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(Ryan's POV)(The Next Morning)
I woke up with a heavily drunk Tasha laying next to me.
Wait. Next to me?
But.. I went to bed in MY bunk last night.
She must have gotten in my bunk after I fell asleep.
She's never done that since we've been on tour.
Deep down, I thought that she was beginning to get back to her old self again.
I smiled.
I started caressing her head.
Her eyes fluttered open.
"Oh, I'm sorry Tash. I didn't mean to wake you." I whispered.
She yawned.
"Oh, it's okay baby. I think I've had enough sleep." She said while lifting her head to lay it on my chest.
In the process of doing so, she managed to growl out loud from pain.
"Ugh. My head hurts... really bad." She said.
I laughed a little.
"That's probably because you've had a little too much to drink last night, Tash." I smiled.
"I attacked daiquiris again, didn't I?" She asked.
I nodded.
"Yes." I said.
"Oww." She said while rubbing her fingers on her forehead.
"Do you want some aspirin, hun?" I asked her.
"Yeah. Please." She said with a smile.
"Okay. I'll go get you some." I smiled and climbed over Tasha to get out of my bunk.
As I was climbing over her, she pulled me down to her and her lips met with mine.
It was sweet. I haven't kissed her like this in a while.
It felt great to know that she loved me.
"Ooooooooooh." Brendon teased.
"Shut up." I said to him.
He ruined the kiss.
I shot him a look.
"Fine, be that way. Pfft." Brendon said and turned back around in his bunk.
I then looked back at Tasha who was lightly laughing.
"What?" I asked curiously.
"Oh nothing. I just love when you do that." She smiled.
I smiled.
"Okay, I'll be right back with your aspirin." I said and got out of my bunk and headed toward the kitchen.
As I walked into the kitchen, I saw Rachel sitting on the sofa with a cup of coffee, watching some program on TV.
"Hey Ryro." She said with a smile.
She knew that I hated that name, but she also knew that she was the ONLY once, besides Tasha, that could get away with saying it.
"Good morning pumpkinnykins" I said to her with a little laugh.
She started laughing.
"I remember that. Wasn't that from when me, you, and Tasha went to that pumpkin patch thing last year?" She asked.
"Yeah. That was when you started nick-naming all of the pumpkins." I laughed.
She laughed lightly.
"Yeah. That was funny." She smiled.
"Yeah, it was." I said as I got out 3 aspirins and a glass of water for Tasha.
"She woke up I see." Rachel said noticing that I was grabbing some aspirins.
"Nooo. The aspirins are for me." I said sarcastically with a smile.
"Right. Sure, whatever you say." She laughed.
I then walked back to my bunk to find Tasha looking in my lyric book.
"Ey.. Ey.. Ey.. What did I tell you about sneaking in my book?" I smiled.
"Sorry. I just wanted to see what my love is writing about." She smiled and put the book back under the bunk mattress.
I reached out to hand her the aspirins and then handed her the glass of water.
"Thank you." She said after she swallowed the pills, and handed me the glass of water.
I set it on the floor and climbed back into bed with her.
"You're welcome cupcake." I said smiling.
"Uhh. You know I don't like cupcakes.." She whined and smiled at the same time.
"Haha, I know. But I like calling you cupcake. " I smiled widely.
"You are so cheesy sometimes." She smiled.
"But if I wasn't cheesy, then I would be boring." I said.
"True." She said as she laid her head back on my chest.
That was the last thing that I remember before dosing off with the love of my life cuddled up next to me.

