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Gerard's P.O.V.

I swung my legs over the bed, hearing a car pull away outside and screams that had obviously come from Eliza. What the fuck is going on? I quickly pushed myself up off the bed and ran down the stairs to see the front door open. I pushed my hair out of my eyes as I walked outside to find Kyler on the fground being cradled by Mikey, who glanced up at me quickly then went back to Kyler. I jogged over to Kyler and Mikey, kneeling down on the ground where Kyler was crying uncontrollably. I put my hand on his shoulder, he quickly moved away glaring at me and standing up, staring down at me. I knelt there, confused and hurt. His eyes were red and puffy from crying, his tear stained cheeks were hollow and he bit his lip as he stared at me.

"What d-"

"What did you do? You just fucked up my life, that's what." Kyler screamed down at me, his voice echoing through my head and I felt the prickle of tears begin in my eyes. "She's just left me, because of you."

"She doesn't like the fact of having a gay son. Apparently I'm a disappointment, do you know how I felt when she said that?" Kyler hissed. "I don't think you do, you're the one that has done this."

I couldn't say anything, I just knelt on the concrete with tears sliding down my face. What did I do? I don't understand. I looked up, watching his face looking down at me in disgust but when he noticed the tears his face began to relax.

"G-Gerard I'm s-"

"Don't even bother saying it, you said what you were feeling and what was probably the truth." I replied, my throat dry and sore from holding back sobs. I picked myself up of the fGround, quickly looking at Mikey then headed towards the door.

"Gerard please I didn't mean it." Kyler sobbed, grabbing my elbow and making me stop. I turned around and snatched my arm from his hand.

"Yes you did. Mikey will take care of you, you can stay here. I don't know what has fully happened and I'm not sure I want to. But it's obviously my fault. Just leave me alone, I don't think I can stand to be around you at the moment." I snapped, walking inside and leaving Kyler outside.

Kylers' P.O.V.

I stood there, shocked at my own words and Gerard's. I watched as he walked into the house, his movements slow and he never turned back to look at me. I wanted to run up to him, say sorry a million times but I knew it wasn't the right time. He was so upset by my words, the guilt was weighing me down and I felt the tears slide down my face as I watched him go.

"Kyler you shouldn't h-" I put my hand up, signaling for Mikey to stop and I shook my head.

"I know. It wasn't his fault at all, I was just angry and I took it out on him. Do you know how guilty I feel? I've just fucking lost my own mom and now the love of my life." I sobbed, covering my face with my hands and flinched as I felt Mikey's arms around my shoulders.

"Shh come on it will be alright, lets go inside and we'll talk." Mikey calmly whispered and I just nodded, slowly making my way into the house.

After about half an hour of more crying and explaining to Mikey what happened, I had calmed down a bit. I hugged my knees to my chest and rested my head on them.

"I think she either saw or heard you and Gerard." Mikey announced, taking a gulp of his soda and sat back against the sofa. I raised my eyebrow and gave him a questioning look. He quickly swallowed the soda that was in his mouth.

"She was upstairs before she ran out." Mikey answered and my eyes widened. Oh my god, she heard everything. "But I'm really shocked she acted like that. I mean she knew Gerard was gay, why would she have a problem with you being gay as well? It doesn't make sense."

"I think I'll try and talk to her tomorrow, I think she just needs to calm down at the moment and I really need to talk toGerard. I feel so bad Mikey." I sighed, lowering my head and remember what I had said to Gerard. I mentally screamed at myself, he didn't deserve to be talked to like that or blamed for what had happened. It wasn't his fault.

"You need to talk to Gerard. I'm not having a go at you or anything but what you said..."Mikey sighed and looked up at me. "It was really out of order, you really hurt him Kyler. I haven't seen him like that since...Tony."

"Who's Tony? When I woke Gerard up earlier he was whimpering that name in his sleep, like he was in pain or something. It really worried me. He woke up crying." I asked, moving my hair from my face and loosening my grip around my legs.

"He was dreaming about him?" Mikey asked, obviously concerned and I nodded. He shook his head and sighed, clenching his eyes shut then opened them slowly. "He shouldn't even be thinking about that bastard."

"Why? What happened?"

"Tony, he is Gerard's ex. Gerard loved him with all his heart for years, they seemed like the perfect couple but everyone knew what Tony was like. He could never keep a relationship but Gerard didn't care. After about a year things got pretty rough, they argued all the time and then..." Mikey shut his eyes, shaking his head and his breath was shaky. "He started hitting Gerard and beat him up pretty bad. It took Gerard a long time to realize that he didn't deserve any of it and then he finally left him."

"Oh my god." I cried, covering my mouth with my hand. Who could ever hurt someone like Gerard?

"He was either always drunk or high, he was a complete bastard. It's taken Gerard a while to get over it, but he did eventually." Mikey shook his head again and grabbed his soda, bringing his lips to the can but paused and looked up at me. "Go and talk to him."

I nodded and released my legs, dragging myself off the couch and took a deep breath. I walked out of the living room and slowly walked up the stairs. What the fuck am I going to say? He probably hates me and doesn't want to be with me. What if he ends us? What am I going to do? I could feel my hands begin to tremble, yes I was scared and worried. I hurt him so much, how could he ever forgive me for the things I said? I stopped outside his bedroom door that was open, I could hear sniffles coming from the room and I screwed my eyes shut, taking a deep breath and took a step into the room. I saw Gerard curled up on the bed facing away from me, like he had been earlier but now he was awake and crying over me.

"G-Gerard?" I croaked out and I saw him stiffen on the bed.

"What? If you've come to blame me then I don't want to hear it." He whispered. I let a tear slide down my face and I walked to the other side of the bed, kneeling on the floor in the same place I had been earlier. His eyeliner had run down his cheeks and smudged, the tears falling onto the pillow beneath him. I ran my hand down his cheek and he moved away from it, grabbing my hand and shoving it back.

"Gerard I'm so sorry. I didn't mean what I said. I was just angry, I don't know what to say except sorry." I cried, looking down at the floor.

"It hurt Kyler, it really did. The few words you said fucking killed me, you know?" Gerard whispered and I looked up at him, the guilt was drowning me and I felt like I was suffocating.

"I know baby, I'm so fucking sorry." I cried. "I didn't mean it at all, I love you so much and I would never intentionally hurt you, you know that."

"I know and I understand how you were feeling, I really do." Gerard sighed, his breath catching in his throat. "Just please don't hurt me like that again and don't ever leave me. I don't know what I'd do with out you."

"I love you so much." I sniffled and put my hand on his arm, giving it a light squeeze and rubbing it gently.

"I love you too, I really do. You mean the fucking world to me Kyler. Just please don't hurt me again, I don't think I could deal with it again."

"I won't. I promise, just please forgive me?" I begged, sounding desperate.

"I do forgive you." Gerard sighed and rubbed his cheeks, removing the tears. "Sleep with me? I'm really tired and don't want to be alone."

I nodded, standing up and shaking a little as my knees nearly gave way beneath me. I walked to the other side of the bed, crawling under the covers and wrapping my arms around his waist, resting my head on the top of his back.

"I love you and I would do anything to make you happy." I whispered and kissed his neck gently. I listened to his breathing and felt his body relax. I sighed and squeezed him gently and in the end falling alseep with this beautiful creature in my arms.