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I wake up and climb over Benji and Bella. I go downstairs and see Mom in the kitchen cooking breakfast. "Hey Mom need any help?" "Oh yes Hun. That would be lovely. You can cook the hash browns." "Ok." I walk over to the stove and start cooking hash browns. After we almost have breakfast all the way cooked, Bella comes into the kitchen. "Hey babe you hungry?" She nods. I walk over to her. "Are you ok baby?" "No I still tired." "How come? I thought you got a good night sleep." "No I couldn't. You kept talking and daddy kept rolling over me." I laugh and kiss her forehead. "I'm sorry baby." I finish cooking all the hash browns and put them on a plate. "Amy can I talk to you for a second?" "Sure mom." We walk out of the kitchen. "I had an idea." "Ok?" "I was thinking while you were on tour with the guys that I could take Bella." "Yea that would be great. That is if Bella says she wants too which I'm sure she will." "Ok." "Do you want me to ask her?" "Yea." "Ok." I walk back into the kitchen and sit next to Bella. "Hey Bella?" "Yea?" "I was wondering, actually grandma was wondering if you wanted to spend the rest of the time when Daddy and everyone else is on tour with grandma." Her eyes light up. "Yeah!" "Ok then that's settled." "Can I spend time with Mam-ma too?" "Yea, probably." "Yay!" "And I'm sure Lily will love having her here too," Mom says. "I bet." Mom goes back to cooking back and I feel two arms wrap around my neck. Benji kisses my neck and whispers, "Good morning" in my ear. "Morning baby," I say. Benji stand back up and Bella says, "Daddy guess what!" "What baby?" "While you and mommy and everyone else is on tour I'm gonna stay with Gram-gram." "Really?" Bella nods. "Mmmhmm." "Well that sounds like fun." "Yeah and I'll spend time with Mam-ma too." "Awesome." I stand up and whisper, "So that means we'll have a lot more time to ourselves," in Benji's ear. Benji raises his eyebrows and grins. I walk past him and up to my room. I grab a pair of jeans and a Good Charlotte baby doll tee. I walk into the bathroom and take a quick shower. I blow dry my hair straight and apply a small amount of makeup. I go back downstairs and see that everyone is in the kitchen. I sit down next to Benji and mom sets a plate of food in front of me. "Thanks mom." "No problem sweetie." After breakfast I walk to an empty parking lot where the guys parked the bus. I grab Bella's suitcase and her book bag. I drag them back to mom's house and set them down in my room. I grab my bag and walk back downstairs. Everyone's gone besides mom, Bella, and Benji. "Ok are you ready to go Amy?" "Yea." I crouch down next to Bella. "Have a fun time with Gram-gram ok baby?" "I will mommy!" "Ok." I give her a kiss and a hug then stand up. Benji kisses and hugs Bella and walks out of the house. I hug and kiss mom. "Bye mom I love you." "I love you too, Amy. Have a good time." "I will." I walk out of the house and catch up with Benji. "So where are we going next?" "Concord, New Hampshire." "Awesome. And will you be playing tonight or tomorrow?" "Tomorrow. So that means," Benji wraps his arms around my waist from behind and gently bites my ear, "that we'll have tonight together." I grin. Tonight will definitely be a night he will remember. I hold back laughter. We walk onto the bus and I go to the back and grab my phone. I text, Hey I'm going to do it tonight, to Jennie. Do what? That thing that you've always wanted me to do for some ungodly reason. Are you really? Yup. With Benji? Of course. Who else? I don't know. I'm so happy you are! Text me right after and tell me how it goes! I will need to know! Lol. Ok I will Bye Amy. Have fun! Oh I will. Bye Jen! I hang up my phone after it says "Message Sent" and I put it in my pocket. "Who were you texting?" Billy asks. "Oh just my friend Jennie. You guys met her right?" "Yea when her and those other girls just appeared at your house right?" "Yup." "They were weird." "Yea but that's why I love them!" "I'm sure because you're weird too." I throw one of the couch pillows at Paul. "That was mean!" "But the truth." "So..." Paul laughs then throws the pillow back at me. "Are you starting something?" He grins. "Maybe." I grab all the pillows from the couch, stand up so I will have better aim and throw them at him. He tackles me to ground and whacks me with the pillows. I put my hands above my head. "Ok! I surrender!" "Good." Paul