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“Nothing is gonna happen to the baby.” I said softly, “This baby is our miracle. Fate brought us together and fate had a plan. Gee, things are finally gonna be okay.”
“But there is still so much that’s we can’t explain.” He broke eye contact and looked away from me.
“I know that but there is nothing we can do right now. Only time will tell if it was Troy fucking with you. I just wanna believe it’s all over.”
“Not if he told someone else. It sure as fuck ain’t over if he told someone else.” He rolled over on his side facing away from me. “I’m such a fucking idiot. Ray’s right about that.”
I rolled over and molded my body to his, “There, now we’re two spoons in a drawer.” I whispered.
“What?”
Laughing I said, “When we lay like this were two spoons in a drawer, think about it.”
Suddenly I felt his body vibrate with laughter, “Fuck, woman. You come up with some of the weirdest shit.”
I laughed, “Yep, I do. Now would you please turn around and make love to your wife?”
“Can’t.” He said
I frowned, “Why not?”
“Don’t want to mess up the spoons in the drawer.” I could hear the laughter in his voice. I scooted away from him, “Okay, now you can roll over.”
Slowly he did, “Laura, are we really ever gonna be normal?”
“You mean our life?”
He nodded, “Yeah, are we ever gonna have a fucking normal life?”
“Years from now when we’re an old married couple we’ll look back and think well shit, we went through so much. How the fuck did we make it? But the fact will be that we did make it.”
He reached out and stroked my cheek, “I love you so much.”
“Show me.” I whispered.
The doorbell totally ruined the moment.
“Shit.” I muttered. “Who can that be?”
Gerard quickly rolled out of bed, “Don’t know. Stay here I’ll get rid of whoever it is.”
Yeah, he told me to stay but that wasn’t gonna happen. I threw on my sweats and when I got to the living room he and Ray were already in a heated argument.
“We need to try to sort this fucking shit out. Now.” Ray yelled.
“Hey.” I said loudly, “Really don’t want the neighbors to call the police. Stop yelling.”
Ray glared at me. “Tell you husband that we need to deal with this shit now.”
I looked at Gerard. He was staring at the wall, his posture told me he was fucking pissed. I understood how much he was dealing with right now, the pregnancy, Troy’s death and the fact that he wanted a drink. “Ray, tomorrow. Not now.” I said in an icy tone.
“Fuck tomorrow.” Ray shot back. “Don’t you two understand how serious this is?”
“Troy’s death?” I really wasn’t sure what he was talking about.
“Yeah, Troy’s death. Fuck, if idiot over there actually told Troy about Merri think about it.”
My voice was calm but I was not. “Don’t call my husband an idiot again.”
Ray shook his head, “What would you like me to call him? I can’t fucking believe this. All the shit that’s been going on and you two never told me?”
Okay I was confused. I looked over at Gerard.
“I told him everything.” He said softly, “The photo with the knife at the house, the picture here in the apartment, Troy’s words to Jenny…” His voice trailed off.
Oh shit, I completely lost it. “So Ray, you’re pissed cause we didn’t share all these great moments with you?” I said sarcastically. “Fuck, sorry about that. Just tell me did it make any difference? This shit happened to us, not you.”
“This shit involves me. If he fuckin’ goes down I go down too.” Ray moved towards me. “Understand?”
In a flash Gerard was next to me. “Back off, man.” He shouted.
Ray blinked in surprise, “Gee? Man you don’t think I’d hurt her, do you?”
Gerard put his arm around my shoulders, “Just back off.”
I could see the hurt on Ray’s face. “Yeah, okay.” He moved towards the door. “I’m outta here.”
“Ray” My voice stopped him.
“Tomorrow, okay? Come over tomorrow and we’ll talk.” I didn’t want their friendship to be damaged.
He shook his head, “No point in talking. I got nothing else to say.” He left the apartment without another word.
Beside me Gerard dropped his arm. “I’m sorry.” He muttered.
“Look, he’s upset. I understand that. I didn’t realize you were going to tell him all that shit.”
“I guess I just wanted to see what he thought. I wanted someone to say that maybe this fucking nightmare was really over.” He shook his head, “Obviously he doesn’t think so. He thinks that I fucked everything up cause I told Troy. I did fuck up.”
