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After 5 uncomfortable days , 7 uninterupted silences , 2 almost cuddles , and a drunken kiss.
corey and i still hadnt spoken to each other ,
i was enjoying the tour , probably more than the band , all the drugs in the world were so freely avalible to me , and i loved it .
i would walk around backstage getting high with random band members and becoming friends with some of the coolest guys in the whole world .
Alot of the time , Corey would bee brooding in the tour bus , and i would never have to tha chance to go in and talk to him.
it felt weird not havign him there at night , but luckily enough there was some rock star around to give me something to help me sleep .
I wonder what i would be feeling if i wasnt getting fucked up every evening. ?
I always thought losing corey would be like losing a limb because we havent been seperated since we were little.
Corey went away to a camp for the summer ,and for those 5 weeks i dont think i stopped crying at all .
one night , after all the bands had finished up for the night , i spotted nuuba , talking to this tiny guy , i mean he must have been tiny , because im5ft5 and he looked smaller than me ! .
He must have been like 4ft tall covered in tattoo's ,a nd more hyperactive than a kid at christmas.
She was laughing and joking with him , i looked over at them , they looked happy , she spotted me and called me over ...
" elle come meet someone.... this is frankie XD .... " she smiled the biggest smile ive ever seen.
The little guy named frankie was jumping at me like an excited puppy with a beer in his hand....
" heyyyyy ellle ..... she right i am frankie . nice to meet you ... " ......
" heyy .... its nice to meet you frankie ," the confusion must have shown on my face
" dont worry about me elle.... i am okay really .... im quite drunk ... u wanna play some kickball ? "
kickball , where the fuck did that come from ? i mean seriously it must have been gone 1am and this little hobbit wants to pla some kickball .
" my friends willl play too , well except for gerard .... hes probably fucked up somewhere... " frankie ruffled nuuba;s hair .
" hey you know what you guys go have fun , i think im gunna go talk to corey." nuuba smiled at me then was eagerly draged away from the scene by a over excited frankie.
i walked towards iron massacres van and noticed corey sat sketching , he was crying .
suddenly i felt panicked i wonder who would have upset him so much .
The answer would undoubtedly be on that piece of paper.
He always shows his feelings through his art. he always has done .
i walk onto the bus....
" heyy ..... i was wondering if umm ,,, maybe we could talk you know corey ? ..... "
my question was greeted by silence ..... he looked upto me with bloodshot eyes , as if he had been crying for hours.
" please baby i miss you ... " i pouted to corey....

" taken any drugs today elle ...... ? "
" i sure havent" i beamed .
" yeah well it is only an hour into the day , so its still early i suppose ." his eyes return down to the paper.
" do you mind if i sit with you ? " corey starts to sob uncontroably .... surely this isnt as bad as hes making out.
i move into sit next to him , where he is sketching .... i look down at the sketch to see a picture of a small guy , he looked like a mini corey .... he was being eaten by a monster.... i place my hand on his back and he sobs harder.

" whats up ? ..... you cant be this upset over our fight ? ".... his eyes dont ever move from the paper.

silence insues for the nest 5 minutes until finally he looks up at me ....


" what would you do if i wasnt here anymore , if you didnt have a home to go to , if you didnt have my jacket to keep you warm , would you let yourself get cold ? . Have you really missed me the past couple of weeks . or has your vision been to tainted to see that im not there anymore ? .
That im not the one to wrap around you at night ?
That i dont remind you to clean up after yourself ? .!"
He sobs ........ what is he talking about ?

" of course i missed you .... what are you talking about corey , your making no sence .... "
" for once elle im talking about me , im talking about not being yours anymore "
So thats it ... he wants to make the end of us final ... i bet hes met someone else , the bastard i mean i saw him talking to this hot guitar tech but i thought nothing of it .
He's always been my corey and he always will be.
Why would he want to end everything ? i mean i kno ive fucked up , but its nothing that cant be resolved right ?

" so you wanna split up then ? like umm for good ? " i ask him with tears in my eyes...
he couldnt answer me through his own tears , i stood up and quickly left.
i didnt know a direction , just like the day he left me in the club . And i walked the streets of london trying to find him.
i was walking around the car park and see , a bunch of dudes setting off some fireworks , there was 5 of them , and nuuba , she was with that frankie kid . This must have been his friends he was talking about.....
its funny .... not all of them are hobbits i smirked to myself ....[!]
i ran over to nuuba , and it was evident i had been crying ...she took one look at me and wrapped her arms around me.
i cry into her shoulder.
" didnt quite work out huh ?" she says softly into my ear!
" no...... not right at all . " i cry to her....

" hey hey hey..... no tears ...... just drink " Frankie pulls me from nuuba and shoves a plasic cup under my nose with a black mixture in it.
" whats in there ...frankie ? " i ask him swirling the contents of the glass.
"oh its ummm .... brandy rum vodka .... um m i think theres some beer in there somewhere.... no need to worry tho elle .... it will make you smile again for sure .... we dont have tears on this tour" he winked at me , you know what for a little dude he was pretty awesome.
i downed frankies magical mixture and i suddenly felt better , i looked around me to see that i was surrounded by some of the funniest looking guys ive ever seen.
" you curious english girl? " frankie asked me with his new jersey accident and his eyebrow raised.
" i can see you looking at my friends.... and dont worry ,.... they make me curiois tooo ... " he winked at me again ... either that or frankie had a nervous twitch.
" let me introduce them to you" .... he grabbed my hand and dragged me towards 3 dudes who were sat on the pavement. they all looked so individual in there own right , turns out they were american too , just like frankie .
" hey this is elle ..... elle this is Mikey , Bob and Ray .... " he says pointing at each one of them individualy.
" nice to meet you " i smiled at them ....
i heard nuuba shrieking then looked to see her thrown over frankies shoulders being carried across the car park her legs kicking up in the air .... jesus how drunk was this dude.
" where umm sorry about him" the tall blonde guy said , i think he was bob ? oh wait was he ray ? .
" ummm thats ok , um he seems .... crazy" i giggled....
" thats because he is " this came from a guy who had hair bigger than me altogether i swear." you know you dont have to stand up dont you .... ? you can sit with us ... we dont bite.... "
" at least not on fridays " This statement came from a geeky looking skinny guy in a anthrax t-shirt who was sat with his head in a comic book , the others were just sat pounding some beer and talking.
There was an uncomfortable silence as i sat down with them .
this had to be broken .
Oh and it was......