gets off me and Benji comes over to help me up. He walks over to the couch and I sit on his lap. It takes us 9 fucking hours to get to Concord. Yea we stopped off and had an hour lunch but god it took for fucking ever! When we get there we get dropped off at one of Benji and Joel's friends, Mike. They met him when they were on tour. H was MEST's tour manager. Joel hops to the door and Benji and I tow behind. Billy, Paul, and Aaron decided to just go to the hotel. Joel knocks on the door and it opens before Benji and I even get there. "Joel! What the fuck is up man? I haven't seen you in months." "I know man. But we knew that we would be stopping here so we decided to stop by." "Awesome. Benji man it's great to see you" They do the whole shake hands/hug thing that Mike and Joel did a minute ago. "And who's this lovely fucking girl." I blush and he looks me up and down. Benji puts an arm protectively around me. "This would be my girlfriend Mike." He emphasizes girlfriend. "Alright man I get it." He sticks his hand out. "I'm Mike." I shake his hand. "Amy." "Hey Tone get your ass down here!" Mike yells. "We have fucking company!" Mike gestures us into the house as Tone, I guess, walks down the stairs. "Benj! Fuck man!" He runs over to Benji and gives him a hug. "Hey Tony! What the hell is up?" "Not much man. Why the hell are you here?" "We're playing here tomorrow." "Sweet." He looks over to me. "An this must be your girlfriend Amy." "Yup that's me." "I must say you are way hotter than Benji made me believe." "Hey! I said she was fucking hot!" "Not this hot. Damn. I'm Tony by the way." "Yea I got that." He looks at me confused then smacks his head. "Oh duh! Yea sorry." "He's just a little slow." Benji whispers in my ear and I giggle. "What? What'd he say? Was it about me?" Tony asks frantically. "Yes it was about you. No I'm not going to tell you what it was." I say. "What?! I expected Benji not to tell me but tell me what it was please." "Nope no way." "Damn you two are made for each other." We all sit down and talk for three hours. It was so much fun. I learned so much about Benji and Joel. Mostly embarrassing stuff. It was great. "By Benj, bye Amy, later Joel." Mike gives all three of us a hug. "Bye Mike." "See ya Mike." "Bye Mike, it was great getting to know you." "Yup." "Bye guys, bye Amy, I loved getting to know you." "You two Tony." We leave the house and grab a cab to the hotel. We get out room keys and go to the 9th floor. Joel goes into the room that he is sharing with Billy and Benji and I go into our room. Immediately Benji pushes me down on the bed and starts kissing me. I laugh then kiss him back. He runs his down my neck and cups my breast. As he kisses down my neck, he pulls on the bottom of my shirt. We break apart and Benji pulls my shirt off and I pull his off. He kisses along my collarbone as he undoes my bra. He slides my bra off my arms and I lay back down on the bed. He kisses down my stomach and unbuttons and unzips my pants. He pulls my underwear off and kisses me on the lips. As he's kissing me I work to get his pants off. After I get them undone I pull them off. Benji kicks his pants off the rest of the way and I pull his boxers down and off. Benji enters me instantly. It feels good but I have to hold back laughter. Benji speeds up his pace and I debate whether or not to do it but I have too. He goes a little longer then I decide to do it. "BAA!" Benji stops immediately. "What the fucking hell was that?" I bust out laughing. When I calm down, I say, "I'm sorry. Jennie for some reason has always wanted me to do that." "Baa during sex?" I laugh again. "Yea I don't know why." "Ok." Benji lies down next to me. I cuddle up next to him. "I'm sorry I ruined it." "It's fine." We sit in silence for a moment. "But I was wondering." "Yea?" "What are all those scars all over your body?" He traces one of my scars just below my boob. "Well, they are from... a razor." Benji sighs. "What was so bad that you had to cut yourself?" "That's the thing, nothing was bad. I just did it because I liked seeing the blood and because it was a relief I guess. I know it's fucking dumb but that's what I did." I look down as I almost start to cry. Benji pulls me into a hug. "Well when was the last time you did it?" Benji asks. "About... two years ago." "Well that's good. At least you've gotten over it." "Yea." We just lay there, Benji rubbing my back, until we fall