my eyes. "Mommy!! Someone's at the door!" Bella yells from the living room. I groan and start to get out of bed. "You stay in bed, I'll go get the door. It's probably for me anyway" "Ok Thanks" Benji kisses my forehead then walks out of the room. I roll over to my left side and hug my pillow. Benji comes back in a moment later and crawls on the bed. He wraps his arms around my waist and kisses just behind my ear. "I have to go do some stuff with the guys before we head out and hit the road again. I shouldn't be gone longer then four hours." I roll over to my back. "Four hours?!" "Oh it's not that long. I'm sure you'll be able to deal with it" "I don't think I will" I whine. Benji just laughs and kisses me. I wrap my arms around his neck and bring him down against me. "Benj come on we really have to go!" Joel yells from the other room. "Ok! I really have to go" I let go of him and he runs into the bathroom with clothes in his hands. I stretch then remove myself from the comfortable mattress. I walk into the living room and see all the guys there. "Hey Amy?" Paul asks. "Hmm?" "Is it ok if Crystal hangs out with you while we're gone?" "Yea sure fine by me" "Ok cool thanks" "Yup" Benji walks into the room fully clothed and kisses Bella on the head. "Bye Bella" "Bye daddy," she says not even removing her eyes from the TV. He kisses me quickly. "Bye Amy" "Bye Benji" All of the guys rush out the door. "I'm going out" Crystal says a while after they leave. "Ok" She leaves and I look at Bella. "I don't think she likes us that much" I say. "Me either" Bella agrees. I go over to the dresser and pull out some clothes for Bella and myself. I give Bella a pair of dark blue bell-bottoms and a black and white halter-top. I grab a pink and black plaid skirt, a white button up, fishnets, and some hooker boots for myself. I go to the bathroom and put my clothes on. I put my hair up into two high pigtails and curl some of the hair. "Bella! Come here please" Bella comes running into the bathroom dressed in the clothes I picked out. "What mommy?" "I wanna do your hair so sit down on the toilet" "Ok" She sits down on the toilet and I pull out a ponytail and bobby pins. I pull her hair into the ponytail and start dividing it into sections. I take one of the sections and twirl it around then pin it to her head. I do that with all of the sections only leaving parts of it out to stick up. I spray her hair after I'm done with it. "There all done" "I wanna see" "Ok" I hold her up so she can look in the mirror. "Oh that's cute!" "I'm glad you like it" "I do" She runs into the other room and I shut and lock the door. It's the fifteenth, which means I should be getting a very unwelcome visit. I go to the bathroom and when I don't see blood it confuses me. My period has been on the same day since I was thirteen. I just shrug it off thinking it's nothing to worry about. I flush the toilet then wash my hands. I walk back out to the living room and pull Bella back from the TV. "How many times do I have to tell you? Don't sit that close to the TV it will hurt your eyes" "Sorry Mommy I forgot." "Do you want to go down to the lobby and get some breakfast?" "Yea!" "Ok lets go" "Ok" Bella and I walk in to the lobby and I see a little girl sitting on the floor crying. I go over to her and kneel down. "What's wrong sweetheart?" "I can't find my mommy," she cries. "Oh come here I'll help you find her" She looks at me suspiciously but then stands up and I pick her up. "What's your name?" "Crista" "Alright Crista. What color of hair does your mom have?" "Brown like mine" "Ok lets go outside and see if we can see her" "Ok" "Come on Bella" Bella grabs my hand and we walk outside. I look around the front of the hotel for a frantic looking woman. I'm looking to my left when suddenly Crista screams, "Mommy!" I put her down and she runs to a younger look woman, probably in her mid-twenties. The woman picks Crista up and hugs and kisses her. "Oh my God Crista I thought you got kidnapped. Oh I was so worried" "I sorry mommy." "It's ok baby" After she stops smothering her daughter (I'm not saying it's a bad thing. I would be doing the same) she notices me. "Did this woman help you find me?" Crista nods. "Thank you so much for helping. I can't tell you how much I appreciate it." "Oh it's no problem. I have a daughter of my own so I know how bad I would feel. And I know I would want her back to me as soon as possible" "Well still thank