(Spencer's POV)
I woke up the next morning with a blistering headache.
I groaned as I got out of my bunk; which was one of the top ones.
I then made my way to the kitchen to get some aspirin.
"Hey you." Rachel said while she sat on the sofa with a cup of something in her hand and watching TV.
"Heyy." I managed to say.
I got 4 aspirins out of the pill holder.
"Bad headache?" Rachel smiled.
"Yes. And it's not funny. It kills." I said before I grabbed a glass and filled it with water from the sink.
"Aww. I'm sorry." Rachel said sarcastically as she sipped some of her drink.
"Have you seen Cat? She's not in her bunk." I said after I swallowed the 4 aspirins.
Rachel had her lips in a weird position.
"Ummn. She's...with... Fall Out Boy..." She said slowly.
"WHAT? Why?" I asked.
"Uh. Well last night.. You were drunk.. and ummn. Yeah, you kinda were all over that one girl... what was her name? Uh, Becky? Yeah. Becky." Rachel said.
"Shit." I whispered under my breath.
"Hey! I heard that!" she said with a smile.
"What? I'm a grown up. I can swear." I said all smiley.
"Yeah. sure. Whatever you wanna think, Spence." She laughed.
I walked back to my bunk and laid down again; to think.
Why wouldn't she want to stay on this bus?
I must have been a real ass last night.
Damn.
As I was thinking of Cat, my mind somehow wondered to Kim.
Each time I thought of her, it pierced my heart.
She was the love of my life.
I admit, I'll never love anyone as much as I loved her.
She was the girl that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.
And now she's gone.
She hasn't talked to Tasha AT ALL.
I just hope that she's okay.
Damn.
Cat.
Cat.
Cat.
Cat- is my girlfriend now.
'Get it through your thick skull, Spencer. CAT is your girlfriend. Forget about Kim.' I told myself.
But... how could I ever forget Kim?
.....

(Rachel's POV)


Within the past 2 hours, each of the boys have made their way to the medicine cabinet.
I laughed.
How could they all fuck things up all in one night.
Cat and Sara were pissed.
Sara wasn't as mad as Cat, but she was still pretty pissed.
I've gotten a text from them; but it was earlier this morning.
They basically complained about Pete and the guys not letting them sleep.
I warned them, didn't I?
I did.
So much drama went on when bands went on tour.
But they all don't have nearly as much drama as Panic does.
Cat hates Spencer.
She thinks Spencer doesn't love her.
Psh. I already noticed that.
And Sara and Brendon.. well they're quite the sex addicts.
Jon.. he needs a girlfriend.
Too bad that I'm married and in love.
I would date him... if it weren't for the fact that Frank was the love of my life; the reason that I breathe. =]
I loved Frank, but I missed him so much.
I would get the occasional text now and then.. but that was it.
It hurt- being separated from my husband.
We only had 2 days for our honeymoon.
Frank promised me before he left for touring, that after he gets back, we would go on a long honeymoon.
Anywhere.. it was my choice.
Only 3 more weeks until MCR stops touring.
Thank god.
If it were any longer, I think I might die.
Okay.
Snap back to reality.
Just then, Jon came and crashed on the same sofa that I was on.
He rubbed the sleep from his eyes, and yawned.
"Rough night?" I asked him with a smile.
"You have NO idea." He slightly smiled.
"So whatcha watching?" He asked after a few seconds passed by.
"Oh, just some soap opera about this girl. She cheated on this one guy, and she fell in love with her old boyfriend. It's pretty twisted." I said and sipped some of my coffee.
"Yeah, sounds twisted. Ooh, anymore coffee left?" He asked.
"Yep. It's in the coffee pot, on the counter over there." I said and pointed to the counter where the coffee maker was.
"Oh okay. Thanks. So.. what exactly happened last night?" He asked as he stood up and walked over to the counter and filled up a coffee mug with coffee.
"Oh you know. The usual. You, Spencer, and Brendon all got drunk... and were all over these chicks." I said as I watched the TV.
"What? I was all over a girl?" He asked surprised.
"Yeah. Her name was ummn.. lemme think..Addy was her name." I said.
"You mean that blonde that was with her friends that us guys signed stuff for?" He asked, trying to remember.
"Uh huh. Thats her." I said.
"Oh. Wow. I hooked up with a hot chick." He laughed.
"Good job. High five." I said and put up my hand for him to slap.
He high fived me; we then watched the show on TV.
After a while, Jon started talking.
"You know.. this show.. reminds me of Tasha for some reason." He said.
I didn't reply back.
It was just like Tasha's life.
Tasha had an old boyfriend- got with another guy- forgot about the old boyfriend... then kissed her old boyfriend.. and kissed her boyfriend's best friend. Pretty twisted, ey?