asleep. I wake up the next morning and Benji's not there. I look all around the room and in the bathroom and Benji is nowhere in site. I sit back down on the bed and turn on the TV. About a half an hour later Benji walks in. "Hey where'd you go?" I ask. "I went to go talk to Joel." "About what?" "Touring stuff, boring shit as usual." "Oh ok." Benji climbs on the bed and I cuddle up to him. "Are you still naked?" "Yea I'm comfy being naked and I didn't plan on looking for you so why get dressed?" Benji laughs. "I guess that's reasonable." "Of course it is." We just watch TV for about an hour then someone knocks on the door. Benji grumbles something then gets up and gets the door. "Hi Joel." "Hi Joely!" "Hi... Amy. Are you naked?" "Yea." "Eww. I'm happy for you two and all but I didn't need to know that you two had sex last night." "Maybe we didn't have sex. Maybe I just like to sleep in the nude." "Well I know Benji and I know that you couldn't get away sleeping in the nude without Benji doing something." "Ok yea we did have sex." "And see did the weirdest thing EVER." I blush and put my head in my hands. "What'd she do?" As if on cue my phone sings 'Part of Your World' signaling that Jennie was calling me. Benji picks it up seeing as it is closer to him. He smiles when he sees who it is. "Why the fucking hell would you want her to do that? – Yes she actually did it. – It ruined the whole thing. I hope you know that. – Well you are just weird. I hope you know that too. – Ok good. – Yea I'll tell her. – Ok bye." He puts my phone back on the nightstand and says, "Jennie says you are her freaking hero and that you are the coolest person ever." I laugh. "So what did she do?" Joel asks again. "She baaed while we were having sex." "She baaed?" "Yea baaed like a sheep." "You did?" I nod. "Why?" "Because for some ungodly reason Jennie has always wanted me too." "Ok?" "Yea. She's weird like that." "Obviously." "Benji you should close the door so I can get dressed." "Ok." Benji walks out the door and shuts it. I walk over to the dresser and pull out some clothes. I put them on and walk to the bathroom. I brush out my hair and put my makeup on. I brush my teeth and pee. I walk back out and see Benji sitting on the bed. I crawl on the bed and ask, "So what did Joel want?" "Just more boring tour shit." "Ok." We sit in silence for a moment then I decide to call Mom and see how she's doing. I grab my phone and dial Mom's number. "Hello? – Hey Mom. – Oh hi Amy. How are you? – I'm good. How are you? How's Bella? – Good, really good. – That's good. – Yea her and Lily have been getting along really well. – Oh that's good. – Yeah so is that what you called for? – Yea it was. I was just making sure that she was being good. – Yea she's lovely. You did a really good job. – Oh thanks mom. – Yup. Well I gotta let you go. We're going to the park for a picnic. – Ok can I talk to Bella first? – Sure." Bella gets on the phone. "Hi mommy. – Hey baby. How are you? – Great! I love spending time with Gram-gram and Mam-ma and Aunt Lily. – That's great baby. – Ok mommy we're leaving so I love you mommy bye. – I love you too Bella, bye baby." She hangs up. "So how's she doing?" "Good, real good by the sound of it." "That's good." "Yea..." Benji rubs my back. "What's wrong?" "This is the first time I've been away from Bella for a long time since she was born." He pulls me into a hug. "It's ok babe. It'll only be for a little while." "I know, it's just hard. She's my baby girl." I say, tears falling. Benji rubs my arm and kisses my forehead. I wipe away the tears on my cheek. I sigh as Benji releases me. "It'll just be hard for the first couple of days." "I understand that. I always miss Cash when I go on tour." I laugh and look at Benji. "What?" "That's hardly the same." "Why not?" "Well because Bella is my daughter and your daughter and Cash is a dog." "So I love Cash like a son." I just shake my head and laugh. "You are too weird." He wraps his arms around my waist and kisses my neck. "That's why you love me." "Sadly yes." "Ah!" I laugh again. I feel teeth dig into the skin of my neck and I wiggle out of Benji's grip. "Ow!" I say as I hold onto my neck. "That hurt." "Good I'm glad." "You're mean." "Yea I know." " I don't like you anymore." "Maybe not but you still love me." I stick my tongue out at him and he laughs. I lay my head on Benji's shoulder. "So what do you have to do today?" "Just sound check