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"Out?" I repeat back to him. He stood up and took a step back from the tub. "What do you mean out?" I asked him and he didn't say anything. He just looked at me like he didn't know what to say.

"The account was closed...last month....fuck" He kinda mumbled to himself under his breath as he looked over the papers in his hand again.

This was not happening. It couldn't be. It doesn't make any sense...I stood up and stepped out of the tub, grabbing the towel off the hook by the door. I was soaking wet. My hair had come out of the clip and the ends had gotten wet.

Water was dripping down my back. There were bubbles still stuck on my legs and I tried to shake them off as I wrapped the towel around me.  I almost tripped but Gerard reached over and steadied me. Smiling a little at my clumsiness.

"Are you trying to say that you think this Hunter guy is the one who's been..." I asked him and started to freak out a little when he didn't answer me right away.

"I don't know Elle." He says leaning back against the sink. "If he got released last month then he could-"

"Then what?" I yell out interrupting him. All of my emotions were spiraling out of control now. "I don't even fucking know him! I never even fucking heard of him!" I say waving my hand at him in anger. "Why the hell would he be..."

"Well your grandfather did." He tells me keeping his voice low.

"Did what?" I say confused.

"Know him." He says plainly.

"That's bullshit." I yell at him.

"Elle he was sending them money." He tells me trying not to raise his voice back at me. I shook my head no insistently.

"That's some kinda mistake Gerard." I say and he runs his hand through his hair and looks at me for a moment.

"Whether you want to believe it or not he was, it's all here." He says softly holding the papers up a little.

My eyes started to tear up. "Why would he...my papa wouldn't...." My voice trailed off a little as I tried to stop myself from crying. Gerard reached over and pulled me into his arms. My towel started slipping and I pulled it up a little. I shut my eyes and pressed my head into his chest and tried not to cry.

"I don't know baby." He said comforting me. "I know you thought a lot of him." He says and I pull back sharply from him.

"What?" I say scowling at him a little.

"I know you don't want to believe it Elle, but your grandpa was mixed up in something bad here." He says rubbing his eyes a little. "He wasn't who you thought he was." He says and I lose it.

"Don't you dare!" I yell at him as I pound my fist on his chest. "Don't you ever talk about my papa like that!" I yell at him. I had never felt so much hatred towards him before.

"Elle." He tried to reach for me.

"No!" I scream at him. "He was a good man Gerard." I say. "You have no right." I yell glaring at him in anger. Gerard sighed a little, he diverted his eyes to the floor.

"He was sending them money Elle...paying them off for something that much is obvious...God knows what kinda shit he was involved in." He says lowering his voice a little.

"That's bullshit." I yell at him again.

"Where the fuck you think all this money in your account came from. Huh?" He tells me and I just look at him. "You think your papa earned all that?" He scoffs a little. "He's no better then Mr. Watson, Elle. Your grandfather interned him right?... fucking taught him everything he knew. What did Mr. Watson say Elle..'he wouldn't be the man he was today if it wasn't for your papa teaching him everything he knew.' Crooked motherfucking bastard." He carries on. "Your papa was a crook Elle."

"Fuck you Gerard." I say stepping back towards the door. "You don't know shit about my grandfather. You don't know shit about my family"  I started yelling at him... Taking out all my frustrations on him. I just couldn't stop myself... And he just took it too.

Didn't say anything back... Just let me carry on. Cursing him out. Telling him how much I hated him. How wrong he was. He just stood there. Leaning back against the sink counter. Looking down at his boots.

Every so often he'd shift a little. Reach up and touch his hair, bite his lip a little. Never said a word back though...

Finally I stopped. I pulled the towel back up around me tighter and leant against the shut door and looked over at him. It was silent. He was only a few feet away from me since the bathroom wasn't really that big. I could've reached over and touched him. And I wanted to...  I was so angry with him, but at the same time I loved him. I wanted him... I needed him...

I had too many emotions conflicting in my head. I shut my eyes and tried to steady myself. I said some hurtful things to him. I didn't mean them. Fuck. I hope he knows that. I was gonna open my eyes and apologize when I heard his voice.

"I know you don't want to believe it Elle..." I hear his voice say softly. "But it's all right here." He says and I can hear papers rustling. "You just cant close your eyes and hide from this." He says and I open my eyes and look at him. "You're gonna have to fucking grow up one day." He says a little harshly to me.

Grow up? Is that what he just said. Cause I fucking close my eyes for a second to stop myself from going insane? Is he fucking kidding me?

"Get out." I say shaking my head at him. He just looked at me. "Get the fuck out! Get out of my house Gerard." I say a little louder.

He scoffs a little. "No." He says folding his arms and not moving.

"I mean it get out." I say reaching over and opening the door. I motioned for him to leave and he just stood there.

"If you think I'm leaving you here alone you're crazy." He says smirking a little.

"I don't need you... I don't want you... now go." I say turning my eyes away from his. I couldn't look him in the eyes.

He'd know I was lying...

He stepped towards me and pushed me back against the door forcing it shut. He had me pinned against it. I turned my head to the side as he pressed himself against me.

"Look me in the eyes and tell me that." He says and I can feel his breath on my neck.

"Don't do this." I say sighing a little as I shift my weight a little under him. He stepped back away from me slightly as I shifted. I stepped forward towards him and reached behind me and grabbed the doorknob. I twisted it open and stepped forward a little more, opening it slightly behind me.

"Just go, get out..please." I say tensing up a little. He reached around me and pushed the door back shut, pinning me back up against it. He grabbed my face lightly and turned it towards his. I didn't really resist.

He looked into my teary eyes. "Tell me you don't want me and I'll go." He says and I just stared into his eyes. "I'll leave...I'll leave you alone forever." He says and I think he meant it...

"Gerard I..." I paused and looked deep into his eyes...this was it...this moment..."I don't want you..."