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"Can we go in now?" I ask both of them and Gerard shrugs and looks down at the cigarette he had just lit up. I mean I couldn't blame him... There's just something about the warm smoke filling your lungs on a cool night like this that's just so terribly satisfying sometimes.

"You cold baby? You wanna go back inside?" Gerard says leaning back against the deck railing...

"No" I lie to him. "I just umm" I lost my train of thought as I watch Bob yawn a little and stretch his arms up over his head. As he lowered them down I kind of wished he was wrapping them around me...

I mean he's so warm... Gerard's warm too but Bob is mmm, super warm? I leant back against Gerard against the railing. My raincoat kinda swung open a little and Gerard wrapped his one arm around me and was running his hand along the bottom hem of my tank top, tugging it down a little... I must've been staring a little too fondly still at Bobs' arms cause he saw me looking.

"What?" Bob kind of chuckles a little as he looked down at his arms...I guess to see what I was staring at.

"Oh umm, nothing." I shrug. Fuck I'm so cold... Even with this jacket on and Gerard's arm around me I was freezing... But I didn't want to go back inside... Jessica was inside...little bitch was probably going through my stuff too while I stand out here in the cold...

"You're cold Elle, you should go back in." Bob tells me looking me over. I just stared at him. It was weird that he said that at the exact moment I was thinking it...it was kinda like he was reading my mind...

He blushed a little and turned away as I stared at him... I suddenly got really nervous cause he wouldn't look at me... It was like he knew that that was why I was looking so intently at his super duper warm arms, it was like he knew it was cause I was wishing I was in them...How the fuck could he know that?

"What?" I gasp a little.

"Does your coat button up or-?" Bob says a little flustered as he examined my jacket closely.

"Naw, the zippers broken." I tell him and he kinda frowned...

"Well just hold it closed." He tells me still a little flustered.

"Really I'm okay Bob." I tell him leaning back against Gerard a little harder. I think I shivered a little.

"Elle baby didn't I ask you? You want to go back in or what?" Gerard sighs a little and holds out his cigarette like he was going to flick it over the railing half smoked.

"No I don't want to." I say little loudly stopping him. I was lying...I did want to go back in. But I didn't want him to waste his cigarette...

"Well want to or not, are you cold?" Gerard says a little frustratedly... Fuck how come Bob could tell I was cold and Gerard can't? Maybe Bob is psychic! I mean that's possible right?... maybe he can like read minds or some shit... Maybe he's reading mine right now...

I look over and Bob is kinda staring at me not saying anything./Hmmm... I wonder if he can hear me...Hellllooo? Bob...can you hear me?/ I think to myself and Bob doesn't even blink.../Hmm...blink if you can hear me Bob.../ I think to myself as I stared at him and he blinks... I gasped a little. Holy shit he blinked! He can read minds!... wait no... he's blinking again...and again, and again. Fuck... I think he's just got something in his eye...
Bob leant his head up and kinda rubbed his eye a little... I think maybe some of the ash from Gerard's cigarette might have blown over and gotten into it...

"Well?" Gerard says to me.

"Mmm well what?" I ask a little confused as I continued to stare at Bob, trying to figure out what had happened .I mean did he blink cause I asked him to in my head or was it just some kinda coincidence...hmm..... Gerard leant over from behind me and looked at my face...

"Fuck, you sure you didn't take nothing cause you're spacing out there baby." Gerard laughs a little as he shakes me slightly.

"Am I?" I say starting intently at Bob.../maybe blinking's not such a good idea, how bout this Bob...touch your nose.../ I think to myself.../If you can hear me touch. your. nose./ I direct my thoughts towards Bob... He sees me looking at him so intently and kinda tilts his head a little... are you trying to figure out why?... or are you reading my mind?...touch your nose if you can hear me Bob...

"I asked you if you were cold." Gerard tells me totally oblivious to the conversation Bob and I are having in my mind...

