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Envy's one of the deadly sins.
0 reviewsOkay, chapter two. I don't know how long to keep this going for but yeah. Brendon's rramblling (:
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Laterr.
You seee…
Ryan can be a bit of a charmer.
He can’t walk down the street without being stared at by some girl.
Or some guy.
Eyes on Ryan.
Eyes on beauty.
Eyes on perfection.
Constantly.
I don’t mind. I shouldn’t mind. He’s mine. He won’t look at anyone else.
Ohhhh, who am I kidding?
I care.
I care a lot…
It hurts. I know he flirts, and I know that won’t stop. It’s his nature. Those girl’s think they have a chance.
Maybe they do?
Shut up brain.
He say’s he loves me.
He say’s we’ll be together forever.
That should be enough right?
It’s just not. I don’t know why. I should trust him, I do trust him. It’s just, hard to believe that someone actually feels something for me. It’s never happened before. It feels impossible, unreal.
I know I’m not good enough for him, he could have anyone. So why did he choose me? It doesn’t make sense.
Someone shut me up.
Stupid mind. I used to be he confident one, the one who knew what he was doing. But recently I’ve become totally dishevelled.
Total insomniac.
I need help.
I hate constantly feeling envious of anyone Ryan even looks at. Its stupid, childish. Or maybe its just love?
I can only think about him, and question his feelings. I’d do anything to know truly how he feels. I’d do anything to be constantly with him.
But I can’t.
Do you know how much missing someone this much hurts?
It’s been three days, and there is four left.
I hate it when he goes away. It’s quite regular, since his mum and dad are separated.
It’s the goodbye’s that are always the worst.
Knowing we won’t see each other for periods of time. Periods of time that drag on, so slow. It kills me slowly. But I carry on knowing he’ll be back by my side soon.
The ending's of phone calls, the letters, the tears.
I miss my life.
Envy’s one of the seven deadly sins.
And it hurts like hell.
A piece of me has gone when you’re not here.
I fall apart.
Welcome to Hell Brendon Boyd Urie.
You seee…
Ryan can be a bit of a charmer.
He can’t walk down the street without being stared at by some girl.
Or some guy.
Eyes on Ryan.
Eyes on beauty.
Eyes on perfection.
Constantly.
I don’t mind. I shouldn’t mind. He’s mine. He won’t look at anyone else.
Ohhhh, who am I kidding?
I care.
I care a lot…
It hurts. I know he flirts, and I know that won’t stop. It’s his nature. Those girl’s think they have a chance.
Maybe they do?
Shut up brain.
He say’s he loves me.
He say’s we’ll be together forever.
That should be enough right?
It’s just not. I don’t know why. I should trust him, I do trust him. It’s just, hard to believe that someone actually feels something for me. It’s never happened before. It feels impossible, unreal.
I know I’m not good enough for him, he could have anyone. So why did he choose me? It doesn’t make sense.
Someone shut me up.
Stupid mind. I used to be he confident one, the one who knew what he was doing. But recently I’ve become totally dishevelled.
Total insomniac.
I need help.
I hate constantly feeling envious of anyone Ryan even looks at. Its stupid, childish. Or maybe its just love?
I can only think about him, and question his feelings. I’d do anything to know truly how he feels. I’d do anything to be constantly with him.
But I can’t.
Do you know how much missing someone this much hurts?
It’s been three days, and there is four left.
I hate it when he goes away. It’s quite regular, since his mum and dad are separated.
It’s the goodbye’s that are always the worst.
Knowing we won’t see each other for periods of time. Periods of time that drag on, so slow. It kills me slowly. But I carry on knowing he’ll be back by my side soon.
The ending's of phone calls, the letters, the tears.
I miss my life.
Envy’s one of the seven deadly sins.
And it hurts like hell.
A piece of me has gone when you’re not here.
I fall apart.
Welcome to Hell Brendon Boyd Urie.
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