and the concert and we're just going to stay here again." I grin. "Good and I promise not to ruin it this time." Benji laughs. "Ok that's good." I laugh too and go from laying my head on Benji's shoulder to his lap. He starts playing with my hair, twirling it around his fingers. "Amy?" "Hmm?" "Do you think I'll make a good dad?" I look at him. "Benj. You already are." "No I mean to the new baby." "Yea. I don't see why you wouldn't be." "Well what if I get frustrated and do something." "You won't." "How do you know that?" "Well because when you have child its just a special bond you get. You won't do anything. I promise." He sighs. "Ok." "What time do you have sound check?" "Uh..." He looks at his watch. "In four hours." "Do you just want to laze around?" "Yup sounds good to me but I have to get a shower in soon." "Ok I'll join you when you're ready." "Ok" We watch TV for another half an hour then Benji stretches. "Ready to go?" he asks. "Sure!" I stand up and offer Benji a hand. He accepts it and I pull him up. We walk to the bathroom and Benji shuts and locks the door. "Just in case." He answers to my raised eyebrows. "Awww." Benji stalks towards me with a smirk on his face. I grin and wrap my arms around his neck as he gets to me. He runs his hand down my back and pulls up my shirt. I pull away from him and he takes my shirt off. I run my hands down his chest and pull his shirt off. He kisses my neck and reaches around my back to undo my bra. He takes my bra off and kisses down my chest. He sucks on my boob for a moment. He brings his face back up to mine and says, "I love you so much." I just melt. "I love you too." He grins his grin that I absolutely love and kisses me. He slips his tongue into my mouth as he undoes my pants. He slips them down along with my underwear and I step out of them. I pull down Benji's pants and boxers and he steps out of them. I pull him close to me and kiss him. Benji reaches around me and turns on the water. I step into the tub and let the water cascade down my body. Benji steps in and pulls the curtain. He grabs the soap and begins to later my body. He rubs the soap over my breasts the moves down my chest to my stomach. He rubs down my back to my butt. He lingers there and the pulls me to him. He kisses along my neck and I feel the soap slip off me with the water. Benji brings my face up to his and kisses me. He positi9ons himself then thrusts inside me. I moan with pleasure. He pushes me against the wall of the shower and I wrap my legs around his waist. He slams into me rapidly. I rest my head against the wall and close my eyes. I enjoy the feel of the water trickling down my body and Benji inside me. Benji kisses up my neck and nibbles on my ear. "Amy?" "Yea?" I coo. "I love you" "Mmm I love you too." Benji releases inside me then and I climax with him. I unwrap my legs and stand up. Benji grabs my face and brings it to his. He kisses me softly. He pulls away from me and stokes my cheek. I have never been surer that I would spend the rest of my life with him than at the moment. I smile then kiss him again. We finish getting washed then get out and get dressed. I grab a black tank top that has "Rockstar" across the boobs and some plain light blue pants. I grab a bra and some underwear and get dresses. Benji and I watch TV until Joel tells us its time to go. The show was, as always, amazing. We get back on the bus and drive to the next show. The rest of the tour went kind of fast. I was so relieved when we got back to Mom's house. We picked up Bella then drove home. I dropped my bags on the floor and plopped down on the couch with a sigh. "Amy!!!!" I open my eyes to see Lucy running towards me. I jump up and hug her. "Hey Luce. What are you doing here?" "Well I came to visit you and Jennie but you weren't here." "Sorry. When did you get here?" "Just yesterday." "Oh cool. How long are you staying?" "Just a week." "Awesome." "Yea. So how was the tour?" I smile. "Great." "Ohh you got laid!" I smile bigger. "I sure did!" "Well where is the lucky guy?" "He's doing something with Joel. I'm going to go over there in a while." "Aw you're leaving me?" "Only for a little." "Fine." I get all of mine and Bella's clothes unpacked then I get my keys. "Well I'm leaving. Bye guys I will see you later. Bye Bella I love you." "I love you too, mommy." I get in my car and start driving to the house Benji and Joel are at. I drive through a green light....