"Oh." I reply as I continue to stare intently at Bobs nose. hmmm, maybe he's not some kinda mind reading telekinetic freak. I think to myself as Gerard wraps his arm a little tighter on my waist and squeezes it trying to get my attention...

"That's still not an answer." Gerard laughs.

"Aw leave her alone, she was just lost in her thoughts." Bob says smiling a little...aw fuck Elle, you're being ridiculous... Bob cant read minds... and he certainly didn't hear you telepathically ask him to touch his nose!I smiled a little to myself and then suddenly out of nowhere Bob reaches up and touches his nose! Well his mouth and his nose. I gasped. Loudly too.. "Is there something on my face?" He says and I can't tell if he's saying it sarcastically or what.

"What?" I cry out. Fuck...maybe you can hear me!

"You keep staring at my face." He says wiping his nose and mouth a little. And again I can't tell if he's mocking me...

"Uh no." I reply uneasily... Bob shrugs and kinda looks away as Frankie comes up the steps from the yard...

"You got a lighter?" He says to all of us holding his hand out. I shake my head no. Bob does to. Gerard just stood there, He actually tightened his grip on my waist a little and didn't answer Frankie. "Aw come on man." Frankie whines to him. "I just wanna 'borrow' it." He says looking over and grinning at me a little. "I'll give it back to you in the morning." Frankie continues to whine.

"Aw Gerard let the baby fucking have it, I have one in the house." I sigh keeping one eye on Bob... I'm still not really sure what the fuck was going on here, if Bob could hear my thoughts or not...it was weird... Gerard groans a little and pushes me forward off him as he reaches into his front pocket.

"I want it back." He says roughly as he tosses it to Frankie.

"Aw thanks." Frankie says stepping back towards the steps. Fuck... how did Bob know I was cold? I was just about to try another 'mind experiment' when Frankie pats me on the head as he walks by.

He grins looking over at me again. "You know you should go inside if you're cold Elle." He says and my jaw drops open a little. What the fuck Frankie can read minds too? This is unbelievable!

"What?" I gasp a little.

"I'm just saying you look cold." Frankie grins and winks at me as he glances down at my chest. Gerard leans over from behind me and looks too ...My coat had swung open again and I guess my tank top was a little too thin for this weather...And the fact that I didn't have a bra on didn't help conceal anything...If anything it just made my hard nipples even more obvious if that was at all possible...

"Fucker." Gerard says stepping around from behind me as he takes a swing at Frankie, but it was too late Frankie was already dashing down the steps. I rolled my eyes a little as I closed up my jacket...

Well, that settles that...I guess Bobs not psychic, but he is a dog...Why wouldn't he say anything... Aw come on Elle. Don't be stupid... What the fuck would you have liked him to say... shit...

"Come on let's go in I'm done." Gerard says as he flicked his cigarette out on to the lawn. I frown... I hate when people do that... There's a fucking ashtray right there too. "Oh sorry babe." Gerard tells me as I pull away from him to go retrieve it. "You want me to-?" He tries to say.

"No I'll get it." I tell him a little annoyed as I go down the steps on the grass... It was cold and kinda wet and muddy and I was barefoot... Great...just fucking great...

"Hey um, you think it's too late for me to call Julia and apologize, see if she wants to go
out again." Bob says out of nowhere.

"HA!" Gerard cries out and Bob frowns a little. "You know I fucking drove her home for you man." Gerard tells him.

"Awww was she pissed?" I hear Bob asks him and I look up and see Gerard grinning a little.

"She was beyond pissed man." He shakes his head, seemingly enjoying delivering such bad news..."I don't think she's gonna go out with you again." He tells him as I come back up the steps and Bob was kinda grinning back... Well at least he was taking it well...

"Yeah but she’ll get over it?" He says and Gerard snickers a little.

"The way she was carrying on man... she's ain't even gonna fucking talk to you man, let alone go out with you again..." he laughs..."Fuck I'd be surprised if any girl at St Mary's talks to you again after the way she was going on." Gerard tells him and now Bob laughs.