(No one's POV)

A few hours passed by.
Spencer just tried to think up a way to make it up to Cat.
Brendon was clueless about why Sara wasn't cuddled up next to him when he woke up.
Tasha and Ryan just napped together.
Rachel and Jon just watched TV for most of the day as the bus made its way to Philly.
Sara and Cat were sleeping; as were the guys of FOB since they didn't sleep at all last night, due to a long pillow fight.
Within 3-5 hours, the buses reached their destination; Philadelphia, PA.
They boys got ready for their show, which would take place in 4 hours.
The girls just stayed in Panic's bus and talked and got ready.. slowly.
Panic went into sound check and ran through their songs a bit.
They only had 3 songs.
'It's A Time To Dance.(Cause Boys Will Be Boys)', 'Camisado', and 'Make us it, hip, scene'.
Before you know it, it was time for the concert.
The girls stood backstage and watched Fall Out Boy perform, then Panic perform.
Tasha remembered everything about this town.
She just wished that it didn't hit her on her way in.
Fob and Panic finished up the show.
It was a great show.

(Ryan's POV)
"Oh my god. That was such a great concert!" I said to the guys as we got off the stage.
"Yeah. The crowd was awesome!" Brendon said.
"Probably the best crowd that we've played for." Spencer added.
We then made our way to our girls.
"Hey guys! You all did great! Especially you, Ry." Tasha said and hugged me.
"Aw thank you. You were great too.... watching us." I smiled.
I didn't pay any attention to anything around us.
When Tasha was with me, it was only me and her- no one else.
Her eyes just gazed into mine, and before I knew it her lips were locked with mine.
Now THIS is my Tasha.
I was so happy that she came back from... wherever she was.
I snapped out of my day dreaming to hear all of the boys AND girls around us whistling and 'ooh'ing.
I then broke the kiss.
I was so shy.
Why did I have to be so goddamn shy?
"Aw, come on. We were just having some fun." Spencer smiled after noticing that I was pissed... a bit.
"Well... its not fun, nor funny." I said back to him.
"Oooh. Okay. Let's just drop it." Rachel said.
"Yeah. Exactly. Okay. So what are we gonna do?" Jon asked.
"Well.. We could let Tasha tell us, since this is her hometown." Sara suggested.
"Yeah. That's right. I forgot. Sorry Tash." Spencer said.
"It's okay. Ummn. Well for starters we can go surprise Lina?" Tasha asked.
"Ohh yeah! I missed her being around!" Brendon said.
We all laughed at how Brendon reacted to the mention of Lina.
We knew that he didn't like her in a girlfriend/boyfriend way, but it was just funny.
"Okay. Yeah. Let's go see her." Spencer smiled, while looking at Brendon.
"Kay." I said.
We all went back to the dressing room and changed.... well us guys did.
After we were changed and ready to go, we went to the front desk of the arena that we played in and picked up 4 sets of keys that Pete had left for us.
We got 4 cars since Pete knew that this was Tasha's hometown.
Plus, because we would be here for about 9 days.
Fall Out Boy had to play some shows alone for the next few days.
So we figured that we'd just chill in Pennsylvania.