~Benji's P.O.V~

Amy said she was going to lave at 5:00 and it's 5:45. What the hell? I call Jennie. "Hello?" "Hey Jen is Amy still there?" "No she left about 45 minutes ago." "Oh..." My heart sinks. "Well she's not here and it doesn't take 45 minutes to get here. I'm going to go look for her." "Okay call me when you find her." "Okay." I hang up. "Joel I'm going to go find Amy. She left 45 minutes ago so she might be lost." "Alright bro. Later." I climb into my car and start driving down the road. I come up to an intersection and its blocked. I park my car and get out. "What's going on here?" I ask one of the people standing around. "Someone ran a read light and hit another car." My eyes widen. "Did they say who got hit?" The lady shakes her head. "Thanks." I run through the crowd of people looking for an officer. Calm down Benj. It probably isn't her. I coax myself. Doesn't work though. "Excuse me," I say when I find an officer. "Who was in the accident?" "I'm not liable to release that information sir. Now please stand back." "No please it might have been my girlfriend." The cop stops trying to push me back and asks, "And what is your girlfriend's name?" "Amy Smith. Or it might be Martin. I don't know if she changed it." The cop looks at me then says, "Follow me." I follow him to his cop car. "Get in," he tells me. I get in. He goes around to the driver's side and starts the car. He puts it in drive and drives off. "Where are we going?" "To the hospital." My eyes widen as my heart hits my stomach. Oh please God let her be okay. Please God. We get to the hospital and I race inside. I go up to the counter and ask, "Where is Amy Smith?" "Who?" "Amy Smith or it might be Amy Martin." "Oh she is in the operating room. She should be out soon." "Okay will I know when I can see her?" "Yes I will tell you." "Okay thank you." I go to go sit down but I can't sit still. I stand up and start pacing. I decide to call Jennie. "Hello?" "Jennie. Amy is at the hospital." "What?" "She was in an accident. Get over here now!" "Okay." She hangs up and I continue to pace. Please God don't take her away from me. I need her. Please God. A little bit later Jennie comes through the door with Bella in her arms and Lucy following close behind. "Where is she?" Jennie asks once in earshot. "In the operating room but they said she should be out soon." Jennie nods. She hands Bella to me and sits down. She puts her head in her hands and starts mumbling to herself. We wait for what seems like forever when a doctor finally comes out. "Are you friends and/or family of Amy Martin?" We all nod. "Well Amy was unconscious when we got her. She had some major head drama. She also had some internal bleeding. We did all we could but she just lost too much blood. I'm so sorry." "What?" I scream. Jennie falls to her knees and cries. Lucy falls back and also starts to cry. I just stare at the doctor in disbelief. "No she can't be gone. She can't!" I scream. "I'm so sorry sir but she just lost too much blood." "No! I don't believe you! She can't be gone! I need her! Bella needs her! No, no, no, she can't be! Where is she? Please let me see her." The doctor sighs. "Follow me." I hand Bella to Jennie and follow the doctor down the hall. "In here." He opens a door and walk through it. I just stand there and look at Amy's small frail form. Tears start to form in the corners of my eyes as I look at her. I go over to her bedside and grab her hand. It's so cold. "Please Amy. Don't leave me," I whisper as tears roll down my face. "Don't leave me and Bella like this. You can't." I put my head down on her arm and just cry. I don't know how long I was there for but after a while a doctor comes in and tells me I have to leave. I look at Amy one last time and kiss her on the four head. I walk out of the room and to the waiting room. I take Bella from Jennie's arms and walk out of the hospital. "What's wrong daddy?" I sigh. "Mommy's gone." I whisper.