“Stop.” I said softly. In my heart I knew that there were still so many unanswered questions but I could tell Gerard was starting to buckle under the pressure. I couldn’t let this happen. “Let’s go back to bed, please.”
He shook his head, “Laura, I can’t think. I’m so fucking confused.”
“Me too.” I took his hand, “But right now, there’s nothing we can do.”
He looked into my eyes, “I’m so fucking weak.” He whispered.
I understood, “Because you want a drink?”
“Yeah, I fucking want a drink.” He lowered his head.
“But you’re not gonna take one.” I said squeezing his hand, “So you’re not weak, you’re strong.”
He wouldn’t look up. I moved closer to him and put my arms around his waist. “Come to bed.” He didn’t answer but when I moved back and started for the bedroom he followed me. Once we had crawled back into bed he spoke, “Tell me you love me.”
I was shocked by the request. I knew in my heart he was aware that I loved him with my whole being but he needed to hear the words.
“I love you Gerard Arthur Way. I will always love you.”
He closed his eyes, “Show me, please,” he whispered.
I smiled, “My pleasure.” I scooted down the bed and quickly removed his sweat pants. He closed his eyes as I gently began to stroke him. His body began to respond. I smiled when I saw the glistening beads appear on the head of his dick. Using my fingertips I brushed the wetness from the tip to the base of his cock. He moaned my name when I leaned down to flick my tongue over the silky head of his penis. I moaned when I tasted him on the tip of my tongue.
“Please.” He whispered. “Take me in your mouth.”
With deliberate slowness I opened my mouth and slid down on him. He shuddered. My fingers teased his balls as my mouth began a steady rhythm, in and out.
“So good, so hot.” He muttered. His hands came up and his fingers laced through my hair.
This time when I reached the top my tongue swirled around the ring at the tip.
“Oh, fuck.” He removed his hands. “Stop.”
I looked up confused. His eyes were open. “Too good.” He said, “Too fucking good. You’ll make me cum.”
I smiled, “Well that is what I had in mind.”
“Not yet. Come here.” He beckoned.
I moved up his body until our faces met. “Yes?’
With one quick movement he rolled us over. “This was supposed to be your desert.” He reminded me.
“I just tasted what I want for desert.” I whispered.
He was leaning over me, holding his body off mine with his arms. “Soon.” I watched as he moved down my body and buried his face between my legs. Oh hell, when he pushed apart my legs and started licking I moaned. He raised his head, “I will never get tired of hearing that.”
“Good to hear.” I said breathlessly, “Do that some more. You’ll hear me.”
This time he took his fingers and parted my lips. His tongue ran up and down then started flicking my clit. Oh fuck, it felt good. Suddenly he stopped and my eyes flew open. “Don’t move.”
Don’t move? Was he kidding? Like I was going to decide to go somewhere? I watched him cross the room and open the top dresser drawer. Out came one of the toys we’d recently purchased. He moved back to his original spot and I heard the soft hum as he switched on the vibrator. At first he simply brushed it over my already quivering clit. I arched my back. I needed more. Slowly he parted me again with his fingers and inserted the tip. A bit further and the vibrating clitoris attachment came into play. Oh, man, this was heavenly. I could feel the tension building.
“Gee, stop.” I said suddenly.
He looked up and I saw fear in his eyes, “What’s wrong? Does it hurt?”
God, I loved this man. “No, but I’m close. I want you inside me when I cum.”
The love I saw in his eyes touched my heart. He set aside the vibrator. I smiled when I felt the tip of his hard cock. Very, very, slowly he entered me. I closed my eyes as my body welcomed him. “Oh” I moaned.
When he began to thrust I wrapped my legs around his waist and we moved together. Soon we both were on the brink. “Say it.” He pleaded once again.
“I love you.” I barley got the words out when he exploded inside me. The hot cum filling me shot me over the edge. “Love you.” I said over and over.
When we both were completely spent he leaned down and placed his lips on mine. “I love you.” He said against my lips. “Love you.”

A few hours later I woke with my heart racing. The fucking brutal nightmare was still fresh in my mind. I sat up when I realized I was alone.