"Aw you'd be surprised." He says and I frown a little as I stood in between them... I don't like this conversation... Bob's night was ruined... His date was ruined and they're both acting like its no big deal. It was a big deal. It was all my fault too...No wait. It wasn't JUST my fault... It was Gerard's too... Fuck...I crossed my arms on my chest and looked over at Gerard.

"What?" He says like he has no clue why I'm standing here like this...

"Bob I'm so sorry about your date." I say and he shrugs. "We BOTH are." I say giving Gerard a hard look. He kinda smiled. "Right Gerard?" I said clenching my teeth a little.

"Oh uh yeah, yeah, I'm real sorry it didn't work out man." Gerard says trying not to smile...

"I told you before Elle, it's not a big deal." Bob says and I toss my hands up in the air.

"Didn't you hear what he just said -Julia is never gonna talk to you again!" I cry out.

"I told you, we weren't serious okay? Its not a big deal." He says and I just looked at him.

"Aw honey, please don't worry about it so much." He says as I pout.

"No Bob, its not okay." I say a little distraught. "I mean what happens next time." I tell him and he makes a face.

"What next time?" Gerard cries out. "Elle you think this is ever gonna happen again?" Gerard tells me and I sigh a little frustratedly.

"Well what about that girl that you like?" I say and Bob started getting tense... I could see it on him. I know him too well. "What's gonna happen when you get together with her huh? You think that she's gonna fucking appreciate us dragging you down in our problems all the time." I cry out.

"I told you there's no girl Elle, okay?" Bob says calmly... he was clearly lying.

"What girl?" Gerard asks curiously.

"Bobs got a crush on some girl." I tell Gerard and Bob sighs.

"Aw who is she man?" Gerard asks and Bob looks up at the sky a little... like he was praying he'd be abducted by aliens and wouldn't have to keep having this conversation with us...

"For the last time Elle...There is - no girl." Bob says sighing a little. Gerard just looked at me like I was wrong.

"There is a girl Gerard! He just wont fucking tell me who she is." I whine to him.

"I wont tell you?" Bob laughs..."That's cause there's nothing to tell Elle!... there's no girl in my life besides you honey, I swear." He says and if I didn't know any better I'd swear he was telling the truth...

"Liar!" I cry out.

"All right Elle, just let it go." Gerard warns me... He doesn't like to meddle...And he likes it even less when I do...

"No, I asked him that day in Pizza hut and he wouldn't tell me, but I know there's definitely somebody..." I say and Gerard kinda shrugs. "I keep asking him and asking him and he wont tell me." I complain to Gerard and Bob kinda rolls his eyes.

"Well then he's gotta have a reason Elle, just leave it the fuck alone." Gerard tells me and I frown.

"Well, I think its cause she's with someone else and that's why he doesn't want to talk about it." I say looking back over at Bob. He looked down at the floor a little guilty like I was right...

"Elle stay out of it." Gerard says firmly and I shrug... I wasn't gonna give up that easily... "Elle, I mean it promise me you're gonna stay out of it." Gerard repeats. "If and when Bob wants to talk to you about it he will." Gerard tells me and I sigh. I look over at Bob. He was just kinda standing there looking down still...

"Fine." I say reluctantly.

"Now apologize." Gerard tells me as Bob looks up.

"For what?" I gasp.

"For fucking sticking your nose in where it don't belong." Gerard tells me and I frown. "For fucking pestering him about it...for fucking-" Gerard starts carrying on.

"I did no such thing." I protest interrupting him.

"I'm serious Elle." Gerard tells me. Fuck he wasn't kidding around... I started to pout and Gerard raised his eyebrow threateningly at me...

"Fine." I sigh. I turn and face Bob hanging my head down a little..."I'm sorry I interfered Bob." I say halfheartedly looking at the floor and Gerard laughs as he leans over into my ear...

"How bout you say it like you mean it?" He tells me slapping me quite hard too, on the ass and I jumped forward a little towards Bob.

"Did you just fucking spank me?" I say smiling a little as I turned back to Gerard and he grinned.