We went outside and tried to find our new rental cars.
I jumped at the sound of a car alarm going off from a car right next to me.
"Well, I guess that's MY car." Brendon laughed.
I laughed at his way of finding his car.
"You are so weird sometimes, Bren." I smiled.
"Thank you." He laughed.
"Sara. I found our car." Brendon yelled across the parking lot.
"Oh okay. Coming." She replied.
"Hey Ryan. Press the unlock and lock button on the car key thing." Tasha said.
"Okay." I said as I pushed the unlock and lock button on the car remote thing.
"No FUCKING way. Ryan. Look at our car!!" Tasha practically screamed.
"What?" I said making my way to meet up with her.
"Don't you recognize it?" She asked.
"Wait... isn't that.." I said.
".. the car that you drove me home in the first day I met you." She finished.
"Aww.. How sweet!" Spencer said with a sly smile.
I gave Spencer a questioning look and he just shook his head "yes".
I pointed my finger and shook it with a smile.
He just raised his finger to his lips telling me to "Shh".
I gave him a nod and returned back to Tasha who was talking on her cell phone.
After she got off, she told us all what was going on.
"Okay. First we're going to this new club that just opened up tonight. Then we're going to surprise Lina. Okay?" She asked us all.
"Why are we going to the club first?" Spencer asked.
"Well, because the owner is my one cousin's father." Tasha said.
"Who friend?" Brendon asked.
"You guys remember Cherise?" Tasha asked.
Brendon just looked to the floor.
"Yeah!" Jon said.
"Wait, isn't that your cousin?" Rachel asked.
"Yeah." Tasha said.
"I've never met her." Cat said.
"Yeah, me either." Sara said cluelessly.
"Well I've never met her, but I've heard a bit about her." Rachel said.
"Well I'm sure you all will love her." Tasha said.
"Okay. I'll take your word for it." Rachel smiled.
Tasha smiled back at her.
"What's the club called?" Spencer asked.
"Lucky Dice." Tasha said.
I laughed.
"How come all of the clubs that we go to have the word 'lucky' in them?" I asked no one in particular.
Everyone just laughed.
"I don't know. Maybe because they're lucky to have us in them?" Spencer asked while laughing.
"Sure." Sara smiled.
"Okay, let's get going. I know where it is. So just follow mine and Ryan's car." Tasha said while getting into the passenger side of the car.
I opened up the driver's side door and asked her, "Don't you want to drive since you know where it's at?"
"Nah. You can drive. I like it when you drive. I'll give you the directions. Its a really easy state to drive in. Promise." She said with a small smile.
"Oh okay." I said and I got in the car.
As soon as I turned on the engine, music came blasting through the speakers.
I lowered them a bit, checked what CD was in the CD player in the car and rolled down my window.
The CD read: Don't You Love Me? xPornomimex
"Thank you." I yelled out the window to Spencer.
"You're welcome. Now let's go!" Spencer smiled.
I rolled my window up a bit, put the CD back in and blasted the music once more.
The whole ride Tasha and I just rocked out in the car.. just like good old times.
I'm glad that I have my Tasha back. =]