you" she sticks out her hand. "I'm Lydia" I shake her hand. "Amy" "Oh I've always loved that name" I laugh. "Well thanks again for helping me." "No problem" She puts Crista in the back of the car that pulls up then comes back over to me. "I knew you looked familiar. You're going out with Benji Madden huh?" "Yup" "Wow you lucky girl. All I have is Karn" she says the last sentence loud. "I heard that!" The guy in the car yells. Lydia laughs. "Well here" she takes a piece of paper and a pen out of her purse. "I would really like to get together and thank you properly. Maybe buy you lunch or something" She hands me the piece of paper she wrote on. "Call me if you're not too busy" "Well I don't have anything to do right now. The guys went off to do something before they go continue they're tour." "Oh well then just get in. We're not going to go too far so hopefully she'll be ok without a car seat?" She says/ask. "Yea she'll be ok as long as we don't go too far." "Alright." Bella and I get in the car and Karn drives off. We reach a slightly crowded IHOP a moment later. All of us get out of the car and Crista asks, "What is your daughter's name?" "Why don't you ask her?" She turns to Bella "What's your name?" "Isabella but you can call me Bella" "Ok Bella. Do you want to be my friend?" "Yea!" "Ok" "Oh by the way," Lydia says as we wait in line. "This is my husband Karn" "Nice to meet you." "You too. And thanks so much for helping find our daughter." "Oh it's no problem at all." We wait in line for about ten minutes then we get seated. "So I'm curious how did you get together with Benji?" "Well actually I moved in with Billy's family when I was 16 after my parents got in a car accident with a drunk driver and died on the scene." "Oh my God I'm so sorry" "It's ok. I know that they are in a better place and are looking over me and my daughter." "That's a good way to look at it" "Yup. Anyway I was there for a while then I started dating Joel." "Wow you got both twins down," I laugh. "Yup looks that way. But then I caught Joel cheating on me" "You caught him?!" "Yea I went over to their house and Benji said he was upstairs so I went up there and saw him making out with some chick" "Oh my God. You've had a really bad life huh?" "Not really because I know that all those things have made me who I am today." "That works. I guess." "Yea so after I saw him I ran home falling on the sidewalk and Benji picked me up and carried me to my house. Then my mom asked what was wrong and all the parent stuff. Then me and Benji went upstairs and made this little girl" I pat Bella on the head. "You had sex and had a kid with Benjamin Levi Madden?!" "Yup" "Wow. The guy who got me pregnant was a jackass" "So it wasn't Karn?" "No his name was Cory. He was the first and only guy I've ever slept with and a little while after we had sex he just completely ignored me. He never did know that I was pregnant and to this day he doesn't know I have a daughter" "Oh man. I'm so sorry." "That's ok. I have a wonderful daughter and a loving husband now so I'm ok" "That's good" The waitress comes and takes our order and all of us just talk for a while. After breakfast I have them drop Bella and I off back at the hotel. "Thanks so much for breakfast." "No problem" Bella and I walk into the hotel and get in the elevator. We go up to the 12th floor and go to room 1227. I walk in and grab my phone. I have a message. "Hey babe. Umm I was just calling to call you and talk to you but I guess you're not answering your phone or you don't know where it is or something else but umm I'll be home in a little bit. This isn't taking as long as I thought so I should be home soon. Ummm I love you. Bye" After I hang up the door opens. "Oh hey babe I just got your message." "Oh well why didn't you answer your phone?" "Because I was downstairs in the lobby then I went to breakfast with this girl I met." "Oh ok" He kisses me on the neck then sits on the couch pulling Bella onto his lap. "Guess what daddy?" "What baby?" "I got a new friend today" "Really? What's her name?" "Crista" "That's awesome baby" "Yea" "So Benj when do we have to leave?" "Uh well actually they want us to do another show tonight, so we're going to leave tomorrow around noon." "Oh alright" "I get to see you perform again daddy?!" "Yup baby." "Yay!" "You'll be able to see me perform a lot baby" "Oh yea. I'm really happy about that. I love watching you perform" "That's good. I