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Okay okay okay okay. OKAY. God, I'm like, pissed at myself right now. This will probably affect the characters a bit, cuz I don't write the stories down in my journal anymore, I just type this shit as it comes, so if the tone is a little bitter and.. bitchy.. It's because I'm not feelin' too hot. Either way, I hope you all don't hate me TOO MUCH by now.. I dunno. But yeah, here's Chapter 10. I hope its good. I have a feeling that it won't suck.. Too much.


-Frankie's POV- [Finally, God Damn]

Wow. What the hell did you just do?
I.. I don't know.
You are a homosexual
Shut the fuck up. I am not.
Then what was that??!?!
It.. It was.. It was.. Fuck you, okay?!? Can you just shut up for once??!



"Gee.. I- I'm.. Gerard?" What the hell? He was jut standing there. Doing nothing. Just standing. "...Gerard..?"
"WHAT THE FUCK, FRANK!?!!?!" He exploded. I didn't think he'd be this upset. I thought.. I thought he..


I couldn't even finish the thought. Tears came pouring down my face, and I ran into my room and slammed the door. I sat in front of it because I didn't have a lock, and I did not want Gerard in there right now.

Girl. Girl. Girl. Girl.
SHUT UP, OKAY?! PLEASE.. please.

Why did I even do that? I mean, I thought it would be alright.. I kind of figured he had some feelings for me..

I couldn't think, I couldn't move. I just stayed balled up in front of my door, bawling my eyes out. I don't know why I felt so horrible. I don't really know what I expected Gerard to do. It was just a 'spur of the moment' kind of thing. I mean, he said I was cute for God's sake!

"Frankie?" I heard Gerard's small voice coming from the other side of my thin bedroom door.
I couldn't respond. I was crying too hard to gather up any oxygen. I was surprised I wasn't dead, I don't know the last time I even took a breath.
"..Frankie, please let me come in." He still sounded slightly angry, but it was softer. More subtle. Not as 'I-wanna-fucking-kill-you' but more 'I'm-still-gonna-kick-your-ass-but-I-just-wanna-talk-to-you'.
I slowly inched away from the crevice I had placed myself in, and allowed Gerard access into my room. The door flung open, hard! He was still pissed.

Fuck. Fuck. Fucking fuck.

"Gerard!!" My voice cracked "Let me explain! I'm sorry! Please don't hurt me!" I squealed through the tears still pouring down my cheeks, making the slight bit of eyeliner I had on drip down at the edges.
"Don't." He said sternly. "I should never have said you were cute. It was a mistake."

See! I'm not the only one who thinks your ugly!
Shut up shut up shut up! I know, okay!?! I know!

I didn't respond, I just cried and nodded like I understood, when I really had no FUCKING clue.

-Gerard's POV-

What.
Is.
My.
Problem.

I'm saying all the wrong things. I don't feel that saying he was cute was a mistake. And him kissing me definitely did not make me pissed beyond belief. I don't know whats gotten into me, but I just can't stop.

Your just not used to affection, because everyone hates you. Remember?
Fuck you. Shut up.
Snippety little thing, you are
So are you. Now shut up. I need to think before I say anything.
I'm your thoughts, idiot. I am the reason for your douchebag-iness toward Frank. You're channeling me
NO! NO! PLEASE STOP! PLEASE GO AWAY! I.. I NEED THIS. I NEED HIM!!
Only you can stop me, young grasshopper
What the fu- You know what? Nevermind you. I'm thinking for myself now.


"...Frankie?" I said, hoping my voice sounded a lot less harsh.
"Y-yes?" he gulped.
"I'm so sorry. You have to believe me. I.. I didn't mean any of that. I don't regret calling you cute, but I do regret not using another word. Because 'cute' doesn't even describe you. I don't think any word would. And about that kiss? It was amazing. More then amazing. It was.. I don't even know. But I couldn't have asked for anything else. And I'm sorry for exploding, I don't know why I did it. I don't know why I do a lot of things. But I just need you to know that I am so fucking sorry. I mean this all. From the bottom of my heart.. If I even have one."

-Frank's POV-

Wow. That was so.. Heartfelt. Does he mean it, though? I sure hope so, because if he doesn't then this is going to suck for me...

"Oh, Gerard!" I yelped, leaping up off the floor, and up to Gerard, who was sitting on my bed, head in his hands. I lifted his chin so his eyes were level with mine. "I.. I forgive you." I said before placing a soft, passionate kiss on his lips.

"Frank, you don't know how badly I wanted that." He replied, before slowly kissing me. We just sat there, kissing, nothing serious at all. Just small little kisses, nothing even close to 'making out'. But I really could not have asked for anything more.



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Sorry for the wait! I had some more shit going on but I think everything should be okay now, and if people are still actually reading this, then please take a second to review, because I'm on Christmas break and I can post semi-regularly now! For everyone who reviewed the past chapters, THANK YOU! You are all my motivation, because my life has been kinda suckish lately. And I really do need you guys, so thank you! Reading your reviews makes me so happy, and after writing a new chapter, I just feel so great, I don't think much can ruin it now, because that could possibly be my favorite chapter ever!

I love you all!
xox Emily