(Tasha's POV)

I can't believe Cherise's dad got a club.
Wow.
I haven't seen her in such a long time.
Cherise moved back to Pennsylvania a little bit after that one wedding where the theme was "What Did You Look Like 10 Years Ago".
I let most of the piercings that I got for that wedding close up.
But I still kept my lip piercings open.
I really liked them; but they got in the way of kissing Ryan, so I had to take them out while I was around him.
Thinking about Cherise also made me think about Isabella and Sam.
I thought that they were my best friends, but when they lived in Vegas- they stopped talking to me.
It's like we drifted apart.
Lina has heard from them.
They both went on a trip to Europe or something. They're in college over there, I think.
But I haven't talked to them since Lina left Vegas.
Lina's happy back in PA. I'm glad that she is.
Plus, she has her boyfriend back.
The boyfriend that cheated on her.... with me.
But no one knew that.
I didn't like Jeremy that much.
He was just tempting back then.
I wasn't close with Lina when it happened either.
So now, if he tried to make a move on me- I'd kick him where it hurts.
I smiled a bit at the thought of that.
"Whatcha thinking about?" Ryan asked, noticing my small smile.
I snapped back to reality.
"Oh nothing. Just imagining you in bed." I smirked.
He just smiled widely.
"Where has THAT Tasha been for the past month?" He asked with a smile.
I choked on words. I couldn't answer that.
Sure, I was depressed. But I didn't want anyone knowing about my little problem.
"Uh, I don't know." I sighed.
I really didn't know why I started acting like the old me now.
Why now? Of all the places, I had to go back to normal in the town that I hated the most.
It scared the living shit out of me, being back in this town.
I love it. But I hate the way I love it.
"Are we almost there?" Ryan asked.
Oh shit. I forgot. I was supposed to guide Ryan to this club.
"Sorry. I kinda had a blonde moment. Uh, yeah. We are. Its just a few blocks up ahead." I said while taking a look at where we were.
Within minutes we were there.
And who else but the girl herself do you think was outside waiting for us with a crowd of people?
Cherise.
All of us parked our cars and made our way over to the big crowd.
"Tashaaaa!!" Cherise exclaimed as she ran towards me with her arms opened wide, meaning she wanted a hug.
"Cheriseee!" I smiled and hugged her once we finally were close enough to hug.
"Wow, you look great!" She said with a smile while looking at me completely.
"Thank you. You look awesome too!" I smiled while taking a good look at my cousin/friend.
"And how are you Mr. Spaceman?" Cherise asked Ryan.
Ryan just laughed.
"Oh you know. Just taking a break from space." He laughed and hugged her.
"A break huh?" Cherise laughed.
"Brendon?" Cherise asked as she recognized Brendon after hugging Ryan.
"Cherise. Hey!" Brendon said, lifting his head up so he wasn't looking at the floor.
Sara had a strange look on her face.
Of course, only Brendon, Lina, Cherise and I knew what happened that night.
It hadn't spread to any other people. Thank gawd.
Cherise hugged him tightly.
I wasn't blind.
They had shared something special that night at the wedding.
They shared a certain kind of look.
The one where you're in love, but surrounded by lust.
Surely, neither would act on it.
Cherise was too afraid to take that chance after going through hell with her previous boyfriend.
And Brendon... well he had a girlfriend.
And a lost lover. Your truly.
Once he would find out that I was once his Nat; he'd drop Sara like she was a burning obstacle. For Sure.
Asshole.
Back to the scene though.
"So how've you been?" Cherise asked Brendon.
"I've been okay for the most part. You?" He asked.
"Eh, trying to hang in here." She said and made her way to the other guys.
After Cherise wasn't within hearing distance of Sara and Brendon, Sara started whispering to Brendon.
He just had a look on his face.
The same look he pulled on me whenever he tried to lie to me.
What a bastard.
Cherise greeted all of us.
And her and us girls started talking; except for Sara.
We all made our way inside Lucky Dice.
Cherise told the bartender to gather some drinks, and a special drink just for me.
I smirked.
Just then, I felt a pair of hands wrap around my stomach from behind me and a head cuddle up to mine.
"Why hello there cupcake." He said softly into my ear, making me shiver.
"Hello my sexy Mr. Spaceman." I said after gaining some posture.
"Wanna dance, cupcake?" he asked lightly, again making me shiver.
"Yeah." I whispered right back and kissed the side of his neck.
"Hey, we're gonna go dance. Be back." Ryan said to the crowd.
"Okay. Have fun." A few of them said.
'Oh we will' I thought.

(Brendon's POV)
After we all sat down at the huge table, Sara leaned over and asked me again.
"How do you know her?" She asked.
I tried to think of a different answer, but there was none.
What harm would 'I met her at a wedding' do?
"I met her at a wedding." I said.
"Oh. When?" She asked curiously.
"Uh, about a few months back. Why?" I asked back.
"Oh I was just wondering." She said, satisfied with my answer.
We all were talking, and drinking some fruity alcoholic beverages.
"So.. who are these guys?" Tasha asked Cherise as her and Ryan made their way to the table.
"Oh, just some friends." Cherise replied.
"I'm William." A small figured guy said.
"I'm Shaant." Another boy said.
"My name's Travis." Another said.
"And I'm Zack." The last one said.
"Oooh, Cherise is getting it on with these lucky fellows." Tasha joked.
"Ha, ha, very funny." Cherise said sarcastically.
Just then, a girl came up to our table.
She looked oftly familiar.
"Hey Jon!" She said.
"Addy?" Jon asked while taking a good look at her.
"Yeah. Hi." She smiled.
Jon stood up.
"I'll be back." He said and him and Addy just walked off talking.
"Someone's getting laid tonight." Spencer joked.
Most of us laughed.
I looked at Spencer and he seemed to be looking at me too, or at least that's how it appeared to look like.
In reality.... was he checking out my girlfriend?
Probably not.
Spencer was very flirtatious; but he would never back stab one of his friends.
I just gulped down another drink.


