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Why Some Kids Don't Tell About Their Abusive Parents
0 reviewsI love him so much... but I'm still doing something wrong; I have to be. Why else would he be doing this?
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Ok, so for the next few chapters you are going to take a peek inside Rachel's life and read the entries in her notebook. Gerard's analysis of it will come afterwards.
It's been about a week now since my dad came back. He said that when he left, he was under the influence of drugs. He said he didn't know what he was doing. He said he loved both of us, and would never leave us again.
Bull. I love him and all, but he doesn't love us. I know he doesn't. Why not? Why does he hate us so much? Is it my fault? I don't know. Right now, the only thing I want is a father that loves me. I wish that he could look me in the eyes and tell me that without having to lie. I wish he would just give me an effin hug or something. I've been trying really hard not to make him mad, but he still gets angry at me. Sometimes he hits me. He'll yell at me and tell me how worthless I am when my mom's not home. Once he pushed me down the stairs. When my mom saw all the bruises I had, she asked what happened. I told her I fell. I don't want her to get mad at him. She loves him too, and I don't want her to make him leave just because of me. One day, he's going to love me back and maybe he'll stop. But right now, I don't understand. I'm trying so hard. What could I be doing wrong?
It's been about a week now since my dad came back. He said that when he left, he was under the influence of drugs. He said he didn't know what he was doing. He said he loved both of us, and would never leave us again.
Bull. I love him and all, but he doesn't love us. I know he doesn't. Why not? Why does he hate us so much? Is it my fault? I don't know. Right now, the only thing I want is a father that loves me. I wish that he could look me in the eyes and tell me that without having to lie. I wish he would just give me an effin hug or something. I've been trying really hard not to make him mad, but he still gets angry at me. Sometimes he hits me. He'll yell at me and tell me how worthless I am when my mom's not home. Once he pushed me down the stairs. When my mom saw all the bruises I had, she asked what happened. I told her I fell. I don't want her to get mad at him. She loves him too, and I don't want her to make him leave just because of me. One day, he's going to love me back and maybe he'll stop. But right now, I don't understand. I'm trying so hard. What could I be doing wrong?
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