love having you guys watch me. I just fell so... energized." I laugh. "It's true! I love seeing you guys sing along. And actually seeing you there clarifies that you are here with me" I almost start crying. I sit next to Benji and Bella and kiss Benji. "I love you so much Benji" He kisses me again. "I love you too Amy" I smile then lay my head on Benji's shoulder. "So Amy what do you want to do today?" "Umm I don't know." I lift my head up. "Is there anything you want to do?" "Hmmm nope. Can't think of anything. What about you Bella?" "Uhh...." She taps her chin. "Can we go to the zoo?!" "Sure honey" "Yay!!" She runs to the TV and turns it off. "Ok let's go!" I grab my purse and phone and Benji grabs his phone. We walk out of the hotel room and walk to Joel's room. Benji knocks on the door. When Joel opens it Benji says, "Hey Bro do you want to come to the Zoo with us?" "Uh let me see if Hilary wants to go" "Ok" He walks back into the room and I hear him say, "Hey Hilary do you want to go to the Zoo?" "With who?" "Benji, Amy, and Bella" "Oh no thanks" Joel comes back to the door. "Uh Hilary doesn't want to go" "Alright that's fine" Benji says. "You know you don't have to do everything she wants to. If you want to go to the Zoo why don't you just come?" "Because I don't want to leave my girlfriend here" He puts a big accent on 'girlfriend'. "Fine whatever" I walk away. Benji catches up with me a moment later. "What was that about Amy?" "Nothing don't worry about it" "I will worry about it because you're my girlfriend, the love of my life and Joel's my brother. So I need to know what's going on" "I guess I just can't get over the fact that he cheated on me" Benji pulls me into a side hug and kisses the top of me head. "Joel's a dumbass. He doesn't know what he had and lost." I smile up at him. "Thank you baby" "No problem" We walk to the elevator, go down to the lobby, and walk out the doors. "The Zoo's not that far from here. You think we can walk?" I ask. "Yea I bet we can." "Ok" We start walking down the street, Bella holding both my hand and Benji's hand. "Oh My God. It's Benji Madden!" A group of screaming girls comes running at us. I grab Bella and move out of the way. The girls surround Benji and shove paper and sharpies at him. Benji signs all the girls' things and they walk off. "That's something I will never get used too," I say. "Oh I'm sure you will. Besides I don't think it will be happening that much." Just as he said that another group of girls spotted us. I still have Bella in my arms but I take a step back to get out of their way. I walk over to a little bench thing and sit down with Bella on my lap. "Why are all those girls around daddy?" "Well because a lot of people know your daddy because he sings. And a lot of people like him" "Well I don't like it. I don't like sharing my daddy," she said with a humph. "I know how you feel baby" After Benji signs everything for the girls he comes over to us. "Sorry about that guys." "That's ok honey." Benji picks Bella up and Bella says, "Daddy I don't like sharing you with everyone." Benji laughs but when he sees that Bella is serious he looks down at me. I look away from him and look down. "Do you feel that way too Amy?" I just nod but I look up quickly and say, "But I know it's not your fault. I know you can't control all the little girls that have crushes on you now. You're a big star. And this will happen a lot. We'll just have to get used to it." "But I don't wanna!" Bella complains. "Bella baby you have too. Daddy can't control what other people do" She just folds her arms. We walk the rest of the way to the Zoo with no interruptions. We get to the Zoo, pay to get in and get a map. "Ok Bella where do you want to go first?" "Uhh... The Giraffes!!" "Alright to the Giraffes." "Giraffes are mine and mommy's favorite animals" "Really?" "Yup!" "That's cool" We walk to the giraffes getting interrupted only once along the way. We look at the giraffes, then the elephants, then the monkeys, and then all of the other animals. We leave the park as it's closing, Benji holding a sleeping Bella. We walk to the hotel and get to our room. Benji puts Bella to bed after I change her and we sit and watch TV for a while. I stand up and grab some pajamas. I walk to the bathroom put them on and wash my face and take out my contact. I crawl in to bed with Benji who is now in his boxers. I lay my head on his chest and instantly fall to sleep.