(Tasha's POV)
Dancing was fun.
But, still I had alot on my mind.
Only one person to turn to- Rachel.
I went over to her and asked her if I could talk to her outside.
"Sure." She said with a smile, and we both made our way outside.

(Ryan's POV) (A little while later)
Tasha's been gone for a while now.
I wonder if something is up.
"Hey Brendon. Wanna come with me to see if Tasha is alright?" I asked him, worried about Tasha, since well... Since, she's become a cutter and all.
She thinks that I didn't notice.
Sure I did.
Sensitive to touch on her arms, wears a bunch of bracelets now. Quite obvious.
"Sure man." Brendon replied and we tried to look for her all around the club.
"Maybe she's outside?" Brendon half said and half asked.
"Yeah. Maybe." I said.
We walked outside to hear Tasha and Rachel talking.
"But its hard you know? Dealing with that fact." Tasha said with tears running down her face.
"Aw, I'm sorry hun. But there's no other way to resolve this problem, except for facing the fact that your first love is your current boyfriend's best friend." Rachel replied.
What?
I looked at Brendon, who seemed to be figuring out something.
Brendon was going to walk over to them, but I stopped him and put my finger in front of my mouth, telling him to 'keep it quiet'.
Tasha then cried some more as Rachel hugged her.
"I think you need to tell Ryan AND Brendon. Then apologize to Jon." Rachel said, trying to comfort Tasha.
"No. Ryan will hate me. Brendon- I just don't wanna get into that. And Jon. I just feel so bad Rachel." She said.
"I know hun. I know." Rachel said, patting Tasha's back.
"I love Ryan so much. I just don't wanna lose him." Tasha said.
"Why did all of this have to happen to me?" Tasha cried out once more.
It hurt me deep down to see her crying like this. But what was it all about?
I figured that I'd step in now.
But.. Brendon beat me to the chase.
"Nat?" Brendon asked Tasha.
Tasha and Rachel just looked at me and Brendon like we were intruders.
"Nat, why didn't you just tell me that it was you?" Brendon asked.
"Brendon. Please, just don't." Tasha pleaded, still with tear stained cheeks.
"No. I've been looking for you everywhere. And all along, you were RIGHT in front of my eyes." Brendon said.
"Dude. What the fuck is going on?" I asked.
Tasha just looked at me, with a very hurt face.
"Ryan.. I'm so sorry that it had to end this way.." She said, letting a few tears trickle down her cheeks.
"Brendon.. was the guy that I fell in love with back in Pa.. er, here. He's the one that first made love to me. He's the one that broke my heart. And you were the one to clean up that problem.... You did nothing wrong. I'm just sorr-" Tasha said, but Jon came from out of nowhere and started speaking.
"So, you finally told them, huh?" Jon asked hurt.
"Why do you care?" Brendon asked with tears forming in his eyes.
"Because, I'm in the mix also." He said.
"WHAT?" I asked angrily.
"Yeah, at one wedding- Tasha got drunk, and I didn't know, and we kissed. But that was before I met you and knew that she was yours Ryan. I didn't mean to back stab you. And Brendon here, ALSO kissed her that night, WHICH made her get drunk and kiss me." Jon said.
I couldn't speak.
I was taken back by everything that was being said.
"So you kissed them BOTH?" I half asked half screamed.
All Tasha did was nod.
"How could you do this to me Tasha? How?" I asked, and all she did was let more tears trickle down her cheeks.