"Uh yeah, I think I did." He says arrogantly cocking his eyebrow a little and I smiled. "And I'm gonna do it again unless you apologize properly." He says folding his arms on his chest. I stepped towards him licking my lips a little.

"Ohh but I kinda liked it..." I tease him reaching up and wrapping my arms around his neck, pressing my body against his roughly...

"Oh yeah." He exhales a little and grabs my waist and starts sliding his hands down onto my ass and grabbing it forcefully. I kinda gasped a little and he smiled... "So tell me...what else do you like?" He says lowering his voice down to a whisper and I smiled as I stretched up to kiss him.

But before my lips could touch his Mikey came barreling out the door onto the deck. "Uh Gee, Jessica wants to talk to you real fast." He tells Gerard and I bite my lip a little... Sure she does... Gerard doesn't move...

"Go see what she wants." I encourage him, although I know what she wants...and she can't fucking have him...

I smiled a little and Gerard smiled back, but not for the same reason... He was glad I was being so understanding...I was smiling thinking about Jessica... And how she's just gonna have to be content snuggling up to her pillow all alone tonight while Gerard's in my arms...

And if Mikey put the mattress in Bobby's old room like I said... then she's sure gonna get an earful tonight I laughed to myself... Bobby's room was right next to mine and the wall is oh so thin...

"I'll be right back out." Gerard says as he kisses my cheek and takes his hands off me.

"No I'll be right in." I tell him. "I'm just gonna-" I nod towards Bob who's now looking back over the railing again and Gerard nods back and then disappears into the kitchen.

"Okay where is he?" Mikey whispers giggling like a little girl.

"Who?" I ask and he shushes me.

"Frankie!" He whispers giddily, obviously very excited about something....

"He's in the tent I guess." I say and Mikey makes a face.

"Yeah but which way Elle." He insists. "Left? Right?" He asks straining to see in the dark.

"I don't know Mikey the tents somewhere over that way." I say waving my hand out towards the back right corner of the very dark yard... Mikey grinned and started down the steps. "Wait, what are you doing?" I call out, he was carrying something but I couldn't see what it was...

"Its called payback Elle." Mikey tells me and I sigh a little.

"Payback for what?" I ask.

"For what?" Mikey gasps..."Didn't Gee tell you what happened with the pickle that day?" Mikey says like he should've...

"You know what I don't want to know." I say shaking my head at him and he shrugged and went down the steps slowly. "Careful its muddy." I call out and he doesn't answer. "Bob can we talk." I say putting my hand on his back and he turns slightly.

"What is it Elle?" He sighs a little.

"I just... "I stammer. "I am sorry for interfering." I tell him and he just looks at me. "Its just I love you Bob, you know that right?" I say and he kinda smiles. "I just want you to be happy with someone like I am with Gerard." I tell him and his smiles grows a little. "You know what I'm saying?" I ask him.

"Yeah honey I get it." He says unenthusiastically.

"So then what's the matter with you lately?" I ask him.

"Nothing." He says plainly and turns his back to me and goes and sits on the top step. I followed him and looked down at the dirty step... "You wanna sit?" He asks me and I shrugged...I mean I did want to sit...I was just debating whether or not to sit there...I mean the step looked dirty, but I wasn't sure if it was wet... and I did have shorts on...ugh... Bob kinda smiled as he watched me assess the whole sitting on the dirty step situation. I reached over to touch it and Bob laughed.

"Come here." He says patting his lap...Fuck. You don't have to ask me twice... I sat down on his knee and he kinda smiled.

"So?" I tell him and he just looked at me.

"So? So what?" He replies.

"So what's going on with you Bobby?" I ask and he kinda shifts a little and I fall back against him. I bet he regrets asking me to sit on him now... He couldn't get away..."I really wish you would just tell me..." I say softly...It was silent for a moment...

"All right so lets say that there is someone that I like." He says lowering his voice down and I silently cheer to myself... I knew it... I fucking knew it...

"Okay." I say trying not to sound too eager.

"And she likes someone else." He says lowering his voice down.

"Uh-huh." I say trying to encourage him to go on... I just had to know who she was...

"But I just cant help myself." He says and I nod. "I just think about her all the time..." He says shifting a little more.

"Well have you told her?" I say and he smiles.

"I never really get the chance." He chuckles a little. "Every time I think I'm gonna say it- something happens." He says and I frown.

"Sounds like karmas against you." I tell him and he smiles.

"I don't believe in that crap." He says and I nudge him. "and neither should you Elle." He says as he pulls me tighter against him.

"Aw now you sound like Gerard." I moan and he loosens up his grip on me slightly. "I'm just saying Bob, if karmas against you..." I start to say and he shakes his head no.

"Mmm karma aside Elle." He says brushing the hair from my face, "What do you think I should do?" He asks me.

"Oh." I say softly...and I think for a moment as he stroked my hair..."Well I think you need to tell her." I say and he drops his hand back down.

"Even if she's happy with this someone else she likes?" He asks and I nod.

"Yeah I think so." I tell him..."I mean how much do you really like this girl." I tell him and he looks up at me.

"A fucking lot Elle." He says and I nod.

"Then you should tell her...fuck the guy she likes." I say and he smiles."I'm just saying, if it was me...." I pause and look at him. He nods for me to go on. "Well like when I was back with Paul I thought I was happy, but now that I'm with Gerard I see what happiness really is." I say and he laughs a little at my corniness I guess.

"Aw Elle." He sighs.

"No seriously Bob. You think she'd be happier with you?" I ask and he shrugs.

"Maybe." He replies.

"Naw thats the wrong answer Bob...of course you could make her happy." I say and he kinda smiles. "She'd be lucky to have you... I know I am." I tell him and he reaches up and strokes the hair away from my cheek again and I smile at him fondly.

"You think?" he says softly.

"Well sure Bob...I think that if you think you can make her happy... happier then she is, or happier then you think she is... then you should definitely go for it." I tell him and he didn't say anything... "I mean life is too short to be playing these fucking games you know." I sigh a little and he nods... Great- now I'm sounding like Gerard...

"Yeah I get what you're saying." He says tensing up a little.

"So?" I ask him.

"So, I'll think about it." He tells me and I nod.

"So you gonna tell me who she is now?" I say and he smiles.

"I'll think about it." He replies plainly.

"Bob!" I gasp and he shakes his head no... He wasn't gonna tell me...

"I'm sorry Elle, I've got to think about this some more." He says and I pout. "Don't start getting all crazy on me again." He says and I laugh.

"Mmm how come you haven't told me any of this before?" I ask and he just looked at me. "I mean seriously Bob." I nudge him a little.

"I've tried to tell you." He says and I make a face. "These last few days I've been trying to tell you." He says his voice sounding stressed suddenly and I thought back a little.

"Is that what you've been trying to say?" I ask a little startled. He kinda shrugged. "Well why did you think we couldn't talk about this?" I ask and he tensed up again.

"Cause when I tell you who it is everything's gonna change." He says lowering his voice down.

"Oh Bob don't be silly." I laugh.

"I'm serious Elle." He tells me. "You might not ever look at me the same again." He tenses up again.

"Come on Bob, you know I love you." I say nudging him. "There's nothing you could say to change that, you're my husband." I tell him and he laughs too..."You're my best friend, you're so much to me." I say and he smiles.

Bob looked like he was considering what I said...

"All right, you may be right." He says swallowing nervously. "I'm gonna do it." He says and I couldn't help but smile... I just wanted Bob to be happy so much...

"Do it?" I say a little confused by his sudden enthusiasm.

"I'm gonna tell her." He says. "I'm gonna do it right now to before I lose my nerve." He says as I stand up.

Bob goes to get up too and I kinda push him back down.

"Whoa there Bobby." I tell him... "It's the fucking middle of the night...I don't think this is something you should be calling and telling her right now, especially not over the phone." I say and he smiles.

"I don't have to call her..." He tells